Carol sat on the couch and looked at her book. She then looked at the clock on the wall. Another evening at home alone, she sighed and then went back to her biography. Ross told her that he was going to Monica's tonight to watch the game. She whined. "Why can't we just spend tonight together?" He patted her hand. "I know you hate sports and the Rangers are in the championships. We tried to get tickets, but couldn't" Ross tried to ease her mind. "Hey you know what you should do ? I think just because I have Chandler and his new roommate , you should maybe find some girlfriends." Ross did feel bad that he left her a lot of the time because of work and school.

Carol smiled. "Maybe I will."

It was now nine o 'clock. No phone call either. Carol pulled on her coat and then walked down the street. She saw from the street that the a new book store had opened up and they had scheduled a poetry reading tonight. Carol curiously opened the door and everyone turned around. She whispered sorry and then sat down next to a red haired woman. The woman smiled at her and then the two of them proceeded to listening to the woman drone on about her eggs. Carol couldn't get off her mind the problems she was having with her marriage. At first , it was just like a fairy tale, now it was seeming more like a night mare. Lines were becoming etched in her young face , causing her to look a little more older than in her twenties. Following the reading, they were serving refreshments. No sense in going home now, she thought as she went to the table for a cup of herbal tea.

"Great reading huh?" the redhead smiled. She extended her hand. "I am Susan , by the way." "I am Carol." She said shyly.

"First time here? I know I was the same way." Susan had a very reassuring look to her. There were no doubts in her mind. She knew what she wanted. "What do you mean?" Carol had no idea what she was talking about. "I was the same way when I first came out." She whispered as she fingered her hand. Carol snatched it back immedialtely. "I am not gay. I am happily married to a wonderful man." She said loudly. "Then what are you doing in a lesbian bookstore then?" Susan asked pointedly. "I didn't know.
" Carol said as she got up and put on her coat." Susan put her hand out and stopped her. "No please, something is wrong , I can sense it." She said softly. "I am not going to try to come on to you. I can just tell you right now , you would like to have someone to talk to. If you want, we can go around the corner and get some dessert or something. " Carol looked at her watch. She was sure her husband was still watching the game with his buddies. "Okay, you're on."

The two women went to a small coffee shop around the corner and ordered cheesecake. "Can't eat too much. I have to watch my figure." Carol laughed as she stuck her fork in the cake. "For your little hubby." Susan giggled. "What was your husband's name again?" Carol said . "Ross."

After the two women had finished, they pulled their coats around them and walked into the brisk fall air. Susan looked over to Carol, her lips moved closer and closer to her. Susan was now so close , her breath came out and landed on Carol's face. There was just something about this all that seemed mysterious and dangerous. She and Ross hadn't made love in months. This drought caused Ross to enroll in a martial arts class at the university. He would come home in his white outfit with the orange belt and spout some nonsense about sushi or something. Something was pushing her to Susan, her lips brushed the woman's. It was as if there was a fire that had just gone out and Susan was the match. Carol laid her hands slowly on Susan as she stood kissing her. Then Carol began to panic as she broke away and ran.

She was out of breath. She had to get away from there. She was cheating and breaking her vows as she kissed this woman. She stared at the gold band on her left hand. He had promised to never love another woman. Now she was breaking the promise. She looked up to see their apartment and she heard the yells as he practiced his karatay. There would be no yells tonight. It was time for them to start acting like a married couple again.

Pushing the door open, she ran to her husband and grabbed his ass and then began to kiss him. She pushed him against the wall and then lifted her legs up around his torso. Her skirt still on, she reached down and ripped it off as well as the panty hose with the fierceness of a tigress. Her silky legs she ran up and down his own and she then slowly leaned up against his manhood. Realizing where this was leading , he began to move himself into her. Carol bit her lip as he pushed himself on to her pleasure area. She wanted to scream, but would her screams be screams of pleasure or screams of pain?

"Ross I want a baby." She whispered. "And I know that's what you want." He closed his eyes to make himself get off faster as he stood naked against the wall. His legs enveloped her body and the two were now meshed together like some sort of a primitive statue.

Completely exhausted , the two collapsed on their bed and began to sigh.

"Carol , why did you do this?" Ross was surprised as his wife had shown no interest in him for months now.

"I vowed I would love you , no matter what. I want what you want , after all we are married." Carol tried to convince herself with every word from her mouth. The thoughts of Susan crept into her mind as she closed her eyes. She tried to push them away, but they kept coming like the tide . He laid with her naked, but she just laid there as the thoughts of this woman continued to be on her mind.