Tears of a Traitor

(A/N)- Thanks to my first three reviewers:-) It truly means a lot to me.
This is a bit short, but I'm expanding the battle scene to make up for it.
-Chapter 4- Indecisive

When one thinks about how it must feel to be turned to stone, the thought alone is painful. But to have it happen to you, obviously, is much worse. Jadis showed no mercy as she jammed the ice staff hard into her ribs. It started from the point where it stabbed and spread through her body, turning her skin and everything beneath it into stone. It felt as if she had a migraine briefly as she cried out, but her pain was ended as she became completely stone.

It was if she had gone to sleep, except she couldn't dream. And it wasn't too peaceful either.

And like every night someone falls to sleep, the time to awaken comes a lot quicker than expected. And it did. Though … even that was painful.

She was keeling over from the pain when she completely went to stone, and that's how she awoke. She took a quick gasp of air, her heart hammering in her chest as she choked on some blood, and she teetered, heading face first towards the ground.

As soon as she felt gravity come and take over, she was caught firmly by the shoulders. She coughed painfully as the arms let her rest a bit, and she looked up to meet two familiar eyes.

"Tumnus …" she said in a raspy tone, and he smiled. She looked past him to see two girls walk by, one pretty short, obviously a youngling, and an older one. They both shared the same deep brown hair. The eldest looked over and beamed as she followed the little one. Hazelle's eyes grew wide as she saw whom they were both following.

"Aslan …" she whispered fearfully, clutching Tumnus' arm firmly.

"It's alright," he assured, "I told him about you. He has redeemed you."

She regained her posture steadily, wiping the blood away from the corner of her mouth with one finger, "Did you also happen to mention I'm a terrific liar?" she hissed, a bit angered, avoiding eye contact, another habit of hers, and she stared down at her hands in shame.

"But you can tell the truth when you want to," he pointed out, "And you did defy Jadis,"

"Yeah, yeah, I know," she brushed off, looking up at him. His eyes were tearing a little, as if he was ready to cry.

"You're too sensitive, you know," she declared with a wry grin.

He choked out a laugh, "Well, you're too honest,"

"I thought I was a liar," she reminded, folding her arms.

"Friends," A voice roared. It was Aslan, and he was addressing the Narnians that he had restored, "We must make haste. A war for our land is commencing at this very moment. We must come to their aide," he commanded, and he let the two girls climb onto his back before he sped off towards the valley that lay between the mountains.

The soldiers followed suit, but Hazelle waited. Tumnus went to join the others, and he turned when he realized she wasn't at his side. She just stood there, her little depressed melodramatic self, staring down at her arm as her left hand clenched her right's elbow.

"Hazelle," he called, but she didn't look up. He heaved a sigh at how difficult she was being, and he walked up to her, "Aren't you coming?"

She shook her head sadly, "I'm afraid I can't."

He sighed, "Are you still on about defying Aslan? I told you--"

"It's not that!" she shouted, scaring him. "I'm sorry, Tumnus, but it's not that. My blood, by law, belongs to her. Once a traitor, always a traitor."

"That's not true!" he fought, "You believe in a free Narnia, don't you?"

"Yes …" she replied almost reluctantly.

"Then you rebelled. Your blood no longer belongs to her."

She stared at the ground, and looked up suddenly, glaring, "Look, why do you care so much?"

"I'm only trying to help a friend," he exclaimed.

"Don't waste your breath," she spat. She was starting to get sick of him. She was practically born a traitor, and just because she defied Jadis didn't mean she was good enough for Aslan's army. She had defied Aslan long before she defied Jadis. Her mind was set. She was a neutral nobody. She belonged to no side. She'd might as well just stick around and watch these idiots have their stupid battle, because it won't end as the Narnians hope it to be. Jadis was much too strong, she knew that much.

Tumnus turned to see the last of the soldiers disappear into the wood, and he looked darkly into Hazelle's eyes, "Do what you want. I have to protect my friends," he said, and took off after the others.

She leaned against the pillar she'd been frozen near, staring off into the distance, "What an idiot," she muttered. It may be right at this time to point out that not only is she indecisive, mean, and a bit crazy, but she'd also gained a habit of talking to herself, along with the lying ability she expanded over time. It was a habit gained over the years for not having a friend. It actually helped her though- it made her get her thoughts straight. Which is exactly what she needed right now.

"Why does he care about me? He doesn't even know me." She pushed herself off the pillar and nudged a couple of small rocks aside with her hooves as she walked slowly towards the direction he'd run off in.

"And why the hell did he … kiss me?" she said in fake-disgust, and if anyone heard her say that, it was very evident that she didn't mind the kiss one bit, "I only knew him … what … three days?" she exclaimed, "Not even!"

She looked up to the mountains, the wind played wildly with her dark hair. She sighed deeply, "Would it be daft to help them just 'cause he's the only one who'd ever have the nerve to care that much?" she asked the wind. She had a feeling that it was listening. It blew harder in her face, and she squinted. "Would that be a 'yes'?" she asked herself in wonderment with a frown.

She turned away, heading towards the forest that sheltered her small, yet humble, little home. She stopped suddenly in her stride. Something held her back.

She groaned angrily, storming off towards the battlefield, "Damn him!" she growled ferociously as she broke into a run.

(A/N)- Please review- the next chapter will be up ASAP. This story will be shorter than my others were meant to be, but I'm making it a priority to get this done. That'll make it the first story I've ever finished:-) lol ... damn, I'm pathetic ...