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Chapter 1

Amanda sat in the interview room across from one of the men who took turns raping her just two days ago. He had a smirk on his face. She still had the bruises on each side of her cheeks, one was from the desk as they held her face down, the other resembled fingerprints. Her clothes covered the other ones.

The door swung open and she watched as Captain Sam Reynolds stood up and greeted the team from the NYPD's Special Victims Unit. "Captain Cragen welcome to Atlanta." The older man fit as a better Captain. "Sam it's been a while this is Detective Olivia Benson." Amanda kept her head down, "Benson, I've heard good things about you. You're also up for Sergeant correct?"

Olivia didn't like him already. Cragen already gave her the lowdown on him. He said Reynolds was an asshole and didn't really earn the Captain title. He also said he was known to take cute blondes and push them quickly up the ranks. "Yes, that's correct. It's nice to meet you."

They all sat and Olivia looked at his blonde protégé, she thought well she was cute. Reynolds took the lead, "This is Detective Amanda Rollins, don't let her age fool you, she's the best. Amanda finally raised her head and greeted Captain Cragen and Detective Benson. "It's nice to meet you, I'd like to look at the evidence." Amanda smiled as soon as she saw Olivia.

Olivia noticed quite a few things as Amanda took charge of the meeting, she was smart and knew more than her Captain. She told them exactly what they needed to know. She also noticed the bruises and looks from her Captain. Amanda was standing over Olivia showing her the most important information. She was close and Amanda enjoyed her scent, her long brown hair with perfect streaks of blonde, and most of all her attention.

Amanda was starting to have feelings that she had never had for another woman. She shook it off thinking it was because of the rape. She loved dick and didn't see it happening any other way. The longer the meeting, the more comfortable Amanda was, that was until someone else joined the meeting. When the door opened, Amanda tensed up and pushed closer to Olivia. Reynolds spoke, "Deputy Chief Patton, I wasn't expecting you today. You remember Don Cragen right?"

Olivia didn't like it and she put her hand on Amanda's leg. Amanda relaxed, but not enough. Cragen spoke to him and introduced Olivia. "It is nice to meet the famous Olivia Benson." Olivia played the game, but she didn't like him or his tone. A lot of people knew Olivia Benson, she was a young detective like Amanda was at one point. She was so young, people doubted her as well. She was only 29 and up for Sergeant already. She traveled and helped close cases, not just in New York, but anywhere needed. Once Patton sat down, Amanda shutdown.

Cragen was saying his goodbyes to Reynolds, he knew how to play the game too. "Sam, I'd like a word with you." Olivia walked over to Amanda who was sitting at her desk. She looked scared and the bruises that were faint weren't so much anymore after looking at them up close for hours. "Amanda, thanks for helping us today. I'm positive we have our man with that and the rape kits. You know more than the Captain. Keep it up."

Amanda should have been appreciative with the comments, but she was cold and different, "Sure, but I'm sure the famous Olivia Benson didn't need that much help from a 23 year old detective." Olivia cringed, "Well thank you anyway. Reynolds was right about one thing, don't let the age fool you. Take care of those bruises." Olivia started to walk away, but she went back, something wasn't right. "Amanda, here's my card, if you're ever in New York or if you just want a friend, give me a call."

Cragen appeared, "Liv, are you ready?" Amanda looked up at the nickname. Cragen smiled, "Amanda it has been a pleasure. We'll see you soon." Amanda thanked him, but she wasn't sure what he meant. Olivia and Cragen headed to the airport, "Captain, if I know one thing, I know victims. Something is very off." Cragen was intrigued, "Like what?"

Olivia stated the obvious, "Here behavior, the bruises. Captain, were we sitting in the same room?" He smiled, "We were! Which is why I told that asshole Sam Reynolds to transfer Amanda to our unit immediately." Olivia liked Amanda just fine and it was obvious she was in trouble, but they didn't need the baggage. "Cap, she's going to be a problem. We need someone strong to watch our backs. I mean she's young, inexperienced, and in trouble."

Cragen looked shocked, "You seemed to care about her, did I get that wrong? We were sitting in the same room right?" Cragen knew what this was about, it wasn't Amanda or anything. "Liv, I know it's hard, but we're swamped. We have to replace Elliot, he's gone and he's not coming back. Amanda is in trouble, but she's good and beside you she will be even better." Olivia sighed and felt bad that she said those things. Amanda needed help and she had just helped them wrap up a major case. "I'm sorry." Olivia narrowed her eyes, "What's your take? And what did you say to get a transfer?"

Cragen smiled, "My take is that Reynolds is either screwing her or screwing with her and those bruises aren't from the job." Olivia didn't know if he noticed Patton, "Did you see the shutdown with Patton?" Cragen sighed, "I did. I don't know what's going on, but I'm getting her out." Cragen continued, "I told him if he didn't transfer her, I would talk to my friend the Commander."

Amanda was sitting at her desk looking at the card Olivia gave her, it even smelled like her. She looked in Reynolds office and saw him on the phone. Amanda thought about her life. She had to get out of there. Amanda's attitude was always bad and her behavior matched. She didn't do well with authority, it was shocking she was a cop. She was an only child who grew up in a small town called Loganville. Her father was a drunk, gambler, and abused her mother. Her father knocked her mother up when she was 14 and she never loved her. She left them both after a severe beating. She married a baseball player from the Braves and had a perfect family with two children.

Amanda did what she always did when problems arised. She did something reckless. She went to a bar outside of the city. She didn't want to know anyone. She sat at the bar and downed shots. She held shot number three, "Bad day?" She looked up to see a cute country boy. She could see his straight blonde hair under his baseball cap near his ears. She downed the third shot, "More like a bad week." She flirted with him, touched his shoulder, and even laughed at his bad jokes. She had to do it. This rape couldn't take away her want for sex.

This was reckless, but it was also Amanda. "Tyler, how about we get out of here." She stopped at the third shot, she needed to know if she could do it. She pulled him to the alley and kissed him hard as she pushed him against the brick. She grabbed his belt and undid his pants. She dropped to her knees and pulled him out of his boxers, "Shit girl! Right here?" Amanda looked up and the light in the alley was just enough to see those baby blues, "Right here, unless you want me to stop."

Amanda knew the answer would be no, as she stroked his length with her hand. He was already getting hard. "Hell no, please don't stop." Amanda put her lips around him and began to move back and forth. She gave his balls a squeeze every time her forehead hit his front perfect V shape.

When his hands went to her blonde hair, she almost got scared. The words replayed in her mind, "Don't you dare bite me!" Tyler was gentle though. His hands caressed her hair, but he didn't push her head once. The sound of the sucking and her gagging was too much. Amanda knew he was close, "Shit, if you don't want me to cum in your m…Fuck!" Amanda pulled off of him and bit her lip. She smiled as she moved up his body. She stroked his length the whole way up. "Round 2?"

She used her free hand to turn his baseball cap to the back and kissed him. "Not here, my truck." He pulled up his pants just enough to make it to the parking lot. He pulled the gate down, picked her up, and placed her on the back, "My turn." He undid her belt and pulled her panties and pants down in one swoop. He pushed her knees up and disappeared between her legs. His tongue dipped and licked and when she looked up and saw the stars her mind thought about Olivia Benson. She wondered what it would be like to be with her. She couldn't shake it and pulled him up by his chin to meet her face. Thinking of her down there was too much. "Fuck me! Hard!"

Tyler pushed in hard and quick and was pounding the hell out of Amanda. She laughed, because she realized she could do it. The rape didn't break her. Tyler looked at her, "You're wild!" Amanda winked, "From behind." Tyler didn't waste time, he flipped her over and pushed his hard dick all the way in. He could see her wetness on his dick, "Fuck, I forgot the condom." Amanda smiled knowing she was on the pill, "I hope your pull out game is strong." She shut her eyes, knowing it was no no. She knew better with all the diseases.

Amanda was fine until Tyler did the one thing she wasn't ready for. He pushed her cheek down on the bed of the truck. He didn't know it was a trigger and she didn't either. She froze as he pounded her. She didn't move or make a sound. The only noise was the voices in her head. "Give it to me, Manda. Stop screaming or I'll fill every hole. Sam, she has one tight pussy, for such a loose slut." She didn't even realize the grunting was Tyler, she thought it was them.

Tyler yelled "Fuck!" He came inside her. She didn't cum or get any pleasure. She just laid there. He didn't know what happened to the wild blonde he picked up in the bar, but she was gone. He brushed her hair away from her face, "Are you ok?" Amanda became unfrozen, "Don't touch me like that!" She grabbed her pants and ran to her car. "Amanda! What's wrong!"

She got to her car and drove half naked all the way home. She got in the shower and scrubbed her whole body. Her skin was red all over, except for the black and blue bruises that Patton and Reynolds put all over her. She climbed into bed and did what she did every night since, she cried. Something new did cross her mind though, a certain brunette.

The next morning she was sore and had a hangover. She looked at the clock and she was also late. She drank her coffee on the way to the precinct. She pushed her sunglasses on her face and walked into the building. The squad wasn't close, they looked at her when she walked in but didn't say a word.

When she reached her desk, she didn't even get a chance to sit. "Amanda! My office now!" She looked at the office and saw Reynolds at the door and Patton sitting in the office, "Fuck!" She was scared, but not as scared as that night. They couldn't do anything in the office, not now.

She walked in and refused to show fear. "What do you need?" Patton spun around, "We are your superior officers. I don't care what you think you can do, but as long as you're under my command, you will show us some goddamn respect." Amanda didn't know what was going on or what he meant. She just responded with a sarcastic, "Yes sir."

Reynolds looked scared and he didn't say anything, just handed her paperwork. "You're dismissed. Make sure you turn in your badge and anything else with the APD on it. Replacements will be ready for you at arrival." Amanda held the envelope and walked out. She heard him and at first thought she was being fired, until she heard replacements. She sat down and opened the envelope to find an e-ticket and assignment directions. "NYPD Manhattan SVU 16th Precinct, Captain Donald Cragen." The E-ticket was for New York City.

Amanda would leave everything she knew in 4 days. She picked up the phone and pulled the card out of her pocket. "Benson!" Amanda smiled hearing her voice. "Hello?" Amanda shook her head, "Hi! It's Amanda. Did you know about the transfer?" Olivia smiled on the other end and decided to mess with her, "Who is this?" Amanda became serious. I guess she wasn't memorable to Olivia. "Ummm it's Amanda Rollins."

Olivia couldn't help it and laughed, "I'm just messing with you. I knew and I was waiting on your call. He just told you today?" Amanda hung her head, "I left work yesterday and didn't return." Olivia wasn't surprised, "Hmmm, you're a troublemaker. We'll need to work on that. Nothing a little discipline can't fix. See you soon Amanda Rollins."