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Marinette couldn't sleep.

It's not as if she wasn't trying to, oh no, she was exhaustion. But the actions of Chat Noir kept replaying in her head.

The way his lips burned her skin whenever he kissed her hand. The way his hands pushed her body against his and slowly reached for her waist.

She shivered. This wasn't caused by desire or passion, but more like disgust. Not towards Chat Noir, but towards herself. She felt bad every time she had to reject her partner. She knew it hurt him, but it's not as if she could force herself to love him, right ? Or to fake love him. No. She couldn't do that to her kitty. But deep down, Marinette felt that each time she rejected Chat Noir's love, something tipped. She couldn't pinpoint what it was, this strange feeling growing inside her. She more and more had thoughts about just giving up. To Chat Noir, to being Ladybug. It's as she was trapped inside a loop. The more she turned down the black masked hero, the more it tipped and the more she wanted to give up.

A tear suddenly rolled down her cheek.

"Marinette, are you crying ?" rhetorically asked Tikki.

The brunette sniffled, as more tears came down rolling.

"It's fine Tikki, don't worry, I just had a bad dream." Weakly said Marinette.

The red Kwami sighed, knowing her holder was lying. She flew and gently positioned herself on Marinette's lap.

"Is it because of Chat Noir ? Do you still think about what he did ?"

She sensed her tensed under her.

"No, no Tikki, it's not about him… it's… it's… Oh Tikki !" Marinette suddenly broke down, trying to stay as quiet as possible, to not wake up her parents. "I… I feel bad every time I reject him… I don't like to hurt people, it's not fair for him, why did he have to fall in love with someone who doesn't love him back ? With me ?! There is so much better than me, I can't even understand how he fell for me…" cried out the thin girl.

"Mari, you are an amazing person, inside and outside. Chat Noir has every reason to love you, you're brave, you're selfless, you're always put Paris' needs before your very own, to every choice you make, you always come last. I don't know anyone who could do a better job at being Ladybug than you. I know it's hard to keep your hero persona hidden and that is why I'm here for you. You can talk to me whenever you want." Responded the red Kwami.

Marinette stopped sniffling and took Tikki in her hands, giving her a hug with her cheeks. The duo shared a bonding moment before separating.

"Thank you Tikki. I needed to hear that."

"Anytime Mari, smiled Tikki. Do you want to talk about the situation with Chat Noir to Master Fu ?"

"No, no need to bother him with that. I can handle it on my own."

"I'm worried for you Marinette, who knows what he could do next…" explained the Kwami of the Creation.

"It's going to be fine, don't worry. Plus, I can't let my hero problems flow down on my civilian side." Answered back the brunette.

"If you say so…"

"Let's go back to sleep, we're going to need it for tomorrow. Love you Tikki."

"I love you Marinette."

"Fuck you Mari-trash."

"Why are you even here ? Aren't you ashamed ?"

"Just get lost, loser."

As Marinette dragged her tired body to the back of the class, insults and sneaky remarks were thrown her way. She sat, ignoring the best she could all those word that were hurting her. She sighed and bite her lips to prevent tear from falling. She felt something nudged her. It was Tikki giving her comfort. The brunette lightly squeezed the little mass through her clothes, as to reassure her Kwami she was fine. Fine enough to not let an Akuma get to her.

She put her books on the desk, waiting for class to start. She was intensely hoping no one would come see her before the beginning of the lesson. She couldn't deal with someone right now, as her mind was preoccupied with Chat Noir's behaviour. Her prayers were not answered.

A hand suddenly slammed on her books, startling her. She slowly raised her eyes to her classmate.

"Good morning Alix. How may I help you ?"

"As if you could help anyone with your sorry ass." Marinette clenched her teeth. So fuck Ladybug right ?

"If you have nothing interesting to tell me, could you please leave me alone ?" she dryly replied.

"Wow, I see the kitty is baring its teeth ! Relax, I just wanted to ask why the fuck you're still coming." Loudly said Alix.

"What do you mean ?"

"Tch. Don't act all innocent. Ah ! I can't stand this arrogance of yours. After all you've done to Lila…"

"I have said it before and I'll say it again, what you accuse me of, I've never done it."

Slap. The room felt silent. Her left cheek started to sting, her ear started to ring. She bit so hard her tongue to not cry from humiliation and anger that she made herself bleed. Everyone stared at the girls.

"Don't fucking deny what you've done Marinette. You're nothing but a bully. You're-"

Alix was cut by Mrs. Bustier's entrance. She was visibly out of breath.

"Good morning everyone. Sorry I'm late, there was a bit of traffic. Anyway, everybody to your seat please !"

The short girl glared one last time at Marinette, before rejoining her seat.

Marinette released her breath, relieved that her teacher finally came. She wiped with a tissue some blood that had escaped her closed lips. She didn't dare to look up, as she was hurting really bad. Her heart was breaking a little more each day she spent at school, while her mind did everything it could to glue back the pieces that were falling.

Aside Tikki and Chat Noir, she had no one close to talk to. She had been alone for so long now.

When did it started ? She couldn't even remember when everyone started to hate her. It was all blurry. But one thing she knew for sure was that it was because of Lila's lies. Because of it, Marinette lost almost everything. Her friends, her reputation. What Lila had predicted, it happened. She took precious persons away from her. And Marinette could only watch it happens. She had no proof to prove Lila wrong and more importantly, Adrien told her to not stand up to the Italian girl, as he was fearing Lila could be akumatized again. As she was head over heels for the model, she agreed and stopped defending herself. She stopped refuting Lila's lies. She just let it happened.

But now, the more she thought about it, the more she regretted not standing u for herself. Because now, it was all too late to try to make justice for her.

No one would believe her.

She took her sketchbook, flipping through its pages. The last sketch she drew was from months ago. When the lies began, her inspiration disappeared. She grieved for this loss for sketching was one thing she did to escape reality. Now that it was gone, all she had to busy herself was to do homework. She was a straight A student so it never was a bother. But before, she didn't have time to work properly on it as she was either hanging out with her friends and helping them or saving Paris. Now that she was alone, she had all the time in the world to do it.

She suddenly felt Tikki lay on her left shoulder, resting herself against her neck. It has became a habit of the red Kwami to do that whenever Marinette was confronted by her former friends. She did a skin to skin contact, as if to tell Marinette she was here and that she was strong.

The brunette was very grateful for her little friend. She lightly smiled and tilted her head, meaning a 'thank you' hug.

"-nette ! Marinette !"

Said girl jolted at the sudden mention of her name. Tikki retracted herself in her shirt as her holder looked up.

"Yes Mrs. Bustier ?"

"Could you please take Lila to the nursery ? She said she's not feeling well." Said the teacher.

Marinette tensed up at the mention of Lila. She was in no way prepared to deal with this liar's bullshit. But she took upon herself and swallowed back her uneasiness, weakly smiling at the teacher.

"Sure."

She and Lila got up, but on her way to the front of the class, she tripped over something and landed face first on the stairs, edges badly bruising her ribs. She winced in pain, quickly getting up, red from shame but noticing Alix's foot ducking under her desk. She sighed.

Lila immediately rushed to her side.

"Oh my god Marinette ! Are you alright ? That was a pretty bad fall."

Marinette shrugged her off, dusting herself.

"I'm fine Rossi, We should go. Thanks for your concern tho."

Lila looked as if she was offended and hurt from the brunette's words and actions. Tears appeared into her eyes. Marinette internally sighed. She knew better that those tears were faked. And what was she going to complain of ? She couldn't possibly reject Lila any nicer, could she ?

"Why must you push me off ? I was only trying to be nice !" cried Lila.

"That's right Marinette, why did you reject Lila's help ? She's not feeling well and she still thought of you ! That's selfish !" shouted Alya, coming to the rescue of a wheeping Italian.

The brunette pinched her nose, not really wanting to deal with this situation again. She couldn't help but thought that Lila as exaggerating a bit here. She sighed once again.

" 'kay 'kay, sorry, my bad Rossi. Shouldn't have been so harsh. Now, do you still want to go to the nursery or are you feeling better ?" dryly asked Marinette.

"My headache is really killing me…" winced the tan girl, as she held her head in her hands.

"Let's go."

On those words, the tallest girl took, as gently as she could, the arm of the smallest one, suppressing a wave of disgust and lead them both to the door. Once closed and out of the classroom, Lila immediately dropped her act and yanked herself from Marinette's hands. A mischievous smirk came to her face.

"I've seen you more ferocious towards me. Did you finally understand you could do nothing ? I've taken your friends and your reputation."

"None of your business Rossi."

"No need to be so aggressive. You know, you just have to believe me like those brainless sheep and all is well that ends well. You're going to have friends again. Teachers won't treat you unfairly." Said the Italian girl in a sickly sweet voice.

"You know what Rossi ? You can go rot in Hell, for all I care." They arrived at the nursery. "Seems like we've arrived. Please rest well." Sarcastically replied Marinette, before going back to class.

Lila squinted her eyes. "I'm going to break you, you stupid girl."

None of the girls noticed that someone heard everything.

Reviews's answers

AthenaRavenclaw07 : I LOVE THIS! please write some more-it's really good

Thank you very much, I appreciate your review. I am very sorry for the wait between chapters, but it is a bit difficult to balance my studies with my writing. I will do my best and hope you will appreciate my next chapters.

There will be slight spoilers of my fiction below, skip if you don't want to read it.

Toshiro of the Eternal Dream : Please mention this Adrien/Chat Noir Bashing and Salt in your summary, because otherwise i would've avoided this garbage story, because it's really warping the issues and portraying he only good character in the wrong while glorifying the one character who already doing/done wrong things *stalking, breaking and entering, stealing, honest physical and verbal abuse, gaslighting, etc.* as if she is okay.

Unless you intend to drag Marinette down like you are doing Adrien, please don't bother replying to me. but do update your summary, so people can avoid this if they don't want to read salt/bashing.

Perhaps go to Ao3, they have legit tag option which helps you find readers who want to read this and avoid people who don't. I'm trying be nice and i know it's going to fail, but this way you can also avoid worse people who will comment

If I don't mention salt, it means there will be no salt, at least, coming from Adrien/Chat Noir. If you wanted a spoiler, you could have just said, it would have been quicker. As much as I enjoy reading Adrien/Chat Noir salt, I don't personally fancy it while writing my fictions. This means there is a reason behind Chat Noir's behaviour, I'm not just portraying him as a heartless jerk. Every character has a reason behind their behaviour. Even Lila.

I completely understand where you are coming from, glorifying Marinette while her behaviour in the show is creepy. Rest assured, she is human and human makes mistakes. Some own it up, some don't. I'll let you guess which one is for Marinette.

I didn't take your review personally, but maybe just don't immediately say that one's fanfiction is "garbage" just because you didn't like it/didn't like the lack of warning for salt that has no reason to be.

But hey, thanks for taking the time to comment, I appreciate.

PS : Toshiro is my favorite character in Bleach ! Your username is sick.

I hope you like this chapter. I wrote it during my classes, because my teacher explained the same thing for ten times, so it gets a bit repetitive haha.

Again, if you do see some errors, don't hesitate to tell me.

I DO NOT OWN ANY CHARACTERS NOR THE SHOW « Miraculous : Tales of Ladybug and Cat Noir ». It is for entertainment only.

Stay safe.

Bugs out ! 🐞