Against the wall of her apartment building, Lucy bathed in starlight. Her cheeks were soft against Cana's palms; her lipstick was coated in a faintly flavored lip gloss. Cana didn't want to think about someone else tasting Lucy's lip gloss off and that wasn't hard once Lucy grabbed Cana's bare waist, the light pleasant scratch of Lucy's nails there. She didn't know how long they kissed, just that eventually her hand tangled through blond strands and the other pressed against the rough wall, just how Lucy's back pressed against that wall and how their hips pressed against each other.
Lucy moaned and Cana smiled against her lips at the sound. When she pulled away, red flushed over Lucy's cheeks.
"Don't look at me like that!"
Cana just laughed. "Do you want to go upstairs?"
Lucy's pupils were blown wide, capturing the nightlights, the moon behind them, captivating. Cana almost missed that nod.
It's a blur to Cana: the walk upstairs, the keys clicking, Lucy's hand around her wrist pulling them against each other once more and them falling into Lucy's bed. Her tongue tasting the fruity cocktail Lucy had drank, her hand over the planes of Lucy's soft stomach and then her fingers brushing the undercurve of the blonde's breast.
"Is this okay?" she murmured and Lucy's "yes" exhaled from her mouth like a hymn.
Tight tube-top cloth pulled down and softness underneath her palm and Cana swallowed Lucy's gasp. Cana's knees on either side of the mini-skirted hips beneath her own felt the shift of Lucy's thighs rubbing against each other.
Cana pulled back to flushed cheeks and pink lips. Satisfaction and arousal stirred inside her stomach and she rolled her hips over Lucy's, who then grabbed Cana, her thumb tight over where Cana's thigh met her inner groin. Cana rolled her hips again and Lucy's thumbs tightened in response. A strand of Cana's hair caressed Lucy's newly bitten bottom lip, before Cana scooted down, down over Lucy's thighs and then slid her knee up between them. She rested her own hips over Lucy's angled thigh and their hips made a harmony out of that slow strumming over each other and Lucy's eyes rolled back in satisfaction and Cana dipped down and tasted Lucy's sweat-mixed-perfume and Lucy's thumb stroke over the line of her bikini top, then under, and it was so much.
For Cana, physicality and intimacy and this was always so much. Everything was good and she was desperate to please. Lucy's thumb drew circles over her chest. Lucy's other hand stroked down her back. Cana's left hand held smooth straight strands and her right hand was at the waistband of Lucy's skirt. Her fingers slipped under and hooked a lace waistband and –
"Wait!" Lucy gasped.
Cana froze. Her hands let go to clutch the comforter below her.
"Are you alright?" she asked, terrified.
Lucy nodded, then winced, then shook her head. "I don't know if I'm ready for that."
The happy blur in Cana's head vanished. She crawled off of Lucy. "Yes, of course. No need to continue, princess."
"I promise it's not you."
"Knowing what you want is important. Water?"
"Cana…" She entered the kitchen, grabbing two glasses from Lucy's cupboard. She turned the sink on to ignore Lucy's gaze.
"It's okay."
"May you at least stay the night? Just to sleep?"
What a bad idea to entertain. Yet, it was late and Cana had two glasses of water for the two of them and Lucy's bed was soft and warm.
"Sure."
She turned to see Lucy's sheepish smile. Lucy pulled her tube top up and stood, taking the glass of water. "Feel free to just go to bed. You know where my pajamas are. I'm gonna wash my makeup off."
Cana watched Lucy go into the bathroom, then pulled out a baggy nightshirt from Lucy's dresser. She chucked her pants and bikini top off and crawled into bed. Even with her nerves and sadness and envy, she drifted towards sleep. But even in that, she felt the bed sink as Lucy crawled under the covers. She felt Lucy's warmth and the weight of her arm around her waist.
Cana always made the same mistakes.
note: when an experienced vs inexperienced person meet SIGH... it is always a fun balance of desire and holding back, not wanting to go too fast but wanting so so much all the same. lmk your thoughts! please favorite, follow, and/or leave a comment if you enjoyed!