Chapter 4
Olivia stood there looking at Amanda. She wasn't shocked, she knew something had happened, but she needed Amanda to say it. Olivia grabbed Amanda's hand, "Come on over with me." No way was Olivia going to let Amanda be alone. They sat on the couch, "Do you want to talk about it Amanda?" Amanda said it, because Olivia made her feel comfortable, but she immediately regretted it. "No, I don't know why I even told you." Olivia sat and listened, "Maybe because you trust me." Amanda sighed, "Please don't tell anyone. It's not worth pursuing anyway." Olivia was careful with her next step and touched her shoulder, "That's how they win."
Amanda wasn't dumb, but Reynolds and Patton were, those idiots raped her and let her walk away. She immediately went to her friend, Casey at the hospital. She thought her ribs were broken. Casey talked her into doing a kit. She had proof, but she was scared and embarrassed to tell anyone. "It was Patton and Reynolds, they took turns. They hurt me so much Liv." Amanda lifted her shirt and Olivia saw the bruises on her body. She didn't react the way she wanted to. She wanted to kick their asses. "This is why I couldn't go to the hospital today."
Olivia touched Amanda's bruised skin and saw her wince. "Nothing is broken, but it still hurts." Amanda put her shirt down not wanting Olivia to see her like that. "Amanda, let me see the other side." Amanda shook head, "No, because I'm ugly." Olivia cradled her face, "You're not ugly." Amanda felt safe in Olivia's hands. Amanda needed to give her the story. "We were working a case and we got the call from Cragen. I remembered it right away and stopped to grab the old files. Reynolds didn't like it. He told me to do my job, because I would never be you."
Olivia looked at her. "I knew who you were, everyone does. I had asked to attend a few of your seminars. I think he knew I was crushing on you." They both smiled at each other, forgetting the terrible thing they were talking about. "He told me to get back to our case. He let the rest of the squad go and said he needed me to look over forensics. I didn't think it was weird, because it's kinda my thing. Plus I was going to look at your case. It was about 8:00 and I found a clue. I ran into Reynold's office and Patton was there. He shouldn't have been."
Olivia held Amanda's hand, "It's ok. Do you need a break?" Amanda shook her head, "They grabbed me and held me down. They made me do so many things. I can still hear their voices." Olivia moved as close as she could, "It's only been a couple of weeks Amanda. You know it might help to talk to a professional. I did and it helped me." Amanda shrugged. Olivia was a detective and she knew it would be hard to get them now. "Amanda, what do you want to do? It will be hard, but if you want to face them, I will stand by you."
Amanda looked at her, "I'm not dumb Liv. I am a detective, when they let me go I went to the hospital and did a kit. I have proof, I'm just scared." Olivia wanted to help, "Do you want to go after them?" Amanda sighed, "I don't know." Amanda stood up, "I better go." Olivia stood up, "You don't have to. You don't have to be alone. I'm here." Amanda thought about Olivia and Brian. She knew it was dumb to fall for someone she couldn't have and it would only cause more problems. "I'm good! See you tomorrow." Olivia watched her walk out and she knew she wasn't good at all.
Olivia woke up around 2 AM when she heard Brian come out of the shower. He cuddled behind her and she felt his hardness. "Long night?" Brian laughed, "Yeah, always." Olivia hated the late nights and how their schedules were completely off. "I'm tired Bri. Can we…" he turned over, "Yeah whatever, I should have taken a cold shower." Olivia shut her eyes and saw him with his back to her. She held her hand out to touch his shoulder, but pulled it back and went to sleep.
The next morning she woke up and saw him sleeping. She knew they were forcing it and she didn't know what to do. She loved him and they had been through a lot. She was looking at him, but thinking about Amanda. She knew it wasn't possible. She climbed on top of him and straddled him. She ran her fingernails under his T-shirt softly along his rib cage. She saw his eyes blink, "Mmmmm Liv!" Olivia grinded on his length, "I'm sorry." He tried to sit up, but she pushed him down. "I'm sorry Brian."
He held her hips, stopping her grinding, "Don't be sorry. I'm sorry that our schedules are so screwed up." She smiled and kissed him, grinding harder, "Liv, don't start something you can't finish." Olivia looked at the time, "We're good." She moved down his body and pulled off his boxer briefs. He was semi hard and she smiled at the hump. She licked his scar just on his inner thigh. She had seen the scar years ago when they both made detective at SVU and were sleeping together. He was attacked with a knife while working as a beat cop.
She stroked his length and began sucking. Brian's hands went to her long brown hair and gripped it slightly. She had come a long way and didn't have flashbacks from her attack anymore. Brian was the only man she would do this for. He knew and never pushed her. He was hitting the back of her throat and when he heard the gagging he pulled her up, "Fuck Liv!" Olivia smiled, "I didn't finish." Brian rolled her over and held her hands down against the mattress while he hovered above her, "Well, it's my turn now."
He pushed her shirt up over her breasts sucking each nipple and licking down to her stomach, "No panties?" Olivia laughed, but not for long. He licked between her lower lips and sucked on her clit until it was swollen and sensitive. He dipped his tongue into her and tasted her wetness. "Fuck!" Brian sat in between her legs, "Oh that's coming!" He was completely hard as he put her legs on his strong shoulders. She felt his length resting on her stomach, but then he pushed deep inside her. It was quick and caused her eyes to become wide, "Shit!" She pushed on his stomach and smiled, "It's deep Brian!"
Brian pulled out and pushed in slowly, "Let's see how deep I can go." They both found a rhythm they liked. "Bri, I love you." He pushed in and pulled out slowly kissing her each time, "Liv, I love you too." With that he pushed harder and faster until he was pounding her. Her moaning was turning him on more. He used one hand to squeeze her breasts and her nipple while he used his other to circle her clit. "Brian! Fuck!" He pushed harder and faster, "I'm…going… to…fucking CUM!" At the word cum Brian thrusted as hard and deep as he could and came inside her. Their juices were mixed everywhere. He was buried inside of her and her whole body and legs were shaking. Brian felt like a champion. He felt like they would be ok after all.
He rolled over even though the bed and they were a mess. It took Olivia 30 minutes to gather enough strength to get up. She looked at him before heading to the shower. She stood under the warm water and let it run down her body. She was embarrassed. She knew Brian was giving her the pleasure, but her thoughts were all on Amanda. She knew her and Brian wouldn't make it now, but she didn't think being with Amanda was a possibility either. She cried in the shower.
She didn't wake Brian and slipped out quickly, not wanting to face him. She knocked on Amanda's door, but got no answer. They had gone to work every morning and she didn't call her. She looked at her cell phone and called her, but didn't get an answer then either. She looked at the key Amanda gave her and opened the door, "Amanda?" Olivia saw blankets folded on the couch, nothing was in the sink, not even a coffee mug. She headed to work hoping to find her there.
She walked in and saw Nick and Munch at their desk and the Captain in his office. Fin walked up behind her, "Here, don't tell anyone." He gave her a cup of coffee. She sat at her desk and Amanda was the only one missing. Cragen stepped out of his office, "Where's Rollins?" Everyone shrugged and he looked at Olivia. She just shook her head. "Well, we have a case. Melinda is on the scene. It's brutal! All hands on deck! Liv, find Rollins."
Olivia looked at Fin, "Have you heard from her?" Fin was about to answer when she walked in. She was wearing sunglasses and looked bad. Olivia asked Fin for a minute. "Where have you been? I came by this morning." Amanda smirked, "I went for a run. Sorry, I didn't realize I had to check in with you every minute." Olivia knew what this was. Amanda had regrets about coming clean. She was pushing her away. "You don't, I was just worried." She told her about the case and rode with her and Fin. Amanda quickly went for the back, "I"ll sit in the back, Sergeant's gotta ride up front right."
Amanda got in and Fin looked at Olivia squinting his eyes. She just waved her hand and Fin knew to let it go. The Captain was right, it was brutal. Melinda stood over the body, "I can tell you I'm going to have a hard time identifying the body because of her face." Fin looked, "Oh my gosh! Was it acid?" Melinda agreed, "And her fingertips and teeth were removed. Someone went through a lot of trouble to make sure we couldn't ID her."
Nick bent down, "But they forgot the tattoo. This should help." The Captain who arrived praised Nick for the find. Olivia rode back with him, she trusted him and he needed to know about Amanda, but she couldn't do it. "What's going on Liv? Don't lie to me." Olivia looked, "What do you mean?" Cragen laughed, "Ok, so we are doing this now. Amanda? You two didn't come in together and you had know idea where she was." Olivia shrugged, "She went for a run this morning. She does that and she also never carries her phone. That's a bad habit." She looked over to see if he was buying it. "Well, that needs to change."
They worked on the case, but didn't have any leads that day. Olivia sat on Amanda's desk, "You know if you don't want to draw attention to yourself, you're going about this the wrong way. I just thought you should know the Captain is paying attention. You can't come with me to work everyday and just stop." Amanda was scared, "Did you tell him?" Olivia shook her head, "No! And I won't, because it's not my story. I said I would be your friend and I meant it. You don't have to hide from me because of what you told me." Olivia stood up and Amanda followed her, "Can I get a ride home?" Olivia smiled, "Of course."
The week went on and Amanda was coming in with Olivia, but something was off. She was tired and hungover. She definitely wasn't going on runs every morning like she said. They were able to track down the dead woman's fiancé from her tattoo. Fin and Nick found themselves looking at a Russian Bride Website, "Guys we're looking at a Russian mob." Fin turned on the screen for everyone to see, "So they run a website, take prostitutes, make them look pretty, and scam guys out of their money."
Nick continued and the squad finally saw the dead woman's face, "She was different. She actually fell in love and she paid with her life." They use the Captain because he was the perfect age. They found a main girl named Lena. They used her to get to the main mobster. Lena lied to all of them, she was only looking out for herself. She gave them some sob story that he had her daughter. Amanda ended up killing him to save a hostage. Olivia looked at her, "Amanda it was a good shoot. Stop worrying."
Lena led them into a trap at one of the safe houses. She killed an officer, but they were still able to capture her. The Captain took it hard and when Olivia was done comforting him, she saw her friend that needed help. "Rough day huh?" Amanda filled out the paperwork, "Yeah and I'm on with Fin this weekend?" Olivia tried not to baby her, "Well, I'm just glad it's not me. Come on, I'll take you home."
The next morning Amanda and Fin surveyed Central Park, trying to catch a groper. Fin had enough, "Let's pack it in and enjoy the rest of our weekend." Amanda shrugged, "Ok sure." Fin walked beside her, "Are you ok?" Amanda was about to tell him no when a naked man came running through the park. Fin shook his head, "Great there goes the weekend." He was obviously on something. "Fin, why are we at the Psych ward? It's obviously a bad trip." Fin laughed, "And you can tell by looking at him." Amanda shrugged, "Let's say I've been around users."
They were stuck waiting around when Fin recognized the security guard, "Fin, I've got him. When he comes down, I will have him transferred. Fin and Amanda went their separate ways. Amanda went elsewhere not wanting to see Olivia. On Monday Fin and Amanda reported to a hearing. Amanda had a rough weekend and wasn't in the mood. "Wait, I saw a woman being raped in the hospital." Amanda rolled her eyes, "He was too high to see anything." Fin hung his head. "Were you with him Detective?" Amanda rolled her eyes, "Why does that matter? I'm telling you…" Fin stopped her. "You're detectives, investigate it. You're free to go."
Fin lectured Amanda all the way back to the squad room. As soon as they walked in, Cragen's voice was all they heard, "You two my office!" Olivia stood on the side, she would be Sergeant soon and it was going to be part of the job. Cragen was on their asses, "So you left a suspect with a security guard, for what?" He turned to Amanda, "And you! Showing your ass to a judge. What the hell were you thinking?" Olivia chimed in, "She wasn't. Neither of you were."
Cragen looked at Fin and Olivia, "You two clean it up!" He turned to Amanda, "Don't leave that desk. You even need my permission for the bathroom." It was two hours and Fin and Olivia returned. They pulled up the board, "We have a case. Gia denies being attacked but her rape kit tells a different story." Amanda left while Olivia was talking to Cragen, so Olivia sat outside her door and waited for her.
Around 1 AM she stumbled in, "Where have you been?" Amanda smirked, "Out! I'm sorry, did I need your permission? Where's Brian, shouldn't you be on his dick or something?" Olivia didn't like this, things had changed so quickly. Amanda was in trouble and showing all the signs. "You know if you mine, I'd have your ass." Amanda laughed, "Ummm, but I'm not yours." Amanda leaned forward and kissed Olivia hard and pulled away biting her bottom lip, "Am I Sergeant Benson?"
Amanda walked in and winked at her as she closed the door. Olivia blocked it and pushed her inside, kissing her all the way to the couch. Amanda fell back in shock, "Surprised?" Olivia attacked her lips and pulled open her shirt. Amanda's buttons flew across the room. She undid her belt and pulled it off standing up, "Do you want to try me?" Olivia held the belt like she knew how to use it. "You wanted my attention, you've got it. Do you want your ass to have it? Where have you been?" Amanda lied, "A bar. I just had some drinks."
Olivia didn't believe her, but she dropped the belt and went to undo her pants. Olivia kissed her hard and put her hand down her panties. She rubbed until she felt Amanda's wetness on her hand. She inserted one finger then two until Amanda gasped and threw her head back. "Do you like it?" Amanda moaned, "Mmmm." Her breathing was heavy and Olivia felt her clamp down, "Liv!" Olivia smiled, "Ohhhh so now I'm Liv! It took all of this." Amanda moaned, "Mmmm" and Olivia flicked her clit with her thumb and Amanda came in her hand. Olivia watched her body shake while her fingers massaged her wet core.
They laid there on the couch. Olivia usually had so much self control, but Amanda was doing things to her. Olivia finally spoke, "How long are you going to lie to me?" Amanda didn't answer. Olivia kissed her lips, "When I find out, I will use that belt." Amanda wanted to come clean, but she couldn't. She wasn't going to ruin her greatest night in New York.