Note: Flashbacks are in Italic
CH 12
How did they end up in this situation? Oh, well…
"Are you sure?"
"Yes! Why do you ask? You don't want to, Ali?"
"It's not that I don't want to, but, I never saw you like the kind of girl who had a kinky for doing it outdoor"
Public displaying is against the law. And, as an officer, Emily should be against it, but, somehow, it's always what is forbidding what we want to do more. That's why, today, on Emily's birthday, Alison is planning to fulfill one of Emily's wildest fantasies: doing it, in an outdoor pool.
The blonde planned a day for them in a resort. They got massages, they got a nice dinner and, it's in the middle of the night when they hopped the fence to get in the pool. This was no hour to be in the pool of the fancy resort. The lights of the rooms around the pool were on, which meant there were people inside. The probability of getting caught was high, maybe that's what was so thrilling about doing it, here.
Wasting no time, the brunette slipped off her panties, her clothes and dragged Alison's hand to the heat between her legs. Alison muffled the whimper coming through her throat when she felt how wet and ready Emily was for her. And, the brunette got more wet when they finally got into the pool. Kissing, grinding, fingering until Emily came, Alison controlled her impulse to ravish her immediately as today, it was all about pleasuring the brunette.
"Ali!"
"Ssshhh. Quietly, Em, or, we will get caught"
They did a lot of naughty things in that pool without getting caught and, the view of a naked Emily, swimming under the light of the moon, it was a beautiful thing to see. Such a lovely image that Alison couldn't stop thinking about it now that they were back to their room.
"A beautiful mermaid"
"Hum?"
"Tonight, at the pool, you looked like a beautiful mermaid. My lovely mermaid…"
Alison happily said as she watched Emily, crawling into the bed. It brings big joy to Alison's heart to have Emily in her life, in her bed. And, it's a mutual feeling. The brunette is convinced Alison is the one, she's the one who will always care about making her feel good, happy, no matter what. Maybe that's why the brunette feels so confident about having Alison connected within her, without protection.
"Em, are you sure?"
"Yes, I want you raw, now. Please, I need to feel you, all of you"
Bent over the bed, with the legs wide open, spreading her lower lips as an invitation to come in. Alison has never seen anything more perfect than having Emily like this. It ignites a primal desire in the blonde. A wild animal awakes and rushes to pound the hot mermaid without control.
"God! Ali! Yes! Harder! It feels good! So, good!"
Alison is unable to formulate words, she only grunts. Animal groans are all what she's capable of managing while she drills into the brunette, hard and fast. Emily is tingling, loving the way Alison is taking her from behind. And, breeding was risky, especially on a fertile day like today. Emily knows it, but she loses all willpower to stop it when Alison reaches the holy grail of her womb.
"Fuck! ALI!"
"I'm kissing your womb, Em! And, I can't hold it! I…. ahmmm…"
Emily cum too, the moment when Alison's fellow started to swell up, sliding into her womb and sealing her lips with a perfect pop. The blonde spurt out a big amount of seed and a big bliss spread all over their hearts.
"I love you, Em"
"I love you, too"
Holding her close, Alison secures Emily between her arms as she kisses her deeply. A kiss of real love, a real connection, it's what Alison gave her that night. And, Emily hummed, pleased with the sensation of feeling all the white sea the blonde blasted inside her. The sensation was so strongly perfect, that the brunette spilled all over the sheets. Ignoring the consequences of their lovemaking. Because, it's during this passionate moment when Alison' swimmers transcended the barriers of Emily's eggs, so they could create life inside the lovely mermaid.
And, that's how they got in this situation. Yes, a human being was created that night as a consequence of an act of love. Yeah, love, a big Love it's what they had. And, thinking about it, a million loving thoughts condensed into that moment when a newborn was conceived. But now; now there are no longer loving thoughts. There's just pain, regret and rage.
Yeah, reality is bitter now. Alison courses herself for being so stupid for believing in each one of those loving thoughts. Those loving thoughts don't exist anymore. And, Alison doesn't see the day when she will ever have them again. She has lost faith in love, she has lost the eagerness to be in love. All she wants now it's to be a girl without a heart.
But, even if she's decided to not feel a thing, she still feels the need to deal with her carelessness. Why did she have to be so irresponsible? What the heck was she thinking when she let herself be driven by the desire and passion that Emily woke up in her? The blonde wonders as she walks into the private practice where another girl was already waiting for her appointment.
"Hi, Emily…"
"Ali. You came?"
The brunette looks surprised to see her Ex. She told the blonde about her medical appointment, but Emily wasn't expecting Alison to show up. After all, right now, she's not Alison's favorite person and the blonde would love to have nothing to do with her, but, turning her gaze towards Emily's abdomen, Alison deeply sighs as she understands her life is tangled with Emily now, forever even if she wishes for the complete opposite.
"Of course I came. I'm not doing to this baby what my parents did to me"
Abandoned, denied, hidden. Alison decided a long time ago to not keep any resentment against her parents for how they made her feel, but it doesn't mean their actions didn't hurt like hell. There's nothing worse than feeling not wanted for your own parents. That is why no matter what, Alison is determined to be there for this baby. To love him with all her heart. To never abandon him. To never deny its existence nor hiding him like if he was some kind of atrocity or big mistake. Yeah, she will not repeat her parents' errors and she will be there for this baby no matter what. And that is the real reason why she is here today.
"I'm still mad at you, but, I'm in… all in, in whatever you decide to do with the baby"
A shy smile appears on Emily when Alison says those words and sits at her side. They don't say a word to each other, they just wait in silence. And, this is far from being what they dreamed, but Emily wants to believe that if Alison is here, if she's in, then maybe, just maybe, not everything between them is lost. The brunette is hoping for the best when the nurse finally calls her name.
"You can go in now, the doctor is ready to see you"
Emily and Alison look at each other for a brief moment, no words are shared, mostly because they are not sure what will come next or what direction they are going with this. This wasn't planned, but it's happening. They are here now, the three of them. Because, this is no longer just about the two of them, it's about the little human they created together.
"Have you decided what you want to do, Emily?"
"I want to keep it"
Emily admits when she softly puts her hands over her abdomen. It's scary to finally say it, it's terrifying to find out you're going to be a mother when you never planned it, it's what Emily thinks all the time since she found out she's pregnant. But, it's less scary now that she has Alison at her side. The blonde says nothing about the brunette's decision, but those beautiful lips shape into a tiny smile. Which makes Emily believe she's happy with the decision to continue with the pregnancy.
And, if Alison is happy with the news, if she's here to stay, then maybe, just maybe Emily has a shot to make it right between them. A glimmer of hope appears in Emily's love life with this turn of events. And, such hope appears more reachable when Alison holds the brunette's hand as they walk towards the doctor's office.
Alison is on board. They are far from being on good terms, but, just like the night when the brunette got knocked up, Emily feels confident about Alison. About her feelings for her because she's the 'one'. She's the mother of her child and the only one in Emily's heart. That's why she cannot give up. This love she feels, it cannot die, just like that, it's what Emily thinks. And, she's not the only one in town having those thoughts.
Just like Emily is not ready to give up on getting back with her dear blonde, another raven-haired woman is also not willing to leave behind her love story with another blonde. A blonde who shines more than the sun, a blonde named…
"Kara!"
Lena happily says very loud, waving her hand non-stop in the air when she finally peeks at the blonde journalist between all the crowd. The dear reporter immediately turns when she hears someone calling her name.
"Lena?"
Kara frowns when she recognizes the woman who's rushing towards her. From all the places in the world, she never expected to find Lena in a place like this. What the hell, is Lena doing here? Kara wonders because she has no clue why the CEO of L-Corp is in a food contest. The blonde is here to cover the event and of course she's here too to eat as much as she could. Not for nothing she fought tooth and nail to get assigned to this. But, why? Why did Lena have to be here too? Well, the answer is simple: because of Kara.
Being a judge in a food contest was far to be a profitable task for the dear Luthor. But, when she got the invitation to participate in such an event, her only thought was Kara. There was no way the blonde would not assist at an event of such magnitude. The girl is a food lover so, of course she would come and of course Lena couldn't miss the opportunity to see Kara, regardless of where and how. So, yeah, once again, Lena's brain schemed a way to 'casually' encounter Kara. Not, for nothing she's a genius. A brilliant woman who feels strongly confident about getting back with Kara. And, this contest was going to be just one step towards the blonde's heart or at least that's what the dear CEO was believing till she realizes her sunshine is not alone.
Lena frowns, looking a little angry and upset about the fact that Kara has company, and, it's not just anyone, it seems like the dear reporter is a magnet for gorgeous CEO's because Kara is here with...
"Mr Queen…"
"Miss Luthor…"
"You know Lena, Ollie?"
Ollie?! Kara is calling Oliver Queen, a playboy from Star City and actual CEO of Queens Industries, Ollie?! Lena is having a hard time trying to keep a straight face in front of these two. Because, she never thought Kara would come with a plus one. And, even less with such a very good looking plus one, very charming too, it's what any girl could say about him, any girl except Lena, who looks very upset about this closeness between him and Kara.
How the hell do they know each other? Lena wonders and truth be told, this the first time they meet! It all starts with the fact they have a friend in common: Barry Allen. A friend who just got engaged and for some reason they ignore, their dear friend, Barry, had the brilliant idea to choose Kara and Oliver as his 'best man/woman'. In other words, they have to work together to help Barry with the wedding and all the previous events before the big day.
So, yeah, Oliver got Kara's number and the blonde agreed to meet him here. Because what better place to get ideas for the bachelor's party menu than here! A food contest. An idea pop's up in Kara's mind and her eyes light up, she strongly believes Barry would love the idea she's getting right now because he eats just as much as she, so, Kara is ready to say out loud her great idea, but before she could say a word, Oliver says 'No'. Shaking his head like if he knew exactly what she was going to say.
"No? Why not? You haven't even heard what I was going to say!"
"We're not doing a food contest for Barry's bachelor party, Kara!"
"Wow! How did you know I was going to suggest such a thing?!"
Oliver deeply sighs, just like Barry, this blonde is so easy to read, he makes no further comment about, he just asks why she's calling him 'Ollie' to what Kara replies with a big smile:
"Because it makes you look less scary and more cute!"
The blond man rolls his eyes, he doesn't look pleased with the answer and to be honest, he's not the only one.
"Cute?! You find him cute?!"
If Lena's plan was to play it cool, well, that plan is far gone now that her jealousy is getting the best of her. Kara hates to make a scene, especially in public, so she just says her goodbyes to the dear Luthor and drags Oliver with her, far away, to another stand of food.
"Kara! Wait, I…" (angry groans) "I fucked it up, again!"
There's nothing more pathetic than talking to yourself in front of others. And, that's what Lena is doing right now as she watches the girl she loves, walking away, holding the arm of someone who's not her. She hates this, she hates to feel like this, but, mostly she hates to see her plan is not starting as she planned. But, giving up is not in Lena's vocabulary. And, that's why, the next day, she decides to make another move.
"Kara, there's another girl, coming up to bring you flowers"
Nia announces to her co-worker and the blonde looks not happy at all. She's stalled with flowers, flowers which started to be delivered at first hour this morning since she got to Catco and there's no way to predict when they will stop to come. There are flowers all over the place, she cannot work like this and it's very frustrating because she has an article to finish. And, maybe that's why she's very rude to the blonde who's bringing her flowers right now.
"No! No more!"
"Excuse me?"
Kara takes deep breaths, she knows the delivery girl has no blame on this. She shouldn't lash out at her, she should get angry with Lena, who wrongly believes that filling her workplace with flowers is the best way to win her back. Such a cliché, and, she was hoping the delivery girl could pass on the message, but, to be honest, this blonde is not a delivery girl from L-Corp.
"I'm sorry, I'm not following what is happening here. I just wanted to bring flowers to the reporter who kindly wrote such nice words about me, putting me as number 1 in Catco Ranking"
The blonde reporter frowns, she plays with her glasses and then, jumps backwards when she finally recognizes the blonde who's standing in front of her.
"OMG! You're Alison DiLaurentis! CEO of -A Toys!"
Yeap, Kara is definitely a magnet for CEO's. And, while this blonde is meeting another CEO. In another part of the city, a brunette officer is getting nervous to share some news with her father.
"Maybe I should wait a little longer Toby"
"Do not chicken out, now, Em"
"I'm not chicken out. I'm just saying, my dad is still in recovery, I don't need to tell him now that…"
"That you got knocked up by the girl you were investigated and wrongly charged with the crime of shooting him?"
Emily looks away, she knows it's messed up, and Toby sarcastly pointing out the facts, it's not helping her to not lose her nerve.
"Look, Em. I'm not gonna sugar out this for you. You know me and I know you. If you back out now, you'll delay it till the last moment, just like you did it with Alison. You don't want this to also blow out in your face, right?"
The brunette deeply exhales, her friend is right. She postponed being honest with Alison for months and messed up her chance to tell her the truth in her own terms. She cannot commit the same mistake twice. And that's why, after Toby's pep talk, she knocks on the door and enters into her father's hospital room.
"Emily! What a nice surprise! Wh-..." (frowns) "What is wrong?"
Confess something is never easy. It shouldn't be like that, it should be the most natural thing to do, but, for some girls without a heart, showing what they hide within them, it's the hardest thing to do. Especially when they trust no one. Not even in their own good sense. Maybe that's why Alison has problems starting a conversation with Kara's friends. She just met the girl this morning and now, she's on a game night in her apartment? How the hell did that happen?! Well…
"OMG! You're Alison DiLaurentis! CEO of -A's Toys!"
"You make it sound like if I was some kind of celebrity which I can assure you I'm not…"
Both blondes chuckle with the awkward encounter, Kara accepts Alison's flowers and apologizes for her first direction. She doesn't get into details, but it's clear to the CEO that the blonde wants nothing to do with her Ex, the one who has been sending flowers all morning. And, wanting to kick an Ex from its life, it's something to which Alison can relate to.
"Well, my cousin Spencer is a great lawyer, so, if you need to get a restriction order or something to scare this Ex, just let me know and, I'm sure Spencer can figure out something"
"Thanks, but, I don't want to do something against L-... her. I just want to let all of whatever we had behind me, you know?"
"Yeah, I kinda know the feeling"
Both blondes sigh deeply, they have more in common than what they think, and for instance, Alison is the first one to notice it when she gazes at a picture over Kara's desk.
"OMG! Is that, Dr. Danvers?"
"Huh?"
It's still weird for Kara to hear people talking about her big sister as Dr. Danvers, but it's weirder to realize how tiny the world is because she never thought Alison could know her sister. And, to be honest, Alison doesn't just know Alex, she even had a crush on her, something she said out loud and looking at the shocking look of Kara, Alison realized she just over-shared something she shouldn't have. The blonde scolds herself for saying such an embarrassing thing in front of Dr. Danvers' sister. But, it's too late, she said it, and now, the only thing to do, it's run away, as soon as possible.
"You had a crush on Alex?! Really?!"
"OMG! Please, just forget what I just said, please? I don't know why I said it, It feels like it was in another life, you know? It was a long time ago. And, I… I should go…"
And, of course Alison was not able to leave Catco or Kara's side since then, because if there's something Kara likes more than being a reporter, it's to play as Cupid.
"Alex is coming, she's in surgery right now, but, she's coming, Alison! So, do not go anywhere! Okay?!"
The blonde nods, even if she wanted, she couldn't leave. Damn, Kara is strong! It's what Alison says to herself as she recalls how easily the dear reporter has dragged her along, without being able to put any resistance at all. The blonde CEO has no clue on what she got herself into, but, looking at all the happy atmosphere around Kara, she feels really out of place. And, she's not the only one feeling out of place in this city. Another CEO is feeling the same way.
"Looking for some company, Luthor?"
Assisting alone at a party is not new for Lena, watching a gorgeous woman approach and hit on her, it's also something very common for her. Beautiful women throw themselves at her every day. She always loved it, so, why? WHY?! She's feeling so sad about it. It's like she had this black hole in her chest, which was threatening to shallow all fun and joy from her. And, if she had to name this black hole, she would call it Kara, because, this moping vibe, this constant sadness and emptiness, it never happened till Kara appeared in her life.
Yes, before Kara, she was fine! She was more than fine! She was having the time of her life! It's what Lena likes to say, but, let's be honest, to whom she's trying to fool? She was empty before the sunshine of Kara brightened her life. The raven-haired woman never really had to face how hollow her life was till now. Because now, she knows exactly what it feels to really live a full life.
A life full with tenderness, with compassion and mostly, a life full with Love. And, Lena feels conflicted. Her rational brain is asking her to be back to be the girl without a heart, the powerful, ruthless woman, she's meant to be while her heart and all her senses are imploring her to get the sunshine Kara back.
"I have tried!"
Lena tells her heart. And, it's true, she has tried to win Kara back but each time, she tries, she fails miserably. So, why keep trying? Lena wonders. She should stop, she mumbles. Maybe she should just move on. Maybe going after Kara, it's going in the wrong direction. It's what Lena says to herself as she drinks another martini and gets ready to finally put attention to the woman who has been trying to catch her attention all night long.
And, while the CEO of L-Corp is trying to convince herself that she's better without a heart. Another CEO is trying to understand how it is possible to recover so fast after someone rips out your heart. Alison doesn't know what happened between the journalist and her Ex, but, it seems, it was a bad, recent break-up. So, how can Kara be smiling? Laughing and spending a good time with her friends? Alison would love to know what is her secret because truth be told, she's tired of crying and feeling angry, sad all the time.
The dear DiLaurentis wants to know how Kara can look so damn happy after a bad break-up. That's the main reason she stays even after the dear reporter sadly announces that Alex will not be able to make it, this time. So Alison stays for game night, she plays, she chit chat with Kara's friends, waiting for the perfect moment to ask. But, she never dares to do it. Especially when she realizes that Kara's friends are unrelated to Kara's love life.
Do not get it wrong, Kara loves her friends, she trusts them, but, her story with Lena happened so fast, it was so intimate and perfect, that Kara kept it to herself, mostly because she was afraid to break the bubble where she was living in, but in the end, the bubble broke by itself, in the worst way possible. So, of course now, Kara doesn't find the point in sharing her pain with those around her. So, she smiles, she pretends everything is fine, even if she's not fine.
"Bye, Kara!"
"Bye! Till next time!"
It's very late when all the friends leave. In the reporter's apartment, just Alison is still there, mostly helping to clean up around as Kara takes a moment for herself, leaning her front-head against the door in silence till the other blonde starts talking.
"I was going to ask you how you do it, to look so happy after a bad break-up, but, now I realize it must be very exhausting, right?"
Kara sadly chuckles, she deeply breathes and tries to hide her pain behind a smile, but Alison tells her to not do it. She doesn't have to do it anymore, not with her and Kara feels a big relief because just like the CEO said, it's exhausting! Really exhausting to keep it together when all she wants to do, it's to cry as she watches a romantic movie and eats ice cream.
Alison chuckles, Kara's way to cope with a broken heart is cute. She should give it a try, she says and Kara smiles, getting an idea. And, Kara's not the only one getting ideas late at night. Another woman got an idea too, a woman who's driving in circles around Kara's apartment.
"You can do it, you can do it! For Lord Sake! You're Lena Luthor! Of course you can do it!"
Lena gives herself enough encouragement to finally park and steps into the building. Because she couldn't get back to be who she was before Kara, she doesn't want to! She doesn't want to hook up with random girls anymore, she wants to hook up with the same girl, with the girl who lives in this building. That's why she's here, to try one more time to get Kara back to her life. So, she's here, to talk, to make amends, to beg if it's necessary. To do whatever she needs to do because she's not giving up, or at least, that's what she says to herself till Kara's door gets open by another blonde.