Love is Blind

Chapter Seven

A week passed with Riku gluing himself to his room. Most of the time he laid on the bed, he cried himself to sleep, and he stared blankly at the ceiling. Then one foggy afternoon, someone came to visit Riku again. The person knocked on the door. "Riku?" the person from the other side of the door inquired. The voice was familiar, the most familiar voice Riku knew. Sora.

"Riku, please answer," Sora said pleadingly and with worry in his tone.

Riku really did not know what to say to him. Last time, he just dismissed him like he did with the group of friends that accompanied him, but this time Sora was alone.

The silver-haired teen said nothing.

"Riku...What's wrong with you? Why won't you come out?" Sora hesitated, trying to see if his older friend would answer him first. But when he did not, Sora continued, "Why won't you talk to anyone? Riku, why won't you talk to me?"

If the brown-haired boy thought that this would help then he was mistaken, for it made Riku's eyes swell with tears.

"Go away...Leave me alone," Riku managed to say but with tiredness still evident.

"Riku, why are you suddenly like this? Tell me," Sora requested of his friend to open up.

/Sora, you will never understand./ "I said 'go way'," Riku replied sternly.

Sora felt a bit hurt. Why won't his friend talk to him? They have always been close like brothers, right? Even though they competed with each other a lot, they still were the best of friends. Sora shared his feelings with Riku, so why won't the silver-haired boy do the same?

"Riku, you're being impossible," Sora said louder than he intended it to.

Riku felt angry for being yelled at by his supposedly best friend. It was all Sora's fault that he was like this now. But beside from feeling angry, he also felt like crying more for being yelled at.

When a few moments passed without Riku saying a word, Sora became agitated. "Riku! Riku! Open this door! Why won't you say a thing! Damn it! Talk!" Sora yelled loudly now.

But Sora's words were not helping. Riku only felt worse. Sora was not good at comforting if this was what he thought he was doing.

"Just leave!" Riku screamed at the door. A couple of tears fell from his eyes. Sora was making this worse. Riku felt like crying more than he had been.

Sora, angered by his friend not cooperating, yelled to the door in front of him, "Riku! If you don't talk, then I will leave! I'll...never come back either!" Sora couldn't believe he actually said that last part. He was definitely angrier than he thought he would be.

Lord, Sora was not helping at all. Riku only felt like his heart was being torn again. "Leave then! Leave! I...don't want to see...you...again!" Riku said out of anger and hurt.

The brunet in hearing that felt a thud in his chest and he was angry too. "Fine! I don't want to see...you either!" Sora exclaimed and then stomped away from Riku's door and down the stairs, leaving the Riku inside crying.

Sora himself felt his throat dry too and something coming up that made his breathing hard. His own eyes stung with wetness. He felt like screaming. Why was Riku being so difficult? He only wanted to help. He wanted to comfort his friend. He didn't want to see Riku imprisoning himself in his room like that. Most importantly, he wanted to see Riku again. He did miss him.

Riku felt dead as he lay on his bed with his face crying into his pillow. He tried not to make any noises though. He never thought it was possible for things to go even worse but after his conversation with Sora it did. They fought, not like what they usually do, but it was something that would remain like a scar. Riku had told Sora that he didn't want to see the brunet when all he wanted was the opposite. He spoke without thinking. He felt too horrible to think.

Now he lost Sora for sure. Sora said himself that he didn't want to see him again. There was no turning back now. This was even worse. When Sora was with Kairi, Sora and he was at least friends, but now Riku lost even the little friendship with Sora that he had. Now, Riku definitely had nothing.

What else is there but to cry over all his losses? And that was exactly what he did, he let his tears fall from his eyes to the pillow, wetting it like it had been for the past few days. He was crying a lot, he knew. He shouldn't be crying so much, he was a boy; he was a man, why was he crying so much? But even if Riku tried to stop himself he could not.

Riku did not know how long he had been sulking, but when he was finally done, he was extremely tired. The rims of his aquamarine eyes were red and his nose was red from sniffing.

This was even worse than finding out that Sora liked Kairi. Riku stared at the ceiling, still sniffing once in a while but his tears ran dry.

This was becoming unbearable. Riku considered killing himself, but as soon as the idea came up, Riku heard a voice.

"Death cannot stop it." Riku heard and it sounded like it was coming from within his room too.

Riku looked around. "Who are you? What are you talking about?"

"Riku, I can believe you forgot me already," a familiar cold, dark voice said.

Riku searched his mind for the mysterious voice. "Ansem," he finally said.

"Ah, I knew you wouldn't forget so easily," the cold voice said, seemingly pleased.

"What do you want? And how is it that I can't see you?" Riku questioned with hardly the boldness he usually displayed. Even the voice of that man disturbed him.

"You feel like dying, don't you?" the voice said.

Riku did not reply. He did feel that way.

"But dying won't stop it. Your soul will still be consumed by all the darkness you have created."

Riku looked around his room as if trying again to see the person who is speaking but saw nothing. "What are you saying?"

"You want to know?" Riku did not answer. "You know where to find me," was the last thing Riku heard before all felt normal again.

Riku, who was more confused than ever, didn't know the dark voice's intentions, but he was willing to find out. Anything to make this misery stop.