Can you believe it? I was like jumping around on my bed the whole night, and singing about fanfic. Its mad, yups, my sis said so too. She was like staring at me the whole time and telling me I was crazy. And I just

For the whole night, Raven couldn't sleep. I just… just broke his heart. For Beast Boy. She couldn't imagine herself holding BB's hand, and walking around in a sickening arcade. She sat right up in her bed, her eyes again welling up with tears. Crap, I haven't cried so much in years. Not after the death of Mother. Why did she have to do this? Why did she have to sacrifice such a rare love for an alien? Why? She buried her head in her pale hands, and lifted it again, her chakra glittering in the moonlight streaming in from the windows. This is not me. Raven got up, and walked to the window, where she stared into the silence of the dead night. I used to be so strong. Am I becoming weak? She imagined those sky blue eyes bearing into her face, their magnificence overwhelming her. Why did I give in? Those eyes were meant for her. But she had thrown away the chance in just one sentence to BB. She did this for Starfire. She did it for her friend. "But I let him go," she said aloud, then whispered, "I let Robin go."

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For the next few days, Raven stayed away from her masked leader, who, to her utmost sadness, also begun to ignore her more and more. It seemed to be like any other day, with the titans leading normal lives, Starfire with Robin, Raven lonely once more. It was like nothing ever happened. Raven literally sank into never ending depression, and no matter how many times Raven accompanied BB to the arcade, she still never found any new interest in his favourite video games. She just took a book, the same book she read every day, and slunk into a corner to read it while he jumped wildly at his games. She wasn't even concentrating on the content of the story. She just read the same paragraph again and again.

She cried, sliding down the wall in her pain. There was nothing else in this world that was fit for her. It was like being trapped in a jail of heartbreak, never to be freed. She could not think, could not move, and could not control herself. She just felt pain. Again and again the pain came. It seemed to kill her slowly, torturing her ruthlessly. "Why?" she screamed. "Why must this happen to me? I gave him my life, and I …." There was silence for a while, then she continued. "And I just let him go like that."

Raven went on reading. She cried, sliding down the wall in her pain. There was nothing else in this world that was fit for her. It was like being trapped in a jail of heartbreak, never to be freed. She cried, sliding down the wall in her pain. There was nothing else in this world that was fit for her. It was like being trapped in a jail of heartbreak, never to be freed. She cried, sliding down the wall in her pain. There was nothing else in this world that was fit for her. It was like being trapped in a jail of heartbreak, never to be freed. She cried, sliding down the wall in her pain. There was nothing else in this world that was fit for her. It was like being trapped in a jail of heartbreak, never to be freed.

"Sounds like me," she would mumble, her tears already dried up on her face. She felt so broken. So torn.

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

She loved him. She always did, but she just wasted her chance on him. She would never stop loving him. And whatever happens, she would also be there for him. But she didn't have that chance any longer. Did he have to suffer? Why did he have to suffer for her?

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

She was totally broken. No life, no love. She was affected too much. She could not bear the pain. It would be better to wrench herself apart. She had done this to him. She jolly well deal with that. Deal with the pain. Raven was very good at that.

You've gone away, you don't feel me here, anymore

Did he still acknowledge her existence? After all the shit that she put him into? Did he still love her?

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

Tears dropping on her face. She is leaving her very own life. Dying from too much. She had to let him go; she didn't have a choice. She left him for Starfire's sake. She was supposed to do that.

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

She was just a piece of outer covering without him. She loved him. She always would.

You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore

She loved him.

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Many weeks, months, had passed, and Raven still went out with BB, though they never interacted during those meetings. He would always go and play with his games, and Raven would just sit in a corner and read her book. The same paragraph, more like it. BB had never said anything; he knew Raven's motive very easily. He had been observing her for the past few weeks. Plus Robin. Plus Starfire. He had kind of gotten the idea of what was going on, with Robin's feigned ignorance of Raven's existence and Starfire's goldfish eyes when she looked at the two. It was really obvious. Seriously. And he had been thinking on what to do to bring the original pair together. He wasn't the very smart type, but he could think of many ideas on what to do. He wouldn't confront Raven, judging from her foul temperament every day and her unusually many meditations in a day. But he did know what to do. He just hoped it worked.

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Days came and passed like water rushing down a waterfall. It was just any boring morning, with the titans feeling sluggish and dragging their feet around like they were carrying a ton of metal. Except for Starfire of course, who would just keep on yapping to Robin like she could never stop, though there were occasional glances at Raven. BB walked over to Raven slouching on the couch, then cleared his throat. She jumped, and glowered at him. He put on his most retarded smile and looked at her. "What?" she snapped.

"I was just thinking…uh…"

"Hurry up. I don't have time."

"Would you go out with me? Tonight?"

Raven stiffened. She stood up and said coldly, "If that's what you are thinking then I'm sorry. I won't go…"

BB grabbed her hand. "That's not what I mean. Believe me. I just want to… to discuss some stuff. And we need to discuss it in private."

Raven pulled her hand away, saying coldly, "I said no and that is that."

Before she could continue, BB dragged her into the corridor, hissing, "Dude, just let me say something! I know what are those snoopy things that's going on with you, Robin and Star, so just listen okay?"

Raven looked at him for while like a cornered wolf, then asked tentatively, "What?"

BB smiled. "I won't tell anyone as long as you follow me for dinner. Get a dress. It's gonna be formal. Meet me at 7. Outside the tower." He left Raven standing there, gaping at him. Raven looked as his shadow disappeared into his room, then turned around to her own room. She had no idea what BB was up to, but she knew that it was getting suspicious. Very suspicious.

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Robin walked into his room, massaging his temples after all that crazy hugging from Starfire. He still could not forget about Raven, no matter how hard he tried to ignore her, and his heart still seemed to split open every time he saw her with BB. This is shouldn't have ended up like this. He saw a note on the ground, right in front of the door, like someone had slipped something under. He recognized the handwriting; it was from BB.

Dude, this has to be fast. I can't give you this openly. So read it, then just throw it away, burn it, stuff it into your mouth, anything. Just make sure you get rid of it after you read it. Go to the Mezza9 ((ooc: just a made-up name for a restaurant)), 7pm sharp tonight. I'll be there with Raven. I know about your stuff, so this is your last chance to get back with her. I'm not joking, serious. I don't know how you go about going there, but you have to.

NB: you don't know do you? Raven cries over you literally every day at the arcade. It's so depressing.

Robin gaped at the letter, letting it fall from his hands to the ground. So, Raven still cared for him. When he thought she didn't. and BB was helping. Robin couldn't believe it. Putting it in his pocket, he pushed open his cupboard doors, and grabbed the tux he had worn with that sickening Kitten. It won't hurt to wear it again, for the right girl.

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Yup that's the chapter. Story's not over yet, obviously. I got the song from Seether, 'Broken'. To be honest I don't know the song myself, just found it on the Net. Kind of fit Raven's feelings. So reviews please! D