Torn but repairable 5 –
I looked away from the mirror the tears falling onto the floor as I ran into my closet grabbing a handful of random clothing as I stormed out chucking them in my open suitcase. I heard a loud crack as I walked into my closet grabbing some shoes and coming out placing them in my suitcase as I sobbed, clicking my fingers as everything else I needed fell in and it snapped shut.
"Kimmy," Draco said walking up to me, he made to hug me but I stepped back.
"Please…don't touch me," I whispered as he looked down angrily.
"I am going to kill Potter," He muttered making for the door, before I grabbed his hand.
"He's not worth it Draco, he's just not worth it," I said as more tears fell from my eyes as Draco wiped them away. I felt my heart heave as Draco pulled me into his arms, as I sobbed into his shoulder. I heard another crack and looked up, I turned away walking out of Draco's arms as I walked over to Alex picking him up.
"Kimmy-" He began, his fist clenched as I walked over to my suitcase.
"-Don't Harry, just…don't," I whispered as I grabbed the handle of my suitcase.
"Kimmy, it wasn't suppose to be like this, it was-" He began making his way to me before Draco stepped in.
"Potter just leave," He stated as I felt more tears fall form my eyes as Alex placed a hand on my cheek wiping away some tears, I smiled weakly down on him. I looked up at Draco.
"I'll call you when I get back Draco, goodbye Harry," I said before clutching onto Alex and my suitcase and apparating away.
I landed on the familiar beach veranda, taking a deep breath I walked up to the front door and before I said anything, the door opened and the familiar blue eyed, blonde haired man stood in front of me, I smiled weakly as a tear slipped from my eye, he grabbed my suitcase and helped me inside.
"I thought this would happen, I'm sorry," Tai said as I sobbed weakly as he sat me down on his couch. He took Alex from me placing in him in the familiar playpen.
"Come on, let it out sweetie," He said as I cried into his shoulder, Alex watching from his playpen sadly.
"Mama?" Alex called sadly; I looked up wiping my eyes as he held his arms out for me. I stood up and picked him up as he hugged me tightly.
"You always know how to make me feel better," I chuckled as Alex smiled up at me. I walked over to Tai as he smiled patting the seat next to him.
"So how have you been?" he asked, as Alex crawled into his lap playing with the necklace I gave him.
"It was all going great, until Harry turned up on my doorstep," I said as Tai frowned, placing a hand on my shoulder.
"Sweetie, I thought you knew," He said, as I looked up confused. He pulled out an aged looking daily prophet as a smiling Harry and Charlotte raided the front cover. I looked down as the two shared a sweet kiss, smiling at each other. I felt more tears well in my eyes.
"I should've just married you Taichikawa," I said as he cocked an eyebrow, before shaking his head.
"Don't say things you don't mean, Kimmy, come on, let's get you ready for nice hot relaxing bath," He said picking up Alex as we walked down the hallway and he turned on the bath adding some bubble bath and lighting some aromatherapy candles. I kissed him on the cheek.
"Thanks Tai, I really appreciate it," I said as he smiled giving me a one armed hug before walking out with Alex on his hip, closing the door behind him. I slowly peeled off my clothes as the scent took over my body. I looked in the mirror seeing my puffy red eyes and my blotchy face. I looked away before walking over to the bath. I slowly stepped in and lay in the bath, the only noise being of the occasional laughter of Alex down the hall or the splashes of the water when I moved. I closed my eyes clicking my fingers as a stereo popped onto the counter my favourite CD playing.
I let the words sink in as I grabbed the sponge and lathered it up sponging my arms and body as the scent lingered in my thoughts.
"I don't know what he's after, but he's a beautiful, such a beautiful disaster, and if I could hold on through the tears and the laughter, lord would it be beautiful? Or just a beautiful disaster?" The stereo sang as I looked fixedly at the water, memories flashing through my mind of him and me. I blinked my eyes the words affecting me more than it should.
"He's magic and myth, as strong as what I believe, a tragedy with more damage than a soul should see, but do I try to change him, so hard not to blame him, hold me tight, baby hold me tight," It blared as I felt a tear slip from my eye dropping into the bath. I looked up sadly, and cupped some water in my hands looking at my reflection.
"But what I don't know, I don't know what he's after, but he's so beautiful, he's such a beautiful disaster, and I f I could hold on, through the tears and the laughter, would it be beautiful or just a beautiful disaster," My mouth singing along to the words as I wiped away my tears angrily.
"I'm longing for love and a logical, but he's only happy hysterical, I'm waiting for some kind of miracle, waiting so long…I've waited so long," I sang as I listened the finishing chords. I smiled weakly to myself knowing that I had to let go. I grabbed some shampoo and washed my hair and than conditioned my hair. I rinsed it out and rinsed off before draining the tub and blowing out the candles. I pulled on Tai's bathrobe that I bought him and walked out of the bathroom. I glanced down the corridor before hearing Tai's voice drift through my ears. I stepped out into the living room seeing Tai outside on the beach Alex, lying in his arms drinking some milk as his eyed dropped closed.
"Little one dances, little one sings, for this little one thinks she knows everything, little one jump, jump higher than before, little one falls, falls hard to the floor, cry little one, just cry your poor eyes, tomorrow I promise you a blue, blue sky, the sun will shine, and the clouds will wander, little one, angel one, everyday I grow fonder," I smiled at the memory of the sonnet before stepping out and hugging Tai as Alex slept in his arms. I looked up and saw the orange tinted sky, as the sun kissed the ocean.
"I can't believe you remembered it, Tai, it's so cute," I said as he smiled wrapping an arm around my shoulder as I curled up into him.
"I missed this, just hanging out…you looking after me," I said as Tai chuckled, the wind blowing through his unkempt hair.
"Yeah, it has been kind of lonely…but that's all right, you finally came to visit me, ask me back, marry me. I'm happy," Tai said as I punched him playfully in the chest as he playfully glared at me, before I leaned my head on his shoulder, brushing some hair out of Alex's face.
"He looks so much like his father," I whispered as Tai pulled me to him.
"I suppose that's a bad thing?" Tai said as I smiled, leaning down and kissing Alex on the forehead.
"It just means that Harry has to be in my life, he's the father, not much I can say to keep him away and I don't want a custody battle," I said as Alex sipped his bottle, his eyes closed.
"I suppose your right, bloody idiot if I must say, he made the same mistake twice!" Tai said indignantly as I cocked an eyebrow at him, he blushed before I leaned my head on his shoulder.
"Well, I meant the lying thing, first he lies about his school stuff and now he lies to you about a fiancé, I mean that's no little lie, that's like basically married," He said as I smiled as he fumbled over his words. I wrapped my arm around his waist as we watched the first stars appear in the sky.
"Thanks Tai, for everything," I said as he pulled me tight to him the sky slowly going black, as a few stars twinkled above us.
"I guess you'll be staying, how long this time?" He asked, as I giggled at him.
"I'm taking off two weeks," I said as he nodded his head.
"I'll hire a babysitter and we can go have some fun, just like old times," He said excitedly as I smiled nodding my head.
"Yeah, that'll be great, Tai, maybe catch up with old friends too," I whispered, I felt my stomach grumble as Tai chuckled.
"I've got some BBQ steak in the oven," He said as I smiled kissing him on the cheek as I went into the kitchen grabbing the plate and a knife and fork. I glanced at the kitchen table and saw a picture of me, teaching Alex to walk, I looked up at the camera smiling as Alex giggled landing in my lap as I began to tickle him the photo playing over again. I smiled to myself before going out onto the veranda and sitting down at the table eating happily. I closed my eyes letting his cooking melt my taste buds. I moaned in ecstasy, before taking another bite as Tai came over Alex in his arms cocking an eyebrow at me.
"Your cooking get's better every time," I said pulling a thumbs up at him as he took Alex inside into his room. He came back out flicking on the intercom as I smiled at him finishing off the food and conjuring up a glass of water drinking it. I clicked my fingers again as the plate and cup vanished, and the veranda fires lit up.
"I almost forgot what heaven was like," I said as Tai sat down next to me, holding my hand. I closed my eyes at the memory of Harry doing the same before taking a deep breath and looking up into Tai's bright blue eyes, he smiled cradling my face.
"I always wished you'd come back," He whispered cradling my cheek as I turned away from him.
"Tai, it's not like that…I'm not ready," I said as he looked away sadly.
"I wish you'd just love me," He whispered, taking his hand away, I glanced at him sadly brushing my hand along his cheek.
"Tai, I wasn't ready than…I was only just 18, I'm only 20 now, your only 22, we've got lots of time ahead of us," I said as he smiled nuzzling my hand, kissing the pad of my thumb.
"I'll wait forever, or until I meet someone better," He said as I slapped him over the head rolling eyes.
"Way to kill a mood Einstein," I said as he chuckled rubbing his head.
"-Anyway, I got Francine to come in and look after Alex for the next few weeks, so both of us can go around and have the fun we muchly deserve," He said before I squealed wrapping him in a tight hug.
"I love you Tai! You're the greatest!" I squealed as he chuckled fanning himself.
"Yeah, I know," He said as I rolled my eyes before walking inside as the veranda lights went out and Tai came back in, I plopped myself down on the couch as Tai wrapped an arm around my shoulder.
"Movie marathon?" He asked, as I nodded my head smiling as he pointed his wand at the VCR and a soft voice filled my ears as Tai groaned.
"You changed it!" He said as I held my hand over his mouth clicking my fingers as a bowl of popcorn and soda landed on the table.
"My vacation, my movie picks," I said as he rolled his eyes, picking up the soda as I leaned my head in his lap, the bowl of popcorn on my stomach as I popped some popcorn in my mouth as the movie began, the night dragging me into fits of laughter and tears before I finally fell asleep.
"KIMMY! Oh MYGOODNESS MY BABY!" my hands snapped to my ears as I squinted my eyes open before seeing the elderly woman pull me into a tight hug, as I hugged back confusedly.
"Hi Fran?" I said as she leaned back wiping her eyes on a handkerchief.
"Where is the angel?" She asked, as I wiped my eyes glancing at Tai who came out of the kitchen handing me a coffee just the way I like it.
"He's in my room, probably causing havoc as we speak," Tai said as Fran nodded at him and skipped happily over to his room. I sipped the coffee glaring at Tai as he shrugged his shoulders.
"Come on, we got a big day ahead of us," He said sitting down next to me as i sipped my coffee.
"I will get ready when I feel like it," I snapped as he ruffled my hair.
"You'll miss out on your surprise if you don't hurry up," He said as I looked up smiling.
"A surprise?" I asked as he nodded, I stood up quickly guzzling my coffee as I made my way over to the kitchen.
"There is a catch though," He said, as I slowly stood up after putting the cup in the washing machine.
"What kind of catch?" I asked peeping around the door at him.
"You'll be leaving Alex with Fran for 7 days," He said as I looked at him sceptically.
"As long as Fran has all my contacts and I can eat as much cookie dough and ice cream as I want," I asked walking over to him and holding my hand out, he smiled me shaking my hand as I squealed.
"What should I wear?" I asked turning to look at him.
"Just bring some nice vacation clothes," He said, I clicked my fingers as I twirled around wearing a white bikini and red sarong. He looked at me smiling as Fran came out with Alex rubbing his eyes.
"Hey honey, how are you?" I asked as Alex held his arms out to me as Francine placed him in my arms.
"Moo moo," Alex said as I clicked my fingers handing him the bottle as he drank it happily.
"Honey, mommy is going to be going on holiday and won't see you for a week, will you be a good big boy for Franny?" I asked as Alex nodded his head pulling a thumbs up at me.
"When are we leaving?" I asked as Tai came up to me, he pinched Alex's nose, Alex swatting at his hand.
"Now actually, the jet awaits you," He said as I smiled gleefully, jumping up and down.
"You got me a jet!" I asked excitedly as he nodded. I pulled him into a hug Alex laughing happily between us.
"Mommy's is gonna go now okay honey," I said looking at Alex as he nodded huffing out his chest as I handed him to Francine, I ruffled his hair before grabbing Tai's hand as he picked up his wallet and pulled him out the door apparating to the airport.
"Miss Chang! Such a pleasure to see you again," The elderly man said kissing my hand. I smiled at him as he ushered me out towards the jet.
"It's fine, Jonathan just land us safely at our destination, and I'll be happy," I said as he chuckled leading us onto the jet. I buckled my seat as I sat down excitedly, Tai chuckling at me as he sat down next to me handing me his jacket as I wrapped it around my shoulders quickly.
"Jeez your like on speed, maybe I shouldn't of added the sugar to that coffee," He said as I glared, before we both burst out into laughter.
"Good Morning passengers, I will be your attendant today, please buckle your safety belts and hold on tight, your holiday awaits you," I looked with wide eyes as I saw The Weird Sisters appear in front of me holding up a tray of champagne. I squealed with glee as they handed me a glass and sat down, the lead singer buckling up her seat belt as she held up the acoustic and began singing some of their songs.
About 2 hours into the flight, I felt a tap on my shoulder and glanced at Tai.
"Something up?" I asked as he smiled holding up a blindfold. I smiled as I turned around so he could tie it around my eyes.
"This is so exciting," I said as he laughed at me.
"It's all so very romantic!" Kelly said as I smiled, Tai's hand holding mine.
"I don't know a single guy who would do something like that for me," Jennifer said as I felt myself blush.
"You've got yourself a keeper, Kimmy," Gwen said as I smiled nodding.
"Feel free to have your way with him now, I can't see it so I can't prove it," I said as everyone shared a laugh, as I felt a light bump as we landed.
"Swoosh, let's go!" I said unbuckling my seat belt standing up only to hit my head on the roof and fall back onto my seat, which was wriggling underneath me.
"Why didn't you warn me, my head hurts!" I said rubbing my head as everyone chuckled.
"How was I to know you were going to spring out of your seat like that?" Tai said as I huffed as he slowly stood me up off his lap
"You may now evacuate the plane ladies and gent," Jonathan said over the intercom as I smiled standing up slowly. I held a hand out in front of me blindly.
"Thanks for playing for me today, it really made my day," I said as the three girls' shook my hand.
"It was our pleasure, your make up tips do wonders," She said as I giggled before feeling myself being led off the plane.
"Does she know where she is?" A girl whispered beside me somewhere her voice familiar.
"I bet she doesn't, hell I bet she wasn't even pregnant," A more mature female said as I looked around confusedly as Tai's put an arm around my waist as he guided me towards where ever we were going.
"Tai! Where are going? And who are these people? They sound familiar! Oooh! When I get this off," I said as Tai chuckled.
"Come on relax it's a vacation, and we're almost there, we're going to stop by the best shopping place in the world," He said as my smirk grew wider.
"Oh my god! Really?" I asked excitedly as he nodded helping me into a cab a big smirk on my face.
"We're here," The taxi driver said as I heard money being exchanged as I fumbled myself out of the cab.
"Okay, are you ready?" Tai asked as I nodded. He slowly took off the blindfold, as I blinked my eyes adjusting them to the light before screaming excitedly causing people to look at me as they rushed by.
"And she didn't even notice us," I looked to my left and squealed again jumping on him as he crumpled onto the ground from my weight as I hugged him tightly before seeing everyone else and hugging everyone and kissing people's cheeks.
"Honey you are so lying about being pregnant, look at those thighs," Samantha said as I rolled my eyes, before feeling someone pinch my butt.
"Are you kidding look at that caboose, it's well rounded, and don't even get me started on her face? Her skin is practically glowing!" Ferion said as I smirked slapping his hand away as Sarah giggled at me.
"That's right don't help me up," I glanced at Adrian smiling sorrily.
"I'm sorry Adrian, it's like-wow! The whole team! I think I'm going to cry," I said as he stood up and pulled me into a hug.
"We heard about Harry," Catalina said as she frowned as I looked up with hurt eyes.
"That is why on a lighter note, we are going to take you to a spa, have girly chat and also- that's right-" Samantha began as my lips slowly curved into a big smile.
"GO SHOPPING!" I squealed grabbing Tai's hand and Sarah's rushing into the closet shoe store.
(Harry's point of view) 5 days since Kimmy left.
I glanced down at the front page of the Daily Prophet seeing Kimmy's smiling face as she held onto some guys' hand. I looked up as Mad Eye placed a stack of forms in front of me. I held my face in my hands looking through my fingers at Kimmy as she looked at the guy lovingly. My eyes skimming the headline: A Long Lost Love?
"Potter?" I looked up seeing Mad Eye staring intently at me, his glass eye flickering in its socket landing on me.
"Yes Mad Eye?" I asked as he smirked as creepy smile.
"Lighten up kiddo, there's more fish in the sea," He said clapping a hand on my shoulder, I smiled weakly up at him.
"That is probably the most lamest Cliché, I have heard so far," I said as he smirked and sat on my desk.
"Go home Potter, you've been working for days on end, don't you sleep?" I opened my mouth to say something before he shook his head.
"No excuses, take some leave, go sort your head out, I hear your missus is a pretty fine keep, spend some time with her," He muttered as I nodded my head as he left.
"How could I let you go Kimmy? Once was painful enough, but twice?" I said picking up the paper as her photo smiled at the camera waving. I sighed picking up my things and walking over to the elevator, my paper work in my hands. I clicked the down button as a few people came in and out, saying 'hi'. I strode out of the elevator and signed off at the receptionist as she battered her eyelashes at me, I smiled weakly back as I put the quill down.
"Hey Harry!" I turned around smiling as Ron jogged up to me.
"Early leave huh?" He asked as I nodded juggling the huge amounts of paper work in my hands.
"Mad Eye gave me the night off to clear my head, mind if I head over to your place, Charlotte won't give me any peace," I said as he smiled sadly at me, clapping a hand on my shoulder.
"You've got to let her go Harry, you can't keep dragging her on like this, the sooner the better," He said as I cocked an eyebrow at him.
"Hermione has rubbed off on you," I said as his ears turned magenta, as he nodded.
"Go on than, but I'm only letting you stay because you're my best friend and your rich," He said as I glared and hit him over the head apparating to his apartment.
Hermione looked up and shook her head "Harry, shouldn't you be at home with Charlotte?" She asked as I rolled my eyes.
"That woman won't give me a break, she keeps ragging on abut Kimmy and Alex, I can't handle it anymore," I said as down at the table, Hermione coming over and placing a hand on my shoulder.
"Than let her go Harry, she's a more than capable woman, I'm sure she'll find someone else, someone more committed," Hermione said placing a hand on my shoulder as I looked down at the papers in my hands.
"Hermione, I don't want to hurt her feelings, you know how I get with emotions, and you remember when Kimmy left right?" I said as she looked at me sadly.
'The bed feels kind of cold' I rolled overlaying my arm over Kimmy. I nuzzled my head only to notice she wasn't moving…and was kind of squishy too. I peeped open and eye and looked at the pillow before glaring as I chucked it at the wall.
"Kimmy! That was cruel! Why didn't you just leave me to sleep?" I called as I sat up rubbing my eyes as I stood up. I looked around and noticed her slippers where missing along with her robes. I slipped on my slippers and trudged out of the room. I knocked on the bathroom door. No answer, I pushed it open and saw the room void of everything Kimmy. I felt a sudden rush of panic and sprinted back into Kimmy's room, retching open the closet. It was empty. I glanced at the end of the bed and saw the trunk was missing. I ran over to the phone picking it up and dialling in Hermione's cellphone number before slamming it down as I remembered that phones don't work in Hogwarts. I dialled in Kimmy's dad's number.
"Hey, do you know where Kimmy went she's not home?" I asked as I heard something smash in the background.
"Kimmy's didn't say she was going anywhere…unless…I'll be there in a second," He said hanging up as I put he phone down sitting on the end of Kimmy's bed holding my head in my hands.
'What if she…ran away? What if she found out about me quitting school? Kimmy…' I thought before hearing a crack and looking up. I glanced over at the table seeing a pink envelope floating in mid air with pink sparkles. I glanced at the cursive writing before picking it up and retching it open.
"She's gone, everything, her clothes, shoes, all the baby stuff…she's gone," Kimmy's dad said as I read the letter before running a hand through my hair before falling to my knees letting every emotion fall from my eyes as the note drifted onto the floor. Kimmy's dad placed a hand on my back as he picked up the letter before sighing.
"We have to find her Harry, I don't care, she's my baby girl, we have to find her," He said standing up as I looked up with teary eyes before shaking my head.
"I can't. I have to go back to school; she sent a letter to Dumbledore to pick me up later today, and-" I looked at my hands clenching them before looking up again.
"As soon as I finish I can become an auror, that way I have better access to finding her," I said as he looked at me sadly before nodding, I heard a crack and looked up seeing a sombre looking Dumbledore. I bowed my head low as I clutched at my head 'Why didn't I just tell her?'
"You didn't know Harry, everyone has to make choices and you wanted to be with her," Hermione said as I took off the first file of paper work.
"Hermione, I just…wish I'd told her, when she came back I just…I couldn't tell her," I said as Hermione looked at me sadly.
"You think she'll forgive me?" I asked as Hermione looked away, before looking at me sadly.
"I didn't think so," I muttered, picking up my quill and opening the inkbottle as I pushed my glasses up on my nose and began reading.
(Kimmy's point of view) She just got back from her vacation.
"Alex!" I squealed as he ran up to me as I scooped him up into the air as he giggled excitedly before I held him to me as he hugged me, my friends 'aw'ing at me.
"Samantha, Catalina, Ferion, Adrian this is my baby Alex, say hi honey," I said as he waved shyly at them as they aw'ed at him. He hid his face in my chest as they chuckled.
"Don't be a stranger honey, call me, or better yet, come Model for me next week, I really need some exotic in my design," Catalina said as I rolled my eyes. I reached into my pocket finding it. I pulled out a dried out pink flower and handed it to her.
"It'll project my details with a cute scent," I said pulling one of the petals off as a soft plume came out and my details scribbled in cursive pink writing across mid air as they Ooh'ed me.
"Well, tell Draco he hasn't called me lately, and come back soon," Samantha said kissing me on the cheek as Ferion and Adrian done the same.
"Thanks for everything guys', I'll call when I get the chance," I said as they began to walk away blowing kisses before apparating away. I glanced at Tai before smiling at him widely.
"You really are my angel," I said as he rolled his eyes helping me inside.
The next week passed quickly and before I knew it, it was time to say goodbye. I looked at Tai sadly as he pulled Alex and me into a tight hug.
"Come visit anytime, or maybe I-you?" He asked, a small smile on his lips as I nodded.
"Sweetie you come book me for a day and we'll spend it to your hearts content," I said as he smirked pulling me into a tighter hug.
"Tai…TAI! I got to go," I said as he let go of me as I gasped for air. He smiled sheepishly before he handed me the handle of my suitcase as Alex and I waved at him. I turned my back sadly before apparating back to my apartment only to come face full of roses, balloons and get well and miss you banners. I placed Alex on the couch as he grabbed a balloon giggling as I picked up the nearest card. I saw the familiar ring next to it and glared picking it up as I tore open the envelope reading the card 'A million 'sorry's aren't enough, I love you – Harry,' I looked at the ring closely and sighed shrinking it as I conjured my charm bracelet, I magicked it on and put my bracelet on. I looked at Alex shaking my head as he looked at me with big eyes chewing on the balloon. I clicked my fingers as a bright white went off and Alex blinked at me stupidly. I rolled my eyes and put my suitcase down making my way through the bunch of teddy bears and roses, chocolates and assorted. I picked up my phone dialling in the number.
"Yello?" The voice asked tiredly. I smirked giggling on the phone.
"Kimmy? Are you back? Good Merlin!" He exclaimed before I heard a familiar crack and was scooped up in Draco's arms as he spun me around tangling us both up in balloon strings and roses.
"I see Potter is trying to make up for it," Draco said as I glared clicking my fingers as I sent it all back to Harry. I looked at Alex as he looked at me about to cry. I clicked my fingers as the balloon appeared in his hands again and he began to chew on it.
"He can try all he wants, I'm over it," I said sitting down on the couch as he looked at me worriedly.
"You're coming to stay with me next time," He said looking down on me as I shrugged my shoulders.
"What? Why?" I asked as he sat down on the other side of Alex ruffling his hair.
"Because Tai has put ideas in your head and as much as I hate to say it…" Draco began as an expression of utmost disgust crossed his face. "You and him deserve each other," He said before cringing. I let out a giggle before clicking my fingers as I grabbed my pen and picked up the first roll of parchment. I pushed the glasses up my nose gesturing for Draco to take Alex.
"I'm sending in the girls' something is way too wrong about your reaction," Draco said as I shrugged reading the letter from one of my fans, giggling at some bits.
'Was it wrong that I was okay about this? Is it wrong that I kept the ring? Is it wrong that I am somewhat happy right now?'