Lily
"SHUT UP!"
"What?" I bolted. I barley made it to my office before the tears started streaming down my face. In all the years I had know Dr. Macy, never once had he yelled at my. Not once. Oh, Damn here comes Renee, she must have scene me running down the hall. She'll probably tell me off for it or something.
"Lily, are you ok, what happened?"
"I'm fine Renee, nothing happened." Oh, my God. Was Renee just not only civil but, genuinely concerned.
"Lily, I know something's wrong. If you don't want to tell me I understand, but, maybe Jordan or someone."
"Did you just recommend I talk to Jordan? You meant Devan right. Not Jordan, the woman you've been trying to get kicked out since she was hired."
"No, I mean Jordan."
"Ok, Look. For the first time ever since I started working here Dr. Macy yelled at me. You know what Bug and Nigel say, they say I take things way to personally and you know what? They're right. I must look so stupid, I'm crying because my boss yelled at me, ONCE! Do you know how many times he's yelled at Jordan? Hundreds, and not once have I scene her break down and cry because of it." God, did I just say all that out loud to Renee.
"Lily, you have to stop being so hard on yourself. You're not Jordan. Your, you."
"But, what if I don't want to be me? What if I'm not good enough for anyone, what if I just don't measure up?"
"You do measure though. You're a great person Lily, and I think every one but you see's that."
"I wasn't god enough for Nigel was I? Garret either."
"Lily, I think you should go home and sleep for a bit ok? I'll tell Garret I sent you home."
"Ok Renee. Thanks." Well I guess I have to leave now."
Home. The place for people with no friends, no life worth living. The place where people not good enough for other people spend all their free time. The people no one would miss if they died.
The knife on the counter look's so inviting right know. Suddenly, it's gripped tightly in my left hand. I drew it diagonally across my wrist four times. Once for each person who hurt me. Dad, Mom, Nigel and Garret.