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Love is Blind

Chapter Eleven

"Ansem, I need your help again," Riku requested as he knocked on the door. He was panting, his heart beating painfully for the one he could not have.

The door opened, Ansem's face holding a satisfying expression. He was obviously glad to see the silver-haired boy. But of course Riku didn't notice. "Come in," Ansem's voice is normal as if they were neighbors and he had just invited him to tea.

Riku rushed inside, his mind only focusing on the pain that he was suffering. He went to sit on the couch where he usually sat. Ansem followed. "Why can't you make this go away for good!" Riku exclaimed.

"Relax," Ansem said calmly as he took his position beside Riku, a hand resting on the other's shoulder.

"Make all this go away!" Riku shouted almost frantically.

"Calm," Ansem said, sitting closer to the teen and slightly stroking the boy's arm.

"You can't make all this go away, can you?" Riku asked skeptically. His voice was so full of distress and pain.

"Riku, you need to calm down," Ansem said, holding the boy's arm firmly.

"How can I calm down! It hurts! It hurts so much! Why? You said you could help! Why is it coming back!" Riku shouted wildly as if he had forgotten everything about how to act cool and calm like he used to.

"Riku, you're acting insanely," Ansem commented, his tone not calm anymore but a little annoyed.

"But why!" Riku cried before he sank down lower on his seat, suffering, feeling nothing but darkness.

Skin brushed against Riku's forehead. He opened his eyes to see consuming yellow ones. "It will take some time. Be patient, my pet," Ansem said softly. Riku tensed, unable to speak or move, obviously shocked by the older man's actions. Ansem brushed his lips on Riku's face, making the confused boy scramble backwards and away from the man.

"What..." was all the silver-haired boy could mutter before Ansem advanced on him again. Riku closed his eyes, feeling weak against the man's caress. When he felt the man's lips coming to his own, he found the courage to move his head, protesting weakly, "No." But it obviously proved useless when his lips were claimed in the end. Riku's mind blanked. He didn't react. /Sora.../ But his mind was still on Sora. Riku started to protest, bringing his hands to other's chest and trying to push him off, but to no avail. /No...Sora.../ There was no doubt that Riku didn't want to kiss this man. He wanted to save his first kiss, for Sora, no other. So Riku struggled, pushing Ansem with all his strength but it only made the gray-haired man reach forcefully for the boy's wrists, holding them down harshly on the back of the couch. But Riku continued to fight back, hoping that it would stop. It didn't. Ansem forced his tongue inside Riku's mouth. The boy tried but wasn't strong enough. As the tongue began its intrusion, it was when Riku's first tear began to fall. /Get away...get away...I don't want this...I don't want you...I don't want anyone but Sora...Sora.../

When Ansem finally stopped, Riku felt his lips were bruised and his tongue numb from the man's biting. He choked on his saliva and coughed, trying to breathe correctly. He had not caught his breath when Ansem took away his right hand, leaving just the left to pin Riku's hands down. The silver-haired teen screamed when he felt Ansem's hand unraveling his buttons and belt. "Stop! Stop it!" Riku yelled to the older man. /Sora...help me.../

Almost hearing Riku's thoughts, Ansem lifted his head to rest his face at the crevice of Riku's neck. "Thinking of Sora again?" he asked skeptically. "Forget about him. He doesn't care about you. He doesn't love you. Forget about that Sora," Ansem continued to say in a smooth tone. His words made Riku ponder and now the boy was dead stiff in his thoughts. /Sora...Sora doesn't love me...He'll never love me no matter how much I love him...I know...I know...but...I can't forget about him...I know I need to...I need to forget about him...It hurts so much because I can't forget him...But do I really want to forget Sora...I love him. I don't want to forget about him./

"No! I don't want to forget Sora!" Riku shouted his new-found decision. "I don't!" he exclaimed, shaking his head to make his point.

"Why not now?" Ansem asks disdainfully. "I thought he hurt you. Why don't you want to forget him?" Ansem bit Riku's sensitive pale skin, making the silver-haired boy suppress a cry. "Don't you remember? He told you that he loved that girl, Kairi," he bit Riku again, his teeth feeling sharp against the tender skin of his neck. "He loves her, what are you going to do, Riku?" Ansem asked as he cocked his head up to meet emerald eyes.

Riku's expression was of confusion again. He thought again. /That was right. Sora loves Kairi./ Just the thought of the love in which Riku yearned for so much but Sora gave to Kairi was making Riku feel spears at his heart again, painfully piercing. /Sora.../ Riku cried, tears falling from his cerulean eyes to stain his face. "I..." was all Riku managed to say.

"Maybe you want me to kill the girl?" Ansem inquired. Riku looked into the other's eyes in surprise. "If I kill that girl, how do you think that boy you're in love with would feel? Do you think he'll love you then?" Ansem's words were entering Riku's mind and affecting the core.

/Kill Kairi? If Kairi dies, Sora will not only be sad, but if he finds out that I had something to do with it, he'll hate me forever. I don't want him to hate me. And even if he doesn't find out, what then? He'll mourn for Kairi, he'll still love her. He won't love me because Kairi died./

"Maybe I should try it," Ansem declared, standing up and releasing Riku. "Plus, I don't like the girl anyway. I'll kill her for you," He said and started to walk away from the couch.

Immediately, Riku jumped up and grabbed the man's arm. "No!"

"Why not? If she's gone, everything will be fine, right? I'll just kill her. Nothing could be easier than that," Ansem said, his tone showing that he knew full well that Riku didn't want the girl dead.

"No! Please don't!" Riku pleaded. /Sora would be sad. I can't make him sad. I'd rather him be happy with another. I want Sora's love, but even if Kairi died, he will never give it to me./

"Let go, and I'll go do you a favor," Ansem stated scornfully.

Riku held on. He can't let him kill Kairi. It would kill Sora as well. He couldn't let this man do that. No matter what, he could not have Sora suffer. "No, please, no," Riku murmured, shaking his head slightly. "Please, I beg you, don't kill her. I'll do anything you ask, just don't kill her," Riku stated solemnly. He let go of the gray-haired man's arm, feeling totally empty inside, as if he had just sold his soul.

With the hand of the arm Riku was holding onto, Ansem lifted the silver-haired boy's chin. "How cute," he mocked, a hateful smile on his face.

Riku just stood. His eyes looked as if not blinking, as if he was lost in his own mind. /I really couldn't let Ansem kill Kairi. It would hurt Sora. He loves her. I can't let him suffer something like a broken heart. I can't. I won't. Sora, I'm sorry. I wish I could say I love you./ Riku felt everything being lost all at once. And he just stood there, he can't catch it back. His heart stopped. His mind stopped. Everything was nothing. Tears swelled up in Riku's blank eyes. He didn't blink when two trails of tears stained his face. He didn't move when Ansem lowered himself above him. He didn't say a thing when he felt the man's hands. He didn't protest when the man kissed him.