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Just Skywalker and Kenobi
Padme used to tell me about the legend of Skywalker and Kenobi that the children would tell each other. We were invincible, or so they believed. We could do no wrong. We would always be there in the nick of time to save everyone. How I long for those days. When we were just Skywalker and Kenobi.
We were the best of friends. Our relationship was so much more than master and padawan even before I became a Jedi knight. What changed? Why couldn't I believe that you would keep our secret if you knew? Padme begged me many times to tell you. I almost did so many times. But one thing stopped me. Fear.
"The hero that knew no fear," did you know that was what they called me? That's a laugh. I was the one who could not control the fear, who needed to be in control of everything around me so that I wasn't afraid.
I don't know if Yoda told you, but I went to him about the dreams I was having. I couldn't tell him what they were really about, only that they were about someone I loved dying. All he had for me was, "Learn to let go, what you fear to lose." What did he know about it? Who has he ever loved and lost?
It is not an excuse for what I did, master, for nothing could ever excuse that. I will take the horror of what I have done to the grave and know my reign of terror will hopefully die with me. You may not believe this, master, but what I have done to others is in no way comparable to what I did to you. The brother I longed to know. The father I never had. You would have understood, I am sure, the horror of death and the fear that it will happen again. After all, I remember what you were like after Qui-Gon died. It doesn't matter what Jedi are supposed to believe when it is your emotions involved.
When you walked away from me on Mustafar, I nearly begged you to come back. There I was buring to death on the lava sands feeling the weight of your sadness as well as my own failure. Yes, I failed. Failed to protect you and Padme. Failed to defeat my fear and fell into a horrible trap that I would never get out of. I tried to call out, but I could not even hear my own voice and knew that you would have ignored it anyway if you had heard. I had hurt my brother beyond all hope of forgiveness. Your last words to me will haunt me forever, "I loved you like a brother, but I couldn't save you."
How could you have saved me when I never gave you the chance? Skywalker and Kenobi, together we were invincible. I know that you were always telling me not to get cocky, but I always believed it. I wish we could go back to the old days. Just Skywalker and Kenobi fighting against the injustices of the Republic. Just Skywalker and Kenobi together to the end. Just Skywalker and Kenobi...