"I was a little harsh don't you think?" Meredith asked as she bit into her apple sitting on one of the abandoned carts next to the vending machines. She was met with a collective group of 'no's. "Technically she just wanted to help me out right?"

"Come on Mer, she took your dog, she took your McDreamy, so why not top of the cake with the icing that is you baby." Cristina stated. "I heard the word on the street is that she's practically infertile." She added thumbing through her medical dictionary.

"Besides Mer, did you really want her raising your baby?" George said in between bites of his peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

"No."

"This is so great now we can start thinking of themes for the nursery." Izzie clapped happily Alex rolled his eyes and grasped her thigh.

"Ew, Alex, I'm talking about babies." She said grabbing his hand and removing it from her leg.

"You guys do realize that this means late night feeding sessions, midnight crying for attention sessions, anything to wake mommy up sessions?" she asked putting a maternal hand on her stomach.

"We know we'll take the good and the bad. Or we'll just go chill out at Burke and Cristina's."

George joked receiving a crumpled up piece of paper at his head.

"Uncalled for." He shouted wheeling himself against the wall.

"Have you made an appointment yet?" Derek asked. Meredith looked up noticing his presence. He was giving her one of his cocky McDreamy smiles.

"Yeah, its actually tomorrow." She answered.

"Great what time?"

"What do you mean 'what time'? It's really not your responsibility." She stated.

"Meredith, things may not have worked out with Addison and the adoption but this baby is still my child and I deserve a right to be in his of her's life. So what time is the appointment?" he asked firmly ignoring the daggers Cristina and Izzie were shooting at him.

"Its at two, don't be late." She said getting up from her cot with great difficulty. She passed by him and he turned to see her out.

"God he's totally still into her." Izzie sighed.

"So this is your first I take it." Dr. Ramirez said as she checked Meredith's chart. She smiled warmly at Meredith as she tired to make herself comfortable.

"Yeah, I'm a newbie." Meredith smiled. She checked her watch it was twenty minutes passed two. He was late.

"Is it just you or is someone joining you?" she asked taking a look at her bare ring finger.

"No the father should be here any minute." Just on cue Derek came through the door running a hand through his curly hair.

"I'm so sorry. My ten o'clock ran a little longer than I thought it would." He said making his way to Meredith's side. He was still dressed in his scrubs and looked like he hadn't slept but he still looked great, like McDreamy.

"What have I missed?" he asked smiling charmingly.

"Nothing to important. I was just about to apply the gel to do the sonogram. Okay now Meredith this is gonna be cold." She applied the cloudy substance to her protruding stomach.

"How's it look Doctor?" Derek asked rubbing her back absentmindedly in a comforting manner.

"It all looks pretty good would you like to know the sex?"

"Yes." Meredith answered quickly. Derek gave her a puzzled look. "Izzie wants to know what color to paint the nursery." She explained.

"You know I'm still moving out of the trailer. I'm still going on with the plans to build a house." He told her awaiting her reaction.

"That's great she'll have to homes to grow up in."

"She?" he asked looking back at the monitor.

"Sorry I peeked." She offered to Dr. Ramirez.

"Not to worry about. I'll give you two some time alone." She said leaving the room.

"We're having a girl."

"We're having a girl." She repeated smiling happily. "Does Addison know you're here?"

"Yeah I told her this morning." Meredith looked away. "She's just gonna have to get use to the fact that you and this baby are gonna be apart of my life." He dropped a kiss to her temple and stroked the bangs out her eyes. He looked into here yes and for a split second Meredith swore she could have seen the love she had for him mirrored in his face.

"Why don't you just leave her?" She asked straight up. Derek paused looking at her thoughtfully. "If there's ever a better time you should do it now. She'd understand."

"I've thought of it but I can't." Derek gave her a sad smile, one he was becoming famous for. "You see there's still tiny chance we might be able to work this out." Meredith nodded as her tears started to fall. "Until we've exhausted every possible option to help our marriage I can't give up on her." He answered simply.

Meredith watched Derek stride across the room to the nurses station checking the charts of some of his patients. For some reason until now she had never noticed the strong muscles in his back. Or the way he walked around with his own brand of cockiness and charm, he was like the rock star of surgeons. So it was pretty accurate to say that Dr. Derek Shepherd was seriously turning Meredith on. It had been so long since she had had sex and desperately needed some now.

"See this is where being with the man your having a baby with comes in handy." She whispered to Cristina. "I am so horny." She exclaimed earning a smirk from her friend. "And the weird thing is, I'm only horny for Derek. Like he's a freakin' craving or something." She said working on her post op notes.

"Well… go get yours." She said nudging her in his general direction.

Across from the nurses station Derek had been sneaking glances as his pregnant ex. Meredith looked fantastic today. Despite being five months pregnant she still managed to look sexy in her large scrubs and maternity wear. He had to feel guilty that he was lusting over his very pregnant ex the way he never lusted after his own wife. Maybe it was the thought they had created a life together and she was proudly walking about the hospital carrying his child. Now she was making her way over to him wringing her small ineffectual wrists.

"Hey can I talk to you?" she asked indicating an empty closet.

"Sure." He guided her with his hand on the small of her back.

He closed the door to the room and turned back to face her. "So what do you wanna talk about?" he could barely get his sentence out as Meredith threw herself on him showering kisses all over his face.

"Meredith! Mer!" he said grabbing her shoulders and pulling her away from his betraying body. Just the momentary feel of her body flush against his made him excited.

"You said that if I ever needed anything from you during this pregnancy you would do it for me. Correct?" He nodded trying to regain his composure.

"Well, I need sex. Mommy's horny." She exclaimed kissing him squarely on the mouth.

"Meredith, I can't help you with that." He said in between kisses.

"Oh, that's funny cause your body says otherwise." Meredith giggled reaching down between them and cupping his growing erection.

"Meredith!" he groaned jumping away from her completely. Seeing the look on his face she quickly sobered up and backed away.

"I'm sorry, its just that…look at me. No one would want me. I'm a huge whale waddling around here like a fucking penguin. And to top it off I am in desperate need of some sex, but not just sex from any man, sex from you. It's like I have a craving for you, like your chocolate or peanuts."

"God this is so complicated." He sighed. "I know I promised to help you feel comfortable in any way possible but not this way. I just can't do that. But it's not because of the way you look." He quickly added when he saw the insecurity in her face. "Because if anything, you are more beautiful than ever now. And you don't waddle around you glide. Gracefully." He smiled stroking her cheek and leaving the closet.