Sins Among Soldiers

by dArKdAyZ

It's Cloud's 16th birthday. He was accepted as a cadet at the Shinra Military Academy in Nibelheim. There, he learns the hardships of becoming a SOLDIER. When he gets into a gruesome fight, Colonel Zack pulls him through and teaches him pleasure over pain

Disclaimer: I do not own FFVII. Only a few characters in this story.

Author's Note: My first yaoi ever so please don't flame me if you don't like it. If you don't like it, you don't have to read it. Just read another story and get on with your life. Anyways, Zack and Cloud's relationship will actually come together around chapters 4 or 5. Read and enjoy! Oh, one more thing, when(or if) you review, I am allowing you to request certain things you want to happen in the story. If they are possible, I'll try my hardest to get it up for you! I promise!

Sins Among Soldiers

What have I done?
Where have I come from?
When I burnt the backs with the sun through a glass did I seal the loss that's become me?

Feeling undone
What have I become?
When I turned my back on you I turned my back on myself and became this machine

Thoughtlessness
Selfishness
Hopelessness
Arrogant

I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again

Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?

Shadows in the sun
Filter through us
Still wrestle the demons that arrested me as a child
Confession rejected
We grow up
To give up
People step on the cracks for wounds owed paid back
Through the words of surrender

Emptiness
Loneliness
Listlessness
Worthless

I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?

Can you save me?
From myself
From these memories
Can you save me?
From myself
From these memories

Surrender
To the shadows
Haunting inside
Bleed through you
Surrender to the secretes...inside
Lies within you

I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?

Can't feel you on the inside
Set down the bag and left it
Lost memory has left me
One again
Open up the inside
Admission for the cleansing
Now that I've forgotten to remember

Surrender
To the shadows
Haunting inside
Bleed through you

Forget to Remember-Mudvayne

Prologue-

Fingers with long, badly scented fingernails pushed lightly at his shoulder. The blonde mumbled something incoherently, turning over to the outskirts of his makeshift bed, fighting to cling to sleep. A soft feminine chuckled was dimly heard.

" Honestly, Sweetheart, how are you ever going to make it there if you stay in bed all day?'' Another push at his shoulder, this time harder. "Wake up, Honey. Sheesh you need a really loud alarm clock." One more shove. The groggy blonde rolled over, groaned, the promptly fell off the bed.

Cloud's mother sighed, walked over to the other side of the bed, shaking her head. 'He didn't even wake up.' She went over to his wardrobe, covered by a disarray of dirty laundry, and retrieved Cloud's SOLDIER uniform. " You're going to miss the train!'' She called to the jumble of blankets, whic was instantly moved aside.

''Eh?''Cloud slurred, blinking the sleep out of his foggy eyesight.

''I said, sleepyhead, 'You're going to miss the tr-'' The clothes were snatched from her in a flash, Cloud's bathroom door abruptly shutting. She smiled, turning to leave right before the door reopened. Cloud stepped out, looking as if he'd been up for hours. She never fully got a good look at his required outfit, but looking at him now...Well, to her, he looked just like- 'Wait, don't even go there.' She silently scolded herself while smiling at Cloud.

His uniform consisted of all black: Cargo pants that hugged his slender waist and baggy around his knees down, a rather normal looking sleeveless sweater, and military boots that were carefully polished to near perfection. ''Well? How do I look, Mom?'' His mother smiled and hugged her son tightly.

''No words could defy how you look Cloud.'' She kissed the tender skin on his cheek. "You'd better go sweetheart. You'll miss the train.'' Cloud nodded, leaving his house and villa for the last time as far as he knew.

Cloud's 16th birthday was to him the greatest birthday in his life. He was leaving his accursed villa to live up his dream and become a SOLDIER.

Okay! Tell me what you think. My first fanfic and I'd really like to know if i did good enough for you readers out there. R&R Please and Thank You!