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I don't anything Veronica Mars related, though of course I wish I did. I just borrow them for my own amusement. :)
Veronica leant Logan against the wall of her apartment as she fumbled in her purse for her keys.
"What are we doing here?" Logan asked.
Veronica said nothing, as she opened the door and ushered him inside. She led him over to the couch and sat him down. He was looking at her questioningly and asked again "What are we doing here?"
Veronica sighed, "Well we could go to your place, but I figured you wouldn't want pictures of you splashed all over the tabloids. As I'm quite sure your place is crawling with reporters by now."
He looked at her confused "Why would my place, be crawling with reporters?" Realization spread across his face, "You didn't?" He paused, "You called the reporters, didn't you?"
"Yes" Veronica shot back "I called the reporters, but rather than handing you over to them I try and save your ass"
"Is that what you're doing" Logan retorted
"No! I didn't call the reporters" Veronica snapped "I wouldn't stoop that low. And contrary to popular belief I'm really not out to get you."
"Oh really? You could've fooled me. So, I just imagined the whole thing, where you turned me into the Sheriff's department, thinking that I killed Lilly. Because it felt fucking real to me"
Veronica sighed "It wasn't like that"
"So then what was it like?" Logan asked sounding serious. The bitterness gone from his voice.
"Just wait right here" Veronica said nothing else as she made her way to the bathroom. There were a million thoughts and emotions running through her head, as she pulled out a small face towel from the closet, and filled a small bowl with warm water. She sighed, as she realized the whole situation would be so much easier if she didn't actually care about him. When she returned to the living room, Logan was leaning back with his eyes closed. But, he looked up as she entered the room. She sat down on the couch next to him, and dabbed the towel into the warm water. He was watching her with a wary look in his eyes, like he wasn't sure what she was doing. She grabbed the side of his face, and heard him draw a sharp intake of breath, as her fingers caressed his face.
"You okay?"
He chuckled softly, and just gave her a look. Veronica slowly started wiping the towel over his face, cleaning off all the blood. Logan was just staring at her intently, and she found it unnerving. She hated how Logan always seemed to be able to see right through her, how he was able to tear through the walls that she had worked so hard to put up. She averted her gaze blushing slightly as she continued to wipe at his face. She heard him groan a little, and then clear his throat.
"Why are you doing this?" he suddenly asked
"I already told you. I just want to help."
"Hmm. Help?" he mused
"Yes, help" she continued "I'm just trying to help someone that I care about."
"Oh, so now you care about me?"
Veronica looked at him in shock, "Of course I care. I never stopped caring."
Now it was Logan's turn to look shocked. "Well consider me confused then. You see, if I really cared about someone I wouldn't turn them in thinking they were capable of cold blooded murder" He paused for a second to watch the reaction in her face. "How could you think that I was capable of killing Lilly?" He asked, as his voice rose with emotion. "Why couldn't you trust me?"
"I'm sorry" was all Veronica could muster
"You lied to me" Logan said, anger evident in his voice. "I flat out asked you if you trusted me, and you told me you did. Next thing I know I'm being questioned down at the Sheriff's department."
"I'm sorry" Veronica said again. Truth was there were a million things she wanted to say, she just didn't know how to say them.
"I swear to god Veronica, stop saying you're sorry"
"What am I supposed to say" she said, trying to fight back the tears.
"For god's sake Veronica! What do you think? Quit with this 'I want to help' crap" He said getting annoyed and pushing her hand away from his face. "And just be fucking honest with me. I at least deserve that."
Veronica bit her lip, and turned away from him, as tears slid down her face. She took a deep breath, "I really am sorry. I didn't mean for it to turn out like this." He gave her a look, but didn't say anything. So, she figured it was ok to continue, "After Lilly died, everything changed. It went from being the four of us; me, Duncan, you and Lilly, to just me. You and Duncan, and everyone else abandoned me when I chose to stick by dad."
"Veronica" Logan started
Veronica cut him off, "When that happened I had to get tough. I couldn't let everyone's ridicule and ostracism get me down. I had to be brave. God, if Lilly could see me now," she smiled "I knew she'd be proud of me. Proud of me for becoming the Veronica, she always knew I could be." She turned to look at Logan. "You especially made me get tough. This whole year, up until the very end, you've been nothing but horrible to me. Tormenting me, trying to get a rise out of me. And don't think I've forgotten the way you bashed the headlights on my car."
Logan just looked at her, pain evident in his eyes. It just occurred to her, that he probably hadn't thought about how much he had hurt her all this past year. He'd apologized for the incident involving the GHB, but her guess was he hadn't thought much about anything else.
"But the thing is I forgave you" she told him "I chalked up your behavior as your way of dealing with Lilly's death. While that still doesn't make your actions okay, it does in some way make them understandable. And I forgive you for that."
"Oh, so you forgive me, now I'm supposed to forgive you?" Logan bit back. "It doesn't work like that, sugarpuss."
"Did I say it did?" Veronica shot back "I believe you wanted honesty, which is what I'm trying to do. So quit being an asshole, and at least let me finish." Logan looked quite taken aback at her little outburst, but said nothing as he made a 'please continue' gesture with his hands.
"When you asked me for help in trying to find your mother, I saw a different side of you. I saw the side of you, that I remembered from when Lilly was alive. This was the Logan that I remembered, but then it made me wary of you when I thought back to how mean you had been to me for the past year. I was almost waiting for the bomb to drop, for you to stop needing my help, and go back to hating me again."
"God Veronica, I feel a lot of emotions around you, but hate is never one of them" Logan interrupted.
Veronica ignored that comment, and continued "But that day that we kissed outside the Camelot, everything changed. I started thinking that maybe you weren't just hanging around me because you needed my help. So, slowly I started letting my walls down and letting you in. That's why I freaked when I found those cameras in your pool house. I was afraid of being embarrassed and hurt again, so I ran." Logan gave her a questioning look. "This whole year has been about me trying to find out what really happened the night Lilly was killed. I'm sorry for accusing you, but I had to do it. When I found out your alibi didn't match up, what was I supposed to think? After finding the cameras, and then this, I had no choice. And after all that has happened between us in the past year, can you blame me?" Veronica stopped after this, as she noticed the look of confusion on Logan's face.
"What cameras?" he asked.
"The cameras in the pool house" she told him matter of factly.
"There are cameras in the pool house?" he asked in shock.
It was then that she realized, "You didn't know?"
"Of course I didn't know" he shot back "You thought I was going to tape you?"
Veronica didn't say anything.
"God, I would never do that. I meant it when I said I just wanted to protect you."
Veronica turned to look him in the eyes, and saw him looking at her intently, worry evident in his eyes. "So, you don't hate me?" she asked quietly.
Logan just chuckled, "As much I might want to, I think it's clear that I don't. I might dislike you at times, but I could never hate you. I …" then he stopped.
Veronica smiled at him and grabbed his hands. When their flesh touched, she felt the spark that had always been there, she knew he felt it too when she heard him sigh. He was looking at her, longingly, desire in his eyes. Veronica sighed, as she knew she had to tell him about his father, before something happened. She knew what he wanted, and if he kissed her, she knew she wouldn't be able to resist.
"Logan" she started
"Yeah?" he huskily said.
"I need to tell you something. And I'm not sure if I would call it good news." She pulled her hand away, and the moment was broken. "I found out who Lilly's killer is, and it might have something to do with reporters being at your house."
Logan looked at her "And you failed to mention this until now?"
"Yeah, well" she took a deep breath "It's your father."
"What?" Logan leapt up from the couch "What do you mean? NO, that can't be true. He wouldn't kill Lilly, I loved her! He wouldn't do that to me."
"Logan. It's true" It was killing her to have to do this to him, but he needed to know. She watched his face as she recounted the events of the night. From describing how she had snuck into the Kane house, and found the tapes, to how she had been locked in the freezer, and set on fire. To her dad saving her, resulting in him being in the hospital. When she was finished, Logan just looked at her total shock on his face. She got up and walked over to where he was standing by the door.
"Are you ok?" he asked, with genuine concern.
"Considering, how I could've ended up. Yeah, I'm fine." She smiled weakly.
"Good. Come here." He grabbed her arms and pulled her in for a hug. She sighed as she rested against his chest, reminded of how good he felt. She breathed in his scent, and heard him sigh as he lightly traced his hands up and down her back. She pulled back to look at him, and before she could do anything his lips had descended onto hers. His lips were exactly as she remembered, hot and hungry. She opened her mouth to deepen the kiss, and she heard him groan as he pulled her in as close as he could. They kissed furiously with fierceness and passion, tongues enveloping each other, both trying to forget about current events. When they both pulled away, they were both gasping for air. He leaned down and kissed her forehead. "Wow" he breathed. "You ok?"
"I'm good" she replied with a smile.
"Good! Then I have to make that bastard pay for what he did" he said, hardness in his voice as he removed himself from Veronica's arms.
"Logan?" she questioned.
"I'll call you tomorrow" he told her. Before she could come up with an answer he'd already left the apartment. She watched as he walked to his car and got in. "LOGAN?" she yelled, but he either didn't hear her or was ignoring her. She heard the engine start, and then watched as he sped away. She stood gaping at the empty spot, where his car had been just a few seconds earlier. Crap, what have I done? Deciding what the next course of action should be, she grabbed her keys off the counter and headed out the door. And, just when she thought she was done saving Logan's ass. Crap! As the door slammed shut behind her.
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