I tried to make this chapter longer than the previous one, and I hope it
worked. Well, obviously, Rinoa is being hated, which is good, 'cause that
was my intention! evil grin Well, please review!
Concerning the online manga...I still need someone or people to help me with it! If you know anyone that's good with layouts and stuff, please inform me! Ahh yes...and I will be posting a sample of my artwork really soon...if I can find a place to do so! Anyone wanna...help me? I just need a place to post my artwork temporarily (without charge, of course)...and well, I have nothing more to say I guess.
I hope you enjoy this chapter!
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Losing Control / 16
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Squall's POV
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When I opened my eyes again, I felt as if I was shattered into millions of pieces, then glued back carelessly. I could hear the constant ticking of the clock in my room...and I could see the white ceiling, but I couldn't feel anything. I could only lie on my bed helplessly.
Soon enough, I could feel a drop of moisture traveling down my face, towards my ears. I blinked and continued to stare ahead.
"Seifer...Seifer..."
I could hear myself whispering almost inaudibly, as if I was afraid to break the silence enveloping me.
Why I had been so stupid to trust him, I wasn't too sure. I had been blind for the past few weeks I had been with him. I wasn't going to deny the fact that I enjoyed it...but if hurt too much to think that I would never feel that anymore.
In part, I was angry...but more than that, I felt betrayed. I had let my guard down, and this was what I got.
Loneliness.
"I hate you...I hate you so much...Seifer...I hate you..."
I clutched at my heart. The anguish was physically hurting me now. I felt as if my heart was going to explode in my chest.
I couldn't erase his face from my mind...
The way those jade eyes stared into mine a few hours before...how his eyes pleaded for my forgiveness...the way they looked at me with guilt and the very same sorrow I was feeling...
"Seifer...can you hear me? I love you...I love you so much...that...it hurts...Seifer...help me...help me...Seifer......"
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Seifer's POV
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Resisting my urge to strangle the very life out of Rinoa, I drove back home. I wanted to follow Squall home, but I couldn't. I couldn't bring myself to follow him after seeing the naked emotions in his eyes...
I could never forgive myself for doing something like this to him...the only person I have ever loved so truly... He risked everything to love me...he gave me his trust, his life...his everything just to be with me...but all I could do was shatter everything...just like that.
"Squall..."
I walked over to the fridge and weakly brought out a bottle of beer. I wasn't much of a drinker, but right now, I needed something to assuage the pain. I sipped at the drink quietly before throwing the bottle roughly at the wall in front of me.
The glass bottle hit the wall with a piercing noise and then shattered into a myriad of glass shards. The alcohol sipped through the carpet, leaving a stain, which I ignored.
"Fuck...I can't just leave it like this..."
I covered my face with my hands not knowing what to do. It didn't seem like he would ever listen to me again...and it wasn't as if I was going to be able to woe him back with gifts.
I've done a lot of shit in my life...but this was it...no word could describe how...horrible I felt...
Soon, I fell asleep, physically and emotionally worn out.
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Squall slowly raised himself from his bed and decided to take walk to take his mind off things. He smiled bitterly to himself as he retrieved his key to his apartment.
A wave of cool air welcomed him as he walked out of the house. After inhaling the air a few times, he continued with his aimless walk.
Squall walked about a few minutes before he sensed something odd around him. He could have sworn that he could feel someone watching him. Shrugging those feelings behind, he walked in a brisk pace, before he could actually feel someone breathing behind him.
The brunette turned around rapidly, just in time to see a person covering his mouth with a handkerchief. Squall bucked and kicked, but a hand seized him roughly by the arm.
'Jake!'
Squall screamed in his head as the familiar face grinned at him malevolently. He could feel himself slowly loosing consciousness as he tried his best to escape the iron grips now cutting his blood circulation.
"Nice to see you, too"
The shorted boy's eyelids fluttered a few times before closing. Jake smirked triumphantly and dragged the now unconscious boy to his car. The car engine started, and as if nothing had happened, the car made its way smoothly down the roads.
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Seifer couldn't take it anymore. He had to make Squall listen, no matter how hard it was going to be. He was willing to chain the brunette down if he had to. He grabbed his coat and ran out of the house, his car key jingling in his hand.
'I'm coming, Squall...wait for me...'
The tall blonde hopped into his car and sped to his love's house at an alarming speed. He really couldn't care less if he was breaking the speed law or not. When he arrived in front of Squall's home he rushed out of the car.
After rubbing his face a few times and inhaling sharply, Seifer could muster up enough courage to make himself walk towards the door.
'OK...so what am I going to say? Umm...Hey Squall...no, way too cheerful...Squall, I really need to talk to you...UGH! That didn't even work...how about...'
Before he could continue with his verbal practice, Seifer heard his phone ringing loudly with his recently added ringtone, 'Liberi Fatali.' Frowning at the sudden interruption, he jerked the phone out of his pocket.
"Yeah?" Seifer answered, none-too-nicely.
"Mr. Almasy?"
"Yeah...who wants to know?"
Seifer found himself frowning once again at the unfamiliar voice.
"It doesn't really matter. I thought you might want to know where Squall is."
The blonde was almost snarling now.
"What?"
"He's with us."
"Who the hell is this?"
"Maybe I should make it more clear. We have Squall now, and boy, we are going to have so much fun with this pretty boy. In other words, we kidnapped your precious little boy. Call the police, and I will make sure you never see him again."
"WHO THE FUCK IS THIS?"
Seifer couldn't care less if the entire neighborhood heard him now or not.
"Hmm...maybe you would like to hear his voice?"
Seifer's grip on his phone tightened. His heart started pumping blood at an inhuman rate as he hard clinking noises on the phone.
"...Sei...Seifer?"
"SQUALL! Squall....oh god....Squall! Where are you?"
"I...don't know..."
"Who was the bastard that just talked to me?"
"Jake –"
Before Seifer could listen to the full name, there was a sickening crack on the other side, followed by a pained groan. Seifer knew immediately who the groan belonged to...and by this time, Seifer saw blood. He could barely contain his rage as another thud followed immediately.
"Hope you two had a good time."
"Let go of Squall, now." Seifer growled in a dangerously low voice.
"Tut tut, that would be kind of missing the point, don't you think?"
"What the fuck do you want from me?"
"I guess you will see soon enough. Now, I need you to come to..."
Seifer mentally noted the designated place the kidnapper was reciting. He then turned the phone off, and without a second thought, ran to his car.
"Squall....please be OK..."
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Thanks to...
()DevaGlenn – Once again, you almost bring me to tears with your absolutely fantastic comment. I mean...wow...I can't even come close to saying how much I appreciate your comments. They are just so...gosh...I don't even know what to say. You are AWESOME! And your reviews are just plain outstandingly...helpful! Haha I love you! Hey...wait a minute...the picture you drew? WHERE IS IT??
()Shadow-Seraph – You, my friend, truly flatter me! Oh, and thank you for the cookies! Haha Hmm about the online manga...I dunno...I can't seem to find anyone to help me (T-T)...I guess I will have to wait... Well, thanks for the review!
()kAHiTSayAWkIkay – Hmm...I can assure you that worse fate than death is awaiting our dear little Rinoa...in case you haven't noticed, I am EVIL CACKLE CACKLE
()Yuki the chibi ookami – Haha everyone! Join the FUN Bimbo roasting!!! You are brilliant! Thanx for the review
() Elvi-Rose – I'm glad you love this story! Yes..Rinoa is rather...evil in this story! Hehe
() Redrum – Hmm...I hope its OK with the whole copyright stuff...but aww man...I need help with setting up a page first...oh well, newayz, I'm glad to know that you liked that one line! Thanx for the review
() JillyBean3 – Aww glad you like this fic! I seem to get a lot of "Lets kill Rinoa" vibe from this fic...which was my intention heh heh heh (Evil, aren't I?) Hope you enjoy this chapter too!
() ne0nhalo – Haha yes, Rinoa is nasty...and she gets nastier too but hey, you don't think Seifer would just sit there and do nothing, do ya?
() Firefly-Dreams – Tar and feather? Now that's a good idea! HahaI gotta agree with you...Selphie is the prettier one! My fav female character in the entire FF series is Lulu from FFX though...now shez pretty cool
() Mistal – Thanx for the review! Haha man...I am about to make Rinoa the evilest biatch of the century keh kehI am sooo evil...
() LilBlue – Aww you are so kind Squall, say thanks or something! Uhh Squall? SQUALL! PUT THE GUN DOWN! Lolz well, thanks for the review!
()Quistis – OMG....you are such a sweetie! - You are truly AWESOME! I tried to make this chapter long...I hope its...longer? Eh...heh....heh....thank you for your reviews! You have no idea how much reviewers like you helps me to write my fic!
() PV-chan – Thanks for the review! You know, any help is better than none! If I can only get a few more people to help me, I will be sure to contact you! You WILL help me, right? ( Puppy dog look )
Concerning the online manga...I still need someone or people to help me with it! If you know anyone that's good with layouts and stuff, please inform me! Ahh yes...and I will be posting a sample of my artwork really soon...if I can find a place to do so! Anyone wanna...help me? I just need a place to post my artwork temporarily (without charge, of course)...and well, I have nothing more to say I guess.
I hope you enjoy this chapter!
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Losing Control / 16
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Squall's POV
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When I opened my eyes again, I felt as if I was shattered into millions of pieces, then glued back carelessly. I could hear the constant ticking of the clock in my room...and I could see the white ceiling, but I couldn't feel anything. I could only lie on my bed helplessly.
Soon enough, I could feel a drop of moisture traveling down my face, towards my ears. I blinked and continued to stare ahead.
"Seifer...Seifer..."
I could hear myself whispering almost inaudibly, as if I was afraid to break the silence enveloping me.
Why I had been so stupid to trust him, I wasn't too sure. I had been blind for the past few weeks I had been with him. I wasn't going to deny the fact that I enjoyed it...but if hurt too much to think that I would never feel that anymore.
In part, I was angry...but more than that, I felt betrayed. I had let my guard down, and this was what I got.
Loneliness.
"I hate you...I hate you so much...Seifer...I hate you..."
I clutched at my heart. The anguish was physically hurting me now. I felt as if my heart was going to explode in my chest.
I couldn't erase his face from my mind...
The way those jade eyes stared into mine a few hours before...how his eyes pleaded for my forgiveness...the way they looked at me with guilt and the very same sorrow I was feeling...
"Seifer...can you hear me? I love you...I love you so much...that...it hurts...Seifer...help me...help me...Seifer......"
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Seifer's POV
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Resisting my urge to strangle the very life out of Rinoa, I drove back home. I wanted to follow Squall home, but I couldn't. I couldn't bring myself to follow him after seeing the naked emotions in his eyes...
I could never forgive myself for doing something like this to him...the only person I have ever loved so truly... He risked everything to love me...he gave me his trust, his life...his everything just to be with me...but all I could do was shatter everything...just like that.
"Squall..."
I walked over to the fridge and weakly brought out a bottle of beer. I wasn't much of a drinker, but right now, I needed something to assuage the pain. I sipped at the drink quietly before throwing the bottle roughly at the wall in front of me.
The glass bottle hit the wall with a piercing noise and then shattered into a myriad of glass shards. The alcohol sipped through the carpet, leaving a stain, which I ignored.
"Fuck...I can't just leave it like this..."
I covered my face with my hands not knowing what to do. It didn't seem like he would ever listen to me again...and it wasn't as if I was going to be able to woe him back with gifts.
I've done a lot of shit in my life...but this was it...no word could describe how...horrible I felt...
Soon, I fell asleep, physically and emotionally worn out.
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Squall slowly raised himself from his bed and decided to take walk to take his mind off things. He smiled bitterly to himself as he retrieved his key to his apartment.
A wave of cool air welcomed him as he walked out of the house. After inhaling the air a few times, he continued with his aimless walk.
Squall walked about a few minutes before he sensed something odd around him. He could have sworn that he could feel someone watching him. Shrugging those feelings behind, he walked in a brisk pace, before he could actually feel someone breathing behind him.
The brunette turned around rapidly, just in time to see a person covering his mouth with a handkerchief. Squall bucked and kicked, but a hand seized him roughly by the arm.
'Jake!'
Squall screamed in his head as the familiar face grinned at him malevolently. He could feel himself slowly loosing consciousness as he tried his best to escape the iron grips now cutting his blood circulation.
"Nice to see you, too"
The shorted boy's eyelids fluttered a few times before closing. Jake smirked triumphantly and dragged the now unconscious boy to his car. The car engine started, and as if nothing had happened, the car made its way smoothly down the roads.
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Seifer couldn't take it anymore. He had to make Squall listen, no matter how hard it was going to be. He was willing to chain the brunette down if he had to. He grabbed his coat and ran out of the house, his car key jingling in his hand.
'I'm coming, Squall...wait for me...'
The tall blonde hopped into his car and sped to his love's house at an alarming speed. He really couldn't care less if he was breaking the speed law or not. When he arrived in front of Squall's home he rushed out of the car.
After rubbing his face a few times and inhaling sharply, Seifer could muster up enough courage to make himself walk towards the door.
'OK...so what am I going to say? Umm...Hey Squall...no, way too cheerful...Squall, I really need to talk to you...UGH! That didn't even work...how about...'
Before he could continue with his verbal practice, Seifer heard his phone ringing loudly with his recently added ringtone, 'Liberi Fatali.' Frowning at the sudden interruption, he jerked the phone out of his pocket.
"Yeah?" Seifer answered, none-too-nicely.
"Mr. Almasy?"
"Yeah...who wants to know?"
Seifer found himself frowning once again at the unfamiliar voice.
"It doesn't really matter. I thought you might want to know where Squall is."
The blonde was almost snarling now.
"What?"
"He's with us."
"Who the hell is this?"
"Maybe I should make it more clear. We have Squall now, and boy, we are going to have so much fun with this pretty boy. In other words, we kidnapped your precious little boy. Call the police, and I will make sure you never see him again."
"WHO THE FUCK IS THIS?"
Seifer couldn't care less if the entire neighborhood heard him now or not.
"Hmm...maybe you would like to hear his voice?"
Seifer's grip on his phone tightened. His heart started pumping blood at an inhuman rate as he hard clinking noises on the phone.
"...Sei...Seifer?"
"SQUALL! Squall....oh god....Squall! Where are you?"
"I...don't know..."
"Who was the bastard that just talked to me?"
"Jake –"
Before Seifer could listen to the full name, there was a sickening crack on the other side, followed by a pained groan. Seifer knew immediately who the groan belonged to...and by this time, Seifer saw blood. He could barely contain his rage as another thud followed immediately.
"Hope you two had a good time."
"Let go of Squall, now." Seifer growled in a dangerously low voice.
"Tut tut, that would be kind of missing the point, don't you think?"
"What the fuck do you want from me?"
"I guess you will see soon enough. Now, I need you to come to..."
Seifer mentally noted the designated place the kidnapper was reciting. He then turned the phone off, and without a second thought, ran to his car.
"Squall....please be OK..."
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Thanks to...
()DevaGlenn – Once again, you almost bring me to tears with your absolutely fantastic comment. I mean...wow...I can't even come close to saying how much I appreciate your comments. They are just so...gosh...I don't even know what to say. You are AWESOME! And your reviews are just plain outstandingly...helpful! Haha I love you! Hey...wait a minute...the picture you drew? WHERE IS IT??
()Shadow-Seraph – You, my friend, truly flatter me! Oh, and thank you for the cookies! Haha Hmm about the online manga...I dunno...I can't seem to find anyone to help me (T-T)...I guess I will have to wait... Well, thanks for the review!
()kAHiTSayAWkIkay – Hmm...I can assure you that worse fate than death is awaiting our dear little Rinoa...in case you haven't noticed, I am EVIL CACKLE CACKLE
()Yuki the chibi ookami – Haha everyone! Join the FUN Bimbo roasting!!! You are brilliant! Thanx for the review
() Elvi-Rose – I'm glad you love this story! Yes..Rinoa is rather...evil in this story! Hehe
() Redrum – Hmm...I hope its OK with the whole copyright stuff...but aww man...I need help with setting up a page first...oh well, newayz, I'm glad to know that you liked that one line! Thanx for the review
() JillyBean3 – Aww glad you like this fic! I seem to get a lot of "Lets kill Rinoa" vibe from this fic...which was my intention heh heh heh (Evil, aren't I?) Hope you enjoy this chapter too!
() ne0nhalo – Haha yes, Rinoa is nasty...and she gets nastier too but hey, you don't think Seifer would just sit there and do nothing, do ya?
() Firefly-Dreams – Tar and feather? Now that's a good idea! HahaI gotta agree with you...Selphie is the prettier one! My fav female character in the entire FF series is Lulu from FFX though...now shez pretty cool
() Mistal – Thanx for the review! Haha man...I am about to make Rinoa the evilest biatch of the century keh kehI am sooo evil...
() LilBlue – Aww you are so kind Squall, say thanks or something! Uhh Squall? SQUALL! PUT THE GUN DOWN! Lolz well, thanks for the review!
()Quistis – OMG....you are such a sweetie! - You are truly AWESOME! I tried to make this chapter long...I hope its...longer? Eh...heh....heh....thank you for your reviews! You have no idea how much reviewers like you helps me to write my fic!
() PV-chan – Thanks for the review! You know, any help is better than none! If I can only get a few more people to help me, I will be sure to contact you! You WILL help me, right? ( Puppy dog look )