Mob didn't know what to do with this box of chocolates.

She had been keeping it in her and Sho's room even though they weren't supposed to take food out of the kitchen. They could get rats if they took food out of the kitchen and Sho was the only one who wanted rats. She knew that she should have eaten the chocolates a long time ago. That was what they were for, after all, but she didn't.

She couldn't.

She didn't want to.

These were the first White Day chocolates she had ever gotten. Sho had given away his first ever Valentine's Day chocolates but Sho hadn't liked the girl who gave them to him. She was one of those girls who played that game where you chased boys until you caught them and then you kissed them. Not a very fun or good game at all in Mob's opinion. Kisses were supposed to be special. Also you weren't supposed to kiss someone when they didn't want to be kissed, mom had said so. Mob had wanted to be kissed. She hadn't said so but she hadn't minded….

Even though she should have.

She should have eaten these chocolates before mom found them and asked where they had come from. If mom asked then Mob would have had to tell the truth and then mom would have told dad and then Dad would have been so mad at her. Dad didn't want her to like anyone who wasn't an esper…which was not very fair rule at all in Mob's opinion. She wished that she didn't have to follow that rule…or a lot of the rules she had…but she had no choice. She did not get to pick and choose which rules she followed.

She should have ate the chocolates to get rid of the evidence.

But she didn't want to. She didn't want to get rid of the evidence that…that a boy had liked her. He must have, why else would a person do that? It had felt good, so good, knowing that someone liked her…and now it didn't. Now when she thought about that day all she could think about was how mad mom had been at her. How mom had never been that mad at her before. When she thought about that she wanted to toss the box of chocolates across the room even though she was not supposed to throw things in the house.

She was not supposed to do a lot of things.

She brushed her hair out of her face. She was dusty. She and Sho had been in the treasure room again. It was dusty in there. She was in her room now. It was never dusty in her room. Mom kept it pretty clean. She was still tired all the time but not as tired. She said that dad wouldn't let her be tired. Mob didn't get how that worked. You either were tired or you weren't nobody else could tell you how to feel. That wasn't how it worked. But that was how mom said that it worked so Mob…she didn't know. All she knew was that she was dusty and kind of sad and also alone.

Sho had pushed her.

It was her fault. She had tried to keep him out of one of the boxes, one of the boxes that did not want to be opened, and so he had no choice but to push her. He had said sorry right afterwards even though it was Mob's fault that he had pushed her in the first place. She was always trying to boss him around, like he had said, so off course he was totally justified in pushing her down on the ground like he had. Really. It was her fault.

She didn't care if he pushed her. She just wanted them to be friends.

And she had also wanted to be alone. That was why she was laying down on her bed on a perfectly normal Sunday holding a box of chocolates to her chest and looking at the ceiling and just…thinking…about stuff. All kind of stuff. Feelings stuff. She wished that she could just exorcise all of her bad feelings. Life would certainly have been a lot more simple that way. Easier.

She didn't like these feelings.

Taro talked to her sometimes times but not all of the times. She didn't know what she wanted. He never tried to hold her hand or kiss her, she didn't know how to feel about that, and he went to play with the other kids when they made fun of him for talking to her. They said that she was his girlfriend, which she wasn't, though it did hurt when he ran away…he talked to her mostly after school when most of the other kids in their class had gone home. Mob liked those times…and she didn't like that she liked those times. She wished that she could just…not feel the feelings that she felt.

But she was not a robot.

She had feelings and she needed to control them but sometimes…sometimes it was really hard. She wished that she could have been more like dad. Dad never lost control. He always knew just what to say and do and stuff. She was…she was just Mob. She wished that she could have been better. A better Daughter, a better person, just…better. But she couldn't be better just like she couldn't shake this heavy feeling that had settled right on top of her heart.

"Big sis?" There was a voice on the other side of the door. Sho's voice. She heard his voice before she saw his colors, his aura. He knocked at the door, too, which made no sense because it was their room. Also Sho never let closed doors stop him anyway.

"I'm here." Said Mob. He must have known that she was there. He must have been able to see her aura. Why was he suddenly asking if she was there? And why didn't he come in right away? Instead he opened the door really slowly.

Mob didn't understand.

But she did sit up really fast and hide her chocolates under the stuffed animals on her bed. They would keep her secrets. Toys were the best secret keepers because they couldn't talk…not that Mob had many secrets. This was her first real secret besides the bad thoughts that she sometimes had about dad and mom and how bad she felt in her own family…that was a secret to keep because she should not have been feeling that way. She was supposed to good. A good daughter and a good big sister and a good person in general.

"I really am sorry about….about how I pushed you." Said Sho. Mob nodded. He was in the doorway even though dad said that it was rude to linger in doorways. Mob wasn't about to tell dad about that, though, because she knew not to ever tattle on Sho. Tattling on people was wrong but tattling on your little brother was the most wrong. You were brother and sister, you were always supposed to be on the same team, even when there weren't supposed to be teams in the first place. The whole family was supposed to be a team even if it didn't always feel like that.

"I know you're sorry and I forgive you, little brother." Said Mob. She thought that would be end of it. He said sorry, she forgave him, and that was that. She didn't think that he should have apologized anyway since she was the one who made him push her. You weren't supposed to upset people. That was why dad never punished her, not even once, because she never did anything to upset him.

"I just…I just get so mad sometimes…" said Sho. Mob nodded.

"I know how you feel. It's hard, sometimes, when you have really big feelings. You're just not supposed to feel them, I guess. Dad says that, anyway, that you always have to control yourself or your powers will get out of control and stuff." Said Mob

"…I don't have any powers…" said Sho really quietly.

"Yes you do, Sho, you know you do…and come closer. I can barely hear you from all the way over there." said Mob. It took Sho a minute but he came and sat down next to her on her bed. He was all dusty and he was getting her bedspread dusty but that was ok because she was dusty too. Everything was ok.

"I don't have powers even if I kind of do. I can't do any of the stuff that you can do…and it makes me mad. I guess…I guess that…I don't know." Said Sho. Mob put her arm over his shoulders and pulled him in for a hug. Sometimes he pushed her away and sometimes he didn't. This was one of those times when he didn't. He didn't hug her back but he also didn't push her away.

"You do have powers, Sho, and you'll be able to do all the things that I can do. You just have to wait until you're my age-" said Mob

"But we'll never be the same age! You're always going to be a year older than me and I'm always going to be a year younger than you….and I don't even think that matters. You…I can't even do the stuff that you could do when you were my age…or even the stuff that you could do when we were little. I just…you were born right and I was born-" said Sho

"No! Don't say that! You were not born wrong no matter what you think…or what dad says…" said Mob

"Dad even said I was born wrong. See? You're just saying things to make me feel good even though they aren't true. You're a liar." Said Sho

"I am not a liar! I don't think that you were born wrong and dad…dad can think whatever he wants. It doesn't matter. You were not born wrong." Said Mob

"If I wasn't born wrong then why am I like this? Why can't I do the stuff that you can do? And why am I so mad all the time? So mad and mean and…and stuff…all the time?" Said Sho

"I don't know why I can do the things that I can do and I don't know why you're so mad all the time but I do know that you're my little brother and I love you. You were not born wrong. I don't care what dad says. He said that you were born wrong because they had to cut you out of mom's stomach-" said Mob

"What?! What are you even saying!? I don't remember that!" said Sho. He shook his head and tried to push her off of him. She let him go. It wasn't right to hug someone when they did not want to be hugged. She wanted to hug him, though, because there was nothing worse than knowing that he felt bad. She loved him. She would much rather have felt bad every moment of every day if it meant that Sho never had to feel bad again.

"Of course you don't, you were just a baby. That's how mom got that thing on her stomach, that's from when you were born." Said Mob trying her best to make him feel better. She was bad at words. She needed to explain what she meant and then he would understand and then he would feel better…

"So I was born wrong, then, and you were just telling me things to make me feel better." Said Sho. Ok, do he wasn't feeling better. He was feeling bad and she…she had no idea how she was supposed to fix this. She had to fix this, though, because she was his older sister and she was supposed to take care of him.

"No, dad said that a lot of babies are born that way. He says that it's not an uncommon thing that happens. He also says that it's not an uncommon medical procedure, which means that it happens all the time, and he says that he doesn't hold the way you were born against you either." Said Mob. She held his hand and pulled it close. She wanted to make him feel better…and she felt better, too, when they were together. She had trouble with words and talking…so maybe she would be better at this. She tried to show him all the love she felt for him in that gesture. Like how dad could say so much about how he cared about you just by tapping you on the head with his aura.

"…I hurt mom, too…" said Sho. Mob let go of his hand and pulled him into another hug. She'd let go if he pushed her away. Sometimes he wanted to be hugged and sometimes he didn't, it was hard to tell sometimes. Sometimes he even got mad at her when she didn't hug him when he needed it, too, which was not entirely fair because she wasn't like other people. She couldn't just sense when someone needed a hug. She could sense spirits and other espers and stuff but she couldn't sense when her own little brother needed a hug….

She was a bad big sister like that.

"I don't think that you had any control over that. You were just a baby after all. Babies don't know what they're doing." Said Mob. She wished that she knew which combination of words would make her little brother feel better. A better big sister would have known the right combination of words from the very beginning to make her little brother, the best little brother in the whole world, feel better.

"I still hurt mom. I hurt mom and I hurt you and I just…I keep on hurting people even though I love them." Said Sho quietly. So quietly that Mob had barely even heard him.

"I forgive you for pushing me and I don't think that mom was ever mad at you for the way you were born. If dad isn't mad at you for it then mom probably isn't either. I'm not mad at you either. I'm not mad at you for pushing me and I'm certainly not mad at you for being born. I'm happy that you were born and I'm happy that you're here with me now. I love you, Sho, I love you the very most out of everyone in the world." Said Mob

"I love you too…and I hurt you….and you're still sorry. I don't…I wish that I knew why I'd pushed you…or why I think such mean thoughts sometimes. I just…I wish that I knew what was wrong with me." Said Sho

"Nothing. Sho there is nothing wrong with you at all. It doesn't matter if you have powers like mine of not. It doesn't matter if you…if you push me or not. I love you and you….I think that you're the best little brother in the whole world, Sho. I really think so." Said Mob. She could hear Sho sniffling, now, and she was starting to get all teary eyed too….and she wished that she could just make all the bad emotions in the world go away.

She wished that she could just exorcise these emotions. All of the bad emotions that she and Sho felt. She wished that she could have done more for him…for everyone. She had been so selfish, before, she felt like. Selfish to leave him alone after he pushed her. She had been too caught up in her own bad feelings, that was all. She shouldn't have been thinking about her own stuff and her own feelings.

She should have been more worried about Sho.

He had real stuff that he was sad about. She was sad because a boy liked her. Sho was sad because no matter what he did or who he was he never felt like he was going to be who he wanted to be. Her. He wanted to be her. She wanted him to be her, too. She wished that she could just make a deal with the universe and swap their places. Then she could be the one with hardly any powers and he could have been the one with all of the powers.

Then they both could have been happy.

Maybe she was the one who had been born wrong and he was the one who had been born right. Maybe she was the one who shouldn't have had powers. If she hadn't of had powers then she could have been friends with who she wanted and…and been with who she wanted…and she could have had mom and Sho could have had dad….then everyone could have happy. She could have been…she could have been happy…

But it really didn't matter if she was happy, did it?

It mattered way more if Sho was happy.

"You're squishing me. Come on, let's go back to the treasure room. I found a box that's full of toys…there aren't any girl toys but….but you might still like some of them." Said Sho. He pushed free of her hug and wiped his eyes. Mob did the same. She hadn't realized that she had been crying…or that she had been making things float.

She put her toys, her dolls and stuff animals, back down on her bed where they belonged.

She made sure that her box of chocolates was still hidden.

Then she made her way with Sho back to the treasure room. That was something to do, something better than laying around and thinking about stuff, anyway. She shouldn't have been like that anyway. She should have been there for Sho…that was her job as his big sister. To always be there for him even if he pushed her.

She exorcised all of her bad feelings. Sho had enough bad feelings for the both of them.