Dea Nox- Ok, so I wrote this awhile ago and I'm bored so I thought I'd put it up. If you don't like it then please don't rag on me. It may be crap but oh well. I take constructive criticism that's it. I will block you if you flame me bad. I hope you enjoy and if you read…the PLEASE review!
Day 1-
No one knows the pain I face day after day, the constant tormenting from inside my head. They all think I'm crazy but I'm not, I'm driven to this. These people locked me up fearing that I would hurt myself, I'm still suicidal they say…maybe I am but who knows any more. I'm watched all the time, even while I'm writing this I am being watched so I don't stab myself with this pencil. So I asked for my laptop so I could have privacy.
Who are they you ask? All those damn people in white, they have authority over everyone here. When they give the signal you're thrown into a white padded room in a straightjacket. It's horrible in there, it'll make anyone more insane than they already are…I should know.
"Mmmm…hello Satoshi"
Shit, I try to ignore that voice inside of my head. Ever since I was fourteen that damned voice has been talking…threatening. He threatens to kill him, to take the one I love, to torture and invade him until he's dead. He talks of the pleasure he'll get when he screams, and when he bleeds.
"No need to ignore me…I'll always be here. Ahh the pleasure I'll get…" The voice inside his head trailed off.
Ignoring the voice I decided to write about the day that I almost ended my pain.
It was a warm fall day and I was walking home from school, I took the long way so I could think things out. I wanted to tell Daisuke how I truly felt about him but I knew I couldn't. I f I did Krad would come out; his wings would rip through the skin on my back like so many times before. I couldn't let him have control of me while Daisuke was around. I would end up losing the one I love and then I would die too. I decided it'd be better to only let one life extinguish…not two.
I was finally at my flat, I wrote two letters; one to Daisuke and one to everyone else. I keep the first letter with me always. I went into the kitchen and got a large knife, but I put it back. Instead I moved into the bedroom and grabbed my bed sheets, quickly I made a noose. Making sure I had the letters in my pocket I moved back to the kitchen. Grabbing a chair I tied the homemade noose to the rafter on the ceiling. The first thing I wanted the people to see was my body. I checked the noose again and placed my head in the loop, just as I did that my father opened the door. Seeing me, he tackled me to the ground knocking the chair over. I didn't struggle…my attempt of suicide was ruined. Not ten minutes later I was in the car up to the hospital, there I was medicated and move to a psychiatric hospital.
I clicked save.
I am writing this so that you all know how it ends.
One month later I was moved to a room with a window. They don't consider me suicidal anymore, just insane. But they also underestimate me…I am on the 5th floor.
THE VOICE! KRAD! HE'S BACK!
"Killing yourself would only hurt Daisuke."
"He'll get over it Krad."
"No he won't, he'll kill himself too."
"He's not like that…you're…wrong."
"But you don't know that."
When I didn't respond he went back to sleep satisfied, he knew he had gotten through to me, and he had…for now.