Hey All, this is Shiningstar Suguru-chan! Time to make a fan fiction comeback! Well this will be different from the comedy fics I usually do, so please bear with me! Yes, you will notice a repeated theme of the title throughout this story so yeah, I did that on purpose. Now to give you a few hints: The story is written in Suguru's point of view. The italics represent the entries of Suguru's diary.

Disclaimer: I do not own this the characters or any aspect of Gravitation, though I wish I did! T.T

"If Only These Pages Could Talk …"

"My name is Suguru Fujisaki; yes the cousin of the ever so successful Tohma Seguchi. I lived a life in his shadow for all of my sixteen years. I play keyboards same as him. Moreover, everyone says I am just like him, even down to the innocent smile. But, now it is my time to surpass Tohma Seguchi. As Suguru Fujisaki. If only I could break out of this emotional shell and come to terms with my heart. To tell him. If only these pages could talk …"

March 21st

The first day of spring, the time of love.

Everyone seems so happy and glee …

Except me.

Another busy day at NG corporations. It seemed to fly by so fast, with just Mr. Nakano and me. A little too fast. I wished time had flowed much slower, better yet, stand still. To keep his deep gaze beaming upon my lonely frame. If only these pages could talk …

Listening to the melody, mingle into a masterpiece.

I one day hope, like our music-

Our hearts will sync …

Like harmony.

Those thoughts ran through my mind as I prepared to make my leave. I blush lightly, knowing his eyes were still on me. The flushing red color waned as I continued to walk. If only these pages could talk …

Traveling at a steady pace

Left foot, right foot

My heart behinds to race, why?

I may not why, but I am too afraid to look.

It seemed Mr. Nakano was I on my route home. However, he could not possibly know how I feel. I had not showed him any signs! So why? WHY?

"You dropped your notebook." He said.

I looked at him a bit dumbfounded and grinned my usual Tohma symmetrical smile. My eyes looked deep within his. I knew what I wanted. Hiroshi Nakano, one hundred percent.

Am I standing still?

Caught in a lovely thrill.

I cannot explain

The way I feel.

Am I standing still?

Lost in this trill.

Wishing most for

My dreams to be fulfilled?

If only I could speak to him, the words fear to say most. Even hearing his name sends shivers to my spine. What would Mr. Shindou do? Just be dynamic as he is with Mr. Yuki? No, it is not my style. Should I sink as low as Mr. Uesugi? To stalk and grow my love into a dark lust as he did for Mr. Sakuma? No! Do not even consider the thought. You are too good for that. Then shall I act in the accord of cousin Tohma? To be straightforward at all times? I should but I am much too shy. If only there were a way to just link my emotions straight through to his heart. If only these pages could talk …

Listening to the wind

Silhouetting in the dark.

Will one day, the light of Hiroshi's love

Reach my heart?

The walk home too seemed to go by rather quickly. Perhaps, it is just because I am lonely, forever waiting for that special lover. The feeling must be very sweet, having the opportunity to be in the arms of the person who swept you off your feet. However, I disagree with the concept; many times, I wished I had the courage to stalk. However, I stop. If only these pages were able to talk …

Someone, please free me

Of this desolating misery.

Therefore, I can tell him what I feel most to be seen.

The day soon turned to dusk. Yet another day I live with my goal unachieved. Often times I wished of death. Just free of this grief. Most days I feel as if all is lost. If only these pages could talk, then he would hear my testimony and send a reply. Nevertheless, if this is the case, why is it that I continue to cry?

The tears flow like blood

To ease up the pain

But, none will seem to allay

What is now branded in the heart and brain?

Approaching my doorstep. Turning the key. Unlatching the lock and entering territory. It all seemed so empty without you by my side. I remained strong, honest I have tried. However, why do these tears keep passing by and by? For what reason is it that I cannot cease to cry?

Chapter 1 - END

Okay, that was chapter one of my story! I hope you liked it and yes, I think Suguru and Hiroshi make a cute couple! Please review and tell me what you think.