Chapter 4 - If I Only Knew

Kagome had gone back home, as Inuyasha did so.

Inuyasha was on his way home, walking unlike usual.

One step, he was one step closer to his doorknob.

Two steps, he approached even closer.

Three steps, the door had opened.

As Inuyasha suddenly opened the door, there was a girl ahead of him. Her hands on her hips, big smile on her face.

"Inuyasha !" She shouted, swinging her arms around Inuyasha.

Inuyasha had stood still as he questioned himself.

Who the hell..

The girl raised an eyebrow, "Don't you remember me ?"

Inuyasha began to scratch his head.

Do I remember her.. who is this..

The girl tittered, giving Inuyasha a nudge, "Duh, it's me. Kikyo !"

Inuyasha stood silent, shocked and heart racing fast.

Isn't she supposed to be dead !

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FLASHBACK

"Inuyasha help !" A girl named Kikyo shouted, being carried away by a man.

"Kikyo !" Inuyasha shouted, trying feriously to attack and catch up to the man & Kikyo.

He couldn't make it in time. The man with a shadowed face smirked as he picked Kikyo up by her shirt collar and raised her to the edge of a cliff.

"Everyone around you, I swear, I will kill, everyone, around you." The mysterious stranger taunted.

Inuyasha ran, trying to attack the man, but he was yet a human, because it was the night of the new moon.

The man snickered evily as he let go of Kikyo's collar and dropped her, drop the cliff.

Inuyasha reached out at the cliff, trying to catch her arm but, he couldn't.

"Kikyo !" He yelled, tears streaming down his cheeks.

As he turned back, the man had disappeared, and the only sound that was heard was the echoing of Kikyo's voice, yelling out his name.

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"..K-K..Kikyo !" Inuyasha shouted, eyes widening with fear.

Kikyo began to let down a little frown, "I-It's been so long.. did you.. forget about me ?"

Inuyasha stood still for a second, then shook his head, "No.. N-No.. Never !"

Inuyasha hugged Kikyo tightly, "I thought.. I thought you died.."

Kikyo hugged Inuyasha back as she shook her head, "What.. What are you talking about ?"

Inuyasha let Kikyo go, "You.. You don't remember ?"

Kikyo began to think, "Umm.. No I don't."

Inuyasha was surprised, "Don't you remember that man.. he.. he threw you off the.."

Kikyo snorted, laughing, "Oh Inuyasha, what an imagination you have !"

Inuyasha shook his head.

What ? It wasn't real ? What ?

Kikyo giggled, "Duh, it was probably just a dream. I told you I was going to California, remember ?"

Inuyasha had remembered no such. He was confused and very uncertain. He knew that couldn't just have been a dream..

He still remembered when he asked for that search party, and found her dead body at the end of a stream inbetween the two cliffs.

Inuyasha ran for the door.

"Where are you going Inuyasha ?" Kikyo yelled.

Inuyasha turned around, "Just.. stay here for a bit. I'll be back."

Inuyasha ran off and closed the door as Kikyo stood puzzled, "Kay.."

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Inuyasha ran to the nearest hospital, the one that Kikyo was brought to to be recovered for her funeral.

"Doctor ! Doctor !" Inuyasha yelled, running around the hospital floor.

As he turned the corner, he ran into a nurse, "Sorry !" He yelled as the nursed nodded and shifted her clothes back together.

Inuyasha ran into the waiting room and was able to find a free doctor.

"Doctor ! I need you to find the file on Kikyo Hitskunage !" Inuyasha shouted as he gripped onto the doctor.

The doctor backed Inuyasha off as he nodded, "Calm down calm down. I will do so."

The doctor had brought Inuyasha to the room of the file cabinets as he told him to wait at the door.

The doctor entered the huge, file covered room as he went into the "H" section and found Kikyo's file.

"This is confidential. Most doctors wouldn't do this but it seems important, so go ahead." The doctor stated with a smile.

Inuyasha nodded and let out a thanks as he began to search through the file.

"Kikyo.. Hitskunage.. Date of birth.. Death... ..." Inuyasha stood silent, stunned. There was no record of Kikyo ever being in the hospital, except for when she one broke her arm.

"No doctor, this isn't what I'm looking for ! Kikyo Hitskunage, died from falling off a cliff ! I know she did, but.." Inuyasha yelled, going a slight mad.

The doctor smirked nervously, "It's probably just your imagination. If the file says otherwise then it never happened. Okay ?"

Inuyasha gave the doctor the file, giving a blank stare as he sprinted off.

He doesn't have the answers I need ! I need answers !

Inuyasha ran out the door as he suddenly bumped into a girl. He grabbed onto her so she would balance and sighed out a sorry.

The girl looked up, as Inuyasha took a good look, "Kagome !"

Kagome smiled, "Hi Inuyasha !"

Inuyasha looked around, "What are you doing here !"

Kagome giggled as she sniffled a little, "I'm getting my eyes examined, as my usual monthly check. And you ?"

Inuyasha smiled as he shook he head and gave Kagome a peck on the cheek, "Don't worry about it, I'll see you real soon !"

Inuyasha sprinted off, leaving Kagome dazzled.

As Inuyasha got home, Kikyo had left. She wasn't there any longer.

Did I just.. make up Kikyo's whole death ?

Inuyasha thought to himself as he sat himself on his sofa, hands on his head.

Inuyasha shook his head, and his thoughts off.

No.. that man.. I swear, he wasn't just.. something I could have made up ! My parents, gone, then Kikyo, and then no one left that I loved.. What does he want ? I'm not crazy.. Why would I be ?

Inuyasha couldn't think any longer. He needed to forget about all of this. But what about Kikyo ? How could he break it to her that he had fallen in love with another girl ? Would she be able to take it all ?

Inuyasha knew what he had to do. He had to just ignore Kikyo, like she DID die, and he needed answers.

Who was that man ? What did he want ? And why is he messing with him ? He couldn't just forget all that happened, even if it was, all his imagination.

Suddenly he finally remembered. Both his parents, had been told to die in a car accident. Was that all truth ? Or was it he who struck again ? Why, was he so special, and why did they/he want HIM ?

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The conflict had started to build ! I had another idea for this story at first, but I decided this conflict would work much better. Well if you wanted to know, the other conflict was Kagome thought Inuyasha cheated on her, then she commits suicide, but then she didn't actually die yadayadaya. This is much better, is it not ? Well enjoy the reading, will update really soon.

-Janie