Whaaaaa! I just forgot the last time I updated this! I'm so mean... *runs away from the crowd of enraged rayearth fans* My God, that I deserve, yeah. But look! This is an update! Finally...
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kalen1: Errr... you are lucky. You asked for an update and you got in two days! Not the end yet though... Ah, thanks about calling me mean, I know that! ^_^ I just hope you didn't melt too much, ok? Lantis-sama and Hikaru-chan are sure sweet! I'm just planning to make them suffer a bit more before I put them together... wait, was I putting them together or was she ending up with Eagle? Whaaa! I lost the script! Now anything can happen! I know, I'm evil!
vashy-kun: Don't cry! Yes, cry, that means I'm great at drama! O.O Anyway, thanks. Here's the update!
dewey: cruel? that word doesn't even start to define what I'm doing to them in the upcoming chapters. But it will have a happy ending! Just in case someone is wondering...
hikaru_29: Thanks. Ok, you promised to read. Now, read!
Lady Ronin Tiger: I really apologize for the delay, I hate when I can fulfill my promises, but I had no choice but to make you wait. However (warning), this chapter won't get you rid of the suspense. And no making up (or making out, for that matter) You'll get plenty of that in the final chapters. And you'll have to wait for the end to kill the suspense! Only three more to go...
Syvonair: Put down the knife... put down the knife or I will kill the whole casting and send them to hell! That's better. Now, thanks a lot for your nice words (without the knife) but... nothing is solved here so... *runs away from the knife*
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Graysky: I can always make things worse... *laughs evilly* Just read this chapter and you'll see! Fuu's secret, not yet. People being stupid, yeah, they'll keep doing that til the very last chapter. Anyway this is the next instalment of Battling Emotions!
nagareboshi1: Was that a cliffhanger? I didn't know I could do that! Clef is frustrated, I think I explain that here. Umi dislikes Lantis, that'll be explained in later chapters (there's a reason, of course) As for the secret... I'm not telling you! Not yet, I mean. Thanks for your nice words!
Miemu Akari: Don't cry! Is not good for your health! Besides, this one is not so sad, even if everybody is depressed... O.O That's it... this is the continuation!
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Battling emotions
Chapter XII
Clef - Duty (Part 2)
Guru Clef was still deeply astonished. What Fuu had just told him was not unusual at all; actually, it was something that could happen every day. And however, he would have never expected such a thing coming from her. Maybe from Umi or from Hikaru, who were both more impulsive. But the Wind Knight? No, it had never crossed his mind.
- Do the other magic knights know about this? - he inquired bearing a serious tone.
- I never dared to tell them… - the girl mumbled, her voice quite broken.
- And I presume you haven't told Ferio either…
- No! - Fuu exclaimed with terrified expression, looking at the magician with her eyes wide open in fear - He shouldn't… he must never know about this!
The short Guru moved his head understandingly. The girl's reaction was quite logical, but maybe a bit exaggerated. After all, what seemed to be so terrible for her was not such a big deal in his opinion.
- I think you are being a bit irrational about this, Fuu. Don't you think the three of them are all entitled to know? They have suffered so much because of you… especially the girls…
A long and deep sigh was the answer. That was exactly the answer Fuu was expecting from Guru Clef. He was so wise; he seemed to be always in control. But she was not able to do as he said. What would Hikaru and Umi say? And what about… Ferio? No, she couldn't face them, what had happened to her and what she did later in order to hide it was very absurd. The fact that she had told the magician was already too much for her. Even if it had truly made her feel a little better.
- It doesn't matter if you don't tell Ferio… because the situation between you two is irreversible and perhaps he'll never need to know. But what about the girls? They are your best friends, or that's what I thought.
- You are right… - Fuu lowered her head in obvious defeat - I… I will tell them. Somehow I'll find the courage to tell them everything. I just hope I won't die in shame before I finish.
- They will understand you. - Clef reassured her with a smile - You girls have always been very close, right?
Fuu agreed slightly, slowly drying off her tears. A small smile crept up her features. She had to give it a try, the girls didn't deserve to ignore such a secret.
A knock at the door could be heard in that moment, and much to her grief, the girl paled, fearing it could be Ferio. However, she relaxed again when seeing the person who was just entering…
- Hikaru…
The redhead couldn't hide her swollen eyes and however, she still tried to show her usually bright smile. She looked at them both vaguely and then, shaking her head, she walked up to her friend:
- Fuu! I didn't know you were here! Umi was looking for you… I don't know what for though.
All this was said lightly and in an apparent carefree tone, but anyone that knew Hikaru would realize that she was making a great effort to show some happiness. The blonde could not avoid a chill when noticing the signs of recent crying on her friend's generally cheerful face. Perhaps she had a part of responsibility in those tears.
- I've been here for a while, but I was about to leave. - she said calmly, heading for the door - Is there anything else you want to ask me, Guru Clef?
He denied with his head and gestured for her to leave if she wanted.
- I'll go find Umi. - Fuu sighed turning around a bit as she got to the exit - I'll have to ask you, please, to come to my room when you finish here. I have to tell you something… you and Umi. - a chill shook her one more time, just for a moment and then, not wanting to stay there any longer, she turned around again and left the room silently.
The magician watched her go with sad eyes. Poor Fuu, she was so afflicted. She was convinced that she deserved punishment for something on which she had only partial responsibility. He just hoped she was able to be honest with her friends. She was in desperate need of their forgiveness.
- Guru Clef... is something the matter?
Hikaru's concerned voice pulled the tiny wizard out from the path leading deeper into his own thoughts. He denied with his head.
- No, everything is fine.
- Does that mean that you know already why we were not able to return to Cefiro in all this years? - the girl asked with brilliant eyes. It's not that she was going to get back something she never had, but still…
- Yes, - Guru Clef answered without hesitation - I still don't understand how did you make it this time though. Do you want to give me your version of the facts?
A sigh escaped from the redhead's lips, at the same time that she narrated all that happened to her that day. All from her strange vision of Lantis to how the locket she was wearing seemed to pull her up right before they vanished from Tokyo Tower and reappeared hovering on Cefiro's sky.
- Lantis… - the mage mumbled not so amazed by what he had just heard. He should have known it was something like that. Much more after Fuu's confession. There were not many people in the planet with willpower enough to successfully override a Magic Knight's wish.
- Guru… - Hikaru asked a bit hesitant - Ain't you going to tell me why we couldn't come back before?
The short mage denied once again.
- I believe it's Fuu who should tell you about that.
- Fuu? - the redhead arched an eyebrow in astonishment - What does Fuu have to do with this?
- She holds most of the responsibility. - Clef explained - But I won't say more, since it would be revealing a secret that doesn't belong to me.
Hikaru shrugged, not very convinced.
- I guess that's what she wants to talk us about, right? - the mage agreed briefly - Then I'll wait for her explanation.
Guru Clef crossed his arms, obviously insinuating that, if the girl had nothing else to say, their interview was over. Nevertheless, Hikaru was not willing to leave yet.
- And after what I have told you, don't you know why were we able to finally come back?
- I have this hypothesis. - the mage answered vaguely, not wanting to give away many information on the subject - But I won't be sure 'til I have a talk with Lantis.
- Lantis… - the redhead shivered as if the magic swordsman's name had just bitten her.
- Yes, Lantis. The fact that you had what you call a vision of him right before the transference between dimensions does indicate he also has something to do with this.
- I don't understand what could he possibly have to do with this… but I guess that makes some sense.
For a moment, the silence took over the place, as if they had nothing else to say. But it was not like that. Even if she knew she will later regret it a thousand times, Hikaru had to ask the question that was torturing her since the previous night, since "he" had kissed her.
- Is she pretty? - she mumbled in a low and insecure voice, perfectly heard by the mage anyway.
- Who? - he asked, not understanding what was she talking about.
- Lantis' girlfriend… - the girl's murmur became almost inaudible, as she turned her look to the floor.
- Lantis doesn't have any girlfriend, not that I know. - Guru Clef said taken aback by this question.
- He doesn't? - the redhead was also astonished - But he…
- I think you'll have to ask him whatever you want to know. - the mage cut her off - I don't use to interfere in the love affairs concerning Cefiro's inhabitants.
Hikaru sighed slightly and she headed towards the door like Fuu had done a couple of minutes before. Crestfallen and somehow depressed. However, Guru Clef stopped her when she was about to grab the doorknob.
- Excuse me if I have sounded too rude or careless, but that one it's a matter you and Lantis should work out by yourselves, without the interference of any of us. Not even mine.
The girl turned around to shoot a sad smile to the mage.
- Don't worry, Guru Clef. I shouldn't ask, that's all.
And she left with no more words. The mage shrugged. That's why he had never wanted to get involved with anyone, even knowing that some women had been attracted to him, not caring about his childish appearance. Love could bring nothing but trouble and misunderstandings. And he was not going to make such a mistake.
While he meditated on this, his feet took him to the window. Through it he could gather a nice view of the garden, and within it… just the two people he wanted to see the most in that moment. Lantis and… Presea. Or whatever her name was, since she was only the deceased artisan's twin sister. A fervent desire to know her true name took over him. And… what were those two doing there together, all alone, talking with so much mystery? Could Presea be Lantis' hidden girlfriend? And if that was it, why were they hiding? Guru Clef shook his head wearily, suddenly mad at himself. Where was all that nonsense coming from? She had just confessed her love for him; love of which he had knowledge since long ago, so she couldn't possibly be in love with the magic swordsman but still… what if he was? What if he make her change her mind and her heart? The short mage pressed his fists into tight balls. No, that couldn't be, it was absurd. And if it was so, why was he still thinking about it?
A word came to his mind, in order to explain the crazy ideas currently alienating him. To this word, Guru Clef raised the head bearing an offended expression and he removed himself from the window. The explanation was even more illogical that the fact itself. Of course he was not going to lend ear to his own mind playing tricks on him. He walked away to the darkest corner inside the room. There he produced a seat out of thin air, just to plump into it heavily. Damned idea transformed into word. The idea of Presea's absence. The word jealousy…
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- So Hikaru does have a date for the upcoming dance? - Caldina asked, obviously rejoiced by the news.
Umi nodded. She was not very sure that the illusionist's plan will work, but certainly she was not going to keep her arms crossed while her two friends withered in their misery. At least she would see certain guys flail in jealousy. And if they didn't care that much, then at least the girls would have some fun.
- Great! - the dancer clapped - Now we only have to take care of Fuu… that one will be a little more difficult. But we'll make it, and then we'll get to the most interesting part!
- The dance is not until the day after tomorrow… - the Water Knight mumbled, not knowing what to make out of Caldina's words.
The illusionist jumped out from her comfortable position on the bed to dance swirling all over the room.
- What are you talking about, girl? - she exclaimed still jumping and dancing - The best part is the preparations! - she stopped for an instant in front of the girl, her hands on her waist and a mischievous smile flourishing on her lips - For instance, what dress are you planning to wear for the dance?
- Hum… - to tell the truth, Umi never pondered on that. Her mind was very busy with other less trivial thoughts.
- I knew it! - Caldina continued her dance through the room - Careless girls! Lucky you, the sexy me is always resourceful in any situation!
A few movements with her hands, as many sounds of bells, and in less than one second Umi was dressed with the most outlandish clothes that could come out of a demented imagination.
- Caldina! - Umi screeched trying to take off the green scarf warped around her neck, which made scandalous contrast with a purple feather waving on top of her blue hair. - If you don't take all this off me right away, what I'm going to do to you will make Presea's ideas on how to punish Mokona sound delicate!
- Oops… - the illusionist tried to stifle a laugh - Just wait 'til you see yourself in a mirror…
Slowly, the Water Knight turned in the address indicated by Caldina, where she knew was standing her room's full-length mirror. And then she almost passed away.
- Ahhhhhhh! - another screech, much sharper than the first one - You have turned me into a daub! Umi Ryuuzaki, one of the better dressed models in the whole world! Oh, God, if someone gets to see me this way!
The glass showed the image of Umi sheathed in a red blouse, a half leg yellow skirt and long bluish stockings. Above all that, a jacket made of some leather imitation, bearing the most horrendous and rosy color known to the mankind. Some plastic earrings and some black, huge and rough shoes completed the very eccentric attire.
- A clown! - the Water Knight kept whining - Just a move, and you have left me completely horrible, for people to run away when seeing me! If you are thinking that I will go to the dance dressed like this...
Caldina crackled her fingers, and in an instant, Umi's clothes went back to their previous state. The girl sighed quite relieved when seeing in the mirror the reflection of herself she was used to.
- Don't you ever do that again! - Umi exclaimed, still angry - Just think what could have happened if someone had seen me! What if Asc...!
She didn't end up the sentence, perplexed by what she was about to say. However, the illusionist didn't miss the girl's hesitation.
- Was right now my little Umi maybe thinking about my little Ascot? - she asked with flattery, making the Magic Knight flush - How interesting!
The answer, that is if Umi had planned to other than blush like a fool and wonder why was she thinking about the young summoner, was interrupted by Fuu's arrival. Caldina was about to mention the whole matter concerning the dance, but the Wind Knight's expression restrained her from making any comment.
- Umi… I was looking for you. - the blond mumbled tiredly.
- Well, now you found me. - she answered, immediately going to alert mode - Don't tell me you finally met him…
- I did. - Fuu interrupted sighing slightly - But it doesn't matter anymore. The truth is that I need to speak with you and Hikaru.
- If you want me to beat someone… - Umi suggested, to which her friend denied with a gesture - No? Then let's go get Hikaru.
- You don't have to do that. - the redhead ringed at their backs - I'm here already.
- I thought your conversation with Guru Clef was going to take longer - Fuu was surprised - It's been less than ten minutes since I left you there.
- I didn't have much to tell him. - Hikaru mumbled looking away - But he did tell me you had the answer to our enigma.
- That's right…
The silence took over them, since the Wind Knight was not very willing to tell them what she knew she couldn't hide any longer. However, Caldina was the one to break the ice:
- Well, girls - she said getting up from the bed - I can see you have important matters to discuss, so I'll leave you alone…
- That's not necessary. - Fuu stopped her - Now that I've decided to speak out, it doesn't matter anymore who hears me. Just please, promise me that not even a word of this will ever get to Ferio's ears…
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- Guru Clef...
The mage raised his eyes from the book he was reading and fixed them on the door threshold, from where his eldest disciple stared at him.
- Ah, come in Lantis, I just wanted to talk to you.
The swordsman walked slowly into his former teacher's room and he declined to sit down on a chair that had just materialized in front of him.
- What is it?
Guru Clef had important things to discuss with his former student, but he couldn't help the question that kept hammering on his brain. Something that he had to clarify, one of so many enigmas.
- Do you have a girlfriend, Lantis?
The swordsman quirked a eyebrow in mild astonishment. What kind of question was that? And why was Clef asking such thing?
- I don't. Why?
- Mmmm... Hikaru just asked me and I found it very strange... since I thought you were in love with her...
- And she loves Eagle. - Lantis interrupted dryly - End of the story.
- And how do you know that?
The swordsman rose one of his hands, to show the mage the object laying on his palm. The broken locket.
- She has thrown this to my feet telling me she didn't want it. - he explained, his voice gelid - I think there's nothing else to say.
Guru Clef stirred in his comfortable armchair. There was something very strange about this, this whole mess he couldn't understand, nobody said what they should and everybody believed wrong things to be true. But he couldn't interfere. He had to let them work out their own problems. After all, they were all grown ups and not children.
Meanwhile, Lantis walked up to the window. Even when his features showed very little emotions, it was obvious that this conversation was causing him great pain.
- I also wanted to have a word with you.
The mage's eyes searched for a sign on his companion's face. That whole phrase didn't sound too well. But the swordsman didn't turn around to face him, he rather chose to keep his look on the garden spreading beneath the window.
- The day after the dance I plan to leave Cefiro.
- To Autozam? - Guru Clef inquired since he was already expecting something of the sort.
- Anywhere but there. - Lantis mumbled, obviously moody.
- Why?
- I've seen enough of it...
- That's not what I meant. - the mage cut him off - Why are you leaving?
The doubt floated between both of them for an instant. It was hard for the magic swordsman to explain his reasons. It hurt him cruelly to be forced to leave, but he knew it would hurt even more if he stayed.
- Lantis, - Clef insisted in command tone - answer me.
- Tell me, Guru Clef, how would you feel if you were to see Presea with another man?
The mage got up all of a sudden, caught out of his guard by this very unexpected. He had never thought of that. Presea with another man? No, he had never thought of it but now that the idea came to his mind... he didn't like it the slightest bit.
- How do you know...? - Clef mumbled with a dark suspicion, trailing off without completing a sentence that would have been too revealing.
- I'm not a fool, master Clef. The things you know about me, I also know about you. We have spent many years and many things together. I do believe we know each other more than enough.
He was right. If two people knew each other in Cefiro, those were the two of them. Too much time and too many things in common.
- Let's see - Lantis continued, infinite bitterness bearing on both his voice and expression - how would it be like to see Presea every day and know for sure she'll never be yours? To see her hug, to spy her as she kisses someone who loves her, and feel like you could die envying that lucky guy who has what you wanted for yourself? ? What would it happen if you had to imagine what they do when they are all alone anywhere out of everybody's sight? Trust me, you would imagine everything even if you didn't want... you'd be not able to take those and other ideas out of your head... and you'd go insane!
As he finished one of the biggest speeches in his entire life, the swordsman looked quite heated, as if every little thing he was saying was actually on his own mind there and then. He was the one who seemed to be on the verge of insanity, or at least, that's what the mage gathered from his disciple's crazed eyes. He suffered vastly, and Clef, just to be honest to himself, had to admit that something similar could happen to him if what Lantis narrated had really happened. But he was too stubborn to say so.
- You are raving mad, Lantis. I have nothing to do with Presea...
- Don't be cynic. - a now cold and serious Lantis cut him off sternly.
- How dare you...?? - the mage angered.
- Shut up. - Clef did so, bewildered by such treatment - You know that Presea has always been in love with you and you are not afraid of losing her. That's why you make her suffer with your incomprehensible indifference. But sooner or later she will get sick of this whole game and she will leave you, or she will rather find some other guy that can give her the love you deny her. Then perhaps you will understand why I cannot stay.
- You can't stand to see Hikaru with Eagle... - the mage concluded - Even less knowing like you know that you were the only one with will power enough to bring her back here.
He just couldn't help it, the images narrated by Lantis began to pour into his thoughts. The artisan in love with other man but him, wasting all her attention on some stranger. To lose her company, her soft look, her limitless devotion, her love... no. No!
- I don't think I could stand that either - he admitted in a sudden rapture of sincerity - I had never crossed my mind, but I know that it would be terrible for me... as it is for you.
Lantis turned around to the window, shrugging all the way. He was not used to talk that much, but maybe something good would come out from all that chat.
- Why haven't you told her?
- I'm not sure. - Clef mumbled, his voice barely audible - I guess I was afraid. I have banished my feelings for so long I've ended up actually believing they don't exist. And I have made an excuse out of the fact that I had to take care of Cefiro and I would have no time for her. But I know that's nothing a pretext. I... I'm way too powerful to follow my heart and if I was to let my feeling go wild... I don't want to think about it.
- That's just another excuse. - Lantis said - You are probably referring to what happened when the Pillar fell in love and you ignore how many times my blood have been calling me in these last days?
- What do you mean?
- The idea of abducting Hikaru have crossed my mind... to follow the steps of my late brother Zagato... and do the same thing he did in the name of love...
The mage stared at him, his expression bearing horror.
- Don't look at me like that... - Lantis almost laughed, which would have certainly been the top in the scale of rarities - I won't do such a thing because I know very well that would only make everything worse. As you see, I can still hold my own feelings back. And that doesn't mean my love is weaker.
- You are so grown. - Guru Clef watched his disciple in frank and open admiration - you have just made a very smart comparison, and to do so, you would have to know something that only I knew... until this very moment. Do you know what I'm talking about, right?
- Power. - was the swordsman's flat answer.
- In time you have become the most powerful magic user in all Cefiro, after me, that is. That's why your will of bringing the Knights back was stronger than Fuu's will of staying in the Mystic World. You'll know that story once it goes public, soon I hope. Anyway, I always knew you'd be the one to give me competition. Emeraude bet for Zagato. And others put their faith in Alcione.
- The princess' opinion was plagued by her feelings. Alcione corrupted her enormous power to favor my brother, and she'd have done much if he has requested so, because she also loved him. Love was a problem with no way out for all them.
- And however - Clef concluded - that's the same feeling that has made you grow in power. I take your hypothesis. If you can hold yourself back, then I can do it too, right? So are you telling me there's nothing worng with falling in love? After all the sad experiences you know about?
- Once it hits you, there's nothing you can do about it. That's my own experience. I just want to leave knowing that you talked to Presea, master Clef. Give yourself a chance, and give her that chance too.
Guru Clef stared at his disciple again. He couldn't tell him what he knew, since he had to realize for himself. But he couldn't let him go like this, giving up a happiness that was within the reach of his hands.
- Let's make a deal, Lantis.
- What kind of deal?
- I promise I will talk to Presea, if you give me your word you'll do the same with Hikaru.
- I have nothing to tell her. - the swordsman said, frowning.
- Tell her the truth. Tell her... what you feel.
- I don't want her to take pity of me. I can barely withstand the fact that she doesn't love me, but I don't want her compassion.
- Take my advice once again, Lantis. In time, you'd regret not telling her, just as I regret the wasted years of my life and Presea's. I'm still afraid... but maybe I'll be able to overcome it if we make this deal. What do you say?
- Alright. - the swordsman accepted seriously - You have my word that I will talk to her... but I will watch over you and I'll make sure you complete that promise.
- All I can promise is that I'll try.
To be continued...
Next chapter: The ball (part 1)
Callouts, callouts!
kalen1: Errr... you are lucky. You asked for an update and you got in two days! Not the end yet though... Ah, thanks about calling me mean, I know that! ^_^ I just hope you didn't melt too much, ok? Lantis-sama and Hikaru-chan are sure sweet! I'm just planning to make them suffer a bit more before I put them together... wait, was I putting them together or was she ending up with Eagle? Whaaa! I lost the script! Now anything can happen! I know, I'm evil!
vashy-kun: Don't cry! Yes, cry, that means I'm great at drama! O.O Anyway, thanks. Here's the update!
dewey: cruel? that word doesn't even start to define what I'm doing to them in the upcoming chapters. But it will have a happy ending! Just in case someone is wondering...
hikaru_29: Thanks. Ok, you promised to read. Now, read!
Lady Ronin Tiger: I really apologize for the delay, I hate when I can fulfill my promises, but I had no choice but to make you wait. However (warning), this chapter won't get you rid of the suspense. And no making up (or making out, for that matter) You'll get plenty of that in the final chapters. And you'll have to wait for the end to kill the suspense! Only three more to go...
Syvonair: Put down the knife... put down the knife or I will kill the whole casting and send them to hell! That's better. Now, thanks a lot for your nice words (without the knife) but... nothing is solved here so... *runs away from the knife*
KITTY: There you go! Just to drive a bit more insane...
MeierDracul: Whaaaa! Thanks a lot! *bows* You really know how to flatter a writer-wannabe. Thanks again! *bows again*
Graysky: I can always make things worse... *laughs evilly* Just read this chapter and you'll see! Fuu's secret, not yet. People being stupid, yeah, they'll keep doing that til the very last chapter. Anyway this is the next instalment of Battling Emotions!
nagareboshi1: Was that a cliffhanger? I didn't know I could do that! Clef is frustrated, I think I explain that here. Umi dislikes Lantis, that'll be explained in later chapters (there's a reason, of course) As for the secret... I'm not telling you! Not yet, I mean. Thanks for your nice words!
Miemu Akari: Don't cry! Is not good for your health! Besides, this one is not so sad, even if everybody is depressed... O.O That's it... this is the continuation!
Chrynn: Thanks a lot. Please read the whole thing other day! And tell me what you think...
fenian: Yes, a happy end. I love happy endings! So don't worry and thanks a lot!
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Battling emotions
Chapter XII
Clef - Duty (Part 2)
Guru Clef was still deeply astonished. What Fuu had just told him was not unusual at all; actually, it was something that could happen every day. And however, he would have never expected such a thing coming from her. Maybe from Umi or from Hikaru, who were both more impulsive. But the Wind Knight? No, it had never crossed his mind.
- Do the other magic knights know about this? - he inquired bearing a serious tone.
- I never dared to tell them… - the girl mumbled, her voice quite broken.
- And I presume you haven't told Ferio either…
- No! - Fuu exclaimed with terrified expression, looking at the magician with her eyes wide open in fear - He shouldn't… he must never know about this!
The short Guru moved his head understandingly. The girl's reaction was quite logical, but maybe a bit exaggerated. After all, what seemed to be so terrible for her was not such a big deal in his opinion.
- I think you are being a bit irrational about this, Fuu. Don't you think the three of them are all entitled to know? They have suffered so much because of you… especially the girls…
A long and deep sigh was the answer. That was exactly the answer Fuu was expecting from Guru Clef. He was so wise; he seemed to be always in control. But she was not able to do as he said. What would Hikaru and Umi say? And what about… Ferio? No, she couldn't face them, what had happened to her and what she did later in order to hide it was very absurd. The fact that she had told the magician was already too much for her. Even if it had truly made her feel a little better.
- It doesn't matter if you don't tell Ferio… because the situation between you two is irreversible and perhaps he'll never need to know. But what about the girls? They are your best friends, or that's what I thought.
- You are right… - Fuu lowered her head in obvious defeat - I… I will tell them. Somehow I'll find the courage to tell them everything. I just hope I won't die in shame before I finish.
- They will understand you. - Clef reassured her with a smile - You girls have always been very close, right?
Fuu agreed slightly, slowly drying off her tears. A small smile crept up her features. She had to give it a try, the girls didn't deserve to ignore such a secret.
A knock at the door could be heard in that moment, and much to her grief, the girl paled, fearing it could be Ferio. However, she relaxed again when seeing the person who was just entering…
- Hikaru…
The redhead couldn't hide her swollen eyes and however, she still tried to show her usually bright smile. She looked at them both vaguely and then, shaking her head, she walked up to her friend:
- Fuu! I didn't know you were here! Umi was looking for you… I don't know what for though.
All this was said lightly and in an apparent carefree tone, but anyone that knew Hikaru would realize that she was making a great effort to show some happiness. The blonde could not avoid a chill when noticing the signs of recent crying on her friend's generally cheerful face. Perhaps she had a part of responsibility in those tears.
- I've been here for a while, but I was about to leave. - she said calmly, heading for the door - Is there anything else you want to ask me, Guru Clef?
He denied with his head and gestured for her to leave if she wanted.
- I'll go find Umi. - Fuu sighed turning around a bit as she got to the exit - I'll have to ask you, please, to come to my room when you finish here. I have to tell you something… you and Umi. - a chill shook her one more time, just for a moment and then, not wanting to stay there any longer, she turned around again and left the room silently.
The magician watched her go with sad eyes. Poor Fuu, she was so afflicted. She was convinced that she deserved punishment for something on which she had only partial responsibility. He just hoped she was able to be honest with her friends. She was in desperate need of their forgiveness.
- Guru Clef... is something the matter?
Hikaru's concerned voice pulled the tiny wizard out from the path leading deeper into his own thoughts. He denied with his head.
- No, everything is fine.
- Does that mean that you know already why we were not able to return to Cefiro in all this years? - the girl asked with brilliant eyes. It's not that she was going to get back something she never had, but still…
- Yes, - Guru Clef answered without hesitation - I still don't understand how did you make it this time though. Do you want to give me your version of the facts?
A sigh escaped from the redhead's lips, at the same time that she narrated all that happened to her that day. All from her strange vision of Lantis to how the locket she was wearing seemed to pull her up right before they vanished from Tokyo Tower and reappeared hovering on Cefiro's sky.
- Lantis… - the mage mumbled not so amazed by what he had just heard. He should have known it was something like that. Much more after Fuu's confession. There were not many people in the planet with willpower enough to successfully override a Magic Knight's wish.
- Guru… - Hikaru asked a bit hesitant - Ain't you going to tell me why we couldn't come back before?
The short mage denied once again.
- I believe it's Fuu who should tell you about that.
- Fuu? - the redhead arched an eyebrow in astonishment - What does Fuu have to do with this?
- She holds most of the responsibility. - Clef explained - But I won't say more, since it would be revealing a secret that doesn't belong to me.
Hikaru shrugged, not very convinced.
- I guess that's what she wants to talk us about, right? - the mage agreed briefly - Then I'll wait for her explanation.
Guru Clef crossed his arms, obviously insinuating that, if the girl had nothing else to say, their interview was over. Nevertheless, Hikaru was not willing to leave yet.
- And after what I have told you, don't you know why were we able to finally come back?
- I have this hypothesis. - the mage answered vaguely, not wanting to give away many information on the subject - But I won't be sure 'til I have a talk with Lantis.
- Lantis… - the redhead shivered as if the magic swordsman's name had just bitten her.
- Yes, Lantis. The fact that you had what you call a vision of him right before the transference between dimensions does indicate he also has something to do with this.
- I don't understand what could he possibly have to do with this… but I guess that makes some sense.
For a moment, the silence took over the place, as if they had nothing else to say. But it was not like that. Even if she knew she will later regret it a thousand times, Hikaru had to ask the question that was torturing her since the previous night, since "he" had kissed her.
- Is she pretty? - she mumbled in a low and insecure voice, perfectly heard by the mage anyway.
- Who? - he asked, not understanding what was she talking about.
- Lantis' girlfriend… - the girl's murmur became almost inaudible, as she turned her look to the floor.
- Lantis doesn't have any girlfriend, not that I know. - Guru Clef said taken aback by this question.
- He doesn't? - the redhead was also astonished - But he…
- I think you'll have to ask him whatever you want to know. - the mage cut her off - I don't use to interfere in the love affairs concerning Cefiro's inhabitants.
Hikaru sighed slightly and she headed towards the door like Fuu had done a couple of minutes before. Crestfallen and somehow depressed. However, Guru Clef stopped her when she was about to grab the doorknob.
- Excuse me if I have sounded too rude or careless, but that one it's a matter you and Lantis should work out by yourselves, without the interference of any of us. Not even mine.
The girl turned around to shoot a sad smile to the mage.
- Don't worry, Guru Clef. I shouldn't ask, that's all.
And she left with no more words. The mage shrugged. That's why he had never wanted to get involved with anyone, even knowing that some women had been attracted to him, not caring about his childish appearance. Love could bring nothing but trouble and misunderstandings. And he was not going to make such a mistake.
While he meditated on this, his feet took him to the window. Through it he could gather a nice view of the garden, and within it… just the two people he wanted to see the most in that moment. Lantis and… Presea. Or whatever her name was, since she was only the deceased artisan's twin sister. A fervent desire to know her true name took over him. And… what were those two doing there together, all alone, talking with so much mystery? Could Presea be Lantis' hidden girlfriend? And if that was it, why were they hiding? Guru Clef shook his head wearily, suddenly mad at himself. Where was all that nonsense coming from? She had just confessed her love for him; love of which he had knowledge since long ago, so she couldn't possibly be in love with the magic swordsman but still… what if he was? What if he make her change her mind and her heart? The short mage pressed his fists into tight balls. No, that couldn't be, it was absurd. And if it was so, why was he still thinking about it?
A word came to his mind, in order to explain the crazy ideas currently alienating him. To this word, Guru Clef raised the head bearing an offended expression and he removed himself from the window. The explanation was even more illogical that the fact itself. Of course he was not going to lend ear to his own mind playing tricks on him. He walked away to the darkest corner inside the room. There he produced a seat out of thin air, just to plump into it heavily. Damned idea transformed into word. The idea of Presea's absence. The word jealousy…
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- So Hikaru does have a date for the upcoming dance? - Caldina asked, obviously rejoiced by the news.
Umi nodded. She was not very sure that the illusionist's plan will work, but certainly she was not going to keep her arms crossed while her two friends withered in their misery. At least she would see certain guys flail in jealousy. And if they didn't care that much, then at least the girls would have some fun.
- Great! - the dancer clapped - Now we only have to take care of Fuu… that one will be a little more difficult. But we'll make it, and then we'll get to the most interesting part!
- The dance is not until the day after tomorrow… - the Water Knight mumbled, not knowing what to make out of Caldina's words.
The illusionist jumped out from her comfortable position on the bed to dance swirling all over the room.
- What are you talking about, girl? - she exclaimed still jumping and dancing - The best part is the preparations! - she stopped for an instant in front of the girl, her hands on her waist and a mischievous smile flourishing on her lips - For instance, what dress are you planning to wear for the dance?
- Hum… - to tell the truth, Umi never pondered on that. Her mind was very busy with other less trivial thoughts.
- I knew it! - Caldina continued her dance through the room - Careless girls! Lucky you, the sexy me is always resourceful in any situation!
A few movements with her hands, as many sounds of bells, and in less than one second Umi was dressed with the most outlandish clothes that could come out of a demented imagination.
- Caldina! - Umi screeched trying to take off the green scarf warped around her neck, which made scandalous contrast with a purple feather waving on top of her blue hair. - If you don't take all this off me right away, what I'm going to do to you will make Presea's ideas on how to punish Mokona sound delicate!
- Oops… - the illusionist tried to stifle a laugh - Just wait 'til you see yourself in a mirror…
Slowly, the Water Knight turned in the address indicated by Caldina, where she knew was standing her room's full-length mirror. And then she almost passed away.
- Ahhhhhhh! - another screech, much sharper than the first one - You have turned me into a daub! Umi Ryuuzaki, one of the better dressed models in the whole world! Oh, God, if someone gets to see me this way!
The glass showed the image of Umi sheathed in a red blouse, a half leg yellow skirt and long bluish stockings. Above all that, a jacket made of some leather imitation, bearing the most horrendous and rosy color known to the mankind. Some plastic earrings and some black, huge and rough shoes completed the very eccentric attire.
- A clown! - the Water Knight kept whining - Just a move, and you have left me completely horrible, for people to run away when seeing me! If you are thinking that I will go to the dance dressed like this...
Caldina crackled her fingers, and in an instant, Umi's clothes went back to their previous state. The girl sighed quite relieved when seeing in the mirror the reflection of herself she was used to.
- Don't you ever do that again! - Umi exclaimed, still angry - Just think what could have happened if someone had seen me! What if Asc...!
She didn't end up the sentence, perplexed by what she was about to say. However, the illusionist didn't miss the girl's hesitation.
- Was right now my little Umi maybe thinking about my little Ascot? - she asked with flattery, making the Magic Knight flush - How interesting!
The answer, that is if Umi had planned to other than blush like a fool and wonder why was she thinking about the young summoner, was interrupted by Fuu's arrival. Caldina was about to mention the whole matter concerning the dance, but the Wind Knight's expression restrained her from making any comment.
- Umi… I was looking for you. - the blond mumbled tiredly.
- Well, now you found me. - she answered, immediately going to alert mode - Don't tell me you finally met him…
- I did. - Fuu interrupted sighing slightly - But it doesn't matter anymore. The truth is that I need to speak with you and Hikaru.
- If you want me to beat someone… - Umi suggested, to which her friend denied with a gesture - No? Then let's go get Hikaru.
- You don't have to do that. - the redhead ringed at their backs - I'm here already.
- I thought your conversation with Guru Clef was going to take longer - Fuu was surprised - It's been less than ten minutes since I left you there.
- I didn't have much to tell him. - Hikaru mumbled looking away - But he did tell me you had the answer to our enigma.
- That's right…
The silence took over them, since the Wind Knight was not very willing to tell them what she knew she couldn't hide any longer. However, Caldina was the one to break the ice:
- Well, girls - she said getting up from the bed - I can see you have important matters to discuss, so I'll leave you alone…
- That's not necessary. - Fuu stopped her - Now that I've decided to speak out, it doesn't matter anymore who hears me. Just please, promise me that not even a word of this will ever get to Ferio's ears…
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- Guru Clef...
The mage raised his eyes from the book he was reading and fixed them on the door threshold, from where his eldest disciple stared at him.
- Ah, come in Lantis, I just wanted to talk to you.
The swordsman walked slowly into his former teacher's room and he declined to sit down on a chair that had just materialized in front of him.
- What is it?
Guru Clef had important things to discuss with his former student, but he couldn't help the question that kept hammering on his brain. Something that he had to clarify, one of so many enigmas.
- Do you have a girlfriend, Lantis?
The swordsman quirked a eyebrow in mild astonishment. What kind of question was that? And why was Clef asking such thing?
- I don't. Why?
- Mmmm... Hikaru just asked me and I found it very strange... since I thought you were in love with her...
- And she loves Eagle. - Lantis interrupted dryly - End of the story.
- And how do you know that?
The swordsman rose one of his hands, to show the mage the object laying on his palm. The broken locket.
- She has thrown this to my feet telling me she didn't want it. - he explained, his voice gelid - I think there's nothing else to say.
Guru Clef stirred in his comfortable armchair. There was something very strange about this, this whole mess he couldn't understand, nobody said what they should and everybody believed wrong things to be true. But he couldn't interfere. He had to let them work out their own problems. After all, they were all grown ups and not children.
Meanwhile, Lantis walked up to the window. Even when his features showed very little emotions, it was obvious that this conversation was causing him great pain.
- I also wanted to have a word with you.
The mage's eyes searched for a sign on his companion's face. That whole phrase didn't sound too well. But the swordsman didn't turn around to face him, he rather chose to keep his look on the garden spreading beneath the window.
- The day after the dance I plan to leave Cefiro.
- To Autozam? - Guru Clef inquired since he was already expecting something of the sort.
- Anywhere but there. - Lantis mumbled, obviously moody.
- Why?
- I've seen enough of it...
- That's not what I meant. - the mage cut him off - Why are you leaving?
The doubt floated between both of them for an instant. It was hard for the magic swordsman to explain his reasons. It hurt him cruelly to be forced to leave, but he knew it would hurt even more if he stayed.
- Lantis, - Clef insisted in command tone - answer me.
- Tell me, Guru Clef, how would you feel if you were to see Presea with another man?
The mage got up all of a sudden, caught out of his guard by this very unexpected. He had never thought of that. Presea with another man? No, he had never thought of it but now that the idea came to his mind... he didn't like it the slightest bit.
- How do you know...? - Clef mumbled with a dark suspicion, trailing off without completing a sentence that would have been too revealing.
- I'm not a fool, master Clef. The things you know about me, I also know about you. We have spent many years and many things together. I do believe we know each other more than enough.
He was right. If two people knew each other in Cefiro, those were the two of them. Too much time and too many things in common.
- Let's see - Lantis continued, infinite bitterness bearing on both his voice and expression - how would it be like to see Presea every day and know for sure she'll never be yours? To see her hug, to spy her as she kisses someone who loves her, and feel like you could die envying that lucky guy who has what you wanted for yourself? ? What would it happen if you had to imagine what they do when they are all alone anywhere out of everybody's sight? Trust me, you would imagine everything even if you didn't want... you'd be not able to take those and other ideas out of your head... and you'd go insane!
As he finished one of the biggest speeches in his entire life, the swordsman looked quite heated, as if every little thing he was saying was actually on his own mind there and then. He was the one who seemed to be on the verge of insanity, or at least, that's what the mage gathered from his disciple's crazed eyes. He suffered vastly, and Clef, just to be honest to himself, had to admit that something similar could happen to him if what Lantis narrated had really happened. But he was too stubborn to say so.
- You are raving mad, Lantis. I have nothing to do with Presea...
- Don't be cynic. - a now cold and serious Lantis cut him off sternly.
- How dare you...?? - the mage angered.
- Shut up. - Clef did so, bewildered by such treatment - You know that Presea has always been in love with you and you are not afraid of losing her. That's why you make her suffer with your incomprehensible indifference. But sooner or later she will get sick of this whole game and she will leave you, or she will rather find some other guy that can give her the love you deny her. Then perhaps you will understand why I cannot stay.
- You can't stand to see Hikaru with Eagle... - the mage concluded - Even less knowing like you know that you were the only one with will power enough to bring her back here.
He just couldn't help it, the images narrated by Lantis began to pour into his thoughts. The artisan in love with other man but him, wasting all her attention on some stranger. To lose her company, her soft look, her limitless devotion, her love... no. No!
- I don't think I could stand that either - he admitted in a sudden rapture of sincerity - I had never crossed my mind, but I know that it would be terrible for me... as it is for you.
Lantis turned around to the window, shrugging all the way. He was not used to talk that much, but maybe something good would come out from all that chat.
- Why haven't you told her?
- I'm not sure. - Clef mumbled, his voice barely audible - I guess I was afraid. I have banished my feelings for so long I've ended up actually believing they don't exist. And I have made an excuse out of the fact that I had to take care of Cefiro and I would have no time for her. But I know that's nothing a pretext. I... I'm way too powerful to follow my heart and if I was to let my feeling go wild... I don't want to think about it.
- That's just another excuse. - Lantis said - You are probably referring to what happened when the Pillar fell in love and you ignore how many times my blood have been calling me in these last days?
- What do you mean?
- The idea of abducting Hikaru have crossed my mind... to follow the steps of my late brother Zagato... and do the same thing he did in the name of love...
The mage stared at him, his expression bearing horror.
- Don't look at me like that... - Lantis almost laughed, which would have certainly been the top in the scale of rarities - I won't do such a thing because I know very well that would only make everything worse. As you see, I can still hold my own feelings back. And that doesn't mean my love is weaker.
- You are so grown. - Guru Clef watched his disciple in frank and open admiration - you have just made a very smart comparison, and to do so, you would have to know something that only I knew... until this very moment. Do you know what I'm talking about, right?
- Power. - was the swordsman's flat answer.
- In time you have become the most powerful magic user in all Cefiro, after me, that is. That's why your will of bringing the Knights back was stronger than Fuu's will of staying in the Mystic World. You'll know that story once it goes public, soon I hope. Anyway, I always knew you'd be the one to give me competition. Emeraude bet for Zagato. And others put their faith in Alcione.
- The princess' opinion was plagued by her feelings. Alcione corrupted her enormous power to favor my brother, and she'd have done much if he has requested so, because she also loved him. Love was a problem with no way out for all them.
- And however - Clef concluded - that's the same feeling that has made you grow in power. I take your hypothesis. If you can hold yourself back, then I can do it too, right? So are you telling me there's nothing worng with falling in love? After all the sad experiences you know about?
- Once it hits you, there's nothing you can do about it. That's my own experience. I just want to leave knowing that you talked to Presea, master Clef. Give yourself a chance, and give her that chance too.
Guru Clef stared at his disciple again. He couldn't tell him what he knew, since he had to realize for himself. But he couldn't let him go like this, giving up a happiness that was within the reach of his hands.
- Let's make a deal, Lantis.
- What kind of deal?
- I promise I will talk to Presea, if you give me your word you'll do the same with Hikaru.
- I have nothing to tell her. - the swordsman said, frowning.
- Tell her the truth. Tell her... what you feel.
- I don't want her to take pity of me. I can barely withstand the fact that she doesn't love me, but I don't want her compassion.
- Take my advice once again, Lantis. In time, you'd regret not telling her, just as I regret the wasted years of my life and Presea's. I'm still afraid... but maybe I'll be able to overcome it if we make this deal. What do you say?
- Alright. - the swordsman accepted seriously - You have my word that I will talk to her... but I will watch over you and I'll make sure you complete that promise.
- All I can promise is that I'll try.
To be continued...
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