Chapter 7
They got word on Friday that Captain Cragen would be back on Monday. Everyone was excited. Captain Harris bid them farewell and even let them go early with everything closed. "You all are a great unit. Benson, Rollins I need to see you." They walked into his office, "One PP contacted me based on what you told them Sergeant." Amanda looked at Olivia confused, then back at the Captain. "I'm signing off on it. You two have been nothing but professional, I had no idea you were together."
Amanda frowned at Olivia because she went behind her back. Harris continued, "I'm glad you did this with me instead of Cragen. He will be notified, but you're smart, it would have looked bad if you waited for him to come back to make a decision. You'll definitely make Captain one day Benson." He turned to Amanda, "And you are a great detective. You're young, talented, and will go far." Harris grabbed his things, "Best wishes you two."
Amanda smiled at Olivia , "You went to One PP without telling me?" Olivia nodded, "When we decided Amanda I had to disclose. It couldn't be Cragen, not just coming back. I also knew there was a chance, they could transfer one of us. They don't always allow this. I didn't want you to worry. No secrets Amanda." Amanda smiled as they left, "Liv, we should go to the bank and put our money together, then head to the courthouse to look into marriage…" Olivia stopped her, "Wait a minute."
Amanda stopped, "I thought you wanted forever." Olivia nodded, "I do, but I also don't want to move too fast." Amanda didn't think it was fast, "We've known each other a year. You know more about me than anyone I've ever been with." She leaned in and whispered, "Plus you've spanked me and fucked me, so you should do the honorable thing. I don't want to feel like a stain." Olivia had to laugh, "Ok."
They went to the bank. They agreed to have a joint account, but keep separate ones also. When the lady walked away, Amanda sighed, "You said no secrets, so why separate accounts with our joint?" Olivia shook her head, "Look, when Christmas and birthdays or just special stuff comes around, I don't need you seeing what I'm buying and how much. That's it, no secrets." That made Amanda happy.
The lady came back and handed them paperwork and Olivia saw the balance, "Amanda! This balance!" The lady excused her, "Liv, calm down! I told you my mom paid me off, remember." Olivia's eyes were wide, "Yeah, just not millions paid off." Amanda knew it was a lot of money, "Well he makes money. It was handed over like it was nothing. I think it was from a deal with Nike."
They both kept some in their personal accounts. They both had money, Liv from her mom's death insurance and Amanda from her mom's payoff. "I think you should keep the millions Amanda." Amanda shook her head, "Liv, you have a lot too. I want things to be ours not yours and mine. We do this together ok?" Olivia agreed and they went to find out about marriage licenses. The system made it easy and they ended up filling out all of the paperwork.
They started driving home, "Ok Amanda, you're in charge. When do you want to do this? Do you want it big, small, the squad…" Amanda knew, "Just us, let's pick out rings this weekend, and on Christmas Eve." Olivia laughed, "Been planning without me? Why Christmas Eve?" Amanda shrugged, "Because last Christmas Eve was a game changer." Olivia just smiled, "Ok."
The next week Cragen was back and on top of his game. Everyone wondered how he would respond, but he did well. They took on cases and balanced their life as moms with Lucy's help. The whole squad enjoyed Halloween when Lucy brought them by. Noah was sporting a brown chunky peanut butter onesie and Jesse was wearing a purple jelly onesie with a tutu. Fin and Melinda laughed, "Next year maybe we should try ketchup and mustard for the twins!" Fin rubbed Melinda's stomach. It was close to Thanksgiving and Cragen put everyone on notice to join him and Eileen for dinner.
The next couple of weeks work was tough. It was the Friday before Thanksgiving week, Amanda was in a pissy ass mood and at lunch Olivia smacked her smartass in the bathroom. After a full on tantrum she was calmer and apologized to everyone. She even gave Olivia a kiss with tongue when no one was looking. They hadn't had sex in a while and Olivia thought she needed some attention. On the way home Olivia asked, "I know we agreed to Benson as the last name, but are you sure about changing Jesse's last name?" Amanda nodded, "I want us to have the same name. I'm sure."
They got home and Lucy was crying on the couch, "Lucy, what's wrong?" They saw the babies sleeping and immediately sat and embraced her. "A week ago, my roommate's boyfriend was drunk and he tried to kiss me. When she got home I told her I didn't feel comfortable with him being here without her and what happened." Olivia turned her around, "Why didn't you tell us?" Olivia looked at her over, "Did he do anything else?" Lucy shook her head quickly, "No, I didn't want to get him in trouble, he was drunk."
Lucy wiped her eyes, "My roommate got pissed and kicked me out, because she's been paying almost all of the rent. I've been staying in a crappy hotel and someone broke into my room and took everything, my clothes, cash, everything." Olivia hugged her and Amanda rubbed her back, "Baby, you should have told us." Lucy cried, "I'm just your nanny, I'm not your responsibility." Amanda was upset, "You are not just a nanny, you're our family Lucy."
They ordered take out and Olivia gave her a very long lecture that made her cry more. Olivia was tough, "We have two empty bedrooms, what makes you think you had to stay in a hotel." Amanda stood up, "I'll get you some night clothes and jeans and shirts, we're close in size." Lucy frowned, "I'm sorry."
Everyone was in bed and Olivia was naked turning on the shower. Amanda swallowed seeing her tone body, "Liv, you were a little tough on her. She's a kid." Amanda took off her clothes. Olivia scoffed, "You're a kid too, so you would know." Amanda was shocked, "What the fuck! Who are you calling a kid?"
Olivia left the shower door and was close to her face, "Amanda, we trust her everyday with our own kids and we knew none of this. That excuse told me she's afraid to ask us for help. You told her, she's family. That's why I was tough on her." Olivia grabbed her ass and smacked it hard, "Watch your mouth! That's why I'm tough on you."
Olivia smiled at Amanda smiling, "You've been acting up all day. How about you be an adult and just tell me what you want. You want something right?" Amanda swallowed, "How do you know?" Olivia almost laughed, but didn't, "Your behavior. Your attitude." Amanda kissed her, "I want you to fuck me, but then I want to fuck you." Olivia pushed her up against the shower wall and moved her hands down her soapy body. She let the water rinse her off before grabbing her leg and putting it on her shoulder.
Amanda threw her head back and her hands went straight to Olivia's wet brown hair, "Mmmm Liv!" Olivia looked up and inserted two fingers, "You're wet and not from the shower." She pushed her fingers in and pulled them out rough and fast with one hand and squeezed her erect nipples with her other hand. She felt Amanda's body clamping down and when she screamed, "Li…!" She kissed her hard to cover her scream. "Shh we have kids in the house." Olivia held her fingers inside her and cuffed her pussy until she stopped shaking.
Amanda smiled, "My turn!" She smacked Olivia's ass hard, "Wash off, I'll be back." Amanda came back and stepped in the shower while Olivia's back was turned. Amanda pressed her front to her back and Olivia laughed when she felt the strap on. Amanda bent her over the bench and teased her lower lips, "Let's see if you're laughing when I'm done."
Olivia giggled at Amanda taking charge, she loved this side of her and it took a lot to get it out of her. She pushed in causing Olivia to run. "No, don't run now!" Olivia breathed hard, "Amanda, fuck it's deep." Amanda laughed, she grabbed the bigger one on purpose. She pulled out slowly, "Do you want me to stop?" Olivia looked back, "Hell no! I just need a minute to adjust." Amanda pushed back in and gave her a minute until she felt Olivia pushing back on her. She could see Olivia's juices on the dildo. "Fuck Liv, you're wet as fuck!" Olivia shook her head, "Amanda, watch your…" Amanda smiled, "Whack!" "I'm in charge!"
Amanda grabbed Olivia's waist and started pounding into her. The moaning got louder when Amanda reached around and circled her clit, "Mmmm ahhh mmmm Amanda… I'm going…to… Ahhhh Fuck!" Amanda smiled and held her until her body was calm. Then it happened Amanda saw Liv bent over the bench and had a flashback. She didn't remember pulling out, stepping out of the shower, or drying her hair. She heard Olivia's voice the entire time, but couldn't make out anything she was saying. "Amanda?"
Amanda jumped, "Huh?" Olivia thought it was weird, "I asked if you were finished drying your hair." Amanda looked at the hair dryer and gave it to her, "Yeah. Here you go." She watched Amanda dry off and put on her clothes. Olivia dried her hair and tried not to draw attention to it, but Amanda was shaking. When she turned off the hair dryer, Amanda jumped. Olivia threw on her clothes and followed her, "Hey! Look at me."
Olivia looked into her eyes, "Breathe in and out." Olivia did it and Amanda followed her pattern. Amanda had tears in her eyes and they fell while Olivia gently cuffed her chin, "Liv, will you hold me?" Olivia helped her in bed and watched Amanda cling to her waist. Amanda didn't make any noise, but Olivia could feel her shirt was wet from her tears. She was patient and waited for Amanda to be ready. She knew what it was, but she didn't know what caused it. She also knew from her own trauma, it could happen. A sound, an action, or anything could cause it.
After 30 minutes Amanda sat up, "I'm sorry. I ruined it, I remembered." Olivia rubbed her, "It's ok. You didn't ruin anything. Do you want to tell me what happened?" Amanda hung her head embarrassed. "Hey, you don't have to. Let's get some sleep." Around 1 AM, Amanda had a nightmare, "Shhh, it's ok." Olivia held her and Amanda finally talked, "When you were bent over the bench and it was over, I remembered what happened to me." Amanda shook her head, "Liv, it hurt so bad and I still…"
Olivia hugged her and rubbed her back, "Amanda, it didn't mean that. It's the body's reaction." Amanda nodded because she knew that. Olivia remembered Amanda being in a similar position with her on Christmas Eve. "Amanda, have I done anything sexually to trigger you?" Amanda shook her head no. She told her the story about screwing the guy from the bar, "I wanted to know if I could have sex again." She told her that her last trigger was the guy holding her head down. Olivia made a note never to do that. They went back to sleep.
Lucy stayed with them, which was great especially if they were called for work. They celebrated Thanksgiving, celebrated Amanda's birthday, and got ready for Christmas. Right after the holiday, a man known for picking up prostitutes, went on a shooting spree. "Liv, do you remember her?" Olivia looked at the board, "Jeannie?" Cragen nodded and informed the team, this was his favorite pickup. "We find her, we find him. Let's go." SVU worked with the FBI to close the case. They even got Jeannie some help and out of prostitution for good. "Well Liv, her family should enjoy Christmas." Olivia kissed Amanda, "Yeah, now let's enjoy ours.
On Christmas Eve, Olivia and Amanda stood in front of each other and were married. They exchanged the Tiffany rings that they picked out for each other. Amanda had blue stones in hers to match her eyes. While cooking dinner for Christmas, Lucy saw the ring, "You two are married? Congratulations!" They sat in Christmas pjs and held Noah and Jesse while watching Christmas movies.
Lucy changed the channel, "Guys, A Christmas story is on for 24 hours." Olivia grabbed the remote and turned it off, "Good you can watch it tomorrow, because if you aren't in bed Santa can't come." Lucy smirked. Noah and Jesse were knocked out. They had an amazing gift for Lucy. The community college was offering online classes for basic courses, she could take them and in two years figure out what she wanted. They also had a MacBook Pro. They put the babies stuff down. They had toys and clothes under the tree, but they were still too little to realize anything.
Olivia picked Amanda up bridal style, "Liv!" She took her to the bedroom and closed the door, "Now, I have your gift. Do you remember a year ago?" Amanda smiled and bit her lip, "Yeah of course. You're kinda unforgettable." Olivia kissed her softly, "Liv, this isn't how it went down last year." Olivia smacked her ass, "And it's not going down like that this year. That's the only freaky move you get. Tonight I will make love to my wife." Amanda smiled and kissed her gently."
The next morning Amanda woke up naked in Olivia's arms. She made circles around her stomach, "I like gentle Liv." Olivia smiled, "We can mix it in a little." Amanda put on clothes, "Not too much though." The morning was full of screaming from Lucy. The afternoon was full of food and friendship. Cragen, Eileen, Nick, Fin, and Melinda came over. Olivia and Amanda announced the marriage and Amanda saw Nick frown. They took turns taking pictures next to the tree, "Liv, our first family photo. I love it!"