She'd been coming from the kitchen, with a bowl of popcorn when Alexis heard the muffled sound of arguing voices outside, she sighed inwardly expecting Ned had more than likely come back to finish what he started, placing the bowl on the coffee table and brushing her hand across her blue jeans, she headed for the door ready for a fight, but before she even touched the doorknob, the voices grew clear and precise, thanks to a intercom system that was now acting as one Jason Morgan's very own confessional.
Tears pooled in her sleep weary eyes, and she heard his truths and she shook her head as if to block out the realization that Carly had once again manipulated the situation to get her way and Jason had helped.
"Ms. Davis, Jason is here to see you." Johnny spoke through the intercom, hoping he'd done the right thing by leaning back on the intercom so she could hear every word, he guessed he'd get his answer soon enough.
Wiping away any remnants of tears, Alexis regained her composure the last thing she wanted to do was show Jason any sort of weakness, she had to remain focused, "let him in… and Johnny I'd like you to stay too."
Opening the door a crack, Johnny peered through before opening it any wider, their eyes locked, he tried gauging her reaction, she gave him a small know and strained smile and shook her head to reassure him that she was indeed okay, he felt so bad for her, as much as she tried playing the tough attorney, he knew better.
Jason stepped around Johnny who shut the door and remained standing by the door as an observer; glancing back he noticed the concern in the bodyguards eyes and wondered when Johnny had exactly changed his job description from protector to friend.
His attention drawn back to Alexis, he studied her carefully, it would be no easy task to talk her out of going after Luis Alkazar, she stood facing him with fiery determination, her head held high, nope this wouldn't be easy at all… but then again that's how their relationship started out, he recalled how much he'd hated her for getting Tony Jones a mere slap on the wrist for kidnapping Michael, he'd been irritated the day Sonny brought her to Bobbie's house for legal representation, but she'd proven that she wanted to make amends and that was by doing the right thing. Sonny had seen something in her back then that he hadn't, and it was only now that Jason realizing maybe he didn't know Sonny as well as he thought he did.
"Hello, Alexis."
Turning away from him, she sank down into the cushions of the sofa, extending a hand out to invite him to do the same, "sit down, make yourself comfortable."
Nope this wasn't going to be easy, settling for the chair that sat catty corner to her, he leaned forward placing his elbows on his knees, he chose his words carefully before speaking, " We know what you've been up to Alexis, do you even get how dangerous that is?" well maybe careful wasn't the right word for it.
Alexis eyed the younger man sitting across from her, there was a time in the recent past that she would've been happy to have visit from Jason Morgan, but now wasn't one of those times, " My, he doesn't waste time does he?" she asked, glancing at Johnny, who remained quiet, her attention slowly returning to Jason, "My life and what I do it in… well, it's of no concern to you or you business associate Mr. Corinthos."
Jason smiled in spite of himself, only to be met with a deadly glare, " Sorry Alexis, I just remembered a time when Sonny was vying for you to represent us, and you wouldn't call him anything but Mr. Corinthos, used to drive him nuts… I bet it still does."
"Well if I'd know how much he detested it… I would've continued doing it, "Alexis shot back sarcastically, "now if you've come here to rehash my clouded perception when it comes to Mr. Corinthos, your wasting my time… as I said before, what I do is of no concern to him anymore."
"Sonny doesn't seem to think so, "Jason spoke honestly, "he's worried for about you Alexis, maybe more than you know."
"How very thoughtful of him, but why don't you tell him to focus that attention on his wife," Alexis said bitingly," and quit wasting it on me… I can take care of myself, and if I choose to find Luis Alkazar, well it's really my business."
"Come on Alexis, I didn't come here to give you a warning, I came here to tell you to stop this before you really get hurt, "Jason said firmly," do you think I'd lie about something this important, I'm worried about you and the baby."
Raising a brow, Alexis crossed her leg and leaned in, "well, I don't know… I think lying might just be your forte after all Jason," If she was going to blow him out of the water there was no better time than now, " I mean how else do you explain your involvement in Carly's deception… poor misunderstood Carly needed you… needed you to cover her scheming behind from getting caught."
"You heard my conversation with Johnny?"
She laughed hollowly, "It was really rather enlightening, I haven't heard you speak that much in years… maybe Carly's inability to refrain from speaking has finally rubbed off on you."
Jason glanced up surprised," We do things to protect the people we love Alexis… I believed Carly when she told me what had happened… the consequences came after."
"Assuming anything with Carly is dangerous ground Jason, "Alexis chided, " but you better come up with a better excuse for me Jason, because quite frankly when has Carly ever told the truth?"
Jason found himself flashing back to the year 1999, and a conversation he'd had with Sonny on the very subject of Carly.
"Carly still thinks the truth is whatever story gets her what she wants, you know that!" Sonny had said emphatically.
"Your right… but right now I need to know what she wants, because a lot of times how she gets it doesn't make sense to anyone but her, " Jason had replied defensively.
"I still don't understand," Sonny had replied, shaking his head in frustration, " Why is she your friend?"
That conversation had long ago been forgotten and how here he was staring into the eyes of a woman who had been honest with him from day one.
"Do you have any idea, what Carly's disappearance did to Sonny, " Alexis inquired, " how he blamed himself for yet another death… your supposed to know him better than anyone Jason, Carly knew exactly what she was doing, she knew he'd punish himself and she used that against him… do you understand what you've done by helping her?"
Jason nodded, she edged closer to him, " she's spent the last year tormenting me… don't get me wrong I'm a big girl, I can take care of myself just fine… but when she takes that hostility toward me and uses it against Sonny, that's crossing the line!"
His attention snapped to her face, his eyes softened, "You love him, don't you?"
Bristling Alexis rose from the couch walking toward the large picture window and basked in the sunset over the Port Charles skyline, wrapping her hands around her waist she spoke with her back to him, "it doesn't really matter what I felt… it's over now, to many mistakes, to many bad decisions, to many ugly words… those consequences are forever sealed, there's no way to go back."
Rising from the chair, Jason approached her carefully, "I owe you a lot Alexis… just say the word and I'll talk to Sonny."
Alexis glanced over her shoulder appalled, "do you take me for a desperate woman Jason… that I would readily accept Sonny back in my life just like that?" snapping her fingers in emphasis, " the truth is, Sonny would've gone back to Carly in the end anyway… that's where his heart is, it always did."
"You've never been more wrong in your life."
Alexis and Jason both turned in surprise, forgetting that Johnny was ever there, " you know I respect you Ms. Davis… but I'm going to be honest with you, you have no clue what you're talking about."
Alexis furrowed her brow, "Don't hold back O'Brien, after all it is your opinion that I pay you for."
Johnny blushed, "Sorry Ms. Davis but I know a thing or two about you and Sonny and your both control freaks, neither of you wanted to be the one to define your friendship, you both know how you feel, but your both cowards to admit it, so you just dump it all instead of telling each other how important you are to each other."
"Of course we were important to each other, we were friends… are you trying to tell he harbored something more for me… because if you are… well, it's just ridiculous he loves Carly."
"I'm not saying he didn't' love Carly… what I'm saying is his feelings run deeper for you than your willing to admit… you always mattered to him, almost from the beginning, who did he always come to with his problems, legal or otherwise, who did he respect and trust?"
Alexis found herself back in Penthouse Four they day of Sonny and Carly's sham wedding, she'd gone to check on Carly after the ceremony and found her sitting in a chair gazing off into the distance lost in her thoughts, they'd share a conversation that day, Alexis talked about their future together, Carly in turn had given her own take on why Sonny had married her that day.
"Yeah, this whole almost wedding, you know what it's all about? It's all about you, it' about your opinions, you know, your ideas, your input… Sonny respects you, how does that feel?"
"I don't know you tell me? You're his wife."
"I always thought Carly was crazy when she accused Sonny and I of being more than friends, I grew so tired of her incessant accusations."
"Maybe she knew something the two of you didn't."
"Quite the observation, for a man who a little while ago, thought I'd plied Sonny with liquor and had my way with him, " Alexis threw at him.
"Maybe, I'm beginning to see things clearer," Jason said, he looked away and back, " Carly is my friend, protecting her comes with the job."
"It's funny what you do when you love someone." Alexis replied.
"Like you did the night you asked Sonny to call off the hit, " Jason asked, " don't get me wrong AJ is scum in my eyes… but… thank you for stopping Sonny before he did something he'd regret."
"It was all for nothing in the end anyway, "Alexis shrugged, "it doesn't lessen the hurt that he turned on Zander… in all the time I'd known him, that was the first time he'd scared me… I've seen his dark side before mind you… but there was just something so wrong about the man I'd come to know… what happened to him Jason, what's made him turn into this?
Jason shook his head, " I don't know Alexis, honest to God, I don't know."
"He needs you." Johnny spoke up, " I've been there remember."
"He doesn't need me, he has his wife."
"Come on Alexis, " Johnny exclaimed forgetting that he was talking to his boss, " he can't understand why I he can't go back to the way he was before you, he's making all the wrong choices because he's bound and determined to get over you… do you know how hurt he was that day you sent him back to Carly, he stood outside your door, he wanted to hear you say you needed him back!"
"So I'm to blame for his problems!" Alexis asked angrily, " I'm suddenly the one that faked my death and used a funeral and a head injury to lure my ex husband back to my bed?"
"I didn't say that… all I'm saying is he needs to make amends with you, and until he does he's not going to be alright."
"I'd love to wring that bleached blonde's neck right now, you do realize that?" Alexis seethed, "all her preaching and carrying on with her truths, about her and Sonny's deep abiding love… and then to try and run me out of town when she found out about the baby… I'd love to smack that smug little smirk right off her face!"
"Hold up… what's this about Carly running you out of town, "Jason asked, " your carrying Sonny's baby."
Alexis could've screamed, her and her big mouth had just told grand mob station the secret she was trying desperately to keep, " I know this isn't fair to ask you Jason, and you can consider me a hypocrite…I really don't care, but for right now… he can't know."
"Regardless of what you think of me Alexis, I do understand… it's making sense now, why Kristina was at the warehouse that night, she was there to confront him with the truth… but instead she was caught n the crossfire."
A tear fell from Alexis eye that she quickly swiped away, " that day when I berated you all… I was so furious for losing my sister and I took that fury out on the people I thought were to blame… I bared Sonny's secrets, secrets he only shared with me… I chose to humiliate him, and now he hates me… Luke told me it wasn't Sonny's fault… and I knew he was right… It was mine."
"No one blames you for what you said that day, " Jason stated, "in fact it got us all to realize that day we needed to work together to bring Alkazar down… for you… for Kristina."