ALEX DREAM – MOTHER'S DAY 2019
Alex's POV (Part 1):
As I lay down in the bed of me and Jay's home here in Honolulu, I smiled as I found myself holding my beautiful two-week-old baby girl, Caitlyn Patricia Casey. (She was born on April 29th, 2019 via surrogate as, as you know, I am transgender and can't have children on my own). But regardless, she is so precious, and the light of me and Jay's world. She is so precious, and I am so happy to be a mom. This is all I have ever wanted in life. And even better, me and Jay are her parents. Well, I am hers legally. Jay is her biological father, but blood doesn't matter to me. All that matters at the end of the day is that I get to be the woman whom she will be calling 'mommy' until she day I die. It is so beautiful, and I am just so happy right now. God, the way her little hand curls around my pinky is just perfect. It is so adorable.
My lil' Caity. I just wish that the other Caity that was in my life until October 2017 was in my life. But what exactly am I talking about? Well, I had a friend in Las Vegas. Her name was Caitlyn Patricks (that's where we got our lil' girls' name) and she died in the October 2017 Route 91 Harvest Music Festival Shooting. Me and Jay went to the funeral on October 5th, and it was such a beautiful ceremony. And it was from that day forward that I told Jay; I want a baby, and I want to name him or her after my (late) best friend. And now, that is the case. I finally have that dream come true. I have my little Caitlyn Patricia Casey all curled up into my arms. And she has such a hold on me and Jay. She already has her daddy wrapped around her finger. Just the way he looks at her whenever he is holding her in his arms.
This truly is the life. It's exactly what I want in life, and I am just so glad that I am holding this lil' girl in my arms. God, there truly is nothing like the feeling of my beautiful baby girl in my arms. Well, maybe other than the sight of my hunk of a husband walking out of the bathroom wearing nothing but a towel around his waist. God, he is such a hunk and I feel so happy that he is the father of our baby girl. The biological father of our daughter. And this is my dream. I have my dream child in my arms, and I have my dream man in my sights. And to say that he is a huge turn on is an understatement, he is just so damn sexy, and I am so glad that I am currently watching him come out of the washroom in his towel. Walking over to his dresser, Jay opened the top drawer and then smiled as he opened it this morning.
"Concentrate on feeding our daughter dear. Last time I checked, our daughter is a bit more important right now than staring at me." I laughed when Jay told me that, smiling as I turned my head to look at our lil' Jamie. "Oh, I am concentrating on our baby girl, don't worry. But a woman can concentrate on two people at once. I can concentrate on both my sexy husband and our daughter." Jay turned his head when I said that, smiling at me. "God, I love the sound of you calling me sexy." I agreed with Jay when he told me that, smiling at the man I love. "That's because you are sexy Jay, very sexy. I love you and I am just so glad that we are finally parents. This has been a dream come true. And you truly are the best dad in the entire world to our lil' girl." Jay agreed with me when I said that, smiling as he put his boxers on.
He then went ahead and proceeded to take off his towel before walking over to our bed, hanging it up on the hook that he has on his side of the bed. After doing that, he smiled as he decided to walk over to my side of the bed so that he can sit down next to me and Caitlyn. God, Jay has just always wanted to hold our baby girl whenever he gets a chance, and it is the most adorable thing in the whole world. Just the sight of our daughter on his chest is incredible. She loves her daddy, and I am so glad that today…we are just taking the day together. We are going to rest in bed and just have fun together. But first, Jay is going to walk up to me so that he can sit down with me. Sitting down on the edge of the bed, Jay smiled as he got close to both me and Caitlyn. God, I love him so much and he is so damn sexy. So hunky.
"How long have you been feeding her?" Turning my head, I smiled at Caitlyn. "I should be done by the time you are done making me breakfast." Jay snickered a bit when I said that. "Good one, me making you breakfast." I just looked at my husband when he said that. "May I remind you that I am the one waking up to feed our daughter in the middle of the night so that you can get sleep?" Jay looked at me when I said that, realizing that was the case. "So yes Mr. Casey, you are going to make me breakfast. I want MY HUSBAND to make us breakfast instead of our chefs. If I even think that our chefs made breakfast, then I am going to send it back, and you are going to make breakfast. Got it Jay?" Jay agreed with me when I said that. He then got up and smiled as he leaned over me this morning. God, so hunky.
Jay then got up and smirked as he proceeded to go walk away (in his boxers) to get us breakfast.
An hour later (Post-Breakfast) – Alex's POV (Part 2):
Shortly after having breakfast as a family this morning, I smiled as me and Jay were now holding each other close with Caitlyn fast asleep in the cot that we have on our bed. I am just so damn happy that this is our life now. Never in a million years did I ever imagine that I would be a mother, nor did I imagine that I would have a child with the love of my life. Yes, I feel like it is now safe to say that Jay is the love of my life. Both he and his family love me. And they all know that I'm transgender. And just then accepting me makes me feel really good. I was always worried about that. Them not accepting me was going to be a deal breaker for me. If Jay's family didn't accept that I was transgender, then I am not sure if we would be here. Thank god they found out before we told them that we were going to have a baby.
If not, that would've created a bunch of new questions, especially with our little nieces. (Matt and Gabby had twin girls named Sofia Grace and Emily Marie in December 2017; they were born 3 days before Christmas). And while the original plan was for us to spend Christmas together at Matt's place here in Honolulu, that went down the drain when Gabby went into labor with their twins. And that was scary. They weren't going to be giving birth to the girls until January 2nd, 2018. (This was due to the fact that they didn't want their kids to be born in the same year). But, when God wants you to give birth, then it's crazy. Thank god they are both safe, and healthy. Their prayers were answered, and they are now a happy family of 5. They even told us that they were done. Well, at least with their kids.
Gabby actually told me that she would be our surrogate if we ever wanted to have a baby. But to say that her husband was not okay with that is an understatement. Originally, Gabby got mad at him for him stopping her from being our surrogate. But he literally said," If you want to have another baby, then let's have another baby. But I refuse to have my brother's sperm inside of you, even if it's not your egg.". And that basically ended the entire conversation of her being our surrogate. So, we ended up finding a surrogate that we found through a consultant. And she was the best. Now, we have our baby girl. She is just the best baby girl in the entire world, and I don't think I could ever change how we did things. This is a dream come true, and I am so glad that this is how things ended up. "We got lucky, didn't we Alex?"
I agreed with Jay when he asked me if we got lucky, turning my head to kiss his chest softly. "Yeah, we did. I was just thinking about how we had the best surrogate. And I mean it." Jay laughed when I said that, turning his head to kiss my forehead softly. "You were also thinking about Gabby's offer to be our surrogate, weren't you?" I blushed when Jay asked me that, trying to deny it by shaking my head. But I couldn't hide the fact that I was thinking about it. Jay just knows me too well. "Oh, I know that look. You were totally thinking about it." I agreed with Jay when he asked me that, nodding. "Yeah, I was thinking about it." I then just cuddled up to my amazing husband. "But I don't blame Matt for feeling that way." Jay agreed with me when I said that, turning his head to kiss my forehead softly. He then grabbed my hand. Stroking my hand with his thumb, he just smiled as we are both really happy. God, this is the life.
"I mean, I am his brother. Even though it was a donor egg, it'd be creepy. I mean, my child growing instead of his wife. Just saying that out loud makes me cringe. It sounds wrong beyond belief. If you were able to have kids, then I would feel the same way. Us even bringing it up was so wrong." I agreed with Jay when he told me that, glad that I was just holding him close to me. "At least we both know who NOT to ask when we want to go for baby #2." Jay was shocked when I said that, pressing his lips to my forehead. "Baby #2?" I agreed with him. "We have our daughter, I want a son. Jayson Gregory Casey." That was the name we chose for our son. Jayson (or Jay's son), Gregory (Jay's biological father) Casey. And I really liked that name. Heck, I still want to do that name in the future. I want a boy.
"Next time." Jay agreed with me, going to grab my hand before intertwining our fingers. "I like the sound of that, next time." I smiled and agreed with Jay when he told me that, laying my head down on his chest once again. Jay then put his hand on my back and smiled as he stroked my back. God, now this is the life and I am so glad that this is what we are doing right now. Nothing like us holding each other close as we both relax in bed with each other on this, my first mother's day with my lil' Caitlyn.