Kat present day
It had been several months since the Dominique incident. Not a day had gone by without me thinking about her words to me. I kept telling myself that soon I would forget the pain of it all but day after day I thought about her. I kept asking myself why. "Why, cant you just stop thinking about her. Why is she so important to you now. Why do you care about her.
I would wake up in the middle of the night thinking about her. Was it guilt, I couldn't figure it out. After a few sleepless nights, I decided I needed someone to help me figure out what was going on with me.
One night, I was so tired from not sleeping I picked up my phone and called Dominique's cell phone. Dom picked up and said "Kat." In that moment I got so scared I hung up on her. I was relieved she did not call me back, I felt ashamed. But not as an ashamed as I was when I woke up from a dream where I had been having intense sex with Dominique. It had been amazing, I made love to her over and over again. I woke up a sweaty mess. I was so confused after that dream. Did I have feelings for Dominique. I had never felt anything before or at least I thought I hadnt.
I had kissed her over and over again on set, touched her in places, been nude with her and never really felt like I had romantic feelings for her. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed kissing her and touching her. Dominique is a very attractive woman and she is so innocent and sweet. I loved that about her since the first time we met.
I was losing my mind. I needed help. Maybe after seeing her with someone else I realized that I was jealous. Problem is I am a married woman, I cant be jealous.