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Summary: A drabble about… Kuchiki Byakuya (Part Two). About his love, Hisana. About Renji. About Rukia. About Ichigo.
Warning: Mostly my imagination. Manga spoilers abound.
Author notes: As this drabble became too wordy, I decided to divide it into two parts… Hope you will enjoy my drabbles :D Please read and review. That will be thankful from my part to you :)
Kuchiki Byakuya: Rules (to be kept)
Torn between duty and promise to his love, who understood his pain?
A man named Kuchiki Byakuya
He said sorry to Kuchiki Rukia. He thanked Kurosaki Ichigo for saving Rukia. This talked much about his regret and guilt for not reaching out a helping hand for her. He was confused on what to do from the moment he heard her to be executed for her crimes till now. And now he knew. He had done wrong in keeping his promise to his parents.
He had refrained from asking the Central 46 to reconsider their sentence for her. He had wanted to kill those who wanted to save her. He must have broken Hisana's heart if she were still alive. And for this, he felt the pain that he had not felt before. All because he had kept his promise to his parents.
There was hesitation on his part to kill those trying to save her. But he threw his feelings away. He forced himself. As a member of the Kuchiki family, he must have his pride as a nobleman. He should have kept his mind clear of all emotions that hinder his decisions. Ironically, it was also his emotions that forced himself to keep his promise to his parents.
He was not angry at Rukia for committing felony in the living world actually. But as captain of Gotei 13 Division Six and head of the Kuchiki family, he should be angry. And he forced himself for the first time… It pained him but his pride did not allow him to show of his pain. And no one knew.
The white scarf he left on Abarai Renji's 'body' after he crippled him was not to cover him in his death. But a signal for Gotei 13 Division Four captain Unohana to come and heal his wounds. He would not want this vice captain of his to die. The resolve in Renji's wish to save Rukia threatening to change his mind that he would not accept. And acted disgusted at Renji. When it was at himself, disgusted in him, a man who had not cared a notch for his sister.
He had not wanted to show any of his weakness to others. He had used anger to cover up his hesitation. Using arrogance to escape from tough questions asked for him. He had no courage to go against rules. All because of his promise to his parents. Of his duty as the head of Kuchiki family, as a captain in Gotei 13. Yet all these were used to cover up his lack of resolve to save her. For this, he felt disgusted in himself…
Kurosaki Ichigo's reason for being angry at him was what he only could understand from him. What he did not understood was his reasons for wanting so much to save Rukia. Who was Rukia to him for him to sacrifice his life for her safety? Blocking her from Soukyoku's kill to Rukia. She's just a person whom he had met for just months, not like him knowing her for more than 40 years.
Kuchiki Byakuya was jealous of Ichigo. And he got angry because of this. And he wished to kill him. This reason of himself disgusted him even more.
He could not show his weakness to Ichigo and Renji, but did so to Anzai, Gin and his accomplices. He saved Rukia in front of their eyes. He took the hit for her. He collapsed on her. He did not look like a proud shinigami but an injured one. Not of a noble of the Kuchiki family but just a normal man protective of his sister. His pride as a nobleman was put down in front of the enemies, not to his 'allies' in saving her…
Owari