This chapter is NC-17

When Willow saw Rex come in she went to him and went into his arms. Standing there in his embrace Willow felt better. Drawing strength from him she knew she could handle what she had to do. She needed to face her past and move on with her life. She had Rex, Isis and now her baby to think about now. Her baby...she liked the sound of that.

"Where were you?" She asked Rex softly.

"I needed to make sure Natty was ok." He said not mentioning his earlier concerns. Leading her back to John and Natalie, who were sitting quietly holding hands, they sat down next to them. The four sat like that for a long time until Michael came in.

Willow stood up and went to him with the others not far behind. "Did he make it?"

"Yes, but he is in critical condition. He might not live out the night." Michael said secretly pleased. This guy almost killed his sister and his sister-in-law so if he died the only thing he was sad about was that Willow had to be the one to shoot him. fffff

Willow looked relieved but Michael noticed John, Natalie, and Rex looked disappointed. He knew John wanted the bastard dead and he imagined Rex and Natalie did too. Willow asked if she could see Darren and Michael nodded. "He is conscious but I don't know for how long.

Willow went into the room and stood next to the bed. When he looked up at her weakly she asked, "Why?"

"Because you were mine. Because I love you so much." He said softly, his eyes pleading with her. Pleading for her to understand, for her to love him.

"I'm sorry that we lost so much time. I'm sorry that we never got our chance but that was the past. This is now and I found love again. I'm happy. We can't change the past. What you did was horrible and it wasn't the man that I loved all those years ago. What changed you?"

He was struggling to get the words out but he managed, "I don't know. I just wanted what was mine. You were mine and I thought we could get back what we had. I had to try. And I wouldn't change a thing about what I have done."

Willow looked at him stunned. He changed just like that. In a blink of an eye he had turned back into the man he had been in that cabin up on the mountain. She had thought that he was better but now she saw that he had been trying to...to... Well she didn't know what he had been trying to do.

"Who did you take Natalie for?" Willow asked hoping he would answer. Before he got the chance his monitors started beeping and going wild. A team of doctors rushed in and Willow was asked to leave. As she left the room Rex was waiting for her. Taking her in his arms again they stood silently outside the door and watched as the doctors tried to save Darren's life.

After about 5 or 10 minutes Spencer Truman came out and said, "I'm sorry, he didn't make it."

Willow nodded feeling relieved. Then she felt guilty about feeling relieved. What kind of person was she to feel relief at some ones death? A death that she had caused. As the reality of that hit her she started to break down. Trying to hold back her tears she told Rex to take her home.

When Natalie saw Rex come out holding on to a shaking Willow she looked at Rex quickly. By the look on his face Darren didn't make it. John looked like he had the same thought then he said, "Maybe I should talk to her."

Natalie looked at him and said, "No I think Rex is the one she wants right now. He can help her. We should go home. I don't want to be here a moment longer then I have to be."

John nodded and stood up. Holding out his hand to Natalie he helped her stand and then they left the hospital. They didn't say much on the way home both feeling very glad that they had each other.

As soon as they got in the door John grabbed Natalie and kissed her. Gently at first then with increasing passion, touching his tongue to hers he moaned low in his throat. Tonight had again reminded him that life was short and they needed to savor every minute of it.

As John lost himself in her lips and buried his hands in her hair Natalie wrapped her arms around his neck kissing holding him tight. Needing to forget about the day Natalie began to back towards the bedroom. They both needed to reassure themselves that the other was OK. Kissing him deeply as they reached the bedroom she tugged him over to the bed.

John was only too happy to comply with her wishes. He followed her to the bed and reached for her shirt. Pulling it over her head he feasted his eyes on her breasts, the dark blue silk of her bra contrasting sharply with her pale skin. Raising his hands up he cupped her gently, smiling when she moaned and threw her head back. Leaning down he pressed his lips to her exposed throat and began to fondle her breasts. Moving from her neck to her earlobe he pulled it into his mouth and sucked gently.

Natalie moaned again and reached for his shirt. Needing to feel his skin she pulled up his shirt. As he stepped back so she could remove his shirt Natalie pulled it up and over his head. Leaning forward she pressed a kiss to his chest. Smiling against his skin she moved to his stomach and stroked her tongue across it making him moan in pleasure. Getting on her knees Natalie removed his belt and unbuttoned his pants. Pushing them down she cave a slight chuckle as he kicked them off impatiently.

John tensed as he felt Natalie's breath on his hardened penis. When she reached up and took him in her hands he sucked in a deep breath then gave a guttural groan. The feel of her hand gliding up and down his cock made his knees weak. Sliding his hands in her hair John pushed her head to where he wanted her mouth on him.

Looking up at him she grinned and said, "Is this what you want?" as she took him deep into her mouth. When He threw back his head and let out a moan of pleasure she looked back up at him, pulled her head back and said, "I thought so," then licked him from the base of his penis to his tip. Taking the head in her mouth she sucked on him as she would a lollypop.

John moaned again and pulled her up. "Oh no, it's not going to end that quickly." He said as he removed her bra and pushed her on the bed. Climbing on the bed with her he hovered over her then bent his head and took one of her tightened nipples in his mouth. He started licking it then sucked it into his mouth, loving her breathy gasps of pleasure. After all this time he never tired of making love to her.

Natalie was on fire everywhere John put his mouth and hands. Moving restlessly under him Natalie reached for him. Running her hands up and down his back then sliding them into his hair, she pulled him closer.

John moved to her other breast, taking his time. Slowly moving down her body John reached the top of her pants. He pressed a tender kiss on her stomach as he removed her pants and slid down her panties. As Natalie kicked them off John knelt between her legs. Pushing them farther apart he slid his hand up her inner thigh. Natalie moaned in anticipation, her core wet and ready for him.

Slipping his fingers between her moist folds he slid two into her center please when Natalie pressed against his hand begging for more. Moving his fingers in and out of her he watched her face loving the look of pure pleasure she had. He loved how he could bring her such pleasure. He could tell she was close and he couldn't wait a second longer to be inside her. Removing his fingers he kissed his way back to her mouth and positioned himself above her. Thrusting into her he moaned in pleasure as her inner muscles gripped him. He could feel them gripping and releasing him as he thrust into her.

Natalie wrapped her legs around his waist and kissed him deeply thrusting her tongue into his mouth in rhythm with his thrusts into her. Feeling her release coming she tightened her legs around him and thrust her hips into his with increased force.

John could feel his balls tightening and knew he was close as well. Thrusting into her again and then again he exploded inside her, lights dancing in his head as he tumbled over the brink and into ecstasy. John's release triggered her own and Natalie also went over the edge into paradise.