A/N: Thanks for the great reviews! I realize that in the first chapter I said I was going to have flashbacks at the end of each chapter, but I didn't. So this chapter is going to be mostly flashbacks. Flashbacks will be in italics. Read/Review!

Haley lay awake in her bed. It was almost two in the morning and she couldn't sleep. Ben was sleeping soundly next to her. She guessed he never lay awake at night and thought about whether he'd made the right decisions, like she did practically every night for fifteen years. Sometimes she wondered if letting Nathan get away was the wrong decision. Sometimes she wondered if she even deserved having him as a friend. She was sure that he only thought of her as a friend and the mother of his twins and he could never think of her as anything more than that. She also wondered if she was the worst mother in the world for putting her kids in danger…….and maybe they would be better off without her. She knew that if Nathan knew what was going on in the Greene household, he would take Katie and David as far away from Ben as he could-even if it meant keeping them away from Haley. She knew she would never let that happen though. Now she started wondering what to do since it seemed like Nathan was starting to become suspicious. He obviously suspected something considering the fact he was going through her personal things earlier that day!

She thought back to that fateful day in 2005, fifteen years ago. She considered that as the day her life changed. It was the day she came back to Nathan to tell him she still loved. They had sex then she broke his heart. She remembered exactly what had happened.

Flashback: June 2005 (Haley's POV)

I walked up to Nathan's door. Lucas told me that he had moved back in with his mom because he couldn't pay the bills for the apartment anymore. I knocked a few times before he answered. He stared at me. I could see the pain and hurt in his eyes. I couldn't think of anything to say. I mean, what do you say to the guy you married, and then abandoned?

"Hi"

"What are you doing here Haley?"

"I'm done with the tour. I came back to you"

"Well, what makes you think I want you?"

"Will you just let me into the house and we can maybe talk?" He rolled his eyes and led me into his house. I instantly hated myself for causing the pain in his eyes. We went into his room and he closed the door.

"My mom's not here, but I want you gone before eleven" He said, his voice empty of emotion.

"I love you Nathan"

"You don't leave the guy you love for another guy" He said grabbing two beer cans from underneath his bed. He threw one to me and opened one for himself.

"When did you start drinking?" I asked as I opened mine. The weird tasting liquid actually felt good against my throat. I hadn't had anything to drink in hours.

"A while ago. A lot of things have actually changed since you left me for Chris" He said taking a gulp of beer.

"Really? Like What?" I asked taking another gulp of the beer. I was getting used to the taste and I liked it. He also took another swig before answering.

"I stopped loving you. It takes a cold-hearted person to do what you did, Haley" After he said that we just stood in silence drinking our beers.

"Want another one?" I heard him ask.

"Huh, what?" I must have spaced out for a few minutes.

"Do you want another beer?" He asked sounding a little annoyed. I nodded and he got us each another one. I opened it and drank some before breaking the silence again.

"Do you hate me?" I asked not realizing how stupid that sounded until later.

"I don't love you at all or even like you anymore. I don't know if I hate you yet"

"So, you would never be able to forgive me?"

"I don't hate you okay!" he exclaimed angrily.

"I don't hate you either. All I really want you to know is that I'm in love with you and the day we got married was the best day of my life" I told him crying.

"Haley-"He started to say.

"No, don't say anything Nathan. I should go"

"That's what you do best"

"What are you talking about?"

"You're leaving…again!"

"I don't want to leave, but it seems like you want me to leave" I whispered as he came closer to me. I could smell the beer on his breath. He kissed me. At first it was gentle, but then we started making out on his bed with him on top of me. Pretty soon our clothes were off and the obvious happened next.

THE NEXT DAY…..STILL 2005

It was the day after Nathan and I had what some would call our "apology" sex. I called him and told him to meet me at the park so we could talk. When I got there he was standing by his car waiting for me. He didn't see me.

"Hey Nathan!" I called. He turned around and smiled when he saw me.

"We should talk about last night" I started.

"Yeah, that was crazy" He said.

"I don't know if it was such a good idea"

"Are you serious Haley? Are you fucking serious!" He exclaimed looking extremely angry.

"That didn't come out right" I said quickly.

"You must have the coldest heart in the world or something! I keep putting my heart out there for you and you keep smashing it to pieces"

"What are you talking about? That wasn't what I meant! Can you give me a chance to explain? I'm still in love with you-"

"You don't deserve another chance"

"Let me explain" I pleaded as he got into his car. He gave me the meanest look and drove away.

A few weeks later he finally let me talk to him. We decided that we were better off just friends after all the pain we had put each other through.

Flashback: September 2005 (Still Haley's POV)

I took a deep breath as I walked up the steps to Nathan's house. I really didn't want to tell him what I was about to tell him, but I didn't really have a choice. I took another deep breath as I rang the doorbell. I had chosen to go to his house after work because I knew his mom would be at the café. It had been a few months since I'd been to his house. We were talking again, but we weren't really friends. We kind of tried to avoid each other. I heard from Brooke that he'd been going to clubs and bars a lot. She said he usually got drunk and had one night stands with random girls. I had pretended not to be upset at hearing that. He answered the door. He looked shocked when he looked at me.

"We really need to talk" I said, letting myself in.

"What?" he asked.

"This is hard for me to say..." I started to explain, not really looking at him.

"Just tell me, Haley"

"I'm pregnant. It's definitely yours, so don't even ask if it's not!"

"Are you sure?" He asked looking shocked.

"I've been to the doctor's office and everything. I've been having morning sickness and eating really weird food. I'm pregnant!" I started crying. He hugged me and we sat down on the couch.

"What do you want to do?"

"I want to keep it, but I'm too young to have a baby"

"How far along are you?"

"About four months, but I'm already starting to show"

"So, I guess that explains why you've been wearing sweatshirts and jackets to school"

"Yeah, I'm so scared Nathan!" I said, starting to cry again.

"Don't worry. We'll figure something out. Trust me" He said comfortingly.

"I'm so confused" I whispered.

"When's your next doctor's appointment? I'll go with you" He offered. Gosh, I didn't deserve his great reaction.

"Tomorrow after school. I'll meet you at 4:30 in the waiting room" I answered wiping tears from my eyes.

"We'll get through this, Haley."

END FLASHBACK

Back to present time:

Haley remembered how hard it had been for her and Nathan at first after the twins had been born. They were living separately and felt awkward around each other since they didn't think the other loved them anymore. She remembered Katie and David always asking why their parents weren't married or even dating. Nathan and Haley just explained that they weren't in love. Haley had first met Ben when the twins were four. She was twenty-two and he was twenty-nine and a doctor. At the time she had fallen head-over-heels in love with him. He had been so nice and kind and he was always treating her to nice dinners and jewelry. He made her feel like a princess and proposed after they had only been dating five months. They married a few months later and their wedding definitely cost more than hers and Nathan's had. Except for he didn't write his own vows. She would never forget Nathan's vows. They had been beautiful and meaningful. Ben turned abusive after they had been married for about a year and a half.

A/N: Okay, I hoped you liked those flashbacks. I was going to have a flashback that took place when Hannah left Kevin at Nathan's door, but I'll do that one later. review!