A/N: This is for the RPS 2021 Numbers game. The pairing is Lily/Fabian with past Lily/James. It's also in first person which isn't my strongest.
I looked around the room the Order had convened in this time, and wondered where I should sit.
Far away from James, I thought.
He was still quite bitter about our breakup, and to be honest I couldn't blame him. We had been going out for almost a year and everything seemed perfect until I told him that I no longer felt that way. I could tell that James was devastated but I'd rather tell him now than when he proposed or something.
"There's a seat over here, Lily" Fabian said.
"Thank you," I said walking over.
As I slid into it he asked how I was.
"Hanging in there you know?"
"He'll forgive you eventually. He's just hurt at the moment," Fabian commented.
Feeling like I'm being watched I turn around and see James staring angrily at me.
I can sort of see why, as I had been paired with Fabian on a number of missions before and after our breakup. He obviously thought that something was going on between the two of us and that was the reason I decided to leave him. If I'm totally honest with myself; it did.
There was just something different about Fabian; something I couldn't put my finger on. I had found myself wanting to spend more time with him- more than James- and that's when I knew things had to end.
"Knut for you thoughts?" Fabian asked softly.
"It would cost you a lot more than a knut for me to tell you my thoughts," I said, starting to smile.
"Hmm they must be about me then," he chuckled.
"How did you guess?"
His eyes widened for a brief moment before crinkling with a matching smile.
"Well, if they are about me, shouldn't you tell me what they are?" he teased.
"Surely that depends on whether they are good or not?" I replied jokingly.
"They better be otherwise next time you're introuble I will just leave you there."
"As if!" I scoffed.
At that point the meeting started and we didn't have chance to talk on our own until the end, and even then we just said our goodbyes.
When everything has settled down and I finally stop feeling guilty, I might actually take a chance on him.