A/N I am sorry that this took so long, my internet is giving me issues, so here's another chapter, finally.

Your Author in Training,

Havah

"Peter, why did you bring me here?" asked Rebecca. She wasn't angry, or elated, she was slightly scared, and unsure of what lay ahead, and what Peter's explanation was.

"I dunno, it just struck me as a really beautiful place," said Peter, questioning his reasoning himself a little bit. It hadn't really struck him that she might not want to be back here, ever again. "I am so sorry; I didn't think that maybe you wouldn't want to come back here." Peter apologized with all if his heart, hoping that she didn't think he was a total fool.

"No, its fine, I'm just a little surprised, that's all." Rebecca was not lying to Peter, but she was scared, and she didn't really want to be there. She would settle for anywhere, well, almost anywhere, as long as she could just be by his side. I love being with him, but can this work out? He is royalty, and I am trouble, I don't even know how to get back. For the first time, the thought crossed Rebecca's mind that this relationship had very low chances of survival, even if Peter lived.

"Are you sure? If you would like to go somewhere else, we can leave, I just couldn't think of anywhere else to come, and I like it here. I come up here a lot actually." When Peter went on a walk, it was usually up to this castle. He couldn't explain why he was so drawn to it, but he always managed to lead himself right to it when he went on destination-less walks around Narnia. It took a very, very long time to get there, but it was worth it to him. "It's all up to you, I'm open, I just thought maybe you'd want to see what it looked like now."

"I don't have a better place in mind, but I don't have a strong desire to stay here. Could we please just, well, go for a walk?" asked Rebecca, not able to think of a better place to be.

"Yeah, that's fine." Peter agreed with Rebecca's idea. He had been walking a lot lately, so it was no obstacle to him. Rebecca and Peter turned silently from the castle, and walked towards Cair Paravel, but they took a longer route. After about 15 minutes of awkward silence, Rebecca spoke.

"Thank you, I'm sorry about that, it was just, well, a little bit frightening to be honest." Rebecca gave a half smile to Peter, then averted her eyes from his gaze.

"I honestly am sorry, I really didn't think about that." Peter resisted the urge to put his arm around Rebecca, just as she resisted the urge to take his hand. "Are you going to be alright? You look a little worried."

"Oh, I'll be fine, I'm just, I dunno, never mind." Rebecca didn't really know what to say to Peter in explanation. She was still thinking about how no matter what happened, her relationship with Peter was going to end, somehow, some day.

"Well, if you want to talk, you know that I will always listen to you, and you know that I love you. I will hear whatever you have to say." Peter was genuinely willing to listen to anything Rebecca wanted to say, even if it was something that she knew he didn't want to hear.

"Yes, I know that I can trust you, there's just so much going on right now. I know that you know what I mean, and that you must be just as confused with everything as I am. What I can't help wondering is, how are you so casual with the possibility that you are going to die?" asked Rebecca, thinking about how she would react to hearing about how she was going to die, and knowing that she could prevent it, but was choosing not to. I would be crying all the time, and wondering why I was going to even bother risking it.

"Do you think that I'm not absolutely terrified? I can't stop thinking about it, among other things, but I try hard not to worry. If it is going to happen, then it was destined to happen. It is my call of duty, my responsibility." Peter felt so good being able to talk to someone, but he didn't want to worry anyone, especially Rebecca.

"I'm really sorry, I half wish that I hadn't told you." Rebecca was honest when she said this.

"I asked you to tell me, and although I may not want to know it, it might be a good thing to know, because now whatever I do leading up to it can put in as much danger as necessary." Peter was clearly trying to make the most out of this, but it still saddened Rebecca. She tried to hide her worry, and her sadness, but something on her face must have shown. "You really do look off, are you sure you're alright?" asked Peter, resisting the urge to hold her no longer. He removed his hand from hers, and put his arm around her waist, giving her that sense of security that his touch gave her.

"I'm sorry, I'm just so worried, mainly about you, I really don't want you to die." Rebecca started crying again, and she didn't try to control it. Peter stopped walking, and pulled her to face him. He gently rushed away her tears, and kissed her softly.

"It's alright, it's going to be fine." Peter tried to comfort Rebecca, and he hoped that she could be comforted by him.

"How can you keep saying that? There is no way that it could be fine, if one thing works out, something else won't." What Rebecca really meant was, even if you don't die, we aren't going to be together, something else will go wrong. Peter's words could no longer comfort Rebecca, not those words.

"What can I do to make you believe that things will be ok, somehow, there's a way." Peter pleaded with Rebecca, but to no avail.

"There's nothing, not yet anyway, that anyone could make me believe that things could be alright, nothing will be fine if you're not there." Rebecca tried not to be morbid, or sour, but she knew she wasn't doing a very good job.

"I'm very sorry, but if there's nothing that I can do, just please, try not to think about it. I don't want to worry Susan, Ed, an especially Lu to worry, and if they see you like this, they'll know that something's up." Peter really wanted Rebecca to be happy, and he wanted to keep this situation unknown to his family. It was all so hard, plus the war, and his feelings towards Rebecca. Why does life have to be so confusing? Peter wondered, hoping that he would soon be able to sort out everything going on in his life, and make things better for everyone that he cared about.

"I'll keep it from them, I understand you not wanting to bring this feeling upon anyone else." Rebecca spoke this with complete honesty, having felt the repercussions everyday herself.

"Thank you, you have no idea how much I need this to stay hidden from them right now," said Peter. "We should probably start heading back more directly, they are going to start wondering where we went." Rebecca nodded, and the began heading towards Cair Paravel.

"Peter, thank you for listening to me, and making me feel like I actually have someone, for once, that cares about me." Rebecca wanted Peter to know how grateful she was that she had finally found love.

"Thank you for letting me be close to you, you are the first person that has ever had this kind of effect on me. I have never been in love before, and now I am, and it's all new to me," Peter kissed Rebecca again, she smiled, and they continued on their way back to the castle.