Hey All. I didn't get any reviews after I posted the aftermath begins. If you didn't read the chapter that I put up in the notice's place then go back and read it. Anyway we all know school is boring, especially when your sitting in two study halls in a row with no homework to do, so I wrote this chapter and started chapter 12. Be happy everybody, waiting all summer for me has paid off with two chapters.
Disclaimer: The song in this is by Avril Lavigne. It's called "My Happy Ending". I don't own the characters. Tamora Pierce does.
You know Tamora Pierce knows about sites like these. She approves of them because she says it helps improve our writing, so maybe she can read our books in the future. I got a book signed by her when she was in Ames, Iowa. She told me to keep up the writing. Unfortunately I didn't get to see her my mom got it signed for me. I'm sorry I'm ranting because I had two homemade frappiccinos with a lot of coffee, so I blame them.
Dedicated to Stephanie for actually wanting to read my story unlike some book freaks I know that will read anything but it because they haven't read the book. Just because this chapter is about a fight between people doesn't mean that it is intended to be mean.
Chapter 11
The Argument
After leaving Kel's room's, Yuki went straight to the Own's Barracks. She had to find Neal, and if talking to Dom was the way to find him, she would have to. She hadn't talked to Dom since Neal'd woken up. Yuki was dreading what Dom would say even as she knocked on his door. When Dom didn't answer Yuki was slightly relieved. Dom must have gone to the practice courts or something of that kind, she thought. Now where was she going to look for Neal, she wondered? She needed to know what he had decided. Maybe she would try up at the palace agin.
Yuki walked back to the palace, her mind concentrating on her thoughts, not where she was going. Suddenly, she was jarred away from her deep concentration by someone knocking into her, causing her to fall to the ground.
"Sorry," the person grunted, helping Yuki to stand up.
"Neal! I've been looking for you for an hour," Yuki cried, recognizing who'd knocked her down.
"Oh...Yuki...I've been looking for you, too," Neal lied. He'd actually been thinking about his next hiding place when he bumped into her- that and what he was going to say when she found him.
"Well, have you made a dicision yet?" Yuki asked anxiously. She had to know his answer.
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
"Yes, I have made a dicision," Neal said.
"What did you decide? Are we going to get married or not?" Yuki asked a little impatiently. She'd been looking for him for hours, and now he was stalling for more time.
"Yuki, when you and Dom left for Port Caynn I realized that we'd been engaged for a long time, but we kept putting the wedding off. First it was the war, and then it was that we didn't think that we were ready," Neal said, his voice rising a little as the two of them started to walk to Neal's rooms.
" I was under a spell when I left to go to Port Caynn. I didn't choose to leave; the spell forced me to," Yuki said, her voice rising despite her Yamani control.
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending
"You could have fought it; all spells can be broken if you try," Neal said,getting irritated. Yuki had broken his heart when she left. Then he'd turned to Kel for comfort, and Yuki just wanted to pick up the pieces. She had no regard for anyone but herself.
"I'm not you, Neal, and I'm not your friends. I'm not a mage, either. I can't break a spell. I'm not a mage," Yuki yelled back. Neal didn't know how she felt when she realized she'd hurt him. He didn't feel the pain she had felt when she thought he was dead.
"What does this have to do with my friends? You don't have to be a mage, either. You just have to want it bad enough, if it's controlling you," Neal retorted sharply. She hadn't wanted to be with him, or she would have broken the spell.
"You and your friends keep secrets from me. Don't think I don't notice when they're talking about me," Yuki cried out.
"Yes, sometimes we talk about you, but it's all good. You have no right to say I keep secrets from you," Neal said defensively.
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
"I have every right! Why were you avoiding me this morning and sneaking out of Tobe's rooms? Yes, I saw you," Yuki said in response to the astonishment of Neal's face.
"I needed to speak with Kel this morning, but I needed to get something from Tobe's room first," Neal partially lied.
"What did you need to get from Tobe? Better yet why, did you need to talk to Kel?" Yuki asked with a tone that sounded very much like she was accusing Neal of something.
"I needed to get a book that I lent to Tobe. I needed to talk to Kel about a classified subject," Neal said with an innocent face.
"Neal one of the reasons I fell in love with you was that you never kept secrets from me. Somewhere along the lines that changed. You've been keeping secrets from me and lying to me more and more lately. What changed?" Yuki said in a hurt tone.
"I haven't been lying and keeping secrets lately. All the things that I keep from you are things you wouldn't understand. Things like inside jokes I have with Kel, Cleon, Dom, Merric, and the rest of my friends. I don't feel obligated to share all of those with you," Neal said indignantly.
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending
"I understand you have inside jokes with all your friends. I never asked you to tell me about them, but I do ask you to be honest with me," Yuki stated, in a calmer voice than earlier.
"I'm honest with you. You should be honest with me. If you wanted to be with Dom you should have told me, not kept it a secret for so long," Neal said his voice rising again.
"I don't want to be with your cousin, Neal. I want to be with you, but to be with you I need you to stop telling me lies. Neal, be honest with me," Yuki cried getting frustrated.
"Alright, you want me to be honest with you," Neal yelled stopping in front of his door. "I'll be honest with you. I wanted to tell you this nicely because I still care about you. This argument, however, proves that I've made the right dicision. I don't think we should go through with the marriage. You don't understand me, and you don't trust me. I need someone who can understand me and trust me!" Neal yelled, before turning, marching into his room, and slamming the door behind him.
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you care
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know that we were done.
Yuki stood there stunned for a moment as she heard Neal lock the door on the other side. How could he say she didn't understand him or trust him? She understood him perfectly, and the reason she wanted him to be honest was because she knew he was lying to her. Had Neal really meant that he still cared about her, or did he just not want to hurt her? But wasn't it the same thing?
Yuki wasn't sure what to think, but one thing she was sure of was that she needed to get out of the Palace. She didn't want to be here anymore. She wanted a place to think where no one would distract her. Where could she go? Home...She could go back to the Yamani Islands. She could go back to her mother and father. She could be at home again.
He was everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending
Yuki took a last look at Neal's door, then ran through the halls until she reached her own rooms. If she was to leave tonight, she would need to pack fast. She would be gone before anyone realized that she wasn't here anymore. She would leave a note, of course- she didn't want someone thinking she was kidnapped, or something along that line. She had to hurry, though- she didn't want someone coming along for a visit and stopping her.
If someone did try to stop her, though, she would have to use some sleeping drought on them. She didn't want to, but if that's what it took to get away, she would do it. It didn't make sense to her how she and Neal had just lost everything they had together. It was like there was another woman and Neal was pretending to be in love with Yuki. Neal wouldn't do that to her. Yuki knew he wouldn't try to hurt her like that.
You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
Done packing everything she wanted, Yuki looked around her rooms one last time. Then she picked up her bags and walked out of her door. She walked passed Neal's rooms one last time on her way out of the palace. When Yuki got to the end of his hallway, she looked back one final time as tears started to roll down her cheeks.
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending
A/N Alright the chapter didn't go that well with the song, but it did go a little. I had this chapter done on wednesday and betad on thanksgiving, but the site wouldn't let me upload so you guys had to wait. You guys should feel lucky, I'm actually posting two chapters relatively close together. Please go review. I hope you all had a Happy Thanksgiving, all of you who celebrated it anyway. I'm done now so bye bye.
-Krissy-