Why Weren't You There?
A Grey's Anatomy Fanfiction
Disclaimer: Sadly neither Grey's Anatomy nor Dr. McDreamy (Patrick Dempsey) belongs to me.
Summary: A re-write of the events of "What Have I Done To Deserve This?" 2nd chapter to Slow-Motion Breakdown"
Pairing: Derek/Meredith par usual
Meredith couldn't believe what was happening. She was lying there on her bed with George of all people. Her good friend who always said the right thing. George. She knew it was stupid. The truth was that she was lonely. Suddenly the wave of emotion hit her and she was in tears as George worked himself into an excited frenzy on top of her.
"Meredith, what is it? What's wrong?"
She tried to keep the tears at bay.
"Nothing…Nothing's wrong." She managed to say between sniffles.
George looked at Meredith, with her eyes shut tight and the tears rolling down her face and whispered to her, his voice laced with hurt and anger.
"Sleeping with me is really this awful for you?"
With that he got up and left Meredith in her bed crying and calling out to him.
"No George, it's not you…"
The door slammed, drowning out Meredith's words, "It's just that I'm a whore."
Meredith stood in the doorway of her bedroom as George bent down to pick up his shirt.
"There's a suitcase in the hall."
"I was just getting my shirt."
"There's a suitcase," Meredith repeated.
"Yeah, I know…I don't live here anymore. Excuse me."
He said as he brushed past her in the doorway.
George was always polite…even when he was hurt and angry…George was always polite.
"I just want to know why..you…if you didn't want to…"
"I didn't know, I didn't want to…
After her shift the next night, against her better judgment, Meredith wound up at Joe's.
"You and tequila don't mix well remember?"
She'd know that voice anywhere.
"Don't…"
"Don't what?"
"Don't be nice to me. I did a terrible thing."
"We all do terrible things."
"No, not like this…I slept with George because he was there and saying all these perfect things…and damn it…Why wasn't it you? Why weren't you there? I slept with him because I wanted you…"
"Meredith,"
"I might lose all my friends."
"Well, you won't lose me."
"I've already lost you, Derek. I love you and you have a wife."
"Meredith, it doesn't have to be like this."
"Of course it does because otherwise it wouldn't be my life."
"Meredith,.."
"Stop doing that!"
"Doing what?"
"Saying my name like you love me."
"I do love you."
"If you love me, then why weren't you there for me?"
Derek downed the last of his Scotch and got up to leave the bar.
"I'll always be there for you."
Finis