Current Day
It was difficult working with Jeff after what had happened, he'd try and get me to talk to him whilst we were working, I refused though, I just couldn't handle being with him. The way I made it was do the match, do the promo then leave… try and avoid any possible outside contact with the Charismatic Enigma. Jeff made it worst by trying so hard, but I think what I was doing was working, well to a certain extent anyway.
4th June
Today was one of the backstage guys birthday, Ted had been here forever so everyone knew him pretty well. A few of us were going to meet up after the show and have a few drinks. Usually nowadays I go straight home, getting the earliest possible flight, but I knew Ted well so decided to stay the night so I could have a few birthday drinks with him and the others.
I wrestled in my tag team match with Jeff and luckily we didn't have a promo or anything to shoot. By now I think he'd got the message of how uncomfortable I was when he was around, he decided to keep his distance.
"Aww Ryan that top looks real nice on you." Gail complimented once I had showered and changed.
"Thanks Gail, are you coming out tonight for this drinking session?" I asked her hoping she'd say yes.
"Oh yeah I'm coming, but I'm not staying for long though, I've got an early flight in the morning."
I nodded, "oh right…"
"Ryan are you okay, you've been really distant with everyone these last couple of weeks, is everything alright?"
"Yeah I'm fine, everything's fine."
"You know I'm always here for you if you need to talk."
"Yeah I know, thankyou Gail." I replied with a smile.
"Right well I'm gonna change then." She announced, touching my shoulder as she walked past.
Current Day
Everyone was so nice to me at TNA everyone always had been, we were all really close. But that the time I just didn't feel like talking to anyone. I just pushed people away. I've made the mistake of doing this before when I was at high school, things got too much for me any I ended up pushing every single one of my friends away, and I became the loaner of the school. And I know I know TNA is totally different to school… it stop me feeling the same way though.
4th June
We were all drinking in a club just down the road from the hotel that most of us were staying at. It was loud and busy and a lot of fun, well for everyone else at least.
"Here…"
I looked up from where I was sitting to see Jeff towering over me; he placed a drink down on the table in front of me and then sat down in the chair next to me. "Thanks…" I replied quietly.
"I was gonna ask you to dance but I'm guessing you won't think it's a very good idea."
"Why are you doing this Jeff?" I snapped.
"Doing what?"
"Pursuing me like this…"
"Pursuing you?"
"Yeah why can't you leave me alone?"
"Er lets just think here for a minute Ryan, you remember it was you who came to my room that night don't you?"
"Yes as much I don't want to remember it, I do. Sleeping with you Jeff Hardy was the biggest mistake of my life! I've gotta get out of here, say bye to the others for me." I told him, quickly getting up and grabbing my jacket.
Current Day
I remember still to this day what it felt like to get out of that night club; it was killing me in there.
4th June
"Ryan wait!" I heard Jeff yell from behind me. I didn't stop. He ran and caught up with me and followed me into our hotel.
"Please don't do this Jeff."
"Ryan I think we should really talk about this properly, like adults." He told me as I walked fast through the lobby, Jeff hot on my heels. I pressed the button to call the elevator hard.
"I really can't Jeff." I replied pushing it again and then again.
"This is killing you Ryan and seeing you like this is killing me."
The elevator doors opened and I went inside, Jeff followed. "Jeff please…" I said as tears began to trickle from my eyes. Jeff took hold of my face and looked at me closely in the eyes, I tried to get away but he was way to strong for me.
"Ryan…" he whispered. Hearing him whisper my name like that sent chills down my spine. He looked at me for a second or two… then we kissed.