14th May
On this stay in Florida Jeff and I made sure our rooms were next door to each others. Although we made a promise between ourselves that what happened was a mistake and that it could never happen again. Jeff knew I was in love with my boyfriend very much and didn't want me to ruin anything, plus he decided that he's rather not have me at all than have to share me with someone, he couldn't deal wit the fact that there was somebody waiting for me once I got home.
It was kind of awkward at the show, we had to kiss during a promo, I was extremely uncomfortable doing it, I scared myself when I realised that I was no longer kissing Jeff professionally and was kissing him as though I'd been missing him all week. I almost through up after wards. The stage guy had said that we had done really well and were making things look really believable to the fans… that's because it was real for Christ sake! I can't believe that this is happening.
Jeff and I headed back to the hotel together, we were more or less silent for the whole of the way home, I daren't say a word and I can't imagine that Jeff was feeling the same way. We eventually made it up to our rooms and it was time to say goodbye.
"I guess I'll see you in the morning then?"
"Ha morning Jeff Hardy I've been sharing hotels with you for ages now I know you don't get up until at least midday!" I laughed breaking the tension slightly.
"You're so funny…" he replied sarcastically.
"Goodnight then Hardy boy…" I said as I unlocked my room door.
"Sweet dreams beautiful…"
I closed the door leaving Jeff alone out in the hallway; my heart was beating so fast I thought it was going to beat right out of my chest. I sighed to myself as I leaned back against the door that I had just closed; now I could here the TV in Jeff's room. I shook my head of any thoughts I was having of Jeff and went into my bathroom to get ready for bed.
Current Day
You wouldn't believe how much Jeff Hardy had infected me, after just spending that one night together he was in my head. I couldn't stop thinking about him. All week while I was at my home in Chicago Jeff was the only think going through my mind! I was driving me crazy!
14th May
I stretched out in bed and rubbed my eyes before looking at the time on my cell phone, I'd actually only been asleep for a coupe of hours. I sat up in bed and hugged my knees and sighed, Jeff's TV was off now, he must be asleep I thought to myself. Once again I woke up to the immediate thoughts of him. I just had to see him, it was no use. I didn't bother changing, I couldn't wait any longer, so dressed in white shorts and a black tight vest I grabbed my key card and opened my room door. I stuck my head to see if anyone was about, there wouldn't be though would there, it was 2 in the morning after all. I stepped out barefooted and closed the door quietly behind me then tip toes to the room next door. I took a deep breath and let it out slowly before I knocked on his door, I waited for minute or two but I heard no movement from inside. I knocked again, only this time a little bit harder and waited again. I gasped as this time I heard someone walking towards the door.
"Ryan?" Jeff whispered sleepily, rubbing his eyes from the bright lights from the hall. "What are you doing here?"
I couldn't answer, the words just wouldn't leave my mouth, I wanted to say something but just couldn't. Instead I flung my arms around him… Jeff lifted me up by my waited and we kissed as if we were lovers that had been separated for years.
Current Day
That was one of the most exhilarating kisses of my entire life, I didn't want it to end.