Sean's POV

I stared at an empty seat, where she would be eating dinner with me. We'd watch some chick movie, or something after, but this time i'd be watching it alone. I couldn't even imagine my life without her. Stop it, your gonna have to move on. I can't move on. Not without her. She's just a girl, what's so great about her?

Everything.

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I entered that same room where so much had happened in so little time. She was sitting on the bed, same as she was before.

"Hey, Ellie."

"Hi Sean" she said, showing she didn't care much to be mad at me.

"Are you ready?"

"I was ready last night."

"Okay, but before we go, I need to talk to you."

"Go ahead."

"Ok. I didn't want us to break up, but we both knew it was going to happen sooner or later. But I want you to know that I still care about you. El, your practically like my best friend. So, I don't want you to move out. I mean, if you really want to, you can. But i'm not forcing you out."

"Sean, we can't live under the same roof as 'just friends'"

"Why not? Haven't you ever watched Friends?" I said, jokingly.

"I don't know..it just wont work out."

"Well, its your choice. I'm just saying, you could stay with me, or you could move back in with your mom."

She thought for a minute. "Just friends?"

"Just friends" I agreed. "Let's go."

We walked home. I was actually happy that she still wanted to move in. If anything, I still wanted to be friends with her.

"I'm kind of tired, so i'm gonna go to sleep okay?" she said as we walked into the apartment.

"Sure."

And weeks went by, still living together as 'friends' was killing me. But Saturday evening, Ellie was out Jimmy. I don't even know when they became friends. But apparently it turned into more than that. I wasn't spying on them or anything, I just happened to glance outside. They were saying goodbye, and he kissed her. He kissed her! I can't even begin to describe how it felt. Like someone had stabbed me in the back. But I couldn't let her know I was upset, I couldn't let her know that I still loved her.

I decided to call someone to get my mind off of all that. I tried calling Craig, but he didn't pick up. Then I thought for a second, there is one person I could call.

"Hello?" she answered.

"Hey Emma. What's up?"

"Um, nothing. How about you?"

"Nothing. Hey, listen, do you wanna go to The Dot right now?"

"I don't know. Last time we hung out..it didn't go so good."

"Yeah, about Ellie. We broke up."

"Oh..i'm sorry."
"It's all right. So, about my offer? Me, you, The Dot?"

"Sounds good. But Sean, your not like rebounding or anything, right?"

"Nope, i'm over Ellie."

"Ok, i'll see you soon."

"Later." I said, hanging up. Maybe meeting with Emma can start something. Maybe it can make me forget about what happened between me and Ellie.

I got ready and walked to The Dot. Emma was already sitting waiting for me. I think The Dot is pretty close to her house.

"Hey" she said as I walked inside.

"Hey."

"So, what's going on?"

"Nothing..why?"

"Well, you just broke up with Ellie. I think that's a reason not to be okay."

"I'm fine."
"Are you sure?"

"Yeah, i'm really fine." She smiled and put her hand on top of mine. I looked into her eyes and something, I have no idea what, something drew me to her. Every inch we got closer was every inch I regretted. Because I don't love Emma. But we finally kissed and she stopped for a minute. I think she didn't want to get in the same mess we got into before.

"No, its okay" I said. "Me and Ellie, we're over." I don't even know why I did it. I guess I just missed being in love. "Do you want to come over?"

"Yeah, sure." she said, smiling.

We walked back to my house, and when we came inside, hand in hand, Ellie was in the kitchen, making dinner i'm guessing.

"Hey...Emma." she said, suprised. "Well, I guess i'll leave you guys alone" she said, walking into the bedroom.

I hate to admit it, but she was so jealous, and I was so glad. I wanted to make her jealous. I wanted her to miss me.

Ellie's POV

Enough that he breaks my heart, now he's trying to do it without trying. As in he's doing it without even knowing. I mean, Jimmy is great. I really like hanging out with him and we always have fun hanging out. That's why we got together. Because we make each other happy. But just watching them, just knowing that he's moving on too, made me so upset. It made me feel alone, more alone then i've ever been. I just fell asleep, watching tv. And knowing that he was outside that room. With her.

I woke up and looked at the 4 new cuts I had made the night before. One for me, one for him, one for breaking up, and one for him being with her. I needed to get on with my life. I needed to move on. Jimmy could be good for me.

I got up and walked outside. Sean was asleep on the couch. I figured i'd make something to eat, and he'd wake up by then. I was right.

"How do you wake up so early? I mean, every morning your awake at like 6. How do you do it?" he asked, smiling. I miss that smile. No, you don't. You're with Jimmy now.

"I don't know" I answered. "I just don't get that much sleep." I tried to change the topic. "So, you and Emma are back together?"

"Yeah, I guess so. You and Jimmy?"

"I think so."

"That's cool."

"Yeah, I guess."

"So, what are your plans for today?"

"I don't know. I think I might hang out with Jimmy."

"Oh, okay."

It's like i'm an actress. I'm not being myself. But what can I do when he's obviously moved on and I haven't?