Authoress : Best downed with a slow, mournful song. "Eternal Snow", if you have it.
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How long has it been since I fell in love with you?
He stands before her grave, a bouquet of white lilacs held lightly in his hands.
My feelings have only grown since then
As his gaze drifts over the well-worn stone - a surface he knows only too well - he recalls the day they exchanged their wedding vows.
Did you ever notice this love I bear?
She had been so happy that day; so radiant in the light of her joy. So gloriously alive.
Even though I've never once told you as much
Yet, that night, their first night together, she had extracted a promise from him.
Like snow, it's only been quietly
As she lay beneath him, she had reached up and told him, her voice soft and serene, to return to Asgard when she was gone.
Continuing to fall
Her eyes were sad, but true, and she was smiling. Not with fear, not with resignation, but with love.
Hold me tight; If I had to feel this way
I wouldn't have wanted to know
How loving someone feels
When he tried to tell her that it was far too early to worry about such things, she had simply pressed a finger gently to his lips, sealing in the words that both of them knew would be a lie. Then, she had pulled him down to her, and wrapping her arms around his shoulders, buried her face in his neck.
I love you; The tears won't stop
As he kissed her, he felt tears collecting in his own eyes. Sweet tears, angry tears. And he had crushed her to him, as though by holding her tightly enough, he could keep out the time which was so mercilessly stealing her away.
If it had to be like this,
Neither one of them spoke of that promise after that night.
I shouldn't have met you at all
They had had no children; she wasn't one of his destined, and as such was not fated to bear his children. But they had lived together, faced the passage of years. He had stayed by her side, even during the time when she would fret that she was getting old and ugly, and he would laugh and kiss her, before reassuring her that she was as enchanting as ever. And while she would complain that he was lying, there was always a glow of happiness in her eyes.
Till when shall I yearn for you?
Years. Such a short time.
My sigh mists upon the window pane
She had looked just as beautiful when she lay on their bed, her breathing weak and labored. As he held her hand, she smiled at him. And this time, she reminded him of that promise, made so many nights ago.
When he shook his head in mute denial, she had pressed her finger, now so frail, against his lips. And still smiling, she had told him that she loved him, one last final time, before the precious light that was her fled from her eyes.
He broke.
Can a lighted candle no longer melt my trembling heart?
As they lowered her lovely, lifeless body into the earth, he had raged. Raged against the gods and the world and the very laws of the universe. Raged because anger was the only emotion he dared allow himself. Raged with such terrible fury, that even his own children hesitated to approach him.
Hold me tight; Strong enough to break me
He had screamed his vengeance against the skies for days, till his voice gave way under the duress. Then, he had collapsed, and wept. Bitterly, with the gaping loss and pain he had never wanted to feel.
I miss you; Each time I think of you
It wasn't enough.
It would never be enough.
If there is a snow that falls for all eternity
Will it bury this feeling I have for you?
Even now, when he can look upon her grave without turning away, the piercing anguish still churns within him. And something deep in his very soul tells him that the pain will never go away.
Hold me tight; If I had to feel this way
I wouldn't have wanted to know
How loving someone feels
As he places the flowers before the headstone, he wonders whether, if he could change it so that he had never met her, he would.
I love you; These feelings welling in my chest
I want to scream them to the winter sky
I want to meet you right now
And he already knows the answer.
I love you.
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Disclaimer : Matantei Loki Ragnarok does not belong to me. Neither does "Eternal Snow".
Authoress : I actually liked this piece. It's probably, well, damned... brief, but whenever I read this over I feel all depressed and melancholy. I'm not sure if I managed to bring that feeling into this fic, though...
The lyrics? They're personally translated from the original Japanese. I also took some, umm, liberties, to make it flow better. -twiddles her fingers- They're pretty close to the original though, I promise.
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