Ten

Yuuta smeared the lip gloss on his lips as soon as he got to his dorm room. He licked his lips to see if it was the lip gloss that he had fallen for. And was disappointed. No it wasn't the lip gloss. The cherry flavored balm had nothing to do with those kisses what so ever. Then what was it? What had gotten Yuuta so hooked onto those kisses?

His thoughts were torn off when there was a light knock on his dorm door. The person did even bother to wait for a come in and twisted the knob finding it unlocked. Yuuta hid the lip balm in his pocket praying to god that nobody noticed. Mizuki had walked in looking as confident as ever. Yuuta paled. Oh shit this wasn't good at all.

"I see you got back from your little trip Yuuta-kun… Did you have fun?" Mizuki asked.

"..Yeah….," Yuuta answered awkwardly.

Mizuki walked over to him, close to him, his hands going around Yuuta's neck. And then he kissed him. Teasingly soft and yet wet, his tongue flicked over Yuuta's bottom lip and then pulled away looking like he had found something amazing. Mizuki's hands went into Yuuta's pockets and pulled out the tube of cherry lip gloss. Yuuta flinched when his senpai had discovered it.

"Nfu…Yuuta-kun, it seems like you've gotten curious on me and I've caught you. If you were that desperate all you had to do was work harder in school as well to get more than one kiss," Mizuki said.

"You're really are trying to kill me aren't you?" asked Yuuta.

Mizuki chuckled.

"If I was it'd be well worth it wouldn't it? If it wasn't you would've pushed away by now," he pointed out.

Yuuta looked down at the floor disgusted that he was so weak so easy to get by one kiss. He…he couldn't do this! It was wrong; it was hurting him and he had way too many questions in his head from it.

"Mizuki-san, what do you get out of this?" he asked.

"Hm? What do I get out of it?"

"Yeah, what do you get out of doing this to me?" snapped Yuuta looking up.

Mizuki looked frightened by the look in Yuuta's silver eyes and stepped back. But he closed his own eyes so he wouldn't have to ever witness that cold gaze of someone who was hurt and broken hearted.

"I get a lot of things out of just kissing you," he whispered.

"Like what? Money? A new boyfriend? A new status in school? What?" asked Yuuta.

"Nothing of that sort at all… I get to have happiness; and feel something I've never felt before in a very long time. That's what I get Yuuta-kun," Mizuki answered.

Yuuta gasped at the reply and blushed. What was up with him? Honestly! Mizuki was so weird sometimes!

"I…I see," Yuuta said.

"I need to be leaving now Yuuta-kun. I have some work to do before tomorrow morning," said Mizuki. He stepped over to Yuuta and hugged him. Yuuta arms automatically went around the raven haired boy.

"Don't work too hard," murmured Yuuta.

Mizuki smiled and pulled away.

"I'll try not to. Sleep well Yuuta," he said. And then left without another word. So fast that Yuuta wasn't able to say anything back.

"Oyasumi," he whispered before heading over to the phone to check his missed calls.

There was one message from his brother.

"Saa, Yuuta in three months I'll be graduating from Seigaku High. I was hoping you would come to see me off since your school's graduation is in the morning instead of the evening. I just wanted to ask in advanced since you might have something planned if I told you in less than a month or so. Surely you'll be able to make it. Ne, I hope you're doing well over there Yuuta. I worry about you and miss you all the time. If you ever need to come home don't hesitate to do so. I love you, try to call me back sometime. Ja!"

The message ended.

'I'm stuck in between those two all the time.' Thought Yuuta flopping on his bed to look at the ceiling. Nothing was interesting up there of course.

Mizuki felt guilty. Very guilty for playing a game that he knew well. He had played with Yukito before he has been murdered. But Mizuki felt that he had actually fallen in love with Yuuta; but there was no way Yuuta would return his feelings. So motivating him was the key. For one Mizuki did this so he could stay at Saint Rudolph's without a slip up after he was gone in three months. Two it was just so he could secretly tell Yuuta that he loved him; because his own voice would fail and not say those words out of fear of being rejected.

Mizuki unlocked his dorm door slipping in and the locking the door. He fell to his knees and couldn't get back up, and he cried. Cried as always when he was alone because he knew that outside those doors at school, on the tennis team, and every where else; it was all an act. Nobody knew about his childhood or anything like that because he kept quiet about it or lied so people wouldn't think of him as someone who was responsible for his best friend's death.

This is why he could never return home. His sisters and parents would always ask him to come home but he'd always refuse saying there was too many memories in Yamagata. There were many places in which would remind him of Yukito and also Izumi. The jealousy, the hate, and the love that they had. Mizuki shuddered to even know that one of them was still alive over there. It's a wonder Izumi hadn't searched for him and tried to take him again. Mizuki admitted to himself that his past was a long story. One that would be in a lot of dramatic, angsty, romance novels.

Mizuki wondered if he should at least tell the truth to Yuuta. But the back of his mind was telling him that it wasn't the right time. It wasn't; there was still their long game of teasing and wanting. Mizuki wasn't finished and wouldn't be until Yuuta had a little taste of his previous love life to understand later when he explained the whole story to him. It was just a little longer.

(A/N: Yeah major OOC Mizuki! >> I told you guys I'd make him flawed. Either way I love him to death like this because he tries to tell Yuuta without telling him but just giving him a little relive of what happened to Mizuki himself and his lover Yukito. Alot more will be explained when you read the other chapters that come up. It's a really really errie story and you'll think Mizuki is way to young to have went through such things but he was extremely mature for his age and his boyfriend was about 14 or 15..along with his twin so that explains alot. But anyway enough with explaining everything, until next chapter!)