Fourteen

They left Seigaku soon after and Yuuta said he probably be home the next day if something didn't come up. As soon as they were in Mizuki's dorm room that was soon to be Yuuta's, Yuuta himself was pressed up against the wall and kissed hard. Yuuta kissed back letting his tongue slide in between Mizuki's lips and licked his teeth. They kiss for a long time making up for their lost time.

"We should celebrate," breathed out Yuuta as their lips unlocked from one another's.

"I'm afraid we won't be able to Yuuta-kun," Mizuki replied.

Yuuta's eyes went wide as if something bad was already happening.

"I promised myself I'd tell you about why I left Yamagata before I left Saint Rudolph's. Obviously I have to tell you now," explained Mizuki.

"Oh I see," said Yuuta blinking. His hand was taken by Mizuki's own and they were led over to the bed.

"Lay down with me Yuuta-kun," Mizuki whispered as he fell onto the bed and moved over. Yuuta joined him and placed his arms around his boyfriend as if to reassure him that everything was going to be alright. That Yuuta would still be with him no matter what happened to them; and that's what Yuuta said, the words that truly came from his heart. Mizuki trembling; said that he might think differently after the whole story was told.

"I love you always. I told you that it doesn't matter what you've done; I'll love you no matter what," Yuuta reminded him.

Mizuki kissed him softly and Yuuta slid his arm around the boy's waist.

"You were right when you said I had a lover before Keiichi. I was really young when I met him; he was my best friend and one day my lover. You're now going to know why I made Atsushi cut his hair and everything," began Mizuki.

Yuuta's eyes went wide.

"Atsushi was your lover!" he exclaimed.

"No! It's why I made him cut his hair because of what happened to me in the past with Yukito. My lover's name was Yukito. He had a twin brother named Izumi who looked exactly like him from head to toe except for their eye color. One had his mother's eyes and the other had his father's. Anyway; Yukito is dead. Izumi is still alive. They'd be about twenty-two going on twenty-three in the fall," explained Mizuki.

"So…your lover was older than you…" murmured Yuuta holding Mizuki tighter feeling that the fact that Yukito was older might be the problem.

"I was very mature for my age though and we had almost everything in common. I was ten years old at the time when I became friends with them both. I loved Yukito a lot, he was completely different from his brother. Izumi loved hurting people and was a rebel while Yukito tended to be stubborn but could never hold grudges or hate anyone. So obviously I fell in love with Yukito. All three of us though had a love for tennis. I liked tennis before I met them and all; but they most definitely helped me improve. It's why I can see people's weaknesses when they play. So anyway; they were in their last year of Junior Highschool and were frequently practicing but whenever Yukito had time or got off early he'd wait for me at school or I'd watch them play tennis. When I fell in love with Yukito we had probably known eachother for about a year and a half. We'd play the game that you and I would play when I couldn't tell you that I loved you all the time until I flat out gave up and told him I loved him."

Yuuta couldn't help but feel jealous that Mizuki and Yukito had played such a game that was now "their game" as Yuuta had once referred it to Mizuki. He continued to listen to the story.

"We didn't know Izumi was as jealous or twisted as he was though. He fucked with Yukito's mind all the time. Sometimes so bad that he had to take anti-depressants because Izumi liked physically hurting things too," Mizuki continued.

Yuuta didn't need an explanation for what Mizuki meant. The meaning was there, Izumi loved hurting his twin. Probably would beat the hell out of him and leave him crying at night all alone in bed with nobody to care for his mental and physical wounds unless Mizuki was there; and then again Mizuki was just a kid back then. There was only so much you could do when you were a kid, along with so much you could understand.

"Anyway, Izumi was jealous of us. He has a real messed up head, he loved both of us. A lot in his own little way. He some how figured out that we had slept together and decided he was going to hurt Yukito more than he already did. And this is the part where it's all my fault," Mizuki's voice turning into a whisper because if it got any louder he would break and cry.

Yuuta held him tighter and kissed Mizuki on the forehead.

"Shh, you don't have to tell me the rest if it's too painful to do so, beautiful. I'm happy with what I already know," he said.

Mizuki blushed at the new nickname Yuuta gave him. He was flattered, sad, and most of all giddy all at once. He kissed Yuuta again hard and lovingly. It was a quick kiss but it was filled with the emotions he and Yuuta were feeling. Yuuta smiled and looked at him.

"What was that one for?" he asked.

"For calling me beautiful."

"You like it?" asked Yuuta.

Mizuki cuddled up with Yuuta throwing a leg over both of Yuuta's legs.

"Of course. Nobody has ever called me that, not even him. And I can go on because I have something to ask you after this and I need to get to the end with you for you to understand what I want," he answered.

"Then go ahead; just don't do or say something that's going to hurt you. I told you I hate it when you cry," said Yuuta.

There was one of those silences where it was so quiet that you'd hear a faint ringing sound. And then the ringing stopped as Mizuki continued.

"Well what happened was that Izumi got Yukito to be away for a while without me knowing. They looked exactly alike except for eye color and might I mention you can change that; so all Izumi needed would be contact lenses that were blue and he'd easily trick me into thinking he was Yukito. Of course I was only eleven so I was quite naïve at the time as well but then again I think anyone would've fell for it."

Yuuta agreed with it; it wasn't that easy to tell twins apart. He had seen twins before who looked exactly alike and would confuse their names and everything. It didn't take much for Izumi to do such a thing to manipulate Mizuki. Yuuta felt the story growing darker and darker as it was told.

"Izumi took me into Yukito's room, laid me down and told me he loved me a couple times and kissed me a lot. And then me myself thinking that Izumi was Yukito; I entrusted him to be gentle with me so we could have our second time together and it be pleasurable and something to love. I didn't know that it was Izumi. I truly didn't. It ended up being that Yukito walked in on us; dashed back out and Izumi was laughing at the whole situation. By the time I ran out to find Yukito and found him he had thrown himself into the river and since he could swim and know his body would react when he was drowning; he brought a knife with him and stabbed himself in the heart to where he'd die and never come back," murmured Mizuki.

Yuuta's eyes went wide at what had happened and felt instantly sorry for his boyfriend and all he went through when he was younger. Nobody deserved that. Nobody deserved to see someone they love hurt and die. Izumi was also one twisted fuck and wondered if he was still in Yamagata because if he was there was no way in hell that Mizuki was going anywhere alone if he was.

"It was all my fault for not knowing. It was my fault for not being able to find him before it was too late. Yuuta I'm a murderer," said Mizuki, his voice failed him though and it was mouthed instead of said with voice. Yuuta shook his head and held him tightly in his arms keeping him safe.

"It wasn't your fault at all. You were just a kid and didn't know what was going to happen. The fault is on Izumi. He's murderer not you. Not ever you," he said.

Mizuki started to cry and hated it because they were tears that would always be shed for the same person. Tears that would never cease to fall. Yuuta still held him in his arms and pulled the covers on the bed over him.

"I have to return home tomorrow. I don't like going there; that's why I changed schools here instead of going to the school they were going to. That's why I stayed here during holiday breaks because I couldn't return without breaking. But I have no choice but to go back now; but if you want to, I'd like for you to come with me. It would only be for about a week and then I'd be getting an apartment here," Mizuki explained.

"Is he there?" asked Yuuta referring to Izumi.

Mizuki shook his head.

"No, after Yukito's death they moved to Kyoto. That's all I've heard," he answered.

Yuuta nodded.

"I'll go. Just because I think it's right for you to go home and not be so worried about everything. Main problem is though; will your parents mind?" he asked.

"They won't mind at all. I told them that I might be having a guest with me, and they said to go ahead and bring them. Don't worry about it, you might as well be family since you are my boyfriend after all," pointed out Mizuki.

Yuuta blushed.

"You're going to introduce me as your-" he began.

"Kouhai, until we have a deeper relationship that is," Mizuki cut off.

"I'm sort of afraid to know what you mean by deeper," muttered Yuuta darkly.

Mizuki chuckled lightly and kissed the younger boy on the forehead.

"Deeper as in until I know what I'm doing. Until this isn't all new to me Yuuta. Plus I know your parents won't be too fond of this," he mentioned to him.

"Aniki would find every way to stab you and make sure you die if he figured out," Yuuta said darkly.

Mizuki smiled drowsily.

"What a challenge. To keep you and not get hurt. But are you coming with me?"

Yuuta nodded silently.

"You'll have to show me around. Take me to nice places there," he murmured.

There was no reply and Yuuta smiled and decided to leave everything for in the morning.

(A/N: Whoohoo! That was such a hard chapter to write but I actually finished it fairly quickly since I've gotten out of my writer's block stage. I'm still adjusting to school so I haven't been able to write as nicely as I actually want to. School makes me too tired to give it my all now. TT Pathetic huh?Anyway, sorry for more delays. Real life sucks and is deciding to get in my way..., next chapter is uber sweet! So I'll hope you enoy! Until next chapter!)