There was pizza in every country.

Or at least every country that Sho had been to. He figured because everyone everywhere liked pizza. Who wouldn't? There cheese and bread and sauce. Everyone liked cheese and bread and sauce? Even him. He just didn't really like them together. That was why he was taking his slice of plain cheese pizza apart while everyone else ate theirs. This wasn't a planned thing. Shibata had just ended up forgetting dinner in the over and it got too burnt to eat. Then everyone started arguing over whose fault it was and now they were in a Dodo Pizza in Moscow eating pizza that was, in fact, not made from dodos. They were extinct. That was why.

This was just normal pizza.

Well of course it was normal, it was pizza. Sho had only had bad pizza once in his life and that was at this place in San Francisco, which was a part of America, where they ,made their pizza with fake cheese and fake sauce and put vegetables on top of everything. Not normal pizza vegetables like peppers and olives and onions, which he could pick off easily without them contaminating his pizza. At that place they put on broccoli and asparagus and squash and eggplant….and it had not been a good time. That was why he was never getting pizza with big sis and Minegishi again…well big sis and Minegishi alone. They were here now but they were eating normal pizza just like everyone else.

"I can't believe we came all the way to Moscow….to eat pizza." Said Minegishi. They complained about everything. Sho wondered if, in the mornings, they wrote out a list of things to complain about just to keep it fresh. That was the only explain that Sho could think up for why they never seemed to run out of things to complain about.

"It's Russian pizza." Said Hatori. He made a scared noise and looked down at the table when Minegishi looked at him. Sho didn't get what he was so afraid of. He'd seen Minegishi act much scarier than that.

"I'm sorry I forgot about dinner….again. But, hey, at least I didn't set the apartment on fire….again." said Shibata

"I know. Couldn't you have left it in for a little longer? That could have been so much more exciting…." Said Shimazaki as he reached over and at the cheese from Sho's pizza. He had his own pizza, if anything they had too much pizza, but Sho was happy to let Shimazaki pick off of his plate. It made him feel all….swimming inside. It was a good feeling…and he liked this feeling…and he hated liking this feeling.

"Yeah, there could have been a fire….and stuff." Said Sho. He agreed because….because he liked to agree with Shimazaki. Actually he liked pizza better than fires but if Shimazaki liked fires better than pizza and that was ok.

"Which is why someone needs to learn to start watching the goddamned stove." Said Minegishi

"Hey, I was watching it…I just got a little distracted." Said Shibata

"I'm sorry, Shibata, I didn't mean to distract you." Said Hatori

"No, it's ok. It's not your fault." Said Shibata. He was glaring at Shimazaki when he said that. Sho didn't know what to do. Shimazaki could probably tell by Shibata's aura that he was giving him a look but he wasn't doing anything…just eating pizza…so maybe he wanted Sho to defend him and stuff…but Sho didn't want to be mean to anyone let alone Shibata. He was always so nice and he threw Sho in the air even though he was ten now. Fukuda wouldn't even pick him up anymore because he was too big now. Well Shibata was super strong and stuff….and Sho didn't want to say anything mean but…but he had to defend Shimazaki….

"It's not Shimazaki's fault that Hatori keeps on forgetting how to do laundry." Said Sho. He felt big sis' aura on him. She was frowning, now, and he had no clue why. He could have been a lot meaner…and he wasn't even her boyfriend anymore. Minegishi said meaner stuff all the time.

"Sho, be nice." Said big sis

"Yeah kid, be nice. Like Shibata is always saying; Hatori is very fragile. Like a china doll or one of those weird plates that people put up on display even though plates are for eating." Said Shimazaki as he picked up another piece of Sho's pizza. This time the bread part. Sho didn't mind at all. He did, however, mind the way big sis' aura felt on his.

"Be nice to Hatori, Sho, we're all friends and friends should be nice to one another." Said big sis

"And he really is a very emotionally fragile person." Said Shibata

"Guys….I'm not fragile…" said Hatori as he picked at his pizza. His had way too many toppings. Maybe Shimazaki should have stolen off of his plate instead…since Sho had pretty much nothing left on his plate at this point…but the thought of Shimazaki stealing from anyone's plate other than his makes him want to hit someone…and he doesn't want to hit anyone so he decides to let Shimazaki eat everything that he had.

"You shouldn't tell lies, Hatori, it sets a bad example for the kids." Said Minegishi as they took another slice of their stupid, gross, veggie covered waste of perfectly good bread and cheese and sauce.

"Won't somebody please think of the children?!" said Shimazaki in a high pitched voice. Nobody said anything. Minegishi just rolled their eyes even though they knew that Shimazaki had to have been really focused on someone to be able to see them doing that.

"Eat your pizza, Ryou, you're getting delusional with hunger." Said Minegishi. Sho would have kicked them under the table if they hadn't been sitting too far away for him to catch himself before his foot was halfway there. He couldn't kick Minegishi because that would be mean and he was done being mean like that….even if they should have been nicer to Shimazaki

Who had just kicked him under the table.

"Don't start shit with Toshi you can't win." Said Shimazaki. He hadn't kicked Sho hard but it had been hard enough for him to feel it…and now he was red….very red. He took another slice of pizza to cover up why he wasn't saying anything. So what if he had tried to kick Minegishi? He had stopped himself at the last minute and that was what mattered.

"See? They're impressionable." Said Minegishi. Sho glared up at them. They thought that they were so cool just because they were mean all the time and Shimazaki liked that for some reason. Sho didn't understand it but he did understand the way that Shimazaki's aura reached over and met Minegishi's for a little bit…and he didn't like it. He didn't like it one bit. It twisted his stomach all up in knots and he hated this feeling. He hated a lot of his feelings. Why couldn't he just be like big sis? She was normal. She had liked someone who she was supposed to like, not that he liked Shimazaki like that or anything, and she was having a good time even though she had to sit across from the guy who she had wanted to marry, before, and have babies with and stuff. Why couldn't he be more like her? She was…she had been born right and he had been born wrong and…

And he shoved a whole slice of pizza in his mouth.

"Sho! Be careful! You could choke and Fukuda isn't here!" said big sis. Sho didn't need to be saved. He was just…having some trouble….because he had bitten off more than he could chew….but he couldn't spit anything out because that would have been gross and then big sis would have been on his back about his table manners…but maybe stuffing a whole slice of pizza in his mouth had been a bad move…

"It's ok, I still know CPR. You're going to be ok, Little Suzuki…and if not…well…Shimazaki can teleport you over to the healer." Said Shibata

"Oh God no. Kid, you had better not choke…..can't stand that guy…" said Shimazaki. Sho got it, sort of, and he didn't really want to see Fukuda either. He was a nice person when it was just the two of them but when any of his other friends were there Fukuda just got really grumpy even though he didn't have to be. He really needed to learn how to give people a chance and stuff. Everyone, well not Minegishi, was so nice here.

It would have been nice to have Fukuda around.

He liked pizza. He would have liked it here because he liked pizza. He said that in Korea they were going to go to a laundromat that also served pizza. His friend Oostski found out about it, he liked Kpop and they shot a lot of Kpop music videos and stuff there. Sho didn't really care about Kpop but he did care about pizza and also about making Fukuda happy. It was nice to see him with some other friends. Maybe then he could make friends with Sho's friends since he proved that he had the ability to make friends. Then everyone could be friends together and have fun and eat foreign pizza together.

God, he was starting to sound like big sis.

"If he dies then Suzuki is going to kill us….if we're lucky…." Muttered Hatori. He was rocking back and forth and his eyes kept on darting to the bathroom. Shibata reached over and put a hand on his shoulder. Sho knew that he was only doing that so Hatori wouldn't run and hide. Sho didn't blame him, dad was sort of scary….ok, he was very scary….but Sho honestly doubted that dad would kill anyone if Sho died on their watch. Dad would probably beat them up and make them suffer but then he would just sigh, divorce mom, marry some other lady, and have a Son with her and then he would probably call that Son Sho and it would be like Sho never existed.

Well big sis would remember him.

"Sho isn't going to die, he just does this sometimes. Remember the other day when he fit an entire kiev into his mouth and we thought that he was going to choke? Sho just….does this sometimes…and I don't know why. I think that it might be a boy thing." Said big sis

"No, just an immature thing." Said Minegishi

"Hey, there is nothing immature about seeing how many slices of pizza you can fit in your mouth. My record is four." Said Shimazaki. Sho nodded as he chewed. He really wished he had taken this pizza apart. Now all the parts were touching and it was weird and….stuff. But he had to chew and swallow and then try this again with two slices of pizza and then three and four and then five and six and then he could break Shimazaki's record and then he would be so impressed and he would think that Sho was the coolest guy ever…the thought makes him all happy and swimmy inside….

He chews harder.

"Triangles or those little pub squares?" asked Shibata

"Triangles. Who do you think I am? Pub squares….I swear." Said Shimazaki

"Thin crust or thick crust?" asked Shibata

"Thick crust. Who the hell eats thin crust pizza? The crust is the best part." Said Shimazaki. Sho thought that the cheese was the best part, how it was all greasy and salty from the meat but also warm and sort of melty…but he wasn't going to disagree with Shimazaki. If he liked the bread part best then Sho would give him the bread part of every single slice of pizza that he would ever eat in his life from this moment forward.

Sho reached over and started to take apart another slice of pizza.

He felt big sis's aura on him. She was using her powers to hold his hand back. What was with her? Even he if he had a mouthful of pizza should still have been allowed to take more. They had plenty of pizza. They had more pizza than they had people at the table. They had just decided to get everything because they didn't know what was and was not good. Also he and big sis carried a lot of money with them. Sho didn't think that it was so much money, he'd seen more, but it was enough for all of this pizza…which Sho could take as much of as he wanted because he was hungry and he needed to eat to live…and stuff.

"Sho, don't. You already have a whole slice of pizza in your mouth. You don't need two or you'll choke and die and then I won't have a little brother anymore." Said big sis. She was always being dramatic like that. No wonder she had been in love with Hatori. He was the king of being over dramatic.

"I-Is he going to be ok? He's not going to choke to death is he? Oh God….Suzuki is going to kill us…or worse…I don't want to go in a traitor hole…." Said Hatori. His eyes kept on darting to the bathroom. Shibata wasn't going to let him go, though, because once he went in there it was VERY hard to get him out. Well it was easy, he was tiny enough to lift and Shimazaki could teleport him out….but then he just ran back in the first chance he got and then it was the same thing over and over again, which was boring, and Shimazaki didn't like boring things so neither did Sho.

"I'm not going to choke so you don't have to hide from my dad in the bathroom….and that's the boy's bathroom anyway so he could just come in and get you. If you want to hide from my dad then just go hide in the girl's bathroom. He probably wouldn't go in there. I mean he might send in big sis but he won't go in there on his own." said Sho

"I-I don't think that would be a good idea…and I'm fine…" said Hatori

"It's ok if you aren't. Suzuki is a scary guy…but please don't hide in the bathroom again." said Shibata

"I-I'm not going to-" said Hatori

"It's ok. Sometimes people get scared and want to hide places. There's nothing wrong with that, we all get scared sometimes." Said big sis even though she didn't have to. He had no clue why she had ever liked someone who was just so….not cool. He was such a baby, Hatori, and big sis liked that for some reason. He would never understand girls….or at least her. He had a girlfriend now and he sort of understood her. She liked to get one update email a week and then every day she liked a shorter conversation email. She also liked presents but he couldn't send her too many or her parents would wonder where all of the stuff was coming from. She wasn't allowed to have a boyfriend and stuff so he didn't want to get her in trouble. He knew what it was like to be in trouble with your parents, dad at least, and he didn't wish that on anyone let alone his own girlfriend.

Who he totally liked!

He was looking forward to seeing her, he really was, because that was just…how you were supposed to be when you liked someone. You wanted to be with them all the time and when you were apart you spent all of your time trying to figure out how to be with them again…and when you were together you thought about how much you liked sitting next to them even though they were picking off of your plate and eating all of your cheese even though they liked the bread better and how nice they smelled and how-

And he thought about his girlfriend like that. Not his best friend.

He thought about her like that, he just didn't show it. Like with Hatori and big sis. Hatori obviously still liked her. Why wouldn't he? She was big sis. She was the nicest big sis in the world. She was forgiving and she was always there for you and stuff and anyone who didn't like his big sis was a mother fucking cock sucking bastard and deserved to get beaten up! And also he would beat up anyone who did like her because that was what little brothers did….but not in any serious way….unless he did something like pretend to like her just to kiss her or something….then he would have to get beaten up and put in a traitor hole….and that would never happen because Hatori liked big sis and Hatori was a baby. He liked Hatori for that. He would never do anything to hurt her…well he wouldn't have the chance because she had broken up with him.

She really should take him back.

She still cared about him. Like now she was being nice to him instead of telling him that he needed to stop hiding in bathrooms and be a man about things. She was nice like that and she liked to take care of people, she took good care of him, so she should have been with Hatori…and he didn't think that just because she had liked Shimazaki before. She didn't like him anymore but she could have liked him again…but that would never happen because Hatori liked her….and he just needed to shape up so she would take him back…not that he was worried about her liking Shimazaki or anything….

Because she didn't and even if she did he wouldn't care because Shimazaki was the coolest guy ever so of course Sho wanted him to marry his big sis and the thought of Shimazaki being married to big sis and kissing her and stuff did not make him want to start breaking things!

"He just gets scared all of the time, he can't help that, it's his greatest flaw as a human being." Said Shimazaki as he reached over and took a piece of pizza break from Sho's disassembled pile. Big sis reached over with her powers and took it out of his hand…and she couldn't do that! Sho was not a baby and if he wanted Shimazaki to eat from his plate then he could! He was so mad he could….he didn't do anything but put the bread back on Shimazaki's plate.

"I-I'm not scared all the time…" said Hatori. Shimazaki lunged forward in his seat and Hatori threw himself back so hard he would have tipped over if Shibata hadn't caught him by hand and big sis hadn't caught him with her powers. He had been caught but a piece of pizza had flipped over onto his sweater….which Sho felt sort of bad about. That was his blue sweater with the bird on it. He looked nice in that sweater, actually he had been looking a lot nicer lately. His skin wasn't so shiny and he didn't have so many spots on his face and stuff. He smelled better too, well less like he had before, and all he needed to do now was to stop being such a fraidy cat and then maybe big sis would like him again.

She might have liked him now.

She had dipped a napkin in her water and she was cleaning him up now. That was something that girls did when they liked you, right? He had seen mom do that for dad before. He had seen her clean ketchup and stuff off of his shirt….and she had liked dad because she had agreed to marry him…so maybe big sis still liked Hatori. Yeah, of course she did. Who else was she going to like? Shimazaki?

Sho tore a slice of pizza in half on accident.

"Hey, come on. You know how fragile he is." Said Shibata

"He's very fragile." Said big sis

"Guys….I'm not…not really…." said Hatori as big sis cleaned him up. She shook her head as she dipped her napkin back into her water glass.

"There's nothing wrong with being afraid of things…but you shouldn't be afraid of Shimazaki. He's actually really nice." Said big sis. Sho accidentally ripped his pizza into quarters. Nice? Why did she say that he was nice? What did nice mean? He had been nice to her? When? When they hung out without Sho? Had they been hanging out without him? What had they been doing? Why hadn't they invited him? Did he like her again? Did she like him again? Was everyone in love with-

He took a nice, long drink of soda to clear his head.

"Yeah, that's the first thing that comes to mind when you think of Ryou. He's just an unending wealth of niceness." Said Minegishi as they ate their gross veggie pizza. How could they say something like that about him? What made them think that they could call Shimazaki…that they could call RYOU…nice? He wasn't….well he was. He really was a nice person and a cool person and a fun person and…and other people couldn't just say that about him!

"Yeah, Ryou is nice…to ME." Said Sho. Minegishi didn't say anything. They just raised the space where they would have had an eyebrow if they hadn't been such a jerk all the time and made their eyebrows afraid to grow in….and stuff…and went back to eating…like it was nothing. Like they were so sure that they were right….not that Sho knew what there was to be right about exactly…that they were just going to go back to eating…like they were right!

"Sho, you shouldn't call people by their given names. It isn't nice." Said big sis. She had finished cleaning Hatori up and now she was cutting up a slice of pizza for him even though he said that he didn't need her to…and she was doing that because she still liked him…and because she still liked him then it was ok for her and Shimazaki…and RYOU…to be friends…because she still liked Hatori…but she just wouldn't take him back because he was a baby…and stuff….

And also he could call his fucking friend whatever the fucking hell he fucking wanted to for fuck's sake….fuck….and another one for good measure…because like Shimazaki said you could never have too many fucks in a sentence.

"Nah, it's ok. I said he could." Said Shimazaki as he took a slice of Minegishi's veggie pizza. Sho was happy, he didn't know why, when he made a face like the time he had eating the grossest thing in the world, like if cucumbers and mushy peas had a baby and covered it in plain vanilla ice cream, and Sho felt…good. He felt weirdly good that Shimazaki would rather eat his pizza than the one big sis and Minegishi were sharing….and stuff…he felt all swimmy…and feeling swimmy felt….good and bad at the same time.

"Oh. Ok. Do you want me to call you Ryou too?" asked big sis. Sho didn't think. He couldn't think. All he could hear was the beating of his heart in his ears…and all he could see was his aura….and he just….he knew that he was being a jerk but…but he still did it.

He knocked her glass over.

Well he had been able to stop himself from hitting her, that was good, but he had still knocked her glass over….and she had caught it. She had caught her glass and the water that had been coming out of it and she had put it back upright where it belonged. She looked around but nobody was looking at them. Everyone had their own stuff to worry about…but she was still mad at him.

As mad as big sis could get, anyway.

"Sho! You should be careful….people could have seen. Also you almost got me wet." Said big sis

"I'm sorry, it was an accident." Said Sho. He was sort of telling the truth. He hadn't meant to get so mad so that was the accident part.

"But I saw you-" said big sis

"Mob, leave it. Trust me on this. You do not want to dig into that here." Said Minegishi. Sho glared at them as hard as he could. There was nothing to dig into because there was nothing wrong with him. He had just lost control for a little bit, it happened sometimes, and it wasn't like he was mad that Shimazaki would probably let her call him by his given name too and…and that she might have liked him and…and he did not LIKE Shimazaki Ryou!

"You can call me whatever you want. I don't care. My friends can call me by my given name, it doesn't matter." Said Shimazaki. There's an emphasis on the word 'friends' but all Sho heard was the part where he said that it didn't matter. It did matter! It mattered the most out of anything in Sho's whole life! It mattered and for Shimazaki to just say that it didn't…Sho didn't even know! It felt like his insides were becoming his outsides. It felt like he was going to yell and scream and cry and throw up and flip the table over and-

And he didn't want to do that.

So he went to the bathroom. He decided that he was going to be a baby like Hatori and hide in the bathroom until it was time to go. They had a lot of pizza so they would be there for a while. Sho could just hide in here and if anyone asked he would just say that he had been doing soap art or something. There wasn't anyone in there to say otherwise. Sho went to the big handicapped stall and had been about to hide in it but then he remembered that he needed to stop being a jerk and stuff. It would have sucked if someone who needed the big stall couldn't have it because he was being a big baby for no reason.

So he hid in the corner by the garbage can.

He drew his knees up to his chest and rested his head on them. What was the matter with him? Of course big sis didn't still like Shimazaki. She would have been his girlfriend if she had still liked him. She had just been asking because he was allowed to…and of course it didn't mean as much as he had thought that it did, Shimazaki saying he could call him by his given name. Sho didn't know why he thought that it did. Shimazaki didn't like him, not like that, and he didn't like Shimazaki like that….he couldn't…

He didn't know how he felt.

Hurt. He felt hurt. Shimazaki letting him call him by his given name had been…had been one of the best moments in his entire life…and it shouldn't have been. That had just been Sho being weird and stuff. Sho was just…weird…like that. Whatever. He didn't know. All he knew was that he had made a total idiot out of himself and now he had to live in the bathroom like Hatori did when he was upset…and now he was turning into such a baby…and Shimazaki probably never wanted to be friends with him again…and the thought of never being friends with Shimazaki made him want to cry….

He didn't.

He just sat on the floor until he felt…an aura getting closer. Oh. Well there was no point in hiding. Shimazaki was already looking at him. Shimazaki was looking at him and getting closer and…and he just sat there. There was nothing he could do and nowhere else that he could go. So he just sat down on the bathroom floor all scrunched up like a pill bug. He sat like that until the footsteps stopped and he could see a pair of shoes when he lifted his head a little bit. He didn't dare lift his head up anymore, he didn't trust himself to life his head up anymore. He didn't need to, anyway, since he could feel Shimazaki looking down at him.

Then he sat down next to him.

He could see Shimazaki with his aura. He was digging through the inside pockets of his jacket, the one he always wore, until he found what he was looking for. Sho heard a plastic cap being unscrewed. He still didn't look up. He didn't trust himself to look up. He didn't trust himself not to cry or yell or…or something. Something stupid. Something that would make Shimazaki not like him anymore. He wouldn't have been surprised if Shimazaki totally stopped liking him. He had no idea why he was even there in the bathroom sitting on the floor next to him.

He felt a hand on his back.

"If anyone needs a drink right now it's you." Said Shimazaki as Sho looked up. He held out a little clear bottle with a label in a language that Sho couldn't read. He knew what that was, that it would taste like burning, but Shimazaki was offering him some…which meant that he still liked Sho….which meant that he still wanted to be around Sho…

He took a drink.

It was as awful as he remembered it. He drank it down as fast as he could. It tasted like burning and he hated it and he had no idea why Shimazaki would carry that around with him or drink it himself. Sho had no idea how much of this he was supposed to drink so he just took a mouthful and passed it back hoping that it was enough.

His throat burned.

"Do you feel better now?" asked Shimazaki. Sho shook his head. He felt…his stomach hurt a little…and his head…he felt sort of….dizzy? Like he was getting dizzy. Like he had been spinning around and around even though he had just been sitting down…and he felt…he didn't want to drink anymore of that and he hoped Shimazaki didn't give him anymore….but he also sort of did because now that he thought about it if he had drank from the same bottle that Shimazaki had drank from then wasn't that just like-

He hid in his shirt.

"I'm guessing that's a 'no'….God…I suck at this…and my pen is dead too…um….I suck so bad at this…" muttered Shimazaki. Sho shook his head.

"You don't suck, you could never suck. You're awesome. You're the coolest person I know. You're so cool and fun and…and you know a lot of fun stuff and…and I always want to hang out with all the time because you're so cool. Even when we're not hanging out together I still want us to be hanging out together." Said Sho. He didn't know why he had just come out and SAID that. Usually he thought about what he said so that Shimazaki DIDN'T know how he felt about him. It was like the little Sho in his head who was in charge of separating out thoughts and words had decided to quit in the middle of his job…stupid lazy quitting head Sho….

"Yeah, same. You're the coolest KID I know, ok? Kid. Listen…I suck at this. I really suck at this. I have no clue what the hell I'm doing here but I am going to try my best. So just….I've never done this before." Said Shimazaki. Sho could see him with his aura. He ran a hand through his hair. Sho peaked out from his shirt just enough so he could see him with his eyes…and he was just so…the swimming feeling in his stomach was back but…worse? Different. Weird. Weirder than normal…and he didn't know why….

"Done what?" asked Sho

"This. Just…you're a great kid and I like you a lot…because you're my friend. You're my friend who's a kid and….and really you're the coolest kid I know. Ok? We're friends and…and yeah, I have other friends, but nobody's ever going to be as good a friend as you and…why the fuck is this so hard….um…be nice to Toshi and be nice to your sister and know that I'll never replace you and…uh…just keep figuring yourself out I guess." Said Shimazaki. Sho pulled his shirt down the rest of the way. He leaned his head back against the wall behind him. He felt like….like he needed to lay down….

"I don't feel so good…" said Sho

"Yeah, that's part of it. You're ten and being ten sucks. It's like…you're still a kid but also you're getting to not be a kid…and you're figuring yourself out and it sucks. Well you're starting to figure yourself out and the starting is the hardest part. Like…like you know that you should be one way but you're too young to just say 'fuck it' and be whatever way you want to be, you know?" asked Shimazaki

"Uh-huh…" said Sho even though he wasn't really listening. He ate too much. He ate too much and now he REALLY needed to lay down…

"But, yeah, you are what you are and there's no point in fighting it…but also try to be who you are but….I don't know….within reason? God…who the fuck am I right now….just….you're great and I want to be your friend but I want you to know that we're just friends…because you're ten….and we'll always be just friends so…..yeah. You're my best ten year old friend….ok? You get it?" asked Shimazaki. He shook Sho when he didn't respond….and that had been a bad idea…because Sho hadn't said anything because he had been focused on how much his stomach hurt…

And not just because of the swimming feeling.

There was the swimming feeling and the stomach full of angry goldfish feeling and also the feeling like he was going to throw up. Maybe from what he said, maybe from what Shimazaki had said, and maybe because of all the pizza he ate….but he knew for a fact that the second Shimazaki started to shake him that he was going to throw up…

And he did.

He turned his head to the side and threw up. He mostly made sure that he didn't throw up on himself….but he hadn't been totally in control of how he threw up…because he had been throwing up…and now he just wanted to die. He had thrown up in front of Shimazaki and he was pretty sure that Shimazaki had just said that he didn't like him in the way that Sho liked him and Sho was pretty sure that he liked Shimazaki in that way that he wasn't supposed to like other guys and now he had been such an idiot and Shimazaki wouldn't like him at all and also he threw up!

"Fuck! Ok, ok, this is my fault….I suck at this….ok. I'm going to take you home…your sister is going to kill me…well to my house because your dad is going to kill me if he finds out I got you this drunk….maybe straight vodka was a bad idea for a ten year old…and just…you're going to Hatori's bed because I do not need my room smelling like vomit? Ok?" asked Shimazaki. Sho shook his head.

"Good. Now don't throw up on me or I'll throw up on you and then we'll both end up covered in vomit and I don't think either of us wants that." Said Shimazaki as he picked Sho up. The world fell away and was replaced by a room…not his room…but there was a bed and that was all he needed. There were crumbs in this bed, and dirty clothes, but he didn't mind. He just needed to lay down.

"Ok…not getting the healer he'll tell Suzuki…um….water! I'm getting you water!" said Shimazaki. Sho just closed his eyes. He wanted to go to sleep and just forget that today had happened. Forget that he had been such an idiot. Forget that he had gone to hide like a baby. Forget that he had thrown up in front of Shimazaki. Forget that he was pretty sure that Shimazaki knew how he felt….that he knew how he felt…that….that Shimazaki probably wouldn't want anything to do with him anymore.

Shimazaki left a glass of water on the floor in front of the bed.

"Ok, I'm going to go shower and change. You just stay here and try not to throw up again, ok? I'll be back. You just…be ok." Said Shimazaki. Sho nodded. He didn't trust himself to talk. He would probably end up saying something stupid again….or something. No, he just….he needed to close his eyes…and just wait this out. He knew that Fukuda could have helped him but he didn't want Fukuda to know what had happened…and not just because he had drank. He just…he knew how he felt….maybe…and maybe Shimazaki knew too….and that was two too many people who knew about this already…and now Shimazaki probably didn't even like him at all anymore…

He was sat up.

"Come on, drink something. If you die of dehydration then who am I going to be best friends with? You hear me, Suzuki? No dying for you." Said Shimazaki as he pressed the glass of water to Sho's mouth. He drank even though it did nothing to help his stomach.

"You…you still like me?" asked Sho

"What? Yeah. You're not the first person to throw up on me and you won't be the last….but try not to do that anymore. Anyway I have to shower and change and then think up some excuse as to why we suddenly disappeared….your sister is probably freaked out….so you just…try not to die? Alright Sho?" asked Shimazaki as he laid Sho back down. He did his best to nod.

"Ok….Ryou." said Sho. He felt sick. He felt like he was going to throw up again…but he also felt better…because Shimazaki still liked him. They were still friends. Even after Sho had been so weird they were still friends…and that was good. Shimazaki had said a million times before that they were still friends and always would be….and of course Sho didn't want anything more from him than that…nothing more at all…that was all he wanted….

Well that and not to have thrown up all of that pizza.