Special thanks to my wonderful reviewers!

For chapter 14!

() Mistal – Hey, have you seen Rinoa? Wait...is that a knife??? Haha thank you for the review!

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Losing Control / 15

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Seifer's POV

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What was I doing?

Where the hell am I?

AND WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED!?

Ignoring Rinoa's whining, I rushed out the door after Squall. Although I wasn't completely aware of what was going on, I was pretty damn sure that it hurt Squall more than anything. As I was running, I could finally clear my head to recollect what happened.

How could I have been so weak? Why didn't I push her away? Just why?

And how could I hurt Squall like this?

I could finally see squall, and when I did, I felt the world around me break down. He was leaning against the wall, his shoulders shaking violently, and I could clearly hear the muffled cries.

"Squall......"

He started but he didn't even bother to look up.

"Leave me alone Seifer."

I shivered at the sudden coldness in his voice. His voice was once again back to the monotonous iciness I tried so hard to change.

"Squall, listen to me......I –"

"There is nothing TO hear, Mr. Almasy."

He accentuated the last word, causing me to wince inwardly.

"Squall......"

He still refused to turn towards me.

"SQUALL! LOOK AT ME, DAMMIT!"

He whirled around, his eyes filled with more sorrow and hatred I have ever seen. It almost frightened me to watch the gray and blue orbs swirling with uncontrollable emotions.

"Seifer, leave me alone."

He hissed through his clinched teeth, trying his best not to break down and cry.

But I couldn't just leave things like this.

"Listen Squall –"

"No, you listen! Does it feel nice to play games with me? Does it feel nice to toy around with my feelings? Does it feel nice to destroy me like this? I TRUSTED YOU! AND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURN?"

There was a short pause before he continued in a quieter voice.

"You are just like everyone else. If you didn't want me, why didn't you tell me from the beginning? Why did you go have to do something like this to me?"

"Squall, I swear, I –"

"Save your fucked up excuses and go fuck Rinoa for all I care. I don't want to see you EVER again!"

"Squall, NO!"

"But......I did love you......until you shattered my heart."

With those words, Squall turned away from me and walked away silently.

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Squall's POV

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I felt angry....

And I felt the endless sorrow slowly tearing my heart into little pieces.

But mostly, I felt betrayed and stupid for trusting someone so easily. I truly believed that he would always be by my side......but I was wrong.

I guess it really wasn't his fault. It was entirely my fault for being a fool. I should have known that I shouldn't have trusted anyone. And I knew I couldn't possibly compare with Rinoa. She was a girl and she was pretty. She was popular......and well, she was damn perfect for him.

I walked into my house, which seemed empty and isolated. I didn't feel like going into Seifer's house to get my stuff so I decided to just live with what I had in the house. Again feeling my eyes swelling up with tears, I laid on my bed and curled myself into a little ball.

Then I realized that despite my hate and anger, I missed him. I missed his presence next to me......and I missed being held, cuddled, and talked to. I missed his deep jade green eyes and his warm smile, the smiled that made me think that I could trust him with my life.

I didn't know if I should continue to go to school or not, I really didn't feel like facing him or Rinoa for that matter. Well, I could ignore him and go to school, but I knew that I wasn't going to be able to survive the class with him teaching.

I fell asleep rather painfully, feeling the dull ache numbing my body and the tears soaking into the pillow.

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Short, I know.....sniff sniff....but REVIEW PLEASE -;;

Oh, and I'm thinking of drawing an online manga with this story...just not with Seifer and Squall ('cause I don't know if there copyright issues and all that good stuff). I just need some help getting the pages up online...so is there any wonderful computer techie around here who can help me? PLZ ;; I think I will be needing help with web-designing, getting hosting...and stuff like....hurm... If anyone is willing to volunteer his/her time with this, PLEASE e-mail me! (you can find my e-mail addy on my author's page!)

I will be...ETERNALLY GRATEFUL!

Ciao