1Ok...well..this is just another story about Cloud being depressed about Aerith and even though he is with Tifa he still feels like crap and all that. Now I am not a big fan of Cloud being depressed over Aerith because well she isnt one of my favorites...

Anyway the song is Goodbye for Now by P.O.D. which is reallygood.(lyrics are in bold...)

I don't own anything...they belong to Square and the people who ummmmm own the song.

And the titles horrible..so sorry.

Whole heart, Restless mind----

He couldn't sleep. He never could. Even though his lover lay next to him, his mind wandered.

Just like every other night.

I can still see the light
at the end of the tunnel shine
through the dark times
even when I lose my mind

But it feels like no one
in the world is listening
and I can't ever seem
to make the right decisions

I walk around in the same haze
I'm still caught in my same ways
I'm losing time in these strange days
but somehow I always know
the right things to say

Cloud got up from his bed, trying not to wake the girl beside him. He looked over his shoulder at Tifa, just lying there, peaceful. He gently brushed a strand of hair out of her face, letting his hand linger on her soft skin.

I don't know what time it is
or whose the one to blame for this
Do what I believe what I can't see
And how do you know
which way the wind blows

Cause I can feel it all around
I'm lost between the sound
And just when I think
I know, there she goes

Goodbye for now (I'm not the type to say I told you so)Goodbye for now
So long (I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin go)

He loved Tifa, there was no doubt about that. But that feeling of guilt, it constantly pushed him away from her. He didnt want it to, and he knows what he needs to do...he knows that he needs to talk to Aerith. Everyone tells him that it wasn't his fault and that he went for her. But he needs to hear Aerith say that, and he cant sleep until he does.

When will we sing
A new song
A new song

We're still smilin as the day goes by
and how come nobody
ever knows the reasons why
Burry you deep so far
you can't see

If you're like me
who wears a broken
heart on your sleeve

But he knows that leaving Tifa, especially face to face, would kill her. But he needs to be with her, and to do that, he needs to leave. So he put on a shirt and grabbed his shoes and headed for his bedroom door. He stopped and took one last look at his angel. He literally felt his heart sink, but he had no other choice.

Pains is troubles that
you know so well
Either time don't
It can't or you just won't tell

I'm not the type to say
I told you so
I think the hardest part
of holding on is lettin it go

I don't know what time it is
or whose the one to blaim for this
Do what I believe what I can't see
And how do you know
which way the wind blows

He quietly walked out and went downstairs. He grabbed a pen and a piece of paper. As he picked up the pen he felt his hand cramp, as if trying to stop him...but he couldn't. He had absolutely no clue what to write. "Sorry, gotta go see dead girl for forgiveness, be back whenever, love ya.." He couldn't. She's sensitive...so he just wrote what he felt.

Cause I can feel it all around
I'm lost between the sound
And just when I think I know
there she goes

Goodbye for now
Goodbye for now
So long

Goodbye for now (I'm not the type to say I told you so)
Goodbye for now
So long (I think the hardest part of holdin on is lettin it go)

Teef,

When you get this, I'll already have left. I'm so sorry, I never meant to hurt, ever. But for me to rest, and love you fully..I need to do this. I promise I wont be gone long, so please wait for me.

I cant loose you, and thats why im doing this. I know it sounds screwed up but it's the only way.

I love you...please wait for me.

Always yours, Cloud.

And you can sing until
theres no song left (song left)
And I can scream until
the world goes deaf (goes deaf)

For every other word
left unsaid you should
have took the time to
read the sign and
see what it meant

In some ways everybody
feels alone so if the
burden is mine then
I can carry my own

And with that, he left...left his home and the girl who was his life. He never knew that a person could have a whole heart, yet a restless mind.

If joy really comes
in the morning time
then I'm gunna sit backand wait until the
next sun rise

Goodbye for now
Goodbye for now
So long

Goodbye for now (I'm no the type to say I told you so)
Goodbye for now
So long(I think the hardest part of holdin on is lettin it go)

Thank god that is done. I seriously wrote this in a matter of like 30 minutes, so if it sucks that is why. It just came to mind, so I hoped you liked it. And the song is defiantly a kick ass song.

CloTi forever! Thanx for reading..and plz R&R...

-hanyou4ever-