Wake Me Up When September Ends Chapter 7: I love you damn it!, an inuyasha fanfic

Wake Me Up When September Ends

Last Time

I went back to cooking and after a few minutes, I heard a low growling. I looked towards Sesshomaru and saw him holding his head. Concerned, I went over to him. I kneeled down next to him and placed my hand on his knee. He didn't look up at me, just kept growling. I looked under his arms and saw his face contorted with pain.

"Sesshomaru, what's wrong?" I asked.

"The… memories…" he gritted out.

I watched as he took his head out of his hands and looked up at me, his eyes were blood-shot and he was breathing heavily. I held onto his upper arm, trying to steady him. His eyes rolled around in his head and I watched him, worried. His breath quickened and he looked around wildly. Suddenly his eyes rolled into the back of his head and he collapsed.

"Sesshomaru…" I cried, "SESSHOMARU!"

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This Time

Wake Me Up When September Ends

I Love You Damn it!

Kagome paced the waiting room of the hospital. She didn't call anyone; for they were all out having fun and she didn't want to worry them. Sesshomaru was in the exam room, with doctors trying to figure out why he collapsed and Kagome wasn't allowed in. It had been three hours since Kagome arrived at the hospital with Sesshomaru and she was beginning to grow impatient. What if something horrible had happened to him? What if he died? Kagome began shaking at the mere thought. She couldn't lose Sesshomaru. She refused to lose him. She growled as best as she could and kicked the nearest thing closest to her, which happened to be a thick wooden door. She cringed in pain and sat down in a chair. Pacing wouldn't let her see Sesshomaru faster.

"Miss Higurashi?"

"Hai, that's me," Kagome said shakily.

"Come with me," the nurse said.

Kagome nodded and followed the nurse out of the waiting room and into the hallway. The two walked through the intricate hallways for about five minutes until they stopped at the end of a hallway. A large door stood in the way with big black numbers on the wall off to the side. 262. Kagome had to remember that number. The nurse smiled at Kagome and opened the door. The windows were open, basking the baby blue room in warm light. Nurses and doctors stood around large machines and the bed in the center of the room. The doctors and nurses soon dispersed, leaving Kagome alone in the room with Sesshomaru.

"Oh Sesshou…" she whispered.

Kagome slowly walked up to Sesshomaru's bedside and gasped at what she saw. Sesshomaru no longer had his concealment spell on. She hadn't seen him without his concealment spell on for the longest time. She sat down on the bed next to him. The blanket was drawn to his hips and his arms rested next to his sides. Machines of all sorts were hooked up to his bare chest and Kagome had to make sure she didn't move so much so she didn't pull the wires. Picking up her arm, she traced the magenta stripes on his hips, then his wrists, then his cheeks. She paused over the blue crescent moon and gently traced it. She touched the tip of his ears and grabbed a finger, examining the claws. She began to pet his tail in a slow motion. His hair was still the same silky silver color and she was sure his eyes were the brilliant gold she knew and loved. She brought her hands to her own face and tried to hold back her tears. Her Sesshomaru was a youkai and would live for thousands more years. She was a mere human and would live only a few more decades. She couldn't take it anymore, the tears fell and she began to cry. She covered her face with her hands as she sobbed. She felt a strong pair of arms wrap around her and she looked up into the sympathetic face of Inuyasha.

"Yash!" she said, hastily wiping her tears, "What are you doing here? I thought you were spending the day with Kikyo!"

"Ya'know, I am Sesshomaru's brother," Inuyasha smiled slightly, "I'm sure the hospital would at least call me. Especially since they're our own private doctors."

"Oh yeah…" Kagome lowered her eyes a bit.

"You love him, don't you?" Inuyasha asked suddenly.

"Nani!" Kagome asked, "N-no!"

"You lie like a rug Kags," Inuyasha laughed, "Plus… Sango told me."

"Oooh Sango!" Kagome gasped, "I'll kill her!"

"There's no need for that Kagome," Inuyasha said soothingly, "Now why don't you tell me why you're crying?"

Kagome blushed once more, "Well… say Sesshomaru really does love me. He's a demon… and I'm human… it could never be…"

"Why not?" Inuyasha asked.

"Because… I'll die way before him!" Kagome snapped.

"There's ways for you to become a demon, Kagome," Inuyasha said quietly, "How do you think Kikyo became a demon?"

Kagome was silent, how did Kikyo become a demon? Kikyo was a miko before, like herself. She decided to dwell on it later; right now it didn't really matter. Sesshomaru had to wake up, he just had to. Kagome leaned against Inuyasha and he began to play with her hair. Just like old times, she thought. Yes, whenever Sesshomaru was busy, she would spend time with Inuyasha. After a few minutes, she felt herself being picked up and being placed on a warm lap. She looked up into the smiling face of Inuyasha. She smiled at him and leaned against him once more and let the comfort of his warmth and gentle touches to her hair lure her to sleep. Inuyasha watched the angel in his arms. She was an angel. His little sister, and he would protect her and keep her happy if it cost his life. She was his brother's little angel. He sighed and kissed the top of her head. Everyone knew that the two were in love, except them. He looked back towards Sesshomaru and saw him stirring. Inuyasha held his breath, maybe Sesshomaru remembered now? He heard his older brother groan and watched as his eyes fluttered open.

"Aniki!" Inuyasha said happily, "How much do you remember?"

"Remember?" Sesshomaru asked, "And pray tell, little brother, what I should be remembering?"

"Um… Kagome?" Inuyasha asked slowly.

"Of course I remember Kagome!" Sesshomaru snapped, "She was suppose to be arriving today."

"Sess… she arrived about five days ago," Inuyasha said.

"Nani?" Sesshomaru tried sitting up.

"Don't sit up!" Inuyasha snapped, "You'll hurt yourself more!"

"What are you talking about Inuyasha?" Sesshomaru snapped impatiently.

"The day she was going to come back, we were going to throw her a surprise party, remember?" Inuyasha asked.

"Hai, Hai," Sesshomaru waved a hand, urging Inuyasha to continue.

"Well, you forgot your present for her at the house so you went back to get it," Inuyasha said, "But on the way there… you got in an accident… you've had amnesia for the past five days."

"I've had… amnesia?" Sesshomaru asked, "How come I don't remember the last five days then?"

"I don't know," Inuyasha answered truthfully, "You were in the hospital for three days, released, stayed at home yesterday and spent today with Kagome."

"How is she?" Sesshomaru asked suddenly.

"A wreck," Inuyasha sighed, "Sango told me she was crying ever since she found out you got in the accident."

"Have I… caused her that much pain?" Sesshomaru whispered.

"It wasn't you that caused her pain aniki," Inuyasha said softly, "It was the asshole who hit you."

Sesshomaru stayed silent. Inuyasha knew he was thinking. Inuyasha had sent Kagura to work to find out who the hell hit his older brother. The police had told him that the guy in the truck had just gotten up and walked away. They had Identification and an address, but they just couldn't find him. It seemed as though he had just disappeared. Like he wanted nothing more then kill Sesshomaru. A small whimper brought both of them out of their thoughts. Their attention was drawn to Kagome who was moaning quietly. She had fisted her hands in Inuyasha's shirt and her face was deathly pale.

"What's wrong with her?" Inuyasha asked, moving to feel Kagome's forehead, "She's freezing!"

Sesshomaru quickly hit the nurse button on the side of his bed and soon enough, the same nurse the brought Kagome to Sesshomaru's room bustled into the room. When she saw that Sesshomaru was awake, she smiled widely and began to remove all the wires from around his chest. It took her all of about five minutes and then she turned to Sesshomaru, smiling.

"How're you feeling dear?" she asked.

"Fine," Sesshomaru grunted, "But figure out what the hell is wrong with her!"

He pointed to Kagome and the nurse's eyes widened when she saw Inuyasha trying to keep hold of the silently withering Kagome. She hurried out of Sesshomaru's room and down the hall. She came back a few minutes later with two doctors. They took Kagome from Inuyasha's arms and took her out of the room. Sesshomaru watched them, his face stotic, but his eyes filled with worry. Inuyasha and Sesshomaru stayed silent for a moment, starring at the door that the doctors took Kagome through. Sesshomaru felt a hand on his arm and looked to see Inuyasha starring at him.

"I'll go and check on her," Inuyasha said, "You stay here and get some rest."

Sesshomaru nodded slightly and watched as Inuyasha walked out of the room. He sighed softly and lay back down. He closed his eyes and was soon asleep.

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---INU POV---

I followed the sound of the Doctor's frantic yells and Kagome's shrieks of 'no'. I barred my teeth and growled at the person who would dare hurt my little sister. I ran to the room and flung open the door. The youkai doctors were standing away from Kagome while the miko doctors were trying to calm the withering woman. I began to move forward, but I felt a hand placed on my arm and looked to see one of the doctors shaking their head. My eyes bled red and I growled at them, the doctor removed his hand and I started forward. I could feel the miko energy the closer I moved to her, it was burning the hair off my arms practically. I need to find a way for her to calm down before I reached her.

"Kagome," I called, "Kagome, you need to calm down."

At the sound of my voice, she seemed to calm a bit. The miko energy surrounding her was still very dangerous to me and I stopped where I was, I couldn't get any closer. I growled at the mikos that were holding her down. They moved away from Kagome, she wasn't thrashing around, just breathing heavily. I heard her whisper my name and felt some of her control coming back.

"Kagome my angel," I said, "My dear little sister. Control yourself please. I can't get near you when your powers are so out of control. Please Kagome, you need to calm yourself."

Almost immediately, the miko powers surrounding Kagome was pulled back into her body. The doctors began to move forward and I held my hand up, growling softly at them. They seemed to get the hint and backed away. I walked closer to Kagome and saw her looking up at me, fear in her eyes. I took her hand in mine and stroked it gently. She whimpered and tried to talk, but I put my hand over her mouth.

"Don't talk," I scolded, "Now, the doctors are going to come and try to figure out what's wrong with you. I want you to stay calm. I'll be here with you."

"But Yash!" her voice was muffled and I could barely understand her.

I shook my head and I motioned for the doctors to come back over to Kagome. She whimpered and shook her head, trying to get away from the doctors. She began to scream again. I growled at her and she became quiet. They removed my hand and gave her an oxygen mask. Soon enough, she had fallen asleep. The doctors gathered their materials and cleaned up before they began to examine her. I stayed with her, holding her hand, not really paying attention to the doctors, paying more attention to the worried look etched on her face. After a little while, they stopped and turned to me. I let go of Kagome's hand and followed the main doctor out into the hallway.

"So what's wrong with her?" I asked.

"She's with a child and-"

"You're telling me that the kid she's carrying is causing this!" I growled.

"Well, in a way," the doctor said slowly.

"Explain," I demanded.

"We can't tell if it was rape or if it wasn't," the doctor began, "But she had sex with a youkai, a low class, but very powerful youkai. The youkai seemed to be an elemental, fire elemental."

"Which is bad?" I asked slowly.

"Well, for her, yes," the doctor said, "The child's fire powers are developing, killing Miss. Kagome from the inside out. Her motherly instincts are preventing her from purifying the child and saving herself. She'd rather the child be born. There are only two things we can do. One, we can remove the child and save Miss. Kagome. Or two, we can ease the pain as much as we can for Miss. Kagome and have a forced labor which would cause her to die."

"What I don't understand… is why the child is affecting her so," I said.

"The father did not mark her and she did not mark him," the doctor explained, "Therefore he did not transfer his blood to her. When a demon transfers his blood to his future mate, if she is human, she will become a demon with his abilities. Since she did not have the father's abilities, she cannot carry the child."

"Oh," I looked towards the room that Kagome was in, "So the only way to save Kagome, is to kill the child?"

"Well, yes," the doctor said quietly, "I'm sure Kagome is more important to you and your brother then caring for her child when she dies?"

I swallowed the lump that formed in my throat, "Yes… We'll do option one. Kagome will forgive me in time."

The doctor nodded and walked back into the room. He shut the door behind him, leaving me out in the hall alone. Kagome was with a child, how could they not tell? I knew that I shouldn't be bothering the doctor while he was operating, so I walked slowly back to Sesshomaru's hospital room. How would he take the news? Would he be upset with Kagome? Kagome wasn't marked, did that mean she was raped? So many questions were running through my head that I was getting confused. Before I knew it, I stood outside Sesshomaru's hospital door and walked in slowly. Sesshomaru sat up quickly and looked at me, his eyes filled with worry.

"Well?" he demanded.

"She's pregnant, Sess," I said quietly.

"N-nani?" Sesshomaru asked quietly.

"They doctor couldn't tell if she was raped or not," I explained, "She doesn't carry a mark. She had sex with a low class, fire elemental youkai. Since they didn't mark, Kagome didn't take on the youkai's abilities and can't protect herself from the child."

"So you mean… she is being courted?" Sesshomaru asked, coldly.

"I don't know Sesshomaru," I said, "You'd have to ask her."

I saw the look of utter sadness that crossed Sesshomaru's eyes and my heart went out to my older brother. I knew he would be upset with the news, but this was a little more then I expected. He held his face in his hands and let out a painful howl, as if he had just lost his mate. I cringed slightly at the heartbreak and anger that was held in that single note. He collapsed onto the bed and kept his body from shaking. I stayed by his side and watched as he slowly fell into a fitful sleep. After a few hours, Kagome was brought into the hospital room, safe and sound. The operation was successful and Kagome would be fine. I nodded my head and the doctor left. It was after a few moments that Kagome started to stir. I walked over to her bed and held her hand in mine.

"Oh yash…" she whispered, "They took my baby, didn't they?"

"If they didn't, you wouldn't have lived," I whispered, "But did you really want the child?"

"I don't care if I was raped," Kagome said softly, "It was my baby. My baby, Yash!"

"I know Kagome, I know," I whispered, pulling her into a hug as she cried.

"He's going to think I'm married or something, I'll never get to be with him," Kagome cried, "He's going to be so angry with me!"

Neither one of them heard Sesshomaru stir or notice that the demon lord woke to the last of Kagome's words.

"I love him so much, Inuyasha!" Kagome cried, "And now my baby is dead! It didn't even get a chance at life! I didn't even know if it was a boy or a girl! He's never going to forgive me!"

"Don't cry Kagome," I said, "He will forgive you! I'm sure he loves you too! Just talk to him!"

A growl escaped Sesshomaru's lips and he heard Kagome gasp. I saw her look behind me and I turned to look at Sesshomaru. He was standing behind me, growling lowly. His eyes were bleeding red and his hands were balled into fists. I felt Kagome cling to me and bury her head in my chest. Sesshomaru only growled louder and walked away, into the bathroom. After a moment, he came back out in jeans and a tee shirt and walked out of the hospital room. Kagome collapsed onto the bed, sobbing heavily.

"See! I told you he was going to be angry with me!" Kagome cried, "I told you he wouldn't forgive me! I've lost my only chance at love!"

"Don't talk like that Kagome!" I scolded, "Just let him clam down! Everything will be ok, I promise."

Kagome nodded and curled into a ball, her arms covering her stomach that was no longer baring a child. She sniffed and slowly fell asleep.

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---KAG POV---

I was released from the hospital after about four days. They had to make sure I healed on the inside before they could let me go. It had been five days since I last saw Sesshomaru. Five days since I last talked to him. Five days since my baby had been taken away. It was still hard to get over, but I knew I would have to. I walked up the stairs and to Sango's door. I opened the door and walked in. There was no surprise party this time, just Sango doing homework. When she heard the door open, her head snapped up and she ran over to me, pulling me into a tight hug.

"Oh my gosh Kags!" she cried, "I was so worried about you!"

"I'm fine Sango," I said quietly, "Still a little upset about losing my baby, but I'll live."

"But it was the baby of a rape, would you have really wanted it?" Sango asked, "You would've been reminded of the rape everyday for the rest of your life. Would you have been able to deal with that?"

"I don't know Sango, I really don't know," I whispered, "But right now, I need a hot shower and some hot coco."

"Ok, I'll make the coco and you go take a shower," Sango said, walking to the kitchen.

"Arigatou, Sango," I said gratefully.

I walked towards my room and shut the door behind me. I stripped of my clothes and walked into my bathroom. I ran the hot water and turned the shower on. After I felt that it was at a good temperature, I stepped in the shower and let the warm water wash over my body. Boy did it feel good to have a hot shower to wash away my stress. After I washed my body and hair, I stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my body and dried my hair. I walked back into my room and pulled out sweatpants and a wife beater from my drawer. I slipped on a bra and panties and put my clothes on over that. I went back into the bathroom and brushed my hair. I pulled it back into a high ponytail and walked out into the living room where Sango was waiting with hot coco.

"Here," Sango said, handing me a cup.

"Arigatou Sango," I said and took the cup, sipping quietly at it.

I sat with Sango for the next few hours, telling her everything. At around 3:00 in the afternoon, she had to go to class and I was left alone. I said goodbye and grabbed the remote to the CD player. After a moment, Nickleback blasted through the speakers. I listened to the entire CD, skipping number three. I wanted to listen to that one last. I sat on the couch, looking through old photo albums that I had taken from my dad. After awhile, the CD was over and I hit play again, skipping to number three. I began to sing along to the words that now meant so much to me.

((A/N- This song is "Someday" by Nickleback and I don't own it!))

How the hell'd we wind up like this?
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed?
Try turn the tables

I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
But don't think it's too late

Nothing's wrong
Just as long as you know that someday I will

Well I'd hope that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up staying
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Let's rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a Hollywood horror

Nothing's wrong
Just as long as you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
Gonna make it alright
But not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
Gonna make it alright
But now right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that!)

How the hell'd we wind up like this?
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And Try to turn the tables
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a Hollywood horror

Nothing's wrong
Just as long as you know that someday I will

I was silently crying by the end of the song. Then the question came to mind, why the hell was I sitting at home when I should be trying to explain to Sesshomaru what happened? I stood quickly and grabbed my keys off the counter. I opened the door and walked out, shutting and locking the door behind me. I walked down the stairs once more and out to my car. I opened the door and slid inside, shutting the door and turning the car on. I put the car in drive and pulled out of the driveway and drove to Sesshomaru's house. It was only about a twenty-minute drive and when I got there, I parked my car in his driveway. I marched to the door and knocked on it. I waited anxiously until the door opened and when it did, one of the servants answered.

"I need to speak to Sesshomaru, NOW," I demanded.

"Mr. Tama has asked me not to let anyone see him, Miss. Higurashi," the servant said.

"I don't give a damn what Sesshomaru said!" I yelled, "I want to see Sesshomaru and I'll see him now!"

The servant nodded, she knew how powerful Kagome was and what she was capable of. The servant could already see the sparks of miko energy. She moved out of the way and Kagome marched into the house and up the stairs. She walked to the library and knocked on the door.

"Go away," came Sesshomaru's voice, "This Sesshomaru does not want to be disturbed."

"I don't give a damn what you want Sesshomaru!" I said angrily, "You're going to talk to me whether you like it or not!"

I could hear the scraping of chairs and the door opened a few seconds later. Sesshomaru glared coldly at me and sarcastically let me into the library. He walked swiftly past me and sat down at his desk. I sat in the chair in front of him and waited for him to speak, my miko energy desperately wanting to purify his ass to hell. I cleared my throat and he looked up at me from his work.

"I apologize, miko," he said, "This Sesshomaru has been very busy."

"Don't pull that 'I'm higher then thou' act on me Sesshomaru!" I snapped, "You've been so cold to me ever since you found out that I was with a child!"

"This Sesshomaru does not know what you're talking about, miko," Sesshomaru snarled, "Now if that is all you have come to talk to this Sesshomaru about, I suggest you leave."

"I'm not going anywhere," I growled, "What do you think about me being with a child, Sesshomaru? Does it hurt? Are you angry? Jealous? Upset? Devastated, perhaps?"

"I have no wish to talk to you, wench!" Sesshomaru barked, "Now leave my presence at once!"

Sesshomaru got up to walk away and I stood quickly, following after him. He walked more quickly, but I was able to keep up with him, I followed him until he stopped. When he did stop, he growled in warning for me to leave. I crossed my arms over my chest and stood where I was, I wasn't afraid of Sesshomaru, nor would I ever be. He growled once more and I still stood there.

"Go ahead Mr. I've got an icicle stuck up my ass," I hissed, "Tell me what's bothering you. That of course, is if you even have the heart to do so you arrogant bastard!"

I knew I struck a cord with that statement, for Sesshomaru's eyes flashed red and before I could say another word, he had his hand around my throat and had pushed me up against the wall. I gasped for breath and tried to pry his hands off of my neck, but he wouldn't budge. I wasn't afraid of dying and I wasn't scared of Sesshomaru. I watched as his eyes began to bleed red and I stopped struggling, knowing that it would only get him angrier.

"You were with a child, therefore you were being courted," Sesshomaru spat, "And you were stupid enough to have sex and not mark him or have him mark you! You could've died! Why didn't you tell anyone that you were engaged! Why did you not tell me!"

At that moment, Inuyasha walked up the stairs and gasped at what he saw.

"Sesshomaru! Let her go! You're killing her!" Inuyasha cried.

Sesshomaru looked towards Inuyasha, then back at me, and let his arm drop to his side. I fell to the ground, coughing and trying to breath. I felt Sesshomaru's eyes on me for a moment before he started to walk way. With shaky legs, I stood up and balled my hands into fists, glaring at Sesshomaru's retreating form.

"I was raped!" I yelled, I watched as Sesshomaru froze, "I wasn't being courted, I wasn't being stupid! I didn't tell anyone I was engaged because I wasn't! And I didn't tell you because I wanted to wait until your amnesia had passed! I didn't even want you to know because I knew you were going to act like this! I've never had a boyfriend my entire life! Do you want to know why, Sesshomaru? Because I love you! I LOVE YOU DAMN IT!"

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A/N- Oh wow. I haven't updated in FOREVER. I'm so so so so sorry! My computer crashed and I lost what I had started and I didn't feel like rewriting it… and then I got a writers block… but now here I am! With the next chapter for you all! I hope you like it! Review! Please please please please review!