15th May
I woke up all of a sudden and sat up, I realised where I was and what I had done. "Oh my God I can't believe this happened," I said out loud, seeing Jeff lying in the bed next to me.
"Ryan?" Jeff yawned, waking up.
"I can't believe I've been this stupid! Why have I let this happen?" I was so mad at myself I could have slammed my head right against the wall… hard! I got out of bed and began rushing around to find my clothes.
"Ryan baby just calm down, just relax for a minute."
I suddenly stopped in my tracks and snapped my head around to look at him, "Don't you tell me to calm down Jeff Hardy, and don't you fucking call me baby, I am not your baby!" as soon as the harsh, fiery words had left my mouth I continued with getting ready.
Current Day
Nothing else was said between us that day, I left his room straight and then I left Florida. My flight back to Chicago wasn't for hours but I couldn't take seeing Jeff any longer, I felt as if I was being suffocated, I just had to get out of there.
15th May
I arrived home at 9:45pm; I unlocked the door and went inside to me greeted by the smell of food. "Honey? I'm back!" I yelled as I dumped my bag on the floor at the bottom or the stairs.
"In the kitchen Ryan!" I heard the soothing, familiar voice yell.
"Hey…"
"You're just in time." He told me excitedly as he rushed over to give me a kiss.
"What's all this Mark?"
"I made you dinner, I know what you're like when you get home, you're tired, restless and need unwinding so I thought I'd help the process by cooking you your favourite dinner."
I looked him in the eyes and smiled, just think how crushed he'd be if he found out about what I had been doing, I was the worst girlfriend ever, "You're too good too me, you know that?" I sighed, wrapping my arms around his waist.
"It all because I love ya. Now sit down, every things almost ready."
Current Day
Jesus Christ, I'm the biggest bitch ever, how could I have let this happen! That was it though; nothing ever again could happen with Jeff Hardy. I made the decision and I was sticking to it, I could never hurt Mark, he's the love of my life for Christ sake!
15th May
"Are you okay honey? You've hardly said two words all night." Mark asked me once we had got into bed.
"Yeah I'm alright, just warn out I guess."
Current Day
Mark wanted to have sex with me that night, I managed to make my excuses though, and there was no way I could have gone through with it.
15th May
I rolled over and looked at the clock next to my bed for the 17th time, we had been in bed for 5 hours almost and I hadn't got a wink of sleep. I got out of bed as quiet as I could, trying not wake Mark.
As I got my self a bottle of water out from the fridge I abruptly spotted my cell phone plugged into the charge. I closed the refrigerator door and went and picked it up. I pressed on of the buttons to light it up… 5 missed calls and 1 new voice message.
I knew I was Jeff, I jumped up and sat on the kitchen counter and dial the voicemail number.
"Ryan… Hey it's Jeff, please don't be mad for me calling you but I had to do something. I know what we did was wro…" I turned off the phone and slammed it back down on the side, the tears just came automatically, thinking about what had done made me wanna be sick.