-I've done everything for you-
Part 2- Move Along
"You must be Marisssa,"the boy siad.
And you must be a god, i thought dreamily.
"Oh yeah i am and you are,"I casually replied trying to not to look
at the sexy boy.
"I'm Sodapop Curtis," the boy siad with a big silly grin.
"Hi," I replied shyly.
Sodapop stood up and gestured his hand infront of me to help me up. I took his
warm hand and shakily stood up. I was never that great with boys that I like.
His very touch sent me into ecstasy. The feeling was so strong and it made me so
vulnerable and weak. So happy and carefree.
So unlike myself.
"Thanks," I said and smiled up at him.
"So um we're going to a party, are you coming beacuase I think your sister is
and all my friends are," Soda casually asked.
"Sure, I guess. Where is it," I replied nonchalantly.
Faker. I know its not my fault. I can't look like a total creep infron of him though.
It's not my fault that I'm totally pshyched that I'm going to a party with Him.
"Um Tim and Curly Shepards's house," Soda explained.
As Sodapop's perfect lips mouthed the words Tim and Curly Shepard all my excitement and wonder
for the night was completly gone. And a terrible empty feeling took its place.
I looked up at Soda and frowned. Frankly i had nothing to say to him, I didn't wanna say though that
I didn't want to go to the party. Well actually I just didn't want to tell him why
I didn't want to go.
So I just looked up at him and took in all his perfect features trying to figure out what to say.
"I'll be right back kay," i mumbeled.
"Mmmmkay," Soda said smiling again.
I ran over to tessa and grabbed her by the arm and dragged her from the
group of boys swooning over her.
"Tessa! What were you thinkingI can't possibly go to this party," I hissed.
"Ohh right. Curly," Tessa abesnt mindedly replied.
"Can't we jsut do something else? The guys can come to. But can we just please not
go to this party," I begged.
"NO, you'll be fine. Just dont talk to him alright," tessa explaned rudley and walked back to the guys.
"FUCK YOU," I screamed at my sister.
I had only meant to say it in my mind but I guess it slipped out.
OOPS.
Tessa yelled back at me but I don't even knwo what she said. I was to wrapped up in my own thoughts to even care what
she said.
I've just learned to zone people out pretty good.
And it rally does come in handy at times.
Specially soc times.
I slowly made my way back to Soda, tears had accumulated in my eyes, just waiting to be set free.
I sat down beside him and held my head in my hands and quietly sobbed.
A warm hand soon grasped my shoulder.
I was gald Soda wasn't asking questions.
I was to hurt to tell him anyway.
But i knew he'd ask sooner or later.
But lets hope it's later. Much later.
Soda sat down beside me and out his arm around me. His very touch amde me feel a bit better, but i still cried.
"Whats wrong," Soda finally asked.
I didn't even know if I could answer beacuse my throat wa sos choked up my tears.
But I did manage to gasp one small word before I complelty lost it and told all my problems to a stranger.
"Everything," I gasped and started to bawl.
I wanted so badly to srop crying, it embarrassed me and made me look weak and childish.
Besides I have only cried like that 3 times before this in my life ;
1.When my dad died. 2.When my mom left. 3. When i brome up with my last boyfriend.
I broke up with my last boyfriend 2 weeks ago.
I tried to stop crying but I wasn't forceful enough and just
continued to cry and let Soda hold me.
"Soda man, you coming or what? Just leave the chick her. She'll make her way there don't worry," a deep voiced boy
bellowed.
"I'll catch up with you guys later dont worry about it. See ya," Soda replied.
I wished they'd all leave and that Soda would kiss me and make everything better.
But my wishes never come true.
So Tessa and the rest of the gang left, and I was still sitting on the curb with Soda's arm hungging me.
I finally decided to talk!
"Lissten iif yyou wannna gggo jusst ggo noww kkay," I stuttered from crying,
I was still sobbing a bit but not really crying, and glory you better bet i was glad
about that.
"Nope, not until you tell me whats wrong sweetie," Soda replied brushing away a tear.
when he called me sweetie it made me melt, and wanna just rip his clothes off.
"I jjust can't ggo," I replied coughing.
"Why not," Soda said impatiently.
"Curly Shepard," I squeaked.
"Oh why? He didn't hurt you or anything did he," SOda angrily asked.
"Kinda," I quietly said.
"What'd he do"
"He cheated on me"
I let out another sob but forced myself to remain it's composure.
"I really really liekd him, maybe even loved him. I dunno.
We went out for a little while and it was allg ood. Then he tells me he loves me
and we get more serious and then he goes and fucks my sister. I still haven't
forgiven her. But him. I've long since forgiven him, I still love him and I hate myself for it.
And to top everything off we had a chance to gte back together and I ficked it up again. See I dont tihnk
I can face him becuase i might tell him i still love him and just do someithng stupid.
See his very thought its depressing me," I explained.
"Well why don't you just think of somthing else or try and forget him," Soda asked.
"You don't get it. It was my own twin sister who he did it with and I'm always with her.
And everytime I'm with her I think of him. It's impossible to forget him.
And now you want me to go to his party and watch my sister prolly be all over him or have to have an awkward
conversation with him. I just can't do that. I can't take that uch more pain.
I could have porlly handeled it if had been anyone but Tessa. If my mom hadn't. If my daddy hadn't died.
And maybe if my sister actually cared about what she had done and cared about me and was truly sorry.
Then. Then maybe I could ahve handeled it," I wailed to Soda.
I had never told anyone that much about me, not Tessa not even my dad. No one.
And now here I was telling it to a guy that I have known for what 20 minutes?
"Oh, I'm sorry. My mom and dad are dead too. Listen I'm sure your sister
really does care she doesn't knwo how to show it. Maybe you actually need to talk to
Curly and resolve things and get things in the open so you can get over him. or back together," Soda calmly explained.
"Oh I dunno. I dont knwo how I'd hold myself together if I tried to tell him stuff.
But I guess it's worth a try," I said wearily.
I knew I probbly wouldnt end up talking to him. I'd be much to scared, but I can lie and say I will if it
makes Soda happy.
"Great," Soda yelled and smiled.
We got up and started on our way to the Shepard house.
Every step we took I was growing more scared and nrevous then ever.
I didnt know much about this boy, except that he was going to change my life foreever.
And help me gte out Curly.
I think I might have already started to.