Part Six:

Alex:

"You know what. I think we should finish this conversation tomorrow. We have both had a long day. It was good talking to you. Very good." I said, scared of her response. "I will be in my room, I will leave the door open a bit. If you have any questions or you need me for something, feel free to come right in… I am going to bed. Good night." I walked away. Once again I walked away from Marissa Cooper. I did it again and I did not even try to stop myself. I just walked straight in my room. I stripped down to my boy shorts and found a black cami to put on.

I jumped and bed and prayed that I would never have to get out again. She probably hates me now. I just ruined everything. I cursed myself for telling her that I had fallen in love with her. I laid and bed and stared at the ceiling. I tossed and turned for what felt like forever, but it was actually only ten minutes. I finally rolled over and had my back facing the door. I needed to try to sleep.

I had stayed up too many nights to count over whether or not I should call, and tell her that I loved her. I had too many sleepless nights because of her. Now that I called her and she is here, and I told her, I am still nervous. It does not get any better as I make progress.

Marissa:

The two of enjoyed a great dinner, that last for well over two hours. We caught each other up on how things were in each of our lives. Though we didn't touch the parts of our lives that contained each other. That part is private and we want to talk about that alone. I was the first to talk about life that pertained to the both of us.

"It wasn't good really… when you left. I started seeing Ryan again." It was the first time I said his name the entire night. "I had missed him, missed being with him, missed everything about him…" I paused and looked at her. Her eyes were starting to water at my sincere honesty. "Or, well so I thought. It was the idea of him I missed. The two of us, never really got along when we were together. It had been so long, I had forgotten." She let me talk, I needed her to just listen at the moment. She knew I didn't want her to say anything. "It wasn't very good when we got back together… Before I knew it we broke up again."

I stopped talking and looked up at her, her eyes filled with unshed tears like mine. It was now time to share her story. When she started talking it was close to eleven and both of us had so much more to say.

"About three days after the bonfire, I got a call from my boss. He had a job offer for me. To revive a club of his. The catch was, it was here in Boston. 3,000 miles away from my friends, family—though there wasn't much of that—and everything I knew. I would have to start over again. I jumped at the chance. I needed to get away from everything back in Newport. It was too hard, you would always be there. There was no changing that. I thought if I left and started over again it would make everything easier. I thought that I could forget the fact that I had fallen in love with…"

She stopped talking and I looked right up at her. Did she just say what I think she did. No, well she has not finished it, so it probably is not me that she fell in love with…She was unsure if she could continue talking, she looked down and finally finished what she was going to say.

"You…"

I didn't say anything. I didn't blink, smile, frown, cry, shake my head, nothing. I was emotionless.

I didn't know how to tell her I felt the same way. I didn't know if I should tell her or go in and kiss her. I just sat there. Then she freaked, seeing as I hadn't replied.

"You know what. I think we should finish this conversation tomorrow. We have both had a long day. It was good talking to you. Very good." She said, scared of what my response might have been. "I will be in my room, I will leave the door open a bit. If you have any questions or you need me for something, feel free to come right in… I'm going to bed. Good night." She walked away. Once again Alex Kelly walked away from me. I let her do it again. I did not try to stop her either. I just let her walk away. She just walked straight into her room.

I continued to sit on the couch for a few more minutes. When I got up I went to the bathroom and then got ready for bed. I stripped down to my boy shorts and put on a pink cami.

I laid and bed and stared up at the ceiling. I can't believe I had let her just walk away again. I tossed and turned for a while seeing as once again, the thoughts of Alex Kelly where keeping me up. I thought that when I came here and we talked that I would be able to sleep at night again. WRONG I was. I can't fall asleep, thought of her are filling my head and I wish I could have just told her, out there on the couch that I loved her too. That I should have stopped her, that it was my fault, that I wish I could hold on to her for the rest of my life. I wanted her to know how I felt, actually I needed her to know how I felt. It would be the only thing that would allow me to fall asleep.

Writer's POV:

Both Alex and Marissa were in bed, unable to sleep. All they could do was think about one another. Alex continued to curse herself over the fact that she once again walked away from Marissa. She actually started to cry, Alex Kelly, the girl who everyone thought was tough, started to cry. She was upset at herself for walking away again. Marissa continued to looks up at the ceiling while thinking that she should have stopped Alex from simply walking away again. Marissa finally sat up in bed and looked around for her cell phone. She remembered that she left it out on the kitchen counter. Marissa got out of bed and quietly walked out to the kitchen. It was pitch dark in the kitchen and she couldn't see anything. When she finally found her phone she had only stubbed her toes twice.

Marissa Cooper walked back to her room. She remember that Alex said she would leave her door open a bit. She decided she would peer in and see the beauty sleep for a few minutes. Marissa put her phone down in her own room and tip toed to Alex's door. She rested her head against the door frame.

Wait, what was this she was hearing. Was Alex crying? Why would Alex be crying? Did she make a mistake, did she not really love me? Oh gosh, what if that is what it is. Should I sit with her and ask her what is wrong? She might think I am pressuring her though. Whatever, the girl I love it crying, I have to do something.

I pushed her door open and I heard her turn towards me.

"Is everything okay?" I asked quietly as I walked towards her.

"Yeah, everything is fine. Why would something be wrong?' She said trying to hide the fact that she was just crying.

"Well, I heard you crying. I wanted to come and see if there was anything wrong…" Marissa said as she sat down on the side of Alex's bed.

"Everything is fine…"

"Don't lie to me Alex. We told each other we were going to be truthful…"

Alex sat up in bed and looked at Marissa. The street light was the only light and it was amazing lighting for the moment.

Marissa put her hand up to Alex's face and rested it on her cheek. Alex closed her eyes and leaned her head into it. A tear rolled down Alex's face. Marissa wiped it away with her thumb.

"There is no reason to cry…" Marissa said quietly. "Please don't cry Alex."

Alex looked up at Marissa, she had the look of desperation in her eyes. "Please don't leave, I don't want you to go…"

"I'm right here, I'm not going anywhere."

"No, I mean forever. Please don't leave, don't—" Just then Marissa leaned and seized Alex's lips with her own. The kiss was soft and sweet. It was something they both needed. Alex put her hand on the back of Marissa neck as the two deepened the kiss.

When the two girls finally broke the kiss tears were streaming down Alex's face.

"What's the matter?" Marissa inquired.

"Nothing, nothing is the matter. Everything is really good right now…" She said happily with and she smiled at me. "Stay here, with me tonight."

"I don't know if I am ready for that. Don't you think that is moving too fast?"

"I meant to just sleep. So I know this is real, and that you are here. That this isn't just a dream."

"That would be good." Marissa stood up and walked around to the other side of the bed. She laid down next to Alex and rolled over on her side so she could look at Marissa. "I've missed this, so much, the two of us, laying in bed together."

"Me too…"

"One of the biggest things that I missed about you, was you holding me at night. After a long day I knew I could always count on you to hold to me when you came home after work."

"I have missed holding on to you more than you can imagine. Most nights I will clutch on to a pillow and dream that it is you that I am holding on too." Alex put an arm across Marissa's waist, showing her that she was there to hold on to her. "I'm not going to let go again…"

When Alex said this it meant so much more than not holding to Marissa on the night. It meant that she wasn't about to walk away, or leave, again. Marissa knew that Alex wanted her here and she was happy that she was there with her. She knew that in just a few days she would have to go back to Newport, but for how long. Marissa didn't know how much longer she could stay there. She needed Alex, she needed to be with her, all the time.

Alex looked at Marissa as Marissa stared up at the ceiling. She wasn't about to interrupt the brunette's trance. When Marissa looked over at Alex she kissed her lightly on the lips and rolled over, so Alex was spooning Marissa, while one of Alex's arms was around Marissa's waist and the two girls were holding hands. Solidifying that neither of them was about to go anywhere, anytime soon.

That night the two girls fell asleep in each other's arms. Both girls felt the safest that had in a long time. Alex and Marissa filled the hole's in one another's hearts. As the two girls laid in bed together holding on to each other they received the best sleep they had had in the last eight months. It was like old times when they fell asleep together. Nothing could disrupt the peace that came over them for the next ten hours.