Ruthie kept running without stopping once or even looking to see if anyone had followed her.
She stopped at a bus stop that was about 45 minutes away from her house. She sat on the bench waiting and thinking about what she was doing and what was going on.
She had got exactly what she wanted. She had loved Martin for as long and she could remember and all she ever wanted was for him to love her back and to want to be with her as much as she wanted to be with him. But now she was confused. He had made it clear many times to her in the past that he liked her as a friend, as a best friend, even as a sister, but didn't feel the way she felt about him. She wasn't sure he was telling her the truth and she couldn't handle someone playing around with her feelings like that because she was serious about it, she loved him. She didn't want to believe him and then have him break her heart. When he told her that he loved her, she started thinking about all of the possible ways she could get hurt. Then when he kissed her she just didn't no what do to, so she ran. He just found out that the mother of his child had died giving birth to the baby only moments ago. He didn't really love Ruthie, he was vulnerable and was turning to the nearest person to confide in, which in this case happened to be Ruthie. No one really loved Ruthie in that way, her parents and family loved her, but there was no one who actually loved her in the sense of growing old and spending the rest of their lives together, so Martin couldn't possibly be serious.
As Ruthie thought about all of that stuff she had gotten onto a buss. She fell asleep and then woke up just in time to get off at the right stop. She walked for a few more minutes and then arrived at Simon's apartment. She knew that he kept a spear key taped to the back of the mailbox because he had once told her if she ever needed a place to stay, she was welcomed to go there and stay as long as she wanted.
She went inside and shut the door behind her. She also knew that Simon liked to be sure he was safe at all times, he kept a gun in the apartment but no one else knew about it. The only reason Ruthie knew where it was, was because about 4 months ago someone had broken into Lucy and Kevin's house and robbed a lot of Lucy's expensive jewelry. Simon knew people for robbed everyday but he never thought that it would happen to someone so close to him. So when it did he realized that no one was really save. He bought a gun and let it slip to Ruthie but made her promise not to tell anyone and she never had. She went into his bedroom and found the gun under the mattress.
She brought it out to the main room and sat on the sofa for what seemed like an eternity just staring at the gun in her hands. It was cold and heavy. She closed her eyes and swallowed hard, then she held the gun to her head.