" Ramon," a voice woke him in the middle of the night. He jumped to his feet.
" Your Highness, is something wrong?" He asked, sensitive, ready to go immediately if she said someone was harassing her.
" No, Ramon, I'm so sorry to wake you, but I wanted to let you know I'm going to the kitchen."
" I'm coming with you, Your Majesty, just give me a second to get dressed properly."
It only took him a moment, but Lucy managed to look at him in the dark even in such a short time. As the moon bounced off the surface, and Ramon had, thanks to Aslan, a cabin above the surface, she could see every muscle at his shoulders.
Oh, she sighed inwardly.
" We can go, madam," he said, opening the door for her.
" What leads you to the kitchen in the middle of the night?"
" Oh, dear Ramon. Women problems. The only weakness of the warrior, "she sighed. Luckily she had Lasalene, who reminded her that the month had passed, and her bleeding might come at any time during the expedition. She packed all her herbs to soothe the pain.
They were lucky because the chefs were slowly heating up in the oven to prepare breakfast, so Lucy could make tea without any problems. The cooks didn't ask anything, and Ramon was just silent, watching Lucy quietly as she moved in the kitchen, leaning forward. Only later did he realize that this position had relieved her pain a little.
" Your Highness," Ramon began as they sat on the bow and drank tea. Despite the protests, Lucy made tea for him as well. Although from other herbs.
" Yes, Ramon?"
" You aroused respect here yesterday."
" Really, and how?"
" Your fight with your brother, though," he laughed. Lucy just smiled.
" Too bad just here."
" I don't understand."
" Ramon, why did my sister transfer you to my bodyguard?"
" Apparently you have already grown up and your beauty has increased many times over, her Majesty was afraid that someone could harassed you."
" I don´t think so," she snorted. "Late."
" I don´t understand."
"It took me four years for the soldiers, at least some of them, to take me among themselves. Until the age of fourteen, I fought more with my own soldiers than with the enemy. "
She paused for a moment.
" Edmund doesn't know about it, but ... every time we fought and my siblings sent me among men, that" I'll be safer than ahead, "there's always been a soldier touching me."
She shuddered at the memory of the old disgusting soldier who had first touched her. Fortunately, he has died in the meantime. He was killed in battle, just after she began to oppose him. Mystery.
" Do you remember the battle of Galma when it was occupied by pirates?"
Ramon nodded.
" You were all four in the fight."
" Exactly. When they were arguing for a fight plan, they sent me away. Far away. They did not think I could understand the strategy of the battle. My sister was guarded not only by her bodyguard, but also by my brothers and they sent me away. Among the desperate soldiers who failed to break through the pirates' defenses for the second month. And suddenly I showed up. Thirteen year old woman, or better said, girl. They didn't pounce on me right away. At first they cursed and insulted me. "
She paused.
" I didn't know that," Ramon frowned, anger rising in him.
" Oh please. They couldn't say they made me lie down with them, "she shook her head." They would be a head shorter in an instant. They valued their lives very much. "
" And when did it end?"
"It is not over. It's just the opposite. I have built respect and they are sometimes the ones I go to in the middle of the biggest battles. Frustrated, longing to satisfy desire. "
Ramon was very hurt by these words. He always saw her as saint and innocent. The fairest.
" Why are you telling me this?" He asked. Lucy heard the wounded tone in his voice. It hurt her. She never wanted to hurt him.
" Because I care about you, and I wanted you to know how dirty my past is. How evil and sinful I am."
They were silent for a moment.
" But," he began. "How did Prince Corin know about all this?"
Lucy bowed her head.
" He has ... his resources, Ramon. Therefore, we cannot stay together in one room without fighting."
They fell silent again.
" He got on my nerves from the beginning. I hate him."
They laughed.
Ramon paid more attention to Lucy than before. During the day she shone like the sun over their heads, and in the evening a shadow fell on her face. He understood that Lucy was struggling with bad feelings. He just didn't know if she had bad feelings from the past, present, or future.
He wanted to be very angry with Lucy for what she had told him, he longed to move away from her, but the king's order did not let him go more than six feet from her. On the other hand, he realized that he was the only one who knew about all the crap she had experienced.
The night before the planned mooring, he heard a thud from her cabin. It was a quiet, moonless night, and the wind was very light, so he was sure it wasn't coming from the deck.
" Your Majesty," he said softly. There was silence in the cabin.
" Queen Lucy, has something happened to you?"
" No, nothing, I'm fine," she said in a weak voice.
" You don't sound like that. Let me light a lamp, let me know what's wrong with you. "
" No! " She exclaimed. But then she repeated quietly, "No."
" Why, Your Majesty?"
Lucy was silent for a moment. Ramon tried to identify where he was in absolute darkness.
" I'm not ... in a state where you should see the queen."
Ramon laughed.
" Did you drink rum with the sailors?"
She was silent.
He who is silent testifies, he thought, and the smile disappeared from his face.
" Not with the sailors. With my brother. Then he led me into the room, and I fell asleep in a very tight sleep, and Aslan appeared to me. "
Ramon walked over to the bed and sat down.
" What did he tell you?"
Lucy took a deep breath.
" He warned me that I was mainly fighting all my enemies."
" Majesty, you know very well that your brother and I will protect you from all."
" No, Ramon," she laughed bitterly. "You can't protect me from my greatest fears."
They both paused. After a while, Ramon realized where Lucy was. She was sitting on the floor by the bed.
" Um, Your Majesty, why are you sitting on the floor?"
" I fell out of bed when I got over my dream," she laughed. "You were here before I could get up."
" Come on, I'll help you," he held out his hand to her.
" No," he felt her pull away.
" I don't understand."
" I'm ... undressed."
" Aren't you bleeding anymore?"
" No."
Ramon slapped himself in his mind. She tells him that she is undressed and he asks her if she is bleeding.
Oh, what a donkey I am.
Ramon shuddered. Although he resisted it very much, he remembered Lucy, who had found so hardly dressed in the cabin in the middle of his dress so many times during this voyage. Either in her pants or in a shirt that barely reached under her ass.
" Ramon," she whispered.
" Why are you naked?" He asked in a hoarse voice.
" For what I was drinking for."
" You ..." he paused. He couldn't say the word. His mouth went dry.
Dear Aslan, why don't I have a higher position? Why do I want her so much?
" Yes. Ramon, leave before it goes wrong, before you have reason to hate me even more. Please, "she cried.
But he didn't move. He fought with himself. He longed to stay here, he longed to relieve her of her pain, her frustration. He wanted to help her. But he didn't just want to be used.
" Ramon, I'm telling you one last time, leave now," her voice grew serious. He felt her grab his knee.
" I'm not going anywhere, queen."
He poured the last drop of oil into the fire.
Lucy literally pounced on him. They were like wild animals. Unfettered, full of desires, nothing else. Under every touch of Ramon, Lucy melted away, as if her body were to calm down and satisfy just that. She defended herself for a long time.
Finally, Ramon stood up, gave Lucy one last kiss, and went to his cabin without a word. It was almost dawn.