If the Fates Allow
Part Five
…back from where we left off
They made it to the servants' bed. The radio was on, but neither one would be able
to recall what song was on. Their clothes were scattered around the bed. No matter
how slow Drake was pacing himself he saw the second layer of tears, underneath
the first layer of grateful tears, he was hurting her. The act was painful for him too.
This was becoming a chore. Making love wasn't supposed to feel like this. Yes,
they both loved each other, but he couldn't bear to see Emme cry and wince her
body. Even though it was consensual, He felt like he was almost a criminal raping
her. Drake Parker did something he never did during intimate moments and that
was stop.
Emme reached up and put her hand on his face.
"D-drake, why did you stop?"
He wiped the tears away with his hand.
"This."
"But, I love you…." She was scared this was it. That there'd never be another
chance for them to prove their love in the physical nature, he was in her for two
beautiful seconds.
Did that count? Was she still a virgin? And there was no mother to ask.
"I love you, too—please tell me that one door back there is a bathroom."
"It is…" she gasped
Drake bent his head down to kiss her on the lips.
"Why the long face? I'll be back."
He reached for his white boxers and hated not being able to wear his usual briefs,
but they were too uncomfortable.
Emme put the white sheets up to her neck and lay on her side as she waited for
Drake's return.
He had to come back, but he could just say his goodbyes and leave her alone.
No, that wasn't the Drake she knew.
It was fifteen minutes when Drake came back, he knew she was lying there crying
and that just made him feel worse. This was their first Christmas together and all
they wanted was to be with each other in a sexual way.
"Hey," Drake slid in the bed, tapping Emme on the shoulder, "Don't cry, honey. I
don't like seeing you cry." He put a bottle of something he found in the medicine
cabinet on the tiny end table.
"Why'd you stop," She turned her body around to face him, "Why?"
"Emme, I've been keep something from you. No one else knows except for my Dad
and various medical staff."
"What?" She put her hand on his shoulder
"Emme, I've had that problem that normally middle aged men have and the doctor
put me on those little blue bills. I wanted to be prepared for this night, but I didn't
count on my cancer side effects still making it impossible to love you in the way you
deserve to be loved. I was hurting you."
"I'm sorry that you—you know."
Damn. This night was becoming so clinical. The only romance in the room was the
feelings that they felt for one another.
"Don't worry about it."
"I have my own side effects too---and if being with the man I love means I—or that
we have to experience some mild pain and other little inconveniences—then I don't
think we should stop. The romance went out the window with all of this talk." She put
her head on the pillow.
"Ssh," Drake kissed her on the cheek, "Look what I found."
"That must be Craig's."
"The seal is still on and it didn't expire. It might help." Who cares if the moment
wasn't that of fairy tales they were with each other and that's all that mattered.
"One condition, Don Juanoma."
"What's that, Miss Priss?"
"Will you put some on me?"
Emme's eyes hoped she conveyed the message to her boyfriend what she was too
embarrassed to say out loud.
The spark was back in Drake Parker's eyes. Those whores and other assorted
hangers-on none of which sent a get-well card would've pushed him off them before
he stopped.
"You like it naughty, do you?"
Emme stretched her arms on his shoulders and pulled him down for a quick
passionate kiss.
"I love it all as long as I'm with you."
The clocks stopped and the mild rubbing back and forth did create some physical
pleasure. The pain was there for the both of them. Drake thought in the hidden
recesses of his mind that this had to be punishment for all those times sex was a
cold impersonal act that was only for his benefit. Being with Emme was right. They
wouldn't have these physical limitations forever. Maybe, that was for the best. Unlike
other couples who are sunshine and rainbows in the beginning and when the dark
clouds appear they break up because they don't know how to handle life's hurdles.
But Drake Parker and Emme Jessica Watson were living it in reverse. They were
experiencing the rough patches together. There would be other times for mind-
blowing, extreme passionate nights. But there was also this night where it came to
an honest and satisfying conclusion. These two young souls were in it for the long
haul. Enjoying the afterglow eating and feeding each other the easy bake chocolate
cake and then snuggling into each other for an intertwined slumber until it was time
for him to leave to go back home.
One thing was for certain; they had their whole lives.
Author's Note: Information about sexual side effects and cancer patients was
taken from the Mayo Clinic's website.