Losing Control / 10
///Once a life has been given to me///
///Twice your lips touched mine///
///Three times the loved ones left my side///
///Countless times have I been shattered///
///But you are the one and final love I shall keep///
///Till the day my last breath joins yours///
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Seifer's POV
So he slept, weeping miserably, mumbling incoherent words to himself. I only watched in silence, partially because I didn't want to wake him up, and partially because I didn't know what to do. What could I do to help him? My confidence in saving him was starting to decline uncontrollably.
For endless hours, I watched him sleep, trying to figure out who could have possibly done this to him. Whoever did this will not only be expelled, but will have to "deal" with me "after school". How could anyone hurt someone like Squall?
Just then, I heard the doorbell ring. Afraid that it might wake Squall up, I quickly stood up and rushed to the door, swinging it open. The opening revealed a close friend of mine. She smiled and waved gently.
"Hello Seifer."
"Quistis! What a surprise to see you! Didn't expect you to visit me here. How did you get my address? Oh, come in."
Ok, so Squall was still in the living room, sleeping with a wound, and I was inviting my friend inside. Quistis walked past me gracefully, her blond strands of hair bouncing lightly. Just as I expected, she walked halfway into the room and stopped when she saw someone else in the room.
"Who's that?"
"Oh, that's Squall. He's one of my students."
Quistis delicately raised her eyebrows and walked over to him, observing the uneven heartbeat.
"And what happened to him?"
"He's just a little hurt, I guess."
"...Mmm.Seifer?"
Squall mumbled as he stirred awake once again. Quistis jerked back a little, looking as if she was surprised to find that Squall was alive. I gently lifted him up into a seating position, allowing his head to lean against my chest.
"You feeling a little better now?"
"Yeah..I think so."
"Oh, Squall, this is my friend Quistis. Quistis, this is Squall."
Squall stared at Quistis uncertainly, trying to focus his eyes onto her. Quistis smiled radiantly and waved. There was an awkward silence. All of sudden, before anyone had time to react, Squall bolted up from the couch and hurriedly picked his backpack up.
"Thank you Mr. Almasy. I will see you tomorrow at school."
"Hey, Squ -"
"I will see you tomorrow, Mr. Almasy."
Before I could even stop him, he was already out the door. I didn't have the slightest clue to help me understand his sudden behavior. Why did he just run off? Did I do something wrong? I saw Quistis watching me with her eyebrows raised and here eyes overflowing with surprise and curiosity.
"Are you sure you want him to be out there in the rain?"
Quistis asked in her gentle voice, noting my shocked expression.
"Huh?"
"It's pouring rain out there."
Now that she mentioned it, I could hear the vague pattering of rain on the windows. I couldn't possibly allow him to walk out there in the rain when he was hurt so severely. No, I wouldn't let him stay out in the rain under any circumstances.
"Seifer. You should go get him. I will visit you some other time."
I only nodded as she headed towards the door with a knowing look on her face. She gave me one of her motherly smiles before opening the door.
Squall POV
God, this hurts.
How long have I been running?
My eyes were blinded by the pouring rain and my body was numb with the coldness the rain offered. I guess the wound on my stomach also contributed to my misery. I spotted a phone booth on the sidewalk and gladly took it as a refugee. It was threateningly cold when I found myself in a dry area. The wet clothes clung to my skin as I shivered, not knowing what to do next.
I was surprised when I found someone else in the house, but that wasn't the reason why I ran out of his house. The reason was because I didn't want people to know that he knows someone like me. It's enough that people hate me..having people think that Seifer was like me was the last thing I wanted to do. For his sake as well as mine.
I found myself sitting and waiting. Waiting for what? I knew that deep inside me, a little part of me was fervently wishing that Seifer would come and find me.
But a bigger part of me knew that someone as good as him wouldn't bother to look for someone like me.
For some reason, knowing that I wasn't good enough for him hurt more than the physical pain.
As I was shivering inside the phone booth and sniffling back a cry, I heard the door creak open. I looked up slowly and met the familiar jade green eyes staring into mine.
"Squall.."
His voice was so gentle, and the anger I expected wasn't there. He only looked worried if anything else.
"Seifer.."
I whispered, unable to accept the fact that the real Seifer was standing before me. He actually came to find me. He was soaking wet also, but he didn't seem to take note of that. Seifer bent down to my eye level and took me into his arms. I gasped in surprise but his lips were on mine before I could do anything else.
After what seemed like centuries, his warm lips left mine, turning the coldness in my body to heat. He placed his chin on my shoulder and gave me a gentle squeeze.
"Squall..why...why did you run away?"
I hesitantly clutched at his shirt, wanting his warmth closer to mine.
"I..I didn't want her to think that you knew me.."
I admitted quietly, waiting for his reaction.
"You..you don't want me to be with you?"
"God Seifer, of course not! I..I didn't want..her to think that you were with someone like me..I thought you would be ashamed ..that.."
He released me and looked into my eyes. Was it hurt in his eyes? Sadness? Whatever it was, it wasn't anger. He cupped my face into his hands and smiled sadly.
"Squall, how could you ever think that? You are worth everything Squall. I am the one that's afraid of what might happen to you if they know that you are living with me."
"Seifer..I am so sorry.."
"No..I should be the one saying that. Squall..Squall.."
The rain outside gently sang as he embraced me with his strong arms, ignoring the world for that one blissful moment.
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///Once a life has been given to me///
///Twice your lips touched mine///
///Three times the loved ones left my side///
///Countless times have I been shattered///
///But you are the one and final love I shall keep///
///Till the day my last breath joins yours///
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Seifer's POV
So he slept, weeping miserably, mumbling incoherent words to himself. I only watched in silence, partially because I didn't want to wake him up, and partially because I didn't know what to do. What could I do to help him? My confidence in saving him was starting to decline uncontrollably.
For endless hours, I watched him sleep, trying to figure out who could have possibly done this to him. Whoever did this will not only be expelled, but will have to "deal" with me "after school". How could anyone hurt someone like Squall?
Just then, I heard the doorbell ring. Afraid that it might wake Squall up, I quickly stood up and rushed to the door, swinging it open. The opening revealed a close friend of mine. She smiled and waved gently.
"Hello Seifer."
"Quistis! What a surprise to see you! Didn't expect you to visit me here. How did you get my address? Oh, come in."
Ok, so Squall was still in the living room, sleeping with a wound, and I was inviting my friend inside. Quistis walked past me gracefully, her blond strands of hair bouncing lightly. Just as I expected, she walked halfway into the room and stopped when she saw someone else in the room.
"Who's that?"
"Oh, that's Squall. He's one of my students."
Quistis delicately raised her eyebrows and walked over to him, observing the uneven heartbeat.
"And what happened to him?"
"He's just a little hurt, I guess."
"...Mmm.Seifer?"
Squall mumbled as he stirred awake once again. Quistis jerked back a little, looking as if she was surprised to find that Squall was alive. I gently lifted him up into a seating position, allowing his head to lean against my chest.
"You feeling a little better now?"
"Yeah..I think so."
"Oh, Squall, this is my friend Quistis. Quistis, this is Squall."
Squall stared at Quistis uncertainly, trying to focus his eyes onto her. Quistis smiled radiantly and waved. There was an awkward silence. All of sudden, before anyone had time to react, Squall bolted up from the couch and hurriedly picked his backpack up.
"Thank you Mr. Almasy. I will see you tomorrow at school."
"Hey, Squ -"
"I will see you tomorrow, Mr. Almasy."
Before I could even stop him, he was already out the door. I didn't have the slightest clue to help me understand his sudden behavior. Why did he just run off? Did I do something wrong? I saw Quistis watching me with her eyebrows raised and here eyes overflowing with surprise and curiosity.
"Are you sure you want him to be out there in the rain?"
Quistis asked in her gentle voice, noting my shocked expression.
"Huh?"
"It's pouring rain out there."
Now that she mentioned it, I could hear the vague pattering of rain on the windows. I couldn't possibly allow him to walk out there in the rain when he was hurt so severely. No, I wouldn't let him stay out in the rain under any circumstances.
"Seifer. You should go get him. I will visit you some other time."
I only nodded as she headed towards the door with a knowing look on her face. She gave me one of her motherly smiles before opening the door.
Squall POV
God, this hurts.
How long have I been running?
My eyes were blinded by the pouring rain and my body was numb with the coldness the rain offered. I guess the wound on my stomach also contributed to my misery. I spotted a phone booth on the sidewalk and gladly took it as a refugee. It was threateningly cold when I found myself in a dry area. The wet clothes clung to my skin as I shivered, not knowing what to do next.
I was surprised when I found someone else in the house, but that wasn't the reason why I ran out of his house. The reason was because I didn't want people to know that he knows someone like me. It's enough that people hate me..having people think that Seifer was like me was the last thing I wanted to do. For his sake as well as mine.
I found myself sitting and waiting. Waiting for what? I knew that deep inside me, a little part of me was fervently wishing that Seifer would come and find me.
But a bigger part of me knew that someone as good as him wouldn't bother to look for someone like me.
For some reason, knowing that I wasn't good enough for him hurt more than the physical pain.
As I was shivering inside the phone booth and sniffling back a cry, I heard the door creak open. I looked up slowly and met the familiar jade green eyes staring into mine.
"Squall.."
His voice was so gentle, and the anger I expected wasn't there. He only looked worried if anything else.
"Seifer.."
I whispered, unable to accept the fact that the real Seifer was standing before me. He actually came to find me. He was soaking wet also, but he didn't seem to take note of that. Seifer bent down to my eye level and took me into his arms. I gasped in surprise but his lips were on mine before I could do anything else.
After what seemed like centuries, his warm lips left mine, turning the coldness in my body to heat. He placed his chin on my shoulder and gave me a gentle squeeze.
"Squall..why...why did you run away?"
I hesitantly clutched at his shirt, wanting his warmth closer to mine.
"I..I didn't want her to think that you knew me.."
I admitted quietly, waiting for his reaction.
"You..you don't want me to be with you?"
"God Seifer, of course not! I..I didn't want..her to think that you were with someone like me..I thought you would be ashamed ..that.."
He released me and looked into my eyes. Was it hurt in his eyes? Sadness? Whatever it was, it wasn't anger. He cupped my face into his hands and smiled sadly.
"Squall, how could you ever think that? You are worth everything Squall. I am the one that's afraid of what might happen to you if they know that you are living with me."
"Seifer..I am so sorry.."
"No..I should be the one saying that. Squall..Squall.."
The rain outside gently sang as he embraced me with his strong arms, ignoring the world for that one blissful moment.
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Wheee~ T.O. finally got herself to fix the computer and upload this chapter.hehe.thank you all for your patience.that is, if you DID wait for my fic! Love u all~
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